The skylight tints the afternoon grey And some dull, dusty oranges Perhaps there's fire, somewhere far away Somewhere far beyond the creaking shelves The time-varnished brown, rusty door hinges
The air is thicker than the oldest tomes Sticky as the darkest aisle Where long-dead spiders once made their homes Minds caught in paper, minds caught in webs I think, if I think, I'll sleep for awhile
As I stare at the verses, I must seem so still. She casts a web from where she sits and I smile, but knowingly, lower her body down to the table. She scatters again towards the page I have just turned and together we weep for beauty
Is it gonna fall on me? A spider Or is it gonna be hanging there? A spider It got nothing to prove, I do. Staring at it, it is approaching, I wish it to come yet not, Curious,if I am all immune, all these years.
Am weakend already, the warns from brown recluse in my bed-room mirror, A brown recluse, it does back and forth but here other type is apporaching, I shall remove all the clutter from my room, here put all new furnitures, I shall bug spray gradually without harming myself perhaps they wont come back.
There was a dead spider in my sink I have arachnophobia so it made my heart stop I just stood there Blood drained from me Looking at this lost life Wondering if it had a partner Or little spider kids That would miss it
I felt sad Yet still scared Ridiculous really Maybe it was a female out searching for food Or maybe she'd eaten her male donor Maybe it was a him And he'd run away to save himself.
It was under the dish bowl I wondered if it had drowned Or just starved to death I found myself curious as to what it last thought about If it was able to speak What it's last words would have been
Maybe it was relieved Maybe drowning is better than being eaten alive by an unthankful lover Or by being captured in my humane catcher which sadly often broke legs Maybe it just simply thought "Help"
I'll never know But I do know I'll think about him or her until I think of them no more Which might be months