My eyes are running black
The sky is starting to crack
My back is starting to ache
As my hands start to shake
My vocals are starting to strain
I'll keep pushing through the pain
I'll keep making my way
Writing my own fate
All these tears won't wash the memories away
I'll keep holding on, Stand strong
Proving I can handle anything that goes wrong

No, I won't fight back the tears
No, I won't hold back what I think
I've held it in for far too long
I'm letting it all loose
No more weight on my shoulders
Need to be a little bit braver
A little bit bolder
After all the mistakes I made
I feel a little bit wiser

Don't give in (To all your pain)
Don't throw (Everyone you love away)
I'm starting to see
You don't need to do everything
On your own
You don't have to always feel alone
I'm not just another shadow
on the floor
I'm starting to see the ones
Who've earned my love
And I'm starting to see
I get it back in return

You've been here all along
To help carry the load I bear
You've always been there
To guide me with your hand
And all the love we have, We share
You plus me have been through every tragedy
It's taken all this time to learn
You can help me breathe
Tell me everything you see in me
I'll let down the walls
Take a look at all the flaws
And all the hurt that was all my fault
But you see where perfection lies
and sincerity that is trying to hide
the broken piece to my heart you'll find
Because I want you to be classed as mine

No, I won't fight back the tears
No, I won't hold back what I think
I've held it in for far too long
I'm letting it all loose
No more weight on my shoulders
Need to be a little bit braver
A little bit bolder
After all the mistakes I made
I feel a little bit wiser

Don't give in (To all your pain)
Don't throw (Everyone you love away)
I'm starting to see
You don't need to do everything
On your own
You don't have to always feel alone
I'm not just another shadow
on the floor
I'm starting to see the ones
Who've earned my love
And I'm starting to see
I get it back in return

You're here in every waking moment
Struggle with me through every problem
You know every scar that is marked on my heart
You've wiped every tear that I cry
You said I was your soldier who makes you smile
And all the battles that we have faced
Have carried us to a higher and safer place
In your arms I know I'm safe
And no matter what darkness lies inside
I know you'll protect me with your life
As will I
Because baby you're my kryptonite
You could try counting all the stars
But you can't count all the ways
In which I love you
I'll never put another above you
Because everything I am
Is everything you gave me
And I won't throw that away for anybody
Cuz you are my everybody
Your the one and only
With you, I could never feel lonely
There was only room for two
Honey that was me plus you.

No, I won't fight back the tears
No, I won't hold back what I think
I've held it in for far too long
I'm letting it all loose
No more weight on my shoulders
Need to be a little bit braver
A little bit bolder
After all the mistakes I made
I feel a little bit wiser

Don't give in (To all your pain)
Don't throw (Everyone you love away)
I'm starting to see
You don't need to do everything
On your own
You don't have to always feel alone
I'm not just another shadow
on the floor
I'm starting to see the ones
Who've earned my love
And I'm starting to see
I get it back in return

©2017 Written By Benji James

I remember walking down the street
Hand in hand you next to me
And I wish I could relive those moments
They were the ones that made me feel close
And now I only see you from a distance
And I die inside every time
Because I know you'll never be mine
I wonder if you ever think of me
Because I know I always think about you
Everything we could have been
Everything I could have done with you
Now it's all just a dream
Because you are so out of reach

And you've become every regret
That I just can't face
You've become the reason
That I stay awake so late
And I can't find a way
To make the thoughts of you fade
I can't find a way
To walk the other way

I can't look at you anymore
It hurts to bad at the core
I lose myself in frustration
That I was never good enough for you
Take another pill just to help me deal
Every night an endless fight
Your locked here
in this never-ending love of mine

You were everything I wanted to be with
Every time I look into your blue eyes
You sent shivers down my spine
Every time that you cried
I could feel your hurt inside
And tears would run down these cheeks
I would hold you close to me
But I couldn't make any bigger moves
Looking back I should have taken the risk
And kissed those beautiful lips

