My demons,

Have never spoken a word,

They were always silent,

But they never left,

Even for a second.


They grinned once in a while,

Smiling while looking at me,

Yet they have never touched me,

Or took even a step closer.


They're not doing anything,

Just patiently waiting,

Maybe that was their desire,

Just to see me fall,

Watching every step to the fall.


-HIY

You thought that
she would grow
wings and save
herself,
She just grew
some roots and
stood for
herself.

-HIY

A heart being broken,
A promise made abandoned,
Where did all the good times go?
They all just seem to fade away.

When it all came crashing down,
Have a drink,
It will bring all your sorrows away,
Or at least that's what they say.

Those self destructive thoughts;
And frustrations,
Gone for the night,
But made worse the next day.

-HIY

Ages of writer's block,
Unmotivated of ever being productive,
Witty lines became depressing,
Every word seems so boring as ever.

A new start was all that was needed,
A shove from the back for it to begin,
Its been a while since ive got this feeling,
More longer that i could remember.

October is the creativity month,
The hype is really living up to its name,
And so here i write for the first day,
And all i could say is; Hello there Inktober!

-HIY

looking around seeking help,

seeing nothing but shadow below your feet,

trying to move another step, but being strong has its limits,

if i could just stay still for a moment, without worrying about not achieving,

but tis not something i afford to take.



-HIY

Being away helps me forget,

Helps me lift the pain,

Helps lighten the worry.


Time would go faster,

Till it'll only just be a memory,

And the memory will fade,

Just like that.


But I don't want to forget.


-HIY

Here I am,
Stuck between miseries,
Even when I found happiness,
I would eventually be blinded on the road ahead,
Or somehow lose balance to either miseries by my side.

I could not shake them off,
Nor that I want to,
Because they are a part of me,
Without it,
I will only be lost.

So here I am,
In between lines,
Still far from where I'm heading,
but I'm still moving.

-HIY

She covered her skin,
But she still feel naked.
Head wrapped with a shawl,
Everyone can see her hair.
She was an open book,
Every move she makes in every page.
They know her curves-
They know her lines.
From eyeliners-
To shoe size.
It was all noted down-
All recorded.

Do they really know her?

Do they know she cries herself to sleep?
How much time on the mirror for the right make up?
How many texts blowing her phone about objectifying her body?
How many insults on how how she portrays to be?
How many hours she spent thinking what's missing from her?
How many hurtful comments on how she would never understand just because she's beautiful?

She will always turns head,
But she only need to turn one heart.

The one that makes all those expensive care seems worth it,
One that could make look forward to the next day,
One that could make her feel good on her fashion efforts,
That accepts her regardless of what mood she is in.


-HIY

Like how a star commits to constellations;

She said.

And that's how she promised herself.

But little did I know;

That constellations were never real,

It's a make-believe of one's imaginary.

It's a way to divide one from the many,

But serve no purpose other than status.


Like how a star commits to constellations;

She said.

And that's what I believed.

Boy was I a fool;

That constellations consists of other stars as well,

It's a series of connection with others,

As one star could die and be replaced by another.

And it takes a century for them get back together.


-HIY

The sun breaks to countless stars to your reflection,

Almost like you're the source of light,

Your breeze swifts slowly in motion to your movement,

Captivating me every single time we crossed eyes,

So mesmerising yet none actually knows you,

What you've shown are calmness and grace,

At times you may be vigorous and impulsive,

Ramming down whoever tries to approach you,

To touch you is to feel both calamity and calmness,

You seem to show every bits of you,

But you've only shown your surface,

Yourself, is full of unnoticed wonders,

Even unknown dangers,

You are the ocean, and I find beauty in you.


-HIY

I'm not stopping you from taking those pills,
Or from those lines on your wrists,
You can burn your thighs,
Or scream your lungs out.
I will not stop you.


How you've lost yourself to many sleepless nights,
Or to the times you've wasted thinking,
If this is how you fight,
Then don't even think about stopping.


No one should blame you for trying to face it,
Trying to fix it,
Trying to mend yourself,
Now this is my help.

Those scars,
Those eye bags,
Only shows your will to survive,
Your effort to be alive.


-HIY

She is flawed, yet she is kind.
She help others but she lies.
She is always ******* herself even when she always breaks.
That is what you might not see, and you
will not hear her asking for help.
You can feel that she is just not whole to begin with.

-HIY

knowing him was
her choice.
With all the
worst the had
happened,
She chose to
carry on.
She stood strong.
Even when broken.
He came like
wind,
Gentle and
natural;
To her skin.
Filling every
gaps of void,
of once she
called heart.
He's nothing new,
Yet different
entirely.
For she could
feel more;
Know herself
more.
Knowing him was
intentional.
Loving him; No.

