I need someone,
That makes me lose track of time,
Of  *everything.

And at this moment,
*Hurt is all I know.

Okay,
I know that I nag,
And I'm so annoying,
I always ramble,
And you put up with it.

See the thing is,
I haven't cared this much,
Not in a while,
And I don't want to lose you.

I'm scared,
That you'd break down,
And I wouldn't be there,
Or you might do something drastic,
Cuz I'll forever have nightmares.

You're so important to me,
I don't know why,
But I want to feel your heart aching,
I want you to know that I'll always care.

And that's why it kills me,
I never get to know,
If you're dying slowly,
Or I fill you with joy,
If you're incredibly happy,
Or I've made things worse.

I care so much,
And I love you so much,*
You're the most realistic friendship,
That I've ever had,
And I don't want to discomfort you,
But I'm scared that I'll lose you,
It'll all be my fault,
For not trying hard enough.

What does a person do,
When she's let someone in,
And regrets it.

But someone's locked her heart,
*From the outside.

I fought,
We fought,
You can't tell me you don't remember,
We went through a whole ****** lot,
Together.

You promised,
A long time ago,
That you'd never leave,
And I trusted you,
I don't want to feel stupid,
Again.

It's over,
I know it's over,
I ended it,
But I want you around,
Even if you're not with me,
I need you.

You think you're not worth it,
Worth me caring but you are,
Please believe me.

I'll miss you,
I loved you,
**** it,
I miss you,
*I love you.

The times we check under our beds for monsters,
We don't realize that they're inside us,
They eat us from within,
While the world eats us externally,
It's all part of a dark melody.

Our monsters aren't all so vicious,
But it's a competition,
Because the world is undoubtedly ferocious,
They battle for eternities,
Until either is victorious,
And all that is left of us,
Are idle piles dust,
Oh it's all so delirious.

If humans could only understand this,
Earth could be an ideal,
No more cravings for cosmic space,
Life,
Possibly surreal.

I read your poems,
Repeatedly,
To recreate the butterflies,
Hoping I was on your mind,
As you wrote them.

It took more hurt,
But I get it now.

How could I be so stupid,
To let them take my hurt,
And make it about them,
*Just to get out of their own guilt.

The one thing,
The one thing I can't live without,
And that one thing,
It's even in my blood.

I have no courage to share it,
For judgement,
Has become a habit of this world,
*And mistakes are now deadly.

I've lost control of my mind,
Now,
It's telling me everything,
*Everything that hurts me.

I can so easily get over you,
But there's just something,
That makes me not want to.

My mind was a mess,
Hormonal ramblings,
I hoped and wished
But I don't regret it.

Lord help me,
He drives me crazy,
But he's pretty amazing.

I don't understand it,
The way that I'm feeling,
He's so horrible,
But I just can't help it.

And a collection of poetry,
Can't explain it,
What I'm thinking,
What I'm feeling ,
I really hate it,
I really hate him.

I've never been so scared,
Never have I ever,
Wished more to be in denial.

I'm a bit confused,
Slightly terrified,
Been having these thoughts,
They're getting hard to hide.

My mind's been roaming,
Exploring itself,
So I have some things I'd like to share.

*I see all these people suffer,
But I have no clue what to say,
So here's to all of you,
What I've written,
'Cause things might not be going your way.

For the lovers,
I envy you,
Your heart,
Shall never see darkness,
Your heart,
Shall be connected with your mind,
Your heart,
That thing that it holds so dear,
Shall never cease to work in your favour,
And at every fatal ending,
Shall your heart recover,
Quickly,
'Cause the world needs you,
To keep on loving.

For the dreamers,
Oh how I love how you are,
So full of ideas,
Your mind,
Shall never lose it's colours,
Your mind,
Shall never lead you astray,
Your mind,
Those things that fly around in it,
Shall never be discouraged,
Never lose hope,
'Cause without you,
The world won't be so innovative.

For the hopeful,
I'm just like you,
Although that hope is false sometimes,
Never stop hoping,
Your hopes,
Shall not cause you pain,
Your hopes,
Shall bring pleasant ends,
Your hopes,
Whatever they may be for,
Shall never bring you regrets,
And remember that you're not exactly naive,
You're just needed,
And so you might experience repeated events,
'Cause without you,
The dreamers might lose hope.

