i wish to call you mine
not because i want to have you
nor i see you as an object i must own
neither as a possession to wield

i wish to call you mine
because you are mine to cherish,
mine to  care for, mine to think of,
and mine to love.

casually crashing in your arms
as i feel my head go light.
your heart which only warms
when it's me in your sight.

as mysterious as the moon
you're a moment that ends so soon
still waiting even at noon
in that summer at june

your shadow upon the night
blinded my very sight
and in return i gave my light
though i know its quite not right

in dim light they both embraced
like it's their last, like they're in haste
the moon which the light chased
in this moment, they both graced

ang pag-asa ng bayan,
ang tanging makapagbibigay ng kalayaan,
ani Rizal ay kabataan,
ngunit ngayon ay nasaan?

I'll never be the wondrous kid
that you once knew
whose feelings you try to hid
who was naive with no clue

I'll never be the child
that you once spoke of highly
in your eyes I'm exiled
as I left quietly

I'll never be the daughter
that you once molded
whom you planned to hold forever
in your palms, i was guarded

I'll never be the listener
that they once relied on
in their sights I'm a betrayer
the grudges they have are a ton

I'll never be the friend
whom they once smiled with
for the ties are loose ends
because of what I did

I'll never be the shoulder
that they once held to
so who would hold her
when she is blue?

I'll never be the person
that you were once fond
whom you paid much attention
that these feelings spawned

I'll never be her
whom you once loved so much
like your favorite sweater
that you wear with no match

I'll never be enough
for them and for you,
indeed, it's tough
now that i have no one to hold onto

"do you love me?" i asked with utmost uncertainty
he looked at me as he said, "sometimes."
unsettled, unsecured and in limbo, "no guarantee."
he repeated, "no guarantee... at all times."

once again i fell into the pit
as the darkness vibrantly hit
my consciousness as well as my wit
were taken as i was forced to submit

once again it swallowed me
chains on my wrist as I'll never be free
vision slowly becomes hazy
please let this not be my reality

once again i screamed so loud
no one heard me, not even the crowd
speaking silently with no sound
my eyes seek for the blue sky amidst the cloud

once again I'm in this pit
but these feelings i cannot admit
agony filled me as it seethe
once again the darkness bit

pain is a proof that we are alive.
that in any order, we always strive.
we sometimes contrive,
but we always remember to thrive.

we are willing to do anything just to survive.
in any deep seas, we are willing to dive.
even if it is pain that we derive.
for pain is a proof that we are alive.

ang mabagal na takbo ng ambon
'tila ba ay may ibang pahiwatig
katawan ay unti-unting inahon
sapagkat sayong mata ay naantig.

sa bilis ng bugso ng bagyo
na nagpaikot sa aking tingin,
kusang pumunta patungo sayo
at sa balikat mo ako ay 'yong diniin.

mumunting butil ng luha ang umagos
habang yakap ang tanging inalay.
naisin mang sumigaw ngunit paos
tanging sa hawak mo lamang ako hihimlay

kaya't sa huling patak ng rumaragasang ulan,
hinanap kita pero huli na ang lahat.
para kang tubig ambon na sa akin lamang dumaan,
matamis sa una ngunit sa huli'y umalat.

it's funny how i remember you in any way possible,
and when I do,
i realize you're irreplaceable,
how i wish i am too.

there's this time i heard your favorite song,
i reminisce how you'd repeatedly say you love it,
and when i do, i listen for it so long,
suddenly, the sadness just hits.

i even recall the moments when you get all my joke,
remembering that my humor is not something anyone can perceive,
and when i do, i just laugh and croak.
it's sad that you just had to leave.

i think of the time when you first heard my voice,
you kept on teasing how i sounded so cute,
but now that you're gone i have nothing to rejoice.
instantly, everything just turns mute.

do you remember when i tried not paying attention to you?
when i keep leaving you on read?
i was just so scared that you'll go and leave me out of the blue,
funny cause now that's what happened.

and i still recall when we play this certain game,
i'd be the one to start it but I always forget to join so I would be shocked.
now, without you, it is not the same.
cause without you, everything just stopped.

you keep on reminding me to remember,
so i try my best to recall.
i know for a fact that you'll never be back again ever,
but I just wanna say, I remember it all.

at the end of the day
one should always remember
rest and meditate in any way
the stress you should not bear

rest for it's what you deserve
rest because the day is over
rest for the day will swerve
rest because you need it more than ever

is it me or the atmosphere changed?
did the war suddenly wage?
how i wish these feelings would age
entrapped inside and caged

was it your affection that swayed me?
maybe its just my self, silly me
remembering that things arent easy
i know, this will pass, eventually

maybe i was not just thinking straight
or could it be just a bait?
should i stop or wait?
such feeling i cant hate

well, maybe its just my silly mind
giving meanings, i should just rewind
this sight might have gone blind
but lately, you're what these eyes find

I liked every street lights in your place,
the endless paradise you made me see,
every warmth of your embrace.
This locked heart of mine, you are the only key.

Girls were head over heels,
it was a long line.
Your stares give unfamiliar chills,
but why does it make me feel fine?

You see, I don't know you at all,
and I won't even bother to.
But then, your eyes are a symbol of call,
that makes me wanna question something about you.

The feeling was never different,
actually, it was the same.
But there's this electric current
whenever I hear your name.

So bear with me and my questions,
please answer them very clearly.
I need no hesitations
so please don't be wary.

Time passed and I felt longing.
How I miss that unfamiliar stare.
There, I realized everything,
what I have been feeling, what I have seen, was all a snare.

I have now learned,
that it was all entrapment.
I was snared,
by my own fulfilment.

Some time, let's hope we meet,
eyes to eyes, feet to feet.
When we do, we'll feel the heat,
we will lose all our senses and our wit.