And you've become every regret
That I just can't face
You've become the reason
That I stay awake so late
And I can't find a way
To make the thoughts of you fade
I can't find a way
To walk the other way

I can't look at you anymore
It hurts to bad at the core
I lose myself in frustration
That I was never good enough for you
Take another pill just to help me deal
Every night an endless fight
Your locked here
in this never-ending love of mine

Every time I see you with him
The jealousy starts kicking in
And I can't handle it
I can't handle the reasons
Behind why I left
Maybe they weren't good enough
Another flashback kicks in
I close my eyes and remember
The time I saw you undress
Even though you told me not to look
I couldn't help it I was hooked
Maybe I should have made a move
But I never wanted to hurt you
By making the wrong decisions
Maybe that's what happened
In the end
Dropped your heart out of these shaking hands

And you've become every regret
That I just can't face
You've become the reason
That I stay awake so late
And I can't find a way
To make the thoughts of you fade
I can't find a way
To walk the other way

I can't look at you anymore
It hurts to bad at the core
I lose myself in frustration
That I was never good enough for you
Take another pill just to help me deal
Every night an endless fight
Your locked here
in this never-ending love of mine

All this emotion swirls inside
All this hurt swells up my mind
The darkness covers up these skies
Salty tears flow out these eyes
This is my last goodbye
One last time this is goodnight.

©2017 Written By Benji James

She's sitting alone in the dark tonight
You haven't seen all the tears she cried
You haven't seen all the wounds she hides
She keeps her deepest feelings inside

And she'd stand for him in the pouring rain

Just so, she could be in his arms again

If he left she'd never feel the same

He's the blood that flows through her veins

In her heart is the place he'll always remain

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

This girl could cave in anytime
This girl feels invisible all the time
She's trying so hard to show him the sign
That she wants him by her side
And it's only a matter of time
Before she decides
Whether she'll stay his prisoner tonight
She'd give everything to break out of the chains
But she's still burning in the flames
And she still feels the shame
She feels part of the blame.

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

Regrets we've all had a few
But the girl doesn't realise
The boy is hiding things from her to
She wants to make a change
He secretly calls out her name
The mascaras running beneath her eyes
She's wiped those tears a million times
But it's alright to cry
Over the boy too shy to give her his time
Over the boy who misses all the signs
Over the boy who can't see her dying inside

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

©2017 Written By Benji James

In a time when the world
Is looking for change
And everyone's had enough of the hate
And people are sick of political games
And people are seeking another way
To deal with all the corruption and I can feel a new symphony
And I can see people questioning
Everything going on in the background
And there starting to break out
No more silence
Because that's not the way
Yeah you've got to have your say

Can you feel the pressure uprising
Can you feel the earth tremble beneath your feet
And your eyes are wide open
Seeing information they've never seen
All the production behind the dream
Open up the curtain it's a manipulated scene

In a time we are looking for change
We all start to see
There is a better way
And voices shout out loud
Telling authority
We can't be, pushed around
In a time we are looking for change
We all start to feel
There is another way.

And all this time
How could we be so blind
When there selling weapons
to our enemies and sending out our soldiers to the front lines
What makes them think they can put a price on a life
So that they can gain control of resources that aren't ours
Guess its true money makes the world go round
And all this is spinning out of control

Can you feel the pressure uprising
Can you feel the earth tremble beneath your feet
And your eyes are wide open
Seeing information they've never seen
All the production behind the dream
Open up the curtain it's a manipulated scene

In a time we are looking for change
We all start to see
There is a better way
And voices shout out loud
Telling authority
We can't be, pushed around
In a time we are looking for change
We all start to feel
There is another way.