-HIY

A flower that's always there,
I could leave her for weeks;
And she would still bloom.
Just never knowing how to respond to sadness;
nor tragedies.

Sitting with her just feels so right,
Be it in laughter;
Or in silence.
A thousand people could not even compare,
To her warmth.

But now she's wilting,
She's disappearing away,
To cope with her own sorrows,
Ones which I couldn't even help,
Or she would even share.

I'm just so lost,
Not in my own problems,
But without her,
I'm alone in this world.

I wouldn't be a burden to her.
But its just so hard.
Nothing could be compared,
To see your best friend disappearing away.


-HIY.

There's no need of a love poem,
Or a great love song,
No sweet texts or midnight calls,
Just read my eyes,
And stay with me,
Hear my voice,
And listen to my tones.

See the difference when I'm talking with others,
And when I'm talking with you.
There's just no words that I can use to make you understand.

When I'm with you,
Life is just so breathtaking.
So excuse me when I ran out of air talking with you,
That's only because you're the only one that can make me feel that way.

So while I'm still here,
Let go of the things that doesn't matter,
And just stay with me.


-HIY

There shall come a time,
Where she no longer has to fight alone,
Where she does not even have to fight.
For he would be there with her,
For her.

-HIY

The earth quakes with every footfall he walks out of her life.
- No wonder she was such a mess.


-HIY

So throw her a life line,
She may be strong
on her own,
But it doesn't
mean she don't
deserved the
help.

-HIY

A Disney's story,
Is the dream for all,
A dream to be saved,
A dream of a savior,


For what she wished like Cinderella,
A blue dress like a princess,
Even for just one night,
A special night not like the rest.

-HIY

Unappreciated; Disregarded,
But never found alone,
As that is her nature,
To be surrounded with friends.
Closeness; Togetherness.

Green she is,
Health; Prosperity,
Is what she stands for,
Seen in the brightest day,
Felt in even the darkest night.

Always down to earth,
For that; I adore you.

Little grass,
Don't stop growing,
Meeting you as a child,
And more when I fell down,
Still when I seek tranquility.

When at the risk of withering;
Or the surge of a flood;
Even of the blazing fire,
A thousand might harm,
Thousand more might belittle you.

I will shield you.
And that; I owe you.


-HIY

No, my mind is like a house.
Not just walls surrounding me,
But with roof and basement.
I kept throwing words into the basement.
Sorrows packed along with anger.
All down there.

The more i kept locked,
The less i worry and lived on.
Slowly the words crept through the floors.
But i didn't get rid of it,
Just moved myself to upstairs.

Those words formed itself.
Some being with all I'm scared of.
I locked myself in a room and try to be safe.
I got to admit, I'm just emotionally scared.
It kept knocking, banging on the doors ;
The walls and the floors.

It knows no stop nor do I know its weakness.
As I've never faced it before,
Never tried to learn about it.
And now it's claiming its territory.

The door slowly cracks,
Bit by bit I'm shaterred from within.
All i can hear is its voice.
Wanting to get out,
Wanting to be in control.
Until it got in.

-HIY

Showing us what
we want to see.
But it should
show us what we
needed to see.

-HIY

I was never trying to fix you,

I had only tried to fix the road before you.


-HIY

In my canvas I drew her face,
With each brush stroke I drew her emotions,
Every dash of color paints her feelings,
And as the oil dries I caught her memories.

I framed the canvas as to keep her forever,
Or at least to keep her safe,
But even her portrait wont stay still,
She needed to grow-
Out of her own life.

-HIY

He never knew how
her whole heart
was his from the
start.

-HIY

She's not a broken toy,
Not some assignment to be fixed.
She's just her.
And there's nothing wrong
with just being
her.

-HIY

Because sometimes,
She forgets that she's shy,
And in those moments,
She felt happy.

-HIY

Don't keep it in.
Open your wound.
Let it bleed.
Feel the pain.
Cry it out.
Feel all the hurt
today.
So tomorrow; you
won't.

-HIY

I think a lot.
I think about;
All the possible probabilities,
And all the choices that I've missed.

It's not being insecure,
Not with you,
It's always me about everything.
I just have a better front.

I always prefer openness,
No things left secret.
Without having to be asked about it.
Always wishing the same from others.

-HIY

So many worlds.
So many lives to
exist in.
Yet in a mere
coincidence;
Of time and
space.
We exist in each
other's.
But as the worlds
orbit around
life,
You can't deny
the space.
At first from
within,
A void in your
heart.
To a physical
space dividing
us.
And we got on our
own way.
Like nothing ever
happened.

