"I hate you now as much as I will ever hate you." Our fingers laced with strained prose and my blooming heart. There's only so many ways to tell you this without us both realizing we might have not yet learned our lesson.
The truth is, there's no way for me to know how much this really hurts. I've cast myself numb to the touches of future lovers and to be honest I've said too many times that I would cast this out of my mind but, baby, if you loved me, would you leave me? Could we bury this romance in a candlelight processional and a chorus of holy reverence, how long could we hold each other till our arms crumbled to dust under the six feet of people we once were? Would our kisses turn to ash so close to new flames we might light?... could either of us stand the flames? We'll be okay, I know in time this too shall fade but once, I had high hopes. Once I was left confused crying to a plane window and you couldn't tell me anything to ease the chaos in my mind. Why would you offer yourself to me like that if you didn't want me too? I'm so stressed, pressing on for answers but, maybe there's nothing to find. I'll move forward. One day.
I see you everyday I can hear my heart beat fast I can tell i'm smiling when I saw you I can tell when I feel hurt because your with her I blush red when your near I lought when your name pops up I wish you saw how I felt about you I wish you...could see that we could be more then friends But your with her And you look happy You look like she is everyhting You look at her, like she is the only thing in the world Like it's just you and her and no one else Maybe that could be me and you But.....You blong with her And I know that She is everything That I will never be
Early morning drink with ice, of course. I always felt so lost. In my mind was dark, my soul was crushed and my life was built on pretending. I smiled, I laughed a lot. No one knew my heart was in a knot. My body was numb, My thoughts were evil. I tried to break through all that I was going through. Could this all be so true? Was I losing myself, ...it was all something I was new to. Nothing I was use to. The pain , frustration and anger. I didn't wanna talk, some days I didn't wanna get up ... Everything was a fuss. I had to figure out what was wrong, the depression I couldn't take ..I knew it would take over one day ...Will I ever be okay !?
The little smile you give to me, When I give you mine: It's kind of like conspiracy, Shared in our two minds. The little giggle that you let fly, When I let mine fly, too: It's like laughing gas Has come to pass Between us: me and you. You know what's coming, And so do I. No reason to try and hide it. The smile grows into a grin, No trace of guile inside it. Defensively, you try to cover Everywhere you can, But you're helpless and you know it, You can't hide from Daddy's hands!
A squeal of laughter breaks the still: Anticipation let go in a voice so shrill. The giggle becomes a full-force gale. Were both laughing now: A full-force wail!
Let's play a game, We'll start from the top, Just like it's something new. We'll call this game "Son and Pop," Or maybe just, "Gonna Get You!"