it's an odd feeling to watch your best friend
get on a plane and fly off to another world
its three years but I'm keeping my Monday tradition
it ***** when you
lose someone but
they're not actually gone
You ****** me over one too many times...
I still care, but
I'm done waiting for something that's not gonna happen.
I can't do this anymore...
Isn't it weird
She never gave you a second look
And you are running after her like crazy,
And I, who've always been by your side,
You don't care about what I feel for you.
Guess life is teaching you a lesson.
this **** wild
"I hate you now as much as I will ever hate you."
Our fingers laced with strained prose and my blooming heart.
There's only so many ways to tell you this without us both realizing we might have not yet learned our lesson.
The truth is, there's no way for me to know how much this really hurts. I've cast myself numb to the touches of future lovers and to be honest I've said too many times that I would cast this out of my mind but, baby, if you loved me, would you leave me?
Could we bury this romance in a candlelight processional and a chorus of holy reverence, how long could we hold each other till our arms crumbled to dust under the six feet of people we once were?
Would our kisses turn to ash so close to new flames we might light?... could either of us stand the flames?
We'll be okay, I know in time this too shall fade but once, I had high hopes. Once I was left confused crying to a plane window and you couldn't tell me anything to ease the chaos in my mind. Why would you offer yourself to me like that if you didn't want me too?
I'm so stressed, pressing on for answers but, maybe there's nothing to find.
I'll move forward.
I couldn't 'hate' you more.
Within womb universe’s birth
nebulous placenta housed
seeds of life and white lily
billions of years in future
mid-wifery lady Madonna i.e. Gaia
twill abort... cancel... fail
cosmic amniotic fluid infinitesimal kernel
unknowingly intimated mother earth
giver of extant flora and fauna
unleashed after big bang cosmic explosion
galactic matter ala Jackson Pollack
impregnating fecund celestial field
germinating gamut multifarious
floral fauna spectrum
primordial soupy miasma
evolving millennial timeframe
distinct organisms **** sapiens
master exploiter oblate spheroid
usurped emiment domain
epitomized goddess of fertility
silent ovation humanity
promulgating tentatively robust
quite pathological population
within clustered cloistered
swaddled by ancestral
gracias moma mia
figures, whose maternal role
guarded vulnerable progeny,
outfoxing invisible World Wide Web
building inexorably linked network
against wild things
guaranteeing subsequent generations
flourishing webbed unbridled success
prompted contemporary bipedal hominid
chance genetic dice throw
origin of species weathering travails
horrendous maternal sacrifices
unknown female forebears!
I see you everyday
I can hear my heart beat fast
I can tell i'm smiling when I saw you
I can tell when I feel hurt because your with her
I blush red when your near
I lought when your name pops up
I wish you saw how I felt about you
I wish you...could see that we could be more then friends
But your with her
And you look happy
You look like she is everyhting
You look at her, like she is the only thing in the world
Like it's just you and her and no one else
Maybe that could be me and you
But.....You blong with her
And I know that
She is everything
That I will never be
I have to let you go,,,,,, But I don't want to
Sino ka nga ba't sa bawat panaginip
Ikaw ang laging nakikita.
Mistulang tinatanong sa akin sarili
kung bakit naroon ka.
Pinagmamasdan sa iyong kagandahan,
na ngayon tila'y nakakalimutan ko na.
Kalakip ang istoryang ubod ng saya,
Hindi magkubli ang pag-ngiti ng aking mata.
Subalit sino ka nga ba?
Alam mo bang hanggang ngayon hinahanap pa rin kita?
Sino ka nga ba't halos may ilang buwan kitang hinahanap?
Laging i-tinatanong sa aking sarili kung "Bakit nga ba?"
Sino ka nga ba't sana'y makita na kita?
Kahit bilang isang estrangherong,
estrangherong hindi mo kilala.
Sino ka nga ba't bakit ako'y nanabik sa iyo pag-dating?
Ngunit kung ikaw'y mananatili ka laman sa aking panaginip,
Itatanong sa sariling "sino ka nga ba't sa akin panaginip hindi ka ma-alis?".
Sinabi ko noon kakayanin kong mawala ka.