-HIY

When he fell down,
He was left to pick himself up alone.


Despite of how many helps he gave.

-HIY

There was no clock; no watch,
No time as they stood together,
As if time decides to take a break.

The moon was high,
On the dark black sky,
As if the night was the actuall setting for earth time.

Her heart flutters,
Her knees trembles,
As he said "I want to protect you and your fading smile."


-HIY

They come in dreams,
Some in plain sight;
Some are never clear,
But they are never bluffing.

They show you who you are,
Even more than you know yourself.
Just less than what you've already seen.
But they are who you are.

Power animals are just what they means,
Your source of energy;
Your nature when all that you know;
Simply turned to nothing.

Be it deep in your scars,
Or visible for everyone to see.
Because you will know it from within;
That is what you really are.

-HIY

I will **** the spiders,
And if you fear butterflies;
I will **** them too.
I won't **** humans,
But I will stop them from hurting you,
Same as I would patch your wounds;
Every single time.

-HIY

He'd come in your
darkest hour.
Pull you out to
the light.
Cleaned you up.
Teach you who to
never fall again.
And by then, He
will release you
of your sorrows.

-HIY

Don't blow the flame out,
You know it's not too late,
You may be down now,
But it's not the end.

The moment you feel like losing,
Know that you haven't lost.
Take another breath,
And give it another shot.

One last shot.

It's not such a bad thing.
I want you to know that,
In order for you to get high up,
There will be more reasons to stay down.

So give it another kick,
Push your self above the limit,
Because even when you end up going down,
You'll be glad that you have tried your best.

Your only best.


-HIY

How is she supposed to feel the right to live;
When each beat of her heart felt so wrong.

-HIY

How could the
princess run from
the dragon,
When she's the
dragon herself.

-HIY

Beautiful of them all
But always wary of the unseen;
Of the unheard but always felt within.
It became an obsession to one that holds attention.

From building a wall,
Into a freakin' house.
Where they could only knock;
On the door but still shut out.

Even that was not safe haven,
Only made her more cautious,
Where the devil peeps through the window;
Even at the brightest day.

Somehow the devil managed to get in,
Registered his stay,
A tenant in the house.
Oh where else is safe?


-HIY

There comes the waves kissing the shore,
Both gentle and harsh,
Mellow winds caressing the sand ever gently,
and at times abusively.
Like a sand castle residing at the shore,
your days are numbered to when you fall.
It's not the rough ones that are the reaper,
They left crumbs so you see your pieces fall off,
But the soothing ones that smothers you from grain by grain,
Feeding off bits of you that you left forgotten.
Like a sand castle residing on the shore,
Your days are numbered to when you fall,

-HIY

Some said that she's there for a reason,
And some said; it's just for the show.
What is the value of her presence-
Of which she does not know also.

She was not taught how reach the sun,
She's left there to grow on her own.
To see how others can get along,
Is something she never did understand.

Whenever she tried to blossom,
Someone else would shun her growth,
And cut the veins for her to breath.
No wonder she's just there withering in the corner.


-HIY

It was a sleepy afternoon,
Heavy eyes brought in under the sunlight.
A slow day was just what is needed,
No more chaotic occurrence for the rest of the day.


A girl once unknown of her trait,
Been figuring her out from day one,
Thought of her as the shy and protective one,


A day like any other,
Same seat; same timing,
She would normally pass by,
As she always do,
But she came in through.


And then she smiled,
Giggled even.
A surge of aura came through my body,
lighting up my soul entirely.
I was so stunned,
It felt like forever


The silence broken,
She shattered it with a laugh,
But I was still dazed.
Let out only a smile.
A surprised smile.


And then she left.
To her it might me a little thing.
A friendly gesture,
Perhaps an ice breaker.


But it left me high,
Blown away through the clouds,
And still flying.



Hoping...



That I would be lucky enough,
To see any signs of trailing gaze.



-HIY

She chose to help
others against
pursuing her
heart.
She take care of
the weak.
She's like the
guardian of the
sick

-HIY

If silence was ever to be described,
It would be a safe zone in a war.
The calm before the storm,
Or merely the anesthetics fueled in
Before you can start to feel the pain again.

Her silence was just different,
It shrieked in a tearing pain,
Also the numbs the body throughout.
Without voice; it's louder than anything you'll hear.
But you should be worried more when she breaks the silence; and breakout.

-HIY

Her eyes speak of
sorrow which no
words could
describe,
Her lips pursed
trying to keep
her mind from
speaking.
Constantly
thinking just
when she should
say enough.
But she kept
holding on,
Surviving another
moment.

-HIY

Who else can he be rather than himself?

He could fake it until he's someone new

-HIY