You taught me what it's like
And now I can't get it back
You've showed me a whole new world
And now I can't go back
It's like I've been
Invited in
Only to be locked out

I was going to ask you for advice,
but you're the one who's causing my pain.

A teardrop down my face,
You came and left

The flash of lightening,
You came and left
Then the bolt of thunder,
a reminder of your constant presence

The sun and the moon can never be one in the same,
But they’ll sure as hell try

How is it that I can
Miss someone that I never really had

Hearts are not red because
that's the color of blood
or the color of love
They're red because that's the color of pain.

Hollow on the inside
Unreal on the out
can you hear the echoes that come from my heart
or are you not listening
where are you my dear
I’ve been waitin on you
but I can’t wait much longer
I can only be so hollow until
I become so thin that I break
please don’t break me.
save me
love me
hold me
and never leave me

It started with my heart
You turned it stone
Then it began to pump lead through my veins
Causing my body to weigh more than I could carry
I couldn't find comfort
It was all so rock solid
Sealed shut
Permanent

I blinked and when
I opened my eyes
I was living a different life.

They say teens
think the world revolves around themselves
They say teens
don't know how to handle
the real world,
whatever that maybe.
They say teens
are lazy
Well my hearts ran a thousand
miles for you
And I'm tired of being the
last one to the finish line
Getting stepped on and forgotten
I'm tired of it
But how can I stop
if my heart races for you
If my heart
longs for you
I may not know what love is
But I'm still allowed to feel
and in this moment,
I feel like I can't breathe
Like you're stepping on my heart and
cutting off my airways
Leaving me to suffer
But why should I be the one in pain
when I was the one who
supported and adored you
Why should I be the one
Left in the dust
This sensation of not being able to breathe
I now realize is the beginning of tears
My throat tightens
My eyes burn
And slowly tears start to run
down the side of my face
Fighting their way to my chin and
dripping off onto my lap
leaving small dark circles on my blue jeans
Call me dramatic,
Call me a teen
it won't change how I feel
I'm only human after all

And with you,
I have no words.
I came close to
uttering the
three infamous syllables
of an "I love you"
Yet the words that
I transcribe
are empty and
confused.

Only with the knowledge
that the end, for us, is within sight,
have I learned to
let myself fall.

I long to write a love story
But all I have are these bitter words