How can you trust the media when all they feed is lies
a lot of the time
And keyboard warriors out there put their mouths into stories
where they just don't belong
There hating on someone
Who doesn't always deserve it
Because they don't see all the facts
All the media care about is a good story
Even if that means false reporting
It's all about the money they make
Or the power it brings to people who own the company
Taking advantage of everyone who believes
What they see on the TV

Can you feel the pressure uprising
Can you feel the earth tremble beneath your feet
And your eyes are wide open
Seeing information they've never seen
All the production behind the dream
Open up the curtain it's a manipulated scene

In a time we are looking for change
We all start to see
There is a better way
And voices shout out loud
Telling authority
We can't be, pushed around
In a time we are looking for change
We all start to feel
There is another way.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Do you think about the times?
We used to have each others backs
Do you remember the times?
We used to tell each other our deepest secrets
No matter how big the scars
What happened to us?
The one I could trust, What happened
To the love, The one I could count on
Where have you been, Where have you gone
Thought you were here to catch me, when I fall
I'm so close to being torn,
I need you back inside these walls.

©2017 Written By Benji James

I wanna use your heart
Like an acoustic guitar
Let all the emotion pour out
And turn it into sound
Tell me all about
The troubles in your head
That keep you awake so late
While lying in your bed
Tell me about
The nightmares you dread
Tell me what hurts
That has been said
I'm here to serve and protect
And there is one thing
I must confess
I cleaned you up
When you were a mess
I've seen you at your worst
And at your best.

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

I can see your soul
Behind your eyes
I can see the truth
Behind your lies
I can feel the hurt
Behind your smile
I know you want me to stay
Longer than a while
I know you want me
to hold you tight for the whole night
I can see the tears you want to cry
Go ahead let it out,
I'm here with you right now
I can see you want me in your eyes
I can feel the love you hold inside
(YEAH)

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

Don't pull away
Find your way in to me
Just take a look and you will see
How much you really mean
I've been your strength
Through the fall
The demons
We fought them all
I've been there
Every time you called
Now take a chance
Let's make this change
It a decision we both have to make
Don't let me fade
Don't let me down
Because I always want you around
I need you here
You need me to
Don't let these thoughts
Escape from you
Cuz I can see
that you love me
And you know
that I will always be
The one for you

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

©2017 Written By Benji James

Picking myself back up
from the floor
Back on my feet
One foot in front
Of the other
I'm learning to walk again
Step by step
I'm learning that I can dance
I promise
I won't mark my arms
Never let another girl
Break my heart
Never let another
Stray me from my path

I won't stop
Until I reach an encore
I want more
Never gonna stop
Until I reach an encore
I want it all
Give me more, give me more
Top of the charts
Yeah I want it all
Not gonna stop until I reach my encore

All I need is to find redemption
For all these failed mistakes
I've found a way to clean the slate
I know now I can refill my plate
Destined to be great
I still haven't figured out my fate
But I'm learning a little every day
And I'm now figuring out
I'm heading the right way
Sorry for all of my complaints
I know not being perfect is okay
Thanks to all of those
who just accept my flaws and faults
This is who I am
I really hope you understand

I won't stop
Until I reach an encore
I want more
Never gonna stop
Until I reach an encore
I want it all
Give me more, give me more
Top of the charts
Yeah I want it all
Not gonna stop until I reach my encore

I promise
I won't create any more scars
I'm learning to trust in love
And I don't mean the relationship thing
I mean love,
straight from the heart
The one that accepts you
for who you are
And I've been laying all alone
In the dark trying to hold on
And now a light is burning bright
And I'm starting to read
in between the lines
It says everything's
going to be alright
Yeah everything's
going to be just fine

I won't stop
Until I reach an encore
I want more
Never gonna stop
Until I reach an encore
I want it all
Give me more, give me more
Top of the charts
Yeah I want it all
Not gonna stop until I reach my encore

©2017 Written By Benji James

Music can give sight to the blind
It can captivate minds
Give lessons in life
Capture a memory in time

©2017 Written By Benji James

Shocked my heart back to life
Haven't felt this good in a while
There's a feeling taking me over
I forgot this is happiness
I forgot how to breathe in deeply
I forgot how to consume these feelings
You're doing everything right
You're showing me everything is gonna be just fine

