when everything comes too quickly
gravity becomes overwhelming
it's infuriating

the beginning starts with an ending
creating stars covered by clouds
when dawn breaks with a shroud

contradictions only leads to doubt
what's needed now is a distraction
but so far my only distraction

is you

am i not*       .                    ..
        .                         ....       .          
              allowed
    ..                                ..­             ...
       to love    ..              ...
                     ...                 without
              ...
    ......             consequence?
         ..
...

"Nah...

                                    *she just..

          *reminds me of someone."

He is your knight in shining armor
With all his glamour and bright blue eyes
Offers his sword to protect you
With all his might

While I on the other hand
Carry sand in my worn out shoes
Whose armor wretched in scars from that day
You've cast me away

As a knight I have failed my duty
And you are a queen of wondrous beauty
Who deserves nothing but perfection
And I am no where near of similar complexion

Not today,
Nor tomorrow,
Even the day after.
I long to know if what I feel
Is real.
To see if I could make it through
A month or two without seeing you.
But it's only been a day
And I'm already in pieces
Just wondering how your day went.

I too have feelings I cannot hide
Words that I must set aside and
Trust me when I say
We are all just children inside yet
Till now we still make mistakes
And often we cry when we're awake
By midnight you're fast asleep
Yet you're always in my dreams
That one day I would slip and fall
With your arms stretched out
Ready to catch the burdens
Deep in my chest because
Let's face it
You know me too well and
I know only little of you
I know you're blind on both eyes
And you'd choose water over wine
And half the time you'd drop by
To say hi
But you left your glasses
On my balcony last night
Your sight is 50/50 and I am miles away
We're only young once and
Mistakes are better done now than later
So set down your arms
And let me fall into an abyss
Because I know very well
You've fallen way too many times

Not a sight even the slightest
Of gaps between my messages
And tickets, boards and bonfires
Collected petals gilded flats
I remember nothing sort of shallow
Memories and stories have left me
Numb and here I have forgotten
How I cared carried and created
The feeling I used to cherish
Now lost and cold and by tomorrow
Still numb till dusk and ask
If loneliness was better
Than nothingness

It may not look like it -
Because I'm always by myself,
Reading a good book with a cup
Of coffee on the side, enjoying
Long walks on streets on windy days,
Just sitting on a park bench
Looking at families fly kites together;
And they know they'll never be alone,
- But I fear being alone.
Though it wasn't for long
And for all the wrong reasons,
You made me feel I was loved
You made me feel what it's like to love.
You're gone now and I'm not sad that you are
It was all thanks to you
That now I know
I can *
Be loved.

I want to correct what I did wrong.
Just give me this one chance,
A moment to tell you
What I really wanted to say.
To erase the error
That tore us apart.
Though I'm not completely sure
If this will restore what we were;
But I'm certain of one thing,
You will sleep one night
Knowing that I love you.