I can't keep doing this
Holding on to the fleeting Dream
Of those whom I hold dear.
I can't keep living for them
I can't keep loving them.
I can only enjoy the precious time
We have left
Desperately replaying the good times
The times when things were so joyous
Not filled with unrelenting sorrow.

As the wind bellows
Through the matted hair
Of the masses
They fall to their knees
Screaming, praying, crying
And begging for the one thing
From the one thing
That would release them
From the hunger,
The shame
The desperation

Hush child
It's time to go
They are coming
They running through
The bleak and dreary fields
They want to destroy
They want to ****
But we must not stay
For tales of our people's
Strength lives on
We the weak
Will never die
Because our hearts
Are filled with bravery
Filled with passion
We protect those we love
Now Hush Child
Run
You are the future
When all is forgotten
You will live on
Hush child
Run

These roaming thoughts
Keep crashing in my head
Forcing me to remember
How lonely it felt
To be with you
How you pushed me aside
To love on another.
I asked,
Wondered,
Begged
For a future with you.
But it seems that I’m not worthy
Of such hope.
My loneliness will consume
My fleeting happiness
I will always feel neglected

This kissing of the sun
On the ocean floor
Brings a smile to my
Face
Forevermore .

One can never truly die
Until the great one
Sings his song
We must keep pushing
Moving
Growing
For there are challenges
Trials and Disparity
Lurking around each corner
We must continue to fight
Each day we must become anew
Touched by the sun’s ever cruel
Gaze

I guess I am dead now
The love that kept me grounded
Was whisked away by
The cruel hand of misfortune
And I was a fool
I didn't see it coming
The idea that I was hoping
Things would be long lasting
I was wrong
Now my cold heart beats
Twice as slow
Will you cry at my funeral
My love?
I'm sorry
I should have been there
To protect you
To love you
To fight for you harder
But you know fate
Always giving me the bad cards
In any case
I think I am leaving this earthly plane
And I'm sorry
I couldn't hold on
I couldn't live in this broken world
Without you

I can’t take it any more
The clicking clocks
Drive me ****** insane
I am bored
I am going insane
I am inside
Talking to myself
I can’t even ensure that
This is my present reality
I am legit bored

He’s waiting for you
In the corner of your eye
With a creepy smile.
He wants you to give in
To follow him down the dreary road
Of Madness
Hoping you’d want him to relinquish
You from the confines of safety.
He is chuckling,
Smirking ,
Watching intensely.
He wants you to make a mistake
So he can **** on
The sweet blood of innocence
That was delivered

Your breath
Inching closer to my neck
You have me trapped
by your spell.
My every thought
Consumed by  your scent
Consumed by your touch
Consumed by your smile
You are a wicked human
Leaving me to suffer
Without you
Now my heart is poisoned
Because the breath you
provided was the last
and now you are slumped beside me

Window panes
And persistent rain
Creates music on the
Sunday's eve.
The children
dance among the
beating drum of the
thunders.
It's a time of celebration
Among the world of
Man.
Who knows when the
Kiss of the cold water
would touch their barren face
Once more

The golden sun
Sets on the oceanic view
Kissing the traveler
That fumbled his way
through the soft sand.
The traveler mourned
for the touch of his
spouses warm embrace
But all he could
do was watch her
From his unearthly plane

The ticking
Of the accursed clock
Is a constant lullaby
That weighs heavy
On my beating heart
Each tick of that clock
Draws near to the day of
Eternal Slumber
Where I would be left with
Nothing but the clothes
On my back
And
Alone .

I am not sad
I am not sad
I am not sad
The darkness keeps
Eating away at the remnants
Of the pleasant facade
That I built for myself
But I am not sad
Until I am returned to
The Earth from which
I was born
I will refuse to make
The inconvenience
Of my sadness drag
Me into a pit of darkness
I am not sad
I am not sad
I am not sad
I am not
sad

The creepy smile
Slithers down the hallway
He is searching
For the naughty
To gobble them up.
He is watching
And waiting
Hoping you slip up
Because
He is hungry.
Be careful those of young
Your days are numbered
Christmas is coming
And he is watching
And waiting.

