i feel like a fool
like a tool
thats not so
sharp

i feel like a ***
really dumb
you'll know from
the start

i feel like a headache
a bad mistake
people wish
to erase

i don't feel like myself
i don't think my health is well
that's how i'm feeling
today

they say that love finds a way
but mine hasn't
it's in the complete opposite direction
is my love not included?
is my love the wrong kind?
i try and i try
is that where i went wrong?
so many questions and not enough answers

what does it actually mean?
"love finds a way"
a way where?
a way to what?
how does love find anything?
is that where I'm wrong again?
i have so many questions

how will my love find it's way?
to someone else?
to someone better?
to someone who has love that will find me?
what if that love never finds what it is looking for?
then what?
you find love in yourself?
is that where i'm wrong?
i have no answers

when this love that is somehow a noun,
finds this way of love
what then?
you live happily ever after?
everything goes right from then on?
am i wrong?
i have so many questions and no answers

your name tickles my tongue
lips quivering like it stung
hidden message in my eyes
to know that if my heart breaks
it shouldn't be a surprise

You see i have these little spurts,
all at one time ideas come and it almost hurts,
can't get to them all which makes it the worst,
so I have to do all this work.

Write it down as fast as I can,
breaking my hands
like a downward spiral
you never know when it gonna stop.

Like an elephant in the room
fat and crushing
taking in all the air
everywhere and nowhere.

For days it coils within and waits to be set free
and I just bleed,
bleed, and bleed.
Knowing this is just what I need.

I flow and flow like I'm at a place with no gravity
true travesty
no reality.

Then it ends
out of battery.

Calm down;
breathe slow
if you need to
just let it go.

Don't let your crown
fall
not even a little bit,
don't give them
the benefit.

I want a hug
that stops wars
something like never before

A hug that
helps everyone sleep
doesn't even have to be quietly

A hug that
makes everyone smile
if even for a short while

A hug that
makes sure everyone is feed
and well kept

A hug that loves all
from shortest to tall

A hug that just makes everyone equal
to treat each other like people

I want that hug
and you give me a shrug

sometimes i'm too nice
sometimes i don't think twice
sometimes i feel like nothing can stop me
other times i feel like the world is trying to
stomp me
sometimes i glare unaware
sometimes i feel like no one is ever there
other times i feel like i got the best around and i'm
safe and sound
sometimes

I smile
nose crinkled
skin wrinkle
make my eyes
and teeth
twinkle.

I've lost you
I'm sorry

I'm trying to find you
I'm worried

Please don't run away ever again
I'm just trying to be your friend

I guess I was just temporary,
nothing really
just a person who came and left.

I was the friend you only knew
at work,
school,
or something.

Nothing more,
just a person to fill empty space
for a while.

Everyone knew this, but me.

I trusted you
I believed that you had my back
thinking about it now
there was none of that

I was yours and one day
you left me
you lied
and you hurt me more
than I ever knew you could

I don't know why
and I don't care
because nothing could fix
the bond we shared

imagine this
there's always the
kiss

right before the end
they have to tie you in
finish the deal

To show they were more than friends
I guess that's always been the trend
To see the happily ever after begin

You quickly unraveled
my fragile heart
like a yo-yo.

My heart was the axle
as it was dropped to the ground
when the string snapped.

What is the antidote?
This is something I desperately need to know.
Please just help me.
I'll get you anything
diamonds, rings, and
big shiny things.

What? You don't know?
It says it right here on your card
plus you told me so.
Oh no.
Now I'm stuck
in this rut.
I really needed this antidote.

I know I’m just another window
An open and shut case
I could never be the hero
I suppose all I can do is embrace
How can you? When your an absolute zero...
You must think I’m a complete ******

I think I’m funny and smart.
Still miserable
No one else can see that

When you're invisible

Dreaming of what it would be like
to be older
having your hair go grey
and the nights seeming to get colder

Everyone all around
asks you what you want to be
of course
"helpful to society"
but don't forget your dreams
they will stay with you forever
even when things
don't get better

Dreaming of being the first
Dreaming of being the best
Dreaming of having a life with no stress

Silly kids
dreams are
deleted scenes

You have control over me,
you have my soul
can't you see?

Translation: Need I say more?

A shadow casts over the land
with sand in each hand.

Trying to get people to sleep,
running around
looking like a creep.

she finally comes back
phases and phases
everything changes
she still comes back