For the depressed,
I'm one of you,
And I have a lot to say to you,
You,
Don't deserve whatever you're going through,
Never think that you do,
You,
Shall find happiness,
Hopefully soon,
You,
Shall become one of the hopeful,
And never lose faith,
You,
Whatever it is that you're going through,
Shall not defeat you,
If you think it has,
I want to meet you,
'Cause you keep me going everyday,
Remind me that I'm not alone.

For the suicidal,
You are worth a lot,
Your pain,
Shall not takeover you,
Your pain,
Shall not control your actions,
Your pain,
However painful it may be,
Is not the only thing you can feel,
Keep holding on,
'Cause you give me a reason to live,
You are amazing no matter what anyone says,
And I can't lose my best friend,
Not in that way.

For the fearful,
I was once like you,
Your fears,
Shall not control your life,
Your fears,
Shall only give you something to fight,
Your fears,
Whatever they are of,
Shall not define your might,
You are stronger than you think,
'Cause without you,
Too many people would be oblivious.

For the happy,
I dream to be like you,
Your happiness,
Shall never seize,
Your heart,
Shall forever sparkle with joy,
You,
Shall never forget others,
'Cause for many,
What you have is a dream,
And who better to help attain something,
Than those who possess it.

For those unmentioned,
You are nothing but important,
Whatever category you fall into,
Is special like any other,
You're in my mind and in my heart,
There's just so many,
I wish I could remember,
So peace and love be with everyone who reads this,
*Forever.

Relationships ****.
You could waste weeks, months, years
Feeling happy,
Thinking everything'll turn out okay
Maybe perfect;
Assuming that things'll go somewhere good,
Just to have it all cut-off,
Cut-off by plain meaningless yet such heavy words.

I must admit,
The feeling could be surreal at times,
Yet so real.
Believing someone cares, someone possibly sweet.
Believing someone could give it all up for you at some point.
Believing you make someone so happy.

But is it really worth it?
The tears 'cause he got tired of you,
The bitter ending,
The bloodshot eyes from crying at night,
Because he cheated and it was far from a game,
The hurt that kept pounding in your chest,
Because he isn't yours anymore.
The regret of knowing that YOU let him go,
But YOU want him back, so bad.

Maybe it IS all worth it,
Maybe it's not,
But basically,
Relationships ****!

And this feeling,
*I don't wanna stop feeling it.

I don't,
I don't,
I swear,
I don't.

To feel,
To hope,
I swear,
I don't.

Empty,
I am,
I swear,
I am.

To feel,
To hope,
I swear,
I don't.

I don't,
I don't,
I'm sure,
I don't.

I don't,
No,
I don't.

Feel,
For you;
I swear,
*I don't.

I never thought,
That I'd feel things,
Things that come with the thought of you,
Things that don't feel like butterflies,
The usual.

Stomach pains,
Chest aches,
From the print,
*That your words left.

You can not substitute life,
But you can substitute love.

The thing is though,
I don't want to substitute this one,
I like the feeling,
It's butterflies,
It's uncertainty,
It's a blissful type of pain.

I'll be up every night,
Waiting,
For you,
Even though,
You might not show up soon,
I'll wait every night,
And day,
*For you.

I'm out of my head,
Floating in oxygen,
Yet I still forget to breath,
Sometimes.

You caught the butterflies,
Put them in a jar.

Please let them out,
I miss the feelings,
When they flutter.

I'm typically down,
But when you're gone,
I'm deep under,
Sitting and waiting,
For you,
*My sweet escape.

It's like everything I've ever know,
Is just an assumption.

It's raining,
There goes my plans of sleeping,
Carried by the thunder.

Time to drown myself,
In music.

You walked past me,
I held my breath,
I don't know why,
But my head told me that,
That's the only way it could cope.

It's funny,
How quickly the smile fades.

There should be no genres,
Just music.

There should be no discrimination,
Just humans.

It's only difficult,
If you believe that it is.

Your unconscious mind,
Can destroy you,
Build you;
But that is up to*  you.

Our feelings aren't real,
It all could disappear at any moment,
Our minds are playing with us.

None of this is real,
**At least that's what I want to believe.

You make it so easy,
For me to cry,
To get hurt.

Yet I've never received,
Any apologies,
As empty as yours.

You put in no effort,
I do,
Now I'm worn out.

I guess it's possible,
*To run out of tears