I cannot process a heartbreak that I have yet to begin. Not a lover, but a friend that left my heart in two. 15 years of memories, laughs, secrets, and sleepovers. From grade 3, yet you still found it in your heart to leave.
Do you know how it feels? Acerbic. I just tried to show you the red flags yet he convinced you that I was one instead. You chose a man that cares for nothing more than getting in your pants, over a friend that only wants you to be safe
Was it easy for you to give us up? You made the decision so suddenly that the knife of numbness is still stuck in my heart. I'm scared of what I'll feel once I try to remove it. For now it's fear of what will happen when you're left with just him.
I look at myself and wonder if I'm a bad person for letting you stay. Then I look at pictures of you and remember you decided to drop me. Yet I still pose the the question "Am I the *******?"
Based off of 15 years of friendship down the drain faster than water from a sink. Also inspired by the title of the subreddit "Am I The *******"
5 months ago today, Was the first time i fell for you But things didn't go as planned and we had to say goodbye And i can safely say now, That I'm finally over you That I'm no longer holding onto you
Before a breath in, it is there— muggy, swampy, heavenly. Before a barefoot step outside, sweat folds into the skin and won’t let go
that time they write about is upon us. Consider this the preface to a 19th summer.
Where you sneak around drinking sub-par humid beer, stolen from the forgotten bucket left outside. The June when you finally get to see what all the fuss is about— a sweaty push and pull you’ve wondered about for years.
Freedom is before you, released from the shackles of high school, from a love that came too quickly, and refused to leave.
get on that train, into that car that you can finally touch; do things with that boy you don’t love.
Home has never felt more like home than when you’re on the porch, venturing into a midnight that is dripping with warmth and the knowledge that never again could you feel this young and this old.