Some time, let's try to knit,
every bad thing that can be it.
We both know there ain't a writ,
so let's just get coffee and have a sit.

Some time, I'll buy you meat.
Something that the hunger can hit.
Something in your tummy will fit.
Maybe, I, too, shall buy some wheat.

Some time, let's not just meet.
No eyes to eyes, no feet to feet.
Because when we do, instead of heat,
the coldness will be the one to remove our wit.

"TAHIMIK!" sigaw ng mga nasa itaas,
mga taong gumagawa ng batas,
ngunit ang hustisya'y hindi patas,
'pagkat sa kanila ang batas ay may butas.

"TAHIMIK!" sigaw ng mga may kapangyarihan,
mga taong inaasaahang maging huwaran,
sa panahon na sila'y ating kinakailangan,
ang tanging naitatanong ay "saan?"

"TAHIMIK!" sigaw ng mga mapagmanipula,
mga taong ginagawang hanapbuhay ang pulitika,
pondong mga winawaldas at nawawalang parang bula
ang mga sagot ay tanging paghuhula.

"TAHIMIK!" sigaw ng mga ayaw sa kritisismo,
mga takot sa hinaing at nagrereklamo,
mga tutang kinain ng koloniyalismo,
sa ibang bayan sila ay tila maamo.

ngunit sa kabila ng lahat ng pagtatahimik,
patuloy kang umimik,
sa hustiya at paglaban ay maging sabik,
sa mga mapanakot huwag magpapitik.

ipagpatuloy ang pagiingay,
sa masa ika'y sumabay,
magising ka sa iyong malay,
pagkamakabayan huwag sanang mawalay.

huwag **** hayaang kunin ang boses natin,
'pagkat ang pag-aaklas ay pilit na isinalin-salin,
mag-salita ka pa rin,
hindi lang para sa'yo kundi para rin sa akin.

ialay ang mo ang salita mo sa mamayan,
ikaw ang maging tunay na huwaran,
susunod na henerasyon iyong ipasan,
mag-ingay sa kahit anong paraan.

"TAHIMIK!" ani ng taong bayan,
sawa na sa pagmamanipula na naghahari-harian.
"TAHIMIK!" ani ng mga mamamayan,
tandaan na laging buksan ang mata at isipan.

it's funny how it's always that person
when something random comes up
we think of them without reason
then your mood goes up

you'll feel happy sometimes
maybe even guilty when you're reminded
like this moment where i write rhymes
due to that person i remembered

it's a long way to your thought
but when it's ending, you realize
this person is not whom you must sought
then the thinking shall finalize

it's funny how it's always that person
sometimes you just can't help but fathom
you're being reminded in any season
then you wonder where does this come from

the hand has twenty-seven bones.
four to promise you i'll be there always,
four to wear the ring you gave me,
four to touch your lips when you're sleeping,
four to feel how long your lashes are,
three to show you that i'll be okay,
eight to have your face on my palm,
and all twenty-seven to hold your hand.

there are things you must say,
there are things you shall not
let your emotions sway
every word means a lot

yes it is freedom
an expression needed to be told
feelings in wham
thou shall not be bold

you shall always feel the need
to understand, to accept and to care
words enable people to bleed
a pain they would not be able to bear

how do i undo
the feelings i have for you
when clearly you got no clue
that these are all true

how do i undo
to cut myself from blue
though this ain't new
i wanna get over you

i have a lot to think about
like why are kettles stout?
many hesitations and doubt
perhaps I'm just doing this for clout

the moment you slipped out of my hands
was the moment I regret to let you go
despite I only loved you once
but so much so.

your eyes had always guided me.
unconsciously, I follow that beady sight.
they allow me to see,
the purest of the night.

your lips had always guide my move
unknowingly, I obey your delicate brim.
they allow me to prove
that this world is not so grim.

thus, I shall always seek
that face of yours so I'll be guided.
without you, I surely will be weak.
however, our world now is divided.

i am just a vessel,
a rotting human body.
who's always longed to be cradled,
but I have nobody.

i am just a vessel,
a display of pure loneliness.
who's desire is all to be nestled,
despite all the emptiness.

i am just a vessel,
nothing more than that.
has always been the lesser,
waiting for the time I'll rot.

i wanna get mad
and curse you so bad
you vanished all of a sudden
now my heart's all harden

i wanna get angry
but if I hear atleast just one sorry
it's more than enough
for my heart isn't that tough

i wanna be ******
for all these feelings i have risked
however, when it comes to you
i don't even know what's true

i wanna be happy
but without you it's all just lonely
so come to me,
for when its you, i'll always be ready

why do i keep holding on
on something so uncertain
uncertain if you really want me
me who only knows how to hope

why do I like you
you do not even notice
my longing stares and glances
glances that I've hidden so long

why don't you choose me
me who kept on waiting
waiting for something uncertain
uncertain as you are

brewing potion with ritual
reciting chants, merely verbal
niching these little caviar
a mixture of gravitas and war

such ladle so long enough to combine
a ******'s blood with a spoon of wine
perhaps adding a buckskin would suffice
this hellcat's hellacious bliss

a bushel of a misogynist's intestine,
must not forget to hitch gobs of sharks fin,
augment a pair of an old man's sight
then smatter the hogs' teeth bite

sing song this dark lullaby
you ought to hear plead and cry
smell and smear this fatal brew
any life it shall take and shoo

death will come and it will reign
blood will begrime and it will stain
thoroughly toting the daring deathly hex
seeking a prey who must be next

men were terrified,
of the power females held
thus, women belied

amidst where I was lost,
you existed beneath the hue.
soon, I hope our lives will cross.
this time, I won't let go of you.