Tell me honestly
Have you not look into the mirror
stared at your eyes
recalled my words
"When I look into your Eyes"
Did not your eyes sparkle more?
I received a message from
someone today that said I mention being dyslexic with the purpose of attention seeking
but they don't
The reason Its mentioned
Is because people try to help by correcting me but I don't won't my mistake corrected
I'm not out to gain anything for
being on this site It purely for my late wife I want her to be remembered not me
It also hinted I use this site like a dating site which completely confused
me sure I met a friend here on site we text each day but she In America we'll never meet we are
Some people need to get
a life stop making judgements on what hey don't know I love my wife
I think of Helen every second of every
It was also hinted I was looking for a replacement wife this really angered me my wife Helen was my one and only they don't
i am nowhere to go
i took the road
and i knew it was wrong
yet i took it
i am oblivious of things to do
i chased questions
and i knew it wasn't answers
yet i yearned for it
i dont know me
What do you think of my hair? Be honest, but not too honest; I need to know if I should braid it, not if I should chop it all off.
Alright, perhaps I'm listless
Drained, by my past now gone
So, please don't get ahead of yourself
You won't find what you're hoping for
But I do hope you're not disappointed
I can only be who I am, to who I try to be
But if you so choose to go on with me
I hope you remember what was said from the beginning
Don't tell me that you love me
Because I won't love back
Don't tell me that you need me
Because I don't need that
Don't tell me that you want me
Because I'm on my own
When it all start to whittle
Remember every bit of what was said, every bit of it
Yes, maybe I want to be by myself
Not wanting anyone else
But I'm not
For I truly hope you're not disappointed
I could only be who I am, to who I try to be
But if you so dare, to go on
Don't you use those words, those gestures,
Or even make promises that hold no meaning to you
Because to me they will and once they do I hold on to them
While I'm easily crippled, to be repaired with side effects.
If I was to be honest I don't know either.
Based of lyrics Alone by Bazzi
i wasn't aware of the pain you felt.
but if i could have taken it from you,
i'd let it skin me alive.
my body went into shock
it was like watching a terrible
accident happen right before my eyes
my adrenaline is pumping
my heart is racing
i feel like i've lost all control
sick to my stomach
something i can't quite comprehend
or make sense of
-watching you love someone else
You say that comparing you
To the stars would be an insult.
Frankly, I don’t care for their:
You are my light, that comforts
Me in the darkness.
Your arms are a:
Home, for my heart.
Calming the tempest in my mind.
Written 11/03/19, for her
was i turning into something that you hate?
did my face, or name not feel the same?
my sister wrote a poem about destruction.
she said she never drank alcohol or took pills to get over the loss.
but i did.
i washed down a bottle that rattles with a bottle of *****.
sometimes i added a sleep aid.
there were a few mornings when i thought i woke up in hell.
but i wasn’t dead.
the world didn’t allow that. it knew i had to stick around, had too much to do.
that didn’t stop the hospitalization.
didn’t stop my family from taking the locks off my doors.
that’s how i know we were different.
i had a love i would’ve died for.
but i don’t want to die anymore.