Check my vital signs
Look at me again in these eyes
Think my hearts beating
out of my chest
I could get used to this

Haven't even seen the best
Of you just yet
How can you be so perfect
Somehow I know
that you're worth it
How can you be so perfect
Somehow I know
That you're all that I need
You set my love free
You set my love free

Don't remember the last time
I've felt this happy
Don't remember the last time
I felt this comfortable with somebody
You bring a new meaning into my life
You're helping me see there are clearer skies
On the other side
You've been running through my mind
You've got a warm feeling so kind
Glad you came in at just the right time

Check my vital signs
Look at me again in these eyes
Think my hearts beating
out of my chest
I could get used to this

Haven't even seen the best
Of you just yet
How can you be so perfect
Somehow I know
that you're worth it
How can you be so perfect
Somehow I know
That you're all that I need
You set my love free
You set my love free

They say everything happens
for a reason
They say good things come to those who wait
I'm starting to believe what they say
You're making me believe more every day
Thought I was destined to be alone
Now I'm not so sure
Think I'm gonna let down these four walls
Just to let you in
Because I trust you with everything
So let me put my hand in yours
Bring you inside my world
Show you're the one and only girl

Check my vital signs
Look at me again in these eyes
Think my hearts beating
out of my chest
I could get used to this

Haven't even seen the best
Of you just yet
How can you be so perfect
Somehow I know
that you're worth it
How can you be so perfect
Somehow I know
That you're all that I need
You set my love free
You set my love free.

©2017 Written By Benji James

I’m sorry
For all the ways I broke your heart
The way I cut us off
Cuz I was craving somebody else
That went on to hustle my heart
Made some bad decisions in my life
Hey girl, I don’t regret it
All I can say is I’m sorry
For the way I hurt you
You deserve real love
From somebody who can return
the love that you’re giving
All I can say is I’m sorry
From the depths of my soul

Karma got me in the end
I’m more alone than I’ve ever been
And this is what I deserve
For causing all of this hurt
From your pain
There was nothing I could gain
Tried to make the right choices
For the both of us
Never meant to cause this misery
and the resentment you now have against me.

I’m sorry for all the ways
That I have let you down
Don’t expect forgiveness
From you now
I’m still saying sorry
For all the things that I have done
I confess I didn’t mean no harm
But I know all the ways that I broke your spirit
I hope through my lyrics
You will see I didn’t really mean it
To end in this way, had to leave you
When I seen you couldn’t even speak to me
No hard feelings darling.

Karma got me in the end
I’m more alone than I’ve ever been
And this is what I deserve
For causing all of this hurt
From your pain
There was nothing I could gain
Tried to make the right choices
For the both of us
Never meant to cause this misery
and the resentment you now have against me.

Sorry for all those words
That would have stung
When I told you I wasn’t in love
With you, the way I was in love with her
Was one of the hardest things
I’ve ever done
Had to follow my heart
Wanted to be with the one I truely loved
And that meant letting you down
I know I failed your trust
I know things will never be the same
And you have every reason
To be angry at me
For the love that you truely felt deep inside
And I cut in deep, like a knife
When I told you,
I couldn’t see you
As the significant other in my life
And I’m okay, I’m doing alright
Hope you found happiness
Hope you found love
All I can say is sorry
From the bottom of my heart