Crazy thing is
Sometimes I really like the rain
The pitter patter of the water
on the glass window pane
Creates the drumming of memories
Of the time of the past
When laughter danced through
This barren household.
What memories we shared
Until that one time
Where you struck me
And both our worlds ended
I couldn't take it
I couldn't take it any more.
All the abuse
All the emotional pain
All the tears
It needed to end.
So it did
And now there is just
Rain

My heart weighs heavily
In my chest
I never loved
I never cared
That was until I met you.
You who showed me
That the smallest
Inconvenience
Can bring forth bowls of laughter.
Each memory of you
Stays intertwined with
My happiness
Now you’re gone
And I remain inconvenienced

The sun kissed ocean
Dances
Among the precious
Lovers
Who sing songs of
Elation.
They have no worries
Just each other

My love is confused
It is entangled with depression
Anxiety and non committal views
My love shows me nothing but pain
And loneliness
Shows me my worthless existence can
Still be awaken
And greeted by a blank canvas of
Meaningless lonely adventure

My ever expanding mind
Thinks back to when
You were here with me
Holding me
Kissing me
But I know now
That even a man as good as
You
Will leave
Not because you wanted
But because our destinies
Seperated our souls
Hence why I will
Touch the cold crevices
Of your tombstone
Because you left me
And now I am..
incomplete

The lust of a woman
Sometimes hides
Behind their gaze
They think
They want
They crave
It’s not easy hiding
The emotions of a goddess
But when it comes to fruition
There is complete and utter ecstasy

The Mind
Vast and full of depth
Like the open ocean
Rumbles with storms of thought
That crashes against
The peaceful environment created
By dreams of adventure
By songs of love
By the dance of wonder

The dangerous ocean can be stilled
And so can the hurricane in the mind

Love is something fickle
It can be sour as a pickle

Love is something that is bright
It shines straight through the night

Love does not have any cost
And it does not show frost

Love is love
no mater what race gender sexuality
Love is love

Give me One Day
And I will gift you plenty
You are my breath
You are my soul
All I need is you
We are lowly humans
That seek that one
Special person
To love
To hold
To cry
To shout
To seek freedom
And abstain from hatred
I just need that One Day
To show you
You my love
That I am the one
From Day One

When we first basked
In the moonlight’s ever
Opposing gaze
Stating our soliloquies
Of admiration
Of love
You gave me a jacket
To warm the coldness of
My heart
Now you’re gone
And now I am left
With nothing more than
This cloth
To represent the love you had for me

Morning and night
I will never stop
loving you
I will never forget
How you loved me,
How you treated me as a
Queen,
How you and I created this
Beauty ,
That constantly reminds
Me of our love
I will never stop
Loving you
I will never stop missing you

I want to meet you
I want to kiss you
I dream of our life
Together, forever
I admit it
I have feelings for you
But that term is
Foreign
I’m scared
My feelings may no longer
Be one of flirtatious exploits
But of obsession.

Love is so wonderful
And I hate it
It starts as a feeling
That oh so ever tiny
Crush
That *** rushes you
Like a six foot five
Quaterback
Then you become
Infatuated
Then the person
reveals he or she does
not care for you
Then you drink
or smoke
to remove the longing
feeling
that needless to say
is the worse thing
about love
and I hate it

I'm falling slowly
Deeper into madness
Becoming obsessive
Crazed with feelings
of insecurity
I want to *****
the happiness that
I have injected into
my veins
Can I cry?
I hate seeing myself
this way
I hate seeing myself
Can I cry?
Because I want to be free
from the shackles
That bound me to this Earth

They bumpy
Crunchy chocolate
Chip cookie
Oh how delicious!
With each bite
I die a little inside
Because soon
This moment
Will end

Each beautiful morning
That walks by
I think about
My everlasting love
For you darling.
I think about
Our connection on
This earthly plane,
That brought two
People surrounded by
The rules of
Men and Women
Filled with dispear
Hatred and unkindness
Together again and
Again. My love
for you will
Never cease to
Exist and now
That we are
Both here in
This moment grows
Stronger and it
Leaves me to
Say this statement
I love you

