maybe you don't really care at all
indeed, I'm one to blame
end this to forget the fall
lost is myself from all this game

when everything is too much to bear
and you think everything is falling apart in the air.
you must remember,
i'll always be there somewhere.
remind yourself and swear,
that everyone has the chance to repair.
sometimes we fall ensnare,
but one thing you should always forswear:
you are unique, you are rare
and you deserve all the care.

so i sat there as always,
across the road near the railways,
i keep looking back as i silently hope
while thinking of cutting ties and rope

within my reach i extend my hand
i look around til i reach the land
quietly sighing as i realised
i was often the fool, never the wise

so at 1 am in the bright city lights
with unending lengths of every heights
i yearn for you, i long for you
in all the lies, this is what's true

the cold that shivered through out my body
as i heard steps i remember clearly
you stopped me from glancing through an embrace
this very moment i will never ever waste

oh what good would it do
if you knew I waited for you.
back at where we met
when things were all set

its true whenever I cry
i hear you crumble and sigh
and the looks I gave,
were just stares engraved

but darling, I do not expect.
i fear you'll go and reject
that I waited for that seven-hour flight
though I was frightened by the bite

why did you abandon me?
in times where i was in need
where all but my liberty
was taken indeed

why must you abandon?
as you left all the worries
now im all alone
hoping for the apologies

there's this creature,
everyone seems to have in nature.
it can attack like a vulture.
every mind, it can torture.

horror and futile.
weak and fragile.
in this, we're fatal.
this is crucial

mababa man o mataas ang lipad,
nagiisa ka sa himpapawid.
sana ay iyong matupad,
layunin **** matuwid.

ikaw ang agila,
tanyag at sikat.
ikaw ay aking maalala,
'pagkat ikaw ay tapat.

so I wonder
if you think of me
just like how you're in my thoughts
so constantly.

when you are a woman
you bleed the burden of being one
literally within every month
and metaphorically every single day
you polish the plates clean
you cook the cake delectable
you plan the garden to grow plants
you figure out your figures
you beg to be believed
you serve to be esteemed
you scream to be heard
to be seen, to be listened,
to speak, to be free
you consume the rage given
passed and inherited
genetically and immanently
you are born
yet you give birth too
being a woman is a revolution

aanhin mo ang bayang mayaman,
bayang maunlad at sapat,
kung patay na ang mamamayan,
at sa kalayaan ay salat.

i do believe you
when you told me about that lie
acted as if that was true
never will I ask why

i will believe you
even if i know its false
even if it'll make me blue
I'll believe it all

i still believed you
though you lied so many times
but in my eyes and view
these are not your crimes

i believe you
in every single way
like a fool, i do

you broke my heart.
but little did you know what you did was an art,
brushes and paint are all its part.
boy, you weren't that smart.

you made me feel ******,
but now you're acting like you're all harmed.
wounds and stabs were all planned.
boy, you should've known how to withstand.

I always wonder why by the end of the month
Every smell changes like seasons fall into place
How today would smell sappy and fresh
But tomorrow it’ll be sugary and sweet

Once, I saw you changing it
I asked why you do that
You smiled and handed it to me as I sniff it,
“Nothing really lasts long.”

Whenever I get a sniff of this it reminds me of that place
I’d always go at the back seat or beside you
But now you’re gone it’s never the same
For I never experienced being beside you again

Now, I get why you change it every month,
For even the pleasant smell of an air freshener is temporary,
Despite of its strong and rich scent
There’ll be a time it needs to be replaced

Soft and musky
Clean and cool
Mild and delicate
The scents you always loved

So as I change my car freshener,
I still wonder,
If you were here by my side,
Would you be the one to change it every end of the month?

the little fragments of our memories
fills me up as its hard to miss.

the silent confirmation only we can understand;
reminds me of how you hold my hand.

when we meet eye to eye,
its like looking at the wide blue sky.

how you utter with such softness
makes my heart speak though it cannot express.

however a clandestine should not last;
it must always stay in the past.

a secret like this should go astray
for it will perish as it's fey.

nevertheless, I'll still cherish
every moments even if I have to be selfish.

you're like a ray of sunshine
a beam that steadies my heart 'til I'm fine
a someone that always holds me on line
in my head, you are mine

although i **** you so often
you always make my heart soften
still, i can't tell you this, i said again
so I'm just gonna write my feelings out with a pen

takbo mo'y karipas
sa bawat ahon na humahampas.
pinipilit tumakas
sa mga buhanging nakakalas.

ngiti mo'y di mapawi,
tingin ko'y di mawari.
sinasabi mo'y sari-sari,
buhok ko'y lagi **** hinahawi.

buntong hininga ang tanging ipinalit.
wala ka manlang bang kamalit-malit?
kama'y mo ay sa aki'y ikinawit,
sa akin ay ngumiti ka saglit.

pilit tinutugunan,
salita mo'y ako ay naambunan.
tayo'y nagtatawagan,
diri sa isang munting dalampasigan.

ikaw lamang ay maging masaya.
o aking sintang giliw, ako'y kuntento na.
makita kang nakangiti't tawa,
sa aki'y iyo'y sapat na.