Karma got me in the end
I’m more alone than I’ve ever been
And this is what I deserve
For causing all of this hurt
From your pain
There was nothing I could gain
Tried to make the right choices
For the both of us
Never meant to cause this misery
and the resentment you now have against me.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Do you remember the time
You committed that crime
You took what was mine
Thought you were a sign
To become the good in my life
Instead, you torment my mind
How did I become so blind
To everything you hide
Deep behind those dark eyes
You were never going to be mine
Together I thought we would shine
But instead, I got bind
To the hate that you gave
And now I'm a slave
You anticipate every move that I make
Now it's the choices I made
That is controlling my fate
It's the love that you take
But all that you gave was fake
And I hate everything you do and say
Because with my heart you play
And that is not fair to me
Cuz I gave all I could
If I could trust you I would
But I don't know if I should
All I saw in you was so good
But you mistreated my trust
You caused such a rush
I've spilt so much blood
Thinking it could gain your love
Instead, it got tough
And the road became rough
Wasn't strong enough
To overcome your touch
I wanted so much
But you threw it all back in my face
My faith in you was misplaced
Should have tried to escape
Your lovesick game
You've drowned me in my shame
But I'm the only one to blame
Because I should never have played
Into your hands
But all this has given me a plan
To take all that I am
To become a better man.

©2017 Written By Benji James

I'm hungrier than you
I'll take all the cake
and eat that too
I'm fat with, passion
You can bet your ***
on that one
Read that one in a caption
If you can't accept my truths
Then you can't accept who I am to
So just dig yourself a grave
and lay in it
Don't want your opinions
I'll just bin it
Comfortable in this skin
I've been gifted
You can cover me with labels
But I'm stable on this one-legged table

There have been so many times
I've questioned the choices
I've made in this life
Nothing can be changed
I'm here in this sitch
From foiled plans
I was on my stomach
crawling through a wasteland
I found strength through the fall
Now I stand,
Yeah, I'm marked, Yeah, I'm scarred
I'm standing, changing my branding
New thoughts through clear minded eyes

Never too late to refresh the page
Start a new story in this franchised novel
A brand new book, Blank page, clean slate
It's alright, never too late
No matter what age
Never too late for change
Slow down, taking a new pace
take your time to set the stage
The spotlights there, when you're ready
There will be a time and chance
for you to ignite these skies
and blow everybody's minds

Mind says you want your keep
well you better earn it
It's better if you just learn that
sooner then later
You'll come to understand
sometimes moments framed in your mind
don't come to fruition
It's all about not giving in
Doesn't mean you can't do it
Just means that's not the way
you went meant to make it
So for new chances just create it
Keep on shooting
eventually, something sticks

There have been so many times
I've questioned the choices
I've made in this life
Nothing can be changed
I'm here in this sitch
From foiled plans
I was on my stomach
crawling through a wasteland
I found strength through the fall
Now I stand,
Yeah, I'm marked, Yeah, I'm scarred
I'm standing, changing my branding
New thoughts through clear minded eyes

Never too late to refresh the page
Start a new story in this franchised novel
A brand new book, Blank page, clean slate
It's alright, never too late
No matter what age
Never too late for change
Slow down, taking a new pace
take your time to set the stage
The spotlights there, when you're ready
There will be a time and chance
for you to ignite these skies
and blow everybody's minds

Ever feel like you've wasted a decade
of your life
Those were thoughts that entered my head
Until the realisation
It was just training
For me to be prepared
The rewards are there to reap
Just gotta keep trying ideas
until something hits
explode into imagination
There's no destination
You can't reach
When you put all your focus
Into what you want
You're gonna achieve it
Don't let anybody tell you
That you'll never do it
They'll be the ones that look dumb
When you reach it.

There have been so many times
I've questioned the choices
I've made in this life
Nothing can be changed
I'm here in this sitch
From foiled plans
I was on my stomach
crawling through a wasteland
I found strength through the fall
Now I stand,
Yeah, I'm marked, Yeah, I'm scarred
I'm standing, changing my branding
New thoughts through clear minded eyes

Never too late to refresh the page
Start a new story in this franchised novel
A brand new book, Blank page, clean slate
It's alright, never too late
No matter what age
Never too late for change
Slow down, taking a new pace
take your time to set the stage
The spotlights there, when you're ready
There will be a time and chance
for you to ignite these skies
and blow everybody's minds

