bodies - fisher nests
- let the cutch go

Those involuntary thoughts of hurting yourself,
to cut yourself,
to tear your body to pieces.
To cry without restraint.
To scream so hard your voice breaks.
To break into chunks of fat and mold,
colliding onto the floor.
To dissolve in the ocean,
To self-combust;
To be born again and whole.

Lizard’s tail twitch,twist
Poor bug’s wings reciprocate;
The deal is done quick!

Distress calls are a Venus flytrap
Don’t come flying to the rescue
Or your wings will be
Its 4 o’clock snack
Can’t seem to shut its flap
Ever hungry for more
Always empty at the core
Traveler beware;
Heed not that mayday;
Move on and pay no care!

I care,
I do,
I wish I didn't.

It's like you,
You've been dissolved,
Into my skin,
It's an involuntary friendship,
I just can't get rid of you.

Mind you,
This,
This is simply a friendship,
One that tears me down every time,
Yet I want more,
I wish I didn't.

You're sightless,
Ignorant,
Even when I scream,
You're ignorant,
I know this,
Yet I care so much,
I don't want to get rid of you,
I just can't get rid of you.

I care,
I do,
Too much,
Seemingly too little.

Truly,
I care,
I do,
I wish I didn't.

Do you know what it feels like to go mad
And to know there's no way you can stop it?
For those thoughts, they race to no finish line;
You can't convince yourself it's make believe
Because it's the only reality
Your shattered mind can still some what process.

There's that-but no, this-but then-no-shut up!
My hands begin to quiver, fingers pressed
Against my temple; they slide down my cheeks,
Cold, lifeless almost, if they weren't moving
Involuntarily, out of control
Like my thoughts of utmost insanity.

How do I know I'm insane then? Because
Of the looks I get, the judgement is blunt
And I was taught better one time ago
When my brain understood some more logic.
I'm going mad, sharp breaths, desperate thoughts
I want to stop it but I just cannot.

This is what happens when mind scares the heart
And all that is left to do is escape.