dear anxiety, when will you leave me?
all my thoughts have gone wary
even my vision's kinda blurry
hear me out and save me hurry

dear anxiety, why are you here?
creeping me out so sheer
you won't get another tear
is anyone ever near?

dear anxiety, what do you want?
still in my dreams you do your haunt
tell it to me and i shall grant
even so, no one hears my rant

dear anxiety, who must i call?
though in the end it's me who will fall
surely you have taken its toll
when will they see it all?

dear anxiety, how are you?
so good at keeping me blue
remind me that this reality is true
those who see it are only few

echoes running thoroughly upon my head,
my my, these words i hear repeatedly said
lightning and thunder fumbling in my bed
a sight i see, the color red

the quiet resonance filling my ears
all that is left are cries and tears
sighed and breathed, no one hears
this halting life, in my mind, pierced

keep on screaming, they say
living always have a price to pay
so come what may
perhaps its too late to stay

known to all that he had lost,
all that is valuable within him.
kneeling down in pure exhaust.
and now, cutting emotions in his world so dim.

shush the wind for its noise,
hear his heart wince in pain.
imagining their voice,
hear the cry of the rain.

at last, he showed the emotions.
turning his back on the facade he shows.
arguably the man showed no motions,
keeping the tears that continually flows.

etched in his heart is the still of mourning and grieving.

i was lost and you're aware
i know for you looked into these eyes
with such longing glance and stare
we both understood our truths and lies

hungry for power
while the poor starve from hunger
the rich shall cower

if this was just a simple fancy,
how come it lasted years
where you're the only one I see
albeit you've caused these tears?

i have skimmed every encyclopedia,
have gone through to limits of every book in biology,
and even went on to read depths of psychology,
but i have yet to find an answer
as to why a father could hurt his own daughter

i tried to search you from the obviousness
with the help of the memories I've gathered
but all I am is helpless
perhaps, my memory is all withered

i tried to find you with the clues you have given
all what you had left I tried using
but now even the odds have turned even
still, there is not much finding

even if I won't find you
remember that I tried
though I'm not sure if what we had was true
remember, I'll always be by your side

sa garagal na takbo ng buhay,
bakit nga ba kapag ikaw ang kasabay
bumibilis ang lahat
kahit hindi naman dapat?

how can i forget
the first time our eyes met
my soul instantly left
even so, i do not regret.

lived in his heart is this ounce of pain
every moment just seemed to pass behind his back
victory was all in vain
igniting the fire within his world of black

at last, humanity's strongest appeared
cradled in his palm are the tears he hid
keen as the blades that all have feared
ending it with his own blood to bleed

reaching with no one to depend
meek as he absorbed the reality
as he asks himself if this is the end
not yet for he is the strongest of all humanity

i knew from the first time i saw you,
tamed by the crimson eyes and its hue.
amidst the cold stare you have given,
cunningly, i see the emotions hidden.

heaven has its own way of showing,
i believe it just by seeing.
unbeknownst under those cold-blooded eyes,
cunningly, i see the emotions rise.

haunting me from the depth within,
igniting the curiosity that is seething.
hollowed, i tried reaching you,
and still, you grabbed me out of the blue.

too good to be true,
sensations i feel with you.
save me, i beg you.

i don't wanna be your friend
for I wanna hold your hand
as genuine as i intend
as long as i planned

i don't wanna be your friend
and stay on that lane
where we both would mend
the gore and the pain

i don't wanna be your friend
but i can't say it
for it's hard to comprehend
as i still can't admit

i don't wanna be your friend
i don't wanna see that smile
as something just for the end
i'll wait even if it takes a while

i don't wanna be your friend
i wanna be something more
now, i can't pretend
you are what i wish for

but if you ask me why
why friendship isn't enough
i'm just gonna lie
maybe tell the truth or half

the things im willing to let go,
just so you can know
my feelings and how I desire
to be with you, I would not tire

I tried so many ways
despite the mights and mays
so that we could look eye to eye
won't you ask me why?

i know you have somebody
I know its her body
I know its not me
and it will never be

sa gitna ng aking imahinasyon,
natagpuan ko ang aking sarili
na kasama't ika'y kayakap
sa isang estasyon.

sigaw ng drayber ang tanging ingay.
ngunit nakasentro ang aking tainga
sa'yong mga sinasabi.
minasdan kita habang sinasabing saki'y ayaw mo mawalay.

ngiti lang ang tanging maisagot ko
sa bawat salitang sinasambit mo.
pero naalala ko nga pala,
tanging imahinasyon lang pala ito.

i heard you treasure your anklet,
to lose it you won't let,
in that case, I wanna be that bracelet,
that you'll never forget

you say you love this band,
though I do not really understand.
but if you demand,
I'll let myself be ******

and you tell you like your coffee
with a little side of berry,
if so let me be your cherry
if only you just let me.

true enough I liked you first,
these feelings perhaps are cursed.
however even in your worst,
i'd still wanna be yours.