Once Again
I am left here waiting
Wondering
If you will come home
Feeling helpless
Thinking she's touching you
Feeling tears swell in my eyes
I want you with me
But each moment you're with me
I feel your ultimate wrath
I want to escape
But each time I try
Your sweet nothings hush me to
My brass cage
I can't do this
I won't do this
I will leave you
I won't get hurt again

Once again I’m here
stuck at the crossroads
dreaming of chasing
the dreams that are forever
Fleeting
bounded by the comfort of the past  
where unhappiness reigned free

With path should I choose
It so hard to be free
I just want to take a path
That lets me be me

I want to love
Feel my heart skip ten beats
Feel tingles go down my spine

I want to love
Feel at peace with myself
Feel warmth and joy

I want to love
Feel happiness kiss my face
Feel passionate about my tasks

I want to love
Not fall in the grasp of meaningless ***
Not hugged by pain and sadness

I want to love
Not be shackled by mundane  events
Not be saddened by the qualms of depression

I want to love
Not be stricken with anxiety
Not be sickened by fear

I want to love
I want to be free

Sometimes I feel so small
Walking around the different forms
Of humanity
I just want to be noticed
I want to be recognized.
I want to cared about.
I don’t want to be this dot
In the land of sentences.
I want what I do appreciated
I want people to give me gratitude
I don’t want to feel this small

Anxiety  sneaks up
Like a snake in the greenlands of Africa
It's poisonous fangs elongated ready to
strike

Anxiety knocks on the door
Hoping that we would answer
His creepy smile
Hoping that we'd befriend him
And when we do
chokes us to unconiousness  

Anxiety please leave me be
I can't stop thinking
I can't breathe

I began not to feel
That is why I stopped writing
I began to not care
I forgot what love was
I forgot what it meant to be depressed
I just felt a pit of nothing
Is this what it truly means to live.
To feel nothing.

I've never felt at home
Anywhere
I always felt ostracized
Unwilling to conform
To the lifestyle
Society provided me

I just want to find
That place
Where I am free.
Where I don't have to change myself
To fit in
I just want to find
Home

White
That’s all I see
While your arms are wrap around me
I feel your embrace
But not for long
Because soon
This day will be over
Then you’ll forget me
And the only thing cold
Is my heart

It's finally happening
I'm in love,
I feel the beating heart
Thunder
I wonder how long will this last
Because all good things
Must come to an end sometime
Right.

If you have something to say
Say it to my face
I don't need to hear your negativity
Through the grapevine
I'm already insecure
Struggling to love myself
Just say what you have to say directly

I thought I was doing better
I thought I got stronger
But as usual as something gets better
Everything gets worse.

Am I happy?
Am I truly happy?
All my friends are happy,
Does that makes me happy?
So many questions to ponder,
As the cold metal touches my head.
Why am I alive?
What is my purpose?
I see no point in living,
The voices tell me "No one wants me."
So why should I keep drawing my breath.
I pulled the trigger,
There was a click but nothing happened.
A tear fell down my cheek.
I pulled the trigger again,
Nothing happened again.
I dropped the weapon
I just can't die.

Tyranny reigns through the world
Causing death and destruction
Forcing people to come to qualm
With this harsh reality
That this is what we evolved into
Something dark
Something without hope.
As time keeps going on and on
Will we as a society be able to say
That we achieved the greater good as a collective.

I think I am slowly loosing my mind
I walk each day trying to grow
Stronger
But fail
And fall deeper into the pits of despair
Craving the kiss of death
And dancing with with depression.

My thoughts are
Inconsistent
I want more..... strive for more
But end up succumbing to power of less.

Please someone,
hear my cries
Save me from myself
Save me from my mind.

It's crazy to think
We all get so consumed by the
The darkness in our hearts that we
Forget to think
There is a brighter day
After yesterday
That moon will say Good Bye
To make way for the rays
Of Sunshine

Somethings
Always come to an
End.
Fighting or Loving
Punching or Kissing
At some point
It ceases,
And we live
in the memories
Of the yesterdays.
And as the sun comes
To end the day,
My life has ended
Because you are in
A shallow grave