I went through
My darkest times Dark thoughts Failed to overcome me Bright thought Shed a light Darkness a great Background to shine Stars can't shine In sunshine Adore dark sky Displaying their Twinkling shine Diamonds scattered Above all around So wonderful to Watch at night I went through My darkest times Dark thoughts Failed to overcome me Bright thought Shed a light Hitting a century I could survive!
though we're in theses darkest days
let's not lose the morrow's light when it arrives we will see a bright horizon
The poem is based on the Coronavirus.
Secrets are there to keep
We hold them very tight, As we go in the darkest nights I always kept all the secrets, The secrets that were for the good and the bad Some are easy to keep Some are heavy that I can't sleep But I kept them for you, And that is what I always will do I trust you So I hold them tight, As I go in the darkest nights
Every member of our family
is a spark that keeps the flame of hope alive.. Never blow out the chance to know those far away. Because they could be the spark that keeps us lit on our darkest night.. Family is all that keeps the obscurity at bay.. even though we don't realise it there the little spark, that keeps us from sinking into the darkest of places..
it's always the darkest before dawn
If everything feels bleak and dull and painful, and you have finally hit rock bottom- remember, it can only go up from here on
You own every single piece of me
Every part The only one with all of my heart I have given everything I have to you within my core I still feel as if I should have given so much more Because you deserve sun to never set or say goodbye Deserve not the moon or stars but the whole entire sky The love you have shown since the day we met An unrecipricable gift for which i will forever be in debt There are no words to express depth of my gratitude Sure you have no clue cause of my constantly bad mood As hard as I try being someone worthy of your caress Each tense day that passes you like me less and less I cannot blame you for dwindling adoration Hard cherishing a girl who voices no appreciation I have noticed the difference in behavior for awhile Remain unable to coax out your smile I lost the ability to conjure your laughter It's vanished along with happy-ever-after The years spent making love feel like a dream Unsure if I am remembering wrong Was it as amazing as to me it seems? Gone are moments we were free from fear and cares Happy as long as the other was there Now all we do Argue and fight Pretty sure you're starting to get sick of my sight I leave marks on surface of your magnificent skin Drawing blood out You won't let me in Scratching hopes I'll somehow break through If I dig my nails deep enough I'll get to the real you I do not want to hurt you but I can't seem to stop The things you say leave my head spinning like a top I have explained before you have nothing from me to hide The sole element I need is for you to let me inside You have never given me a full chance to be understanding In the past I was strict and demanding But that was back before I knew what forever was like Sweat and shake when those withdrawals strike You have seen me change so drastically Over time I'm not even the same me And even when I would express aggravation Forgave each mistake without hesitation For I had known certainly you were "The One" Locked eyes and right there my search was done Our romance has survived lots of ups and downs Used to wear mostly smiles but they've switched to frowns I am the reason why it's difficult to get along Finally realized it's me who's in the wrong For so long pride has rendered me blind Justifying words no matter how unkind For every hurtful action came up with an excuse Truly believed you deserved the abuse For damage you did and the lies you told That doesn't give me the right to act cold You have served your sentence: A year spent on your own A prison I built and left you in alone As punishment for tears you made me cry Slowly breaking my heart Not telling me why For the fraction of life I wasted in chains I washed different parts of myself down the drain But wasn't you drowning my sorrows Hand pouring remorse on not just today but all tomorrows Haunted unforgettable pain Memory of what no longer remained I attempted to seal sadness within No one got a glimpse of the agony within I was sure would eventually go away I ignored the ache and pushed through it each day But the longer I pretended was just fine Crazier it drove me knowing you weren't mine Tortured by the fact was the one who chose to leave To deceieve myself thinking you would change was plain naive But truly believed you were ready to be done It came as a surprise when after me you didnt run I assume it is because i acted like I moved on Too wounded to let witness my distress with you gone Determined to never go through same ordeal twice Trusting nature i was forced to ultimately sacrifice I put up walls Blocked ricocheting echoes of your voice That's not all I barricaded out with my choice In order to be unshackled from terrible fear Hope and happiness also had to disappear Solitude was total freedom at first That relief quickly turned into a curse I noticed resolve diminishing bit by bit Something missing from my world and you were it I yearned for moments of comfort and bliss Magic contained in your enchanting kiss Irresistible drawn to despite what you lacked Caved and despite my instinct took you back No one else could possibly make me feel the way you do I accepted a relationship where my heart stays torn in two But problem is we've had too much room to grow Into people hardly recognize but know I am still Amanda and you are still Paul Infatuation has not wavered at all But I have grown bitter Full of anger Who is responsible for morphing me into a stranger? A glance in the mirror shows a twisted reflection I can't pinpoint the exact imperfection I feel ugly and unworthy of love Far away from my image I forcefully shove Why do you tolerate violence and greif? Patient when in return offer no relief If you saw the picture I've become you'd depart Before once again I leave pits on your heart You hold me in devoted embrace Piercing with the fearful expression on your face You love me (at least promise you do) I cannot fully trust though I try to I cannot comprehend a single trait you see I am a screaming mess and you stick around me You are a miracle that through darkest hours shone Truthfully very best guy I have ever known
A confessional i wrote a long time ago
The drapes are old
The blankets are cold The lies are told In the darkest hour The secrets revealed documents are sealed The glass is filled With the money power An evening in and out with screams and shout millions of doubts No one is sure Finally the truth comes in And more people lying Words are out, start hiding Everyone sees the true colour