i write too many poems for you
ones i assure you don't know of
and you won't even read it
for the existence is beyond your knowledge

i write too many poems for you
ones i can't even read
it's just so hard to believe
that it's all about the same thing

i write too many poems for you
ones my hands just type without cue
how i mindlessly formulate it
in all honesty, i have no clue

i write too many poems for you
at one point i wish you knew
but I'm contented that you don't
for i know nothing would change

i write too many poems for you
but we're not on the same line
nor on the same stanza
neither in the same poem

i write too many poems for you
but it's time to stop now
it's tiring, don't you think?
to write, without a reader.

pagod na ang aking puso,
sa pagbubukas ng nararamdaman.
kaya't sa susunod ay ako naman ang magiging tuso,
baka kahit papaano'y biglang gumaan.
ilang beses kong tinanong kung bakit,
bakit walang maibigay na sagot?
bakit parang sa akin lamang masakit?
ayokong makaramdam ng galit o poot.
ngunit kaysa salita,
ang tanging sumagot ay 'yong aksyon.
at 'tila parang isang balita,
nabaling ang aking atensyon,
sa iba mo na pala sinasabi ang nararamdaman mo,
may iba ka na palang sinasabihan ng paborito **** banda,
pati na rin ang paboritong kanta mo,
di ka naman nagsabi, sana manlang ako'y naging handa.
wala ka manlang paalam,
ni hindi rin nagbigay ng huling pangungusap.
hindi man lang nabigyan ng sagot ang isip kong kumakalam,
hanggang sa huli ako pa rin ang nakikiusap.
parang tangang naghihintay ng 'yong kasagutan,
pero wala na pala dapat akong hintayin.
sa akin na lang pala dapat 'tong mga katanungan,
dahil kahit minsa'y di ka naman naging akin.

ako'y nakakulong.
malayo sa tao,
malayo sa iyo.

ako'y nakakulong.
na tila ba dyamante,
na tila ba isang kayamanan.

ako'y nakakulong,
sa higpit ng hawak nila'y ako'y sakal na,
sa higpit ng taban nila'y ako'y sawa na.

ako'y nakakulong.
ako'y pagod na.
ako ay 'yong isalba.

i liked how i opened you
from the depths within our small world
how i pushed you out of the blue
now, nothing is blurred

i adore how you speak with so little words
from the way you choose the phrases you tell
how one word from you i instanly get absurd
now, i realized, i have fell

i love how you remember the smallest of the things
from my strange fascinations to my ordinary repulsion
how you remind me of my often mood swings
now, everything's just a memory fraction

i liked how you opened me from my own
i adored how you can have such patient with me
i loved how you always get me in any tone
now, I'm letting you free.

i just need a little rest
a week or so would suffice
no time to be pressed
give myself a time to realize

let me figure things out
there's a lot going around in my mind
let the season be in drought
i'll see what i can find

go away for now
what i need is no one's company
i may have no idea how
but let me rest harmoniously

as the little bird tries to fly,
it explored the very sky,
with her wings waving so high,
with the joy she cry

as the little bird tries to sing,
she sang so loud hoping one could hear a thing,
she waved again her little wing,
little did they know she was yelling

as the little bird tries to speak,
no one wants to hear for she's so meek
everyone thought it was just a trick
but they can't see the tears on her cheek

as the little bird tries to escape
she tries to fit in any shape
with her wings she casually drape,
her little body she gently scrape

as the little bird tries to cry
she began to look at the sky
is she here to live or to die
no one really knows why

sa pagnakaw ng tingin,
atensyon mo ay bumaling.
hindi mo ba pansin?
malas ko, sayo pa ako nahumaling.

habang minamasdan ang buwan
na humimlay sa tapat ng araw na sikat,
tanging nasabi ko na lang ay ewan
at lumaki na lalo ang agwat.

kahit asamin ko na maging akin ka,
ipasasalo na lang lahat sa hangin.
walang ibang salita kundi baka,
nararamdamang dapat itapon na sa bangin.

kaya't sa paglaya ng buwan
sa araw na maliwanag.
maging akin ka man,
mahirap mabanaag.

maybe if you didn't give any hint
like that time you liked my new tint
and when you gave me my favorite mint
i just wish you didn't

maybe if you treated others the same
like how it's only me that can tame
your only light and burning flame
so that's how it became

maybe if you were careful
and kind of less of a fool
a little more truthful
just thinking, it's wishful

maybe if i wasn't naive
for like a child, i believed
that you would not leave
however, i was deceived

im tired of failing people,
so exhausted in causing trouble
so i wonder and think continually
am i of value really?

im tired of being a disappointment
so full of regrets and resentment
how i wish im such importance
atleast just once

you're a mystery and we both know it
I am as well but I'll never submit
we both question our very existence
for that, I say good riddance

in actuality, I do not want to bother
but the curiosity makes me think harder
are you feeling the same way as I am?
maybe not, maybe you're just like them

so I try to tell myself perhaps it's just overwhelming
the crippling feeling of mystery is seething
though it's not my first time to encounter this,
at the end, will I still take the risk?