©2018 Written By Benji James

Back on my high horse
Preaching, teaching
information, education
How to be a better creation
Of your own making
If I fall off my pedestal
I'll surely die
because I'm up so high
Stop trying to knock my know-nothings
Filling the air with empty words
They only fall on deaf ears
Inspirational quotes
Shared on virtual screens
You get lost somewhere in between

©2018 Written By Benji James

Hey girl
It seems you pulled my heart
Straight from my chest
Sent it back in a box
With a stamp that said rejected
Oh oh here we go
Always leave me feeling
So low, oh no, here we go
I'm hanging from the ceiling
Held up by these demons
Oh lord this just ain't right
Wasn't ready for this fight
Okay, alright, better hold on tight
As my eyes turn from brown to red
Rage starts to grow
In my face, it start to show

Hell yes, hell no
My mind starts to argue
With itself
And I'm caught in the middle
Of all these thoughts
What should I do
What should I do
What should I do about you
Can't stay, need to go
Keep moving on
Just keep looking forward
Keep moving on

I've got a sinking feeling
Somethings strumming my nerves
Keep hitting kerbs
Keep losing out
And I'm trying to find a way
That I can stop from hurting now
Somebody take this heart
I don't want it anymore
Somebody take this soul
I don't need it anymore
Just let me hit the floor
Don't feel like getting back up at all

Hell yes, hell no
My mind starts to argue
With itself
And I'm caught in the middle
Of all these thoughts
What should I do
What should I do
What should I do about you
Can't stay, need to go
Keep moving on
Just keep looking forward
Keep moving on

Trying to find new ways
To keep me sane
Trying to find new ways
To keep me from breaking up again
And I'm leaving all the broken parts behind
Just trying to keep my head held high
I'm gonna be just fine
Keep walking it'll all be alright
Just give it a little time
Breathe in, breathe out
Let it all go
Just let life take the wheel
And move with the flow

Hell yes, hell no
My mind starts to argue
With itself
And I'm caught in the middle
Of all these thoughts
What should I do
What should I do
What should I do about you
Can't stay, need to go
Keep moving on
Just keep looking forward
Keep moving on

©2017 Written By Benji James

Late night. Starlight
Bright eyed, Heartbeats
So fast, Breathe in deep
Memories flash, Vivid Dreams
Bright skies, Milky way lights
Oh, girl, you're my shooting star
I'm gonna catch you
Before you hit the ground
Superman flies high tonight
Holds you in his arms so tight
Oh I'm never letting go
No never letting go
I won't watch this picture fade
No time, No moment goes to waste
When it's you and me, lost in each other's minds
Close your eyes, Dream away
To sunny days, Open fields, Waterfalls and grassy hills
Oh I'm never letting go
Never letting go of this
Never letting go of you
All I see is me inside of you

©2017 Written By Benji James

Hey, I’m back
From floating in the depths
Of my imagination
Still walking through this life

To that final destination
Still picking up my shattered pride
Still learning to change elements 

To make myself feel better

I fight my insecurities, daily.
Depression comes creeping in, Daily
I fight through these mixed emotions, Daily
I crack a smile and jokes just to cope, daily

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside

Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display

This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

People I don’t even know judge me, daily
Rumours fluctuate about me, daily
I fight my constant fears of failing, daily
I’ve been pushing myself to places
I thought I would never go, daily
I reminisce and simmer in memories of better days, daily
I dream I could be doing better things in life, daily
I’m stuck in all my typical ways of thinking, daily

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside

Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display

This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

I still get jealous, daily
Can’t help thinking
how I could have been a better man
then who you’re with now...daily
Still, flow through ideas,
of all the things we could have been, daily
Still crosses my mind
All the ways that I’ve let people down, daily
Still shake, still tremble, still scared
I’ll never be good enough, daily
Still fear rejection, daily
Still waking up, daily

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside

Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display

This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

I can be the one who tells you,
You’re looking beautiful, daily.
I can be the one who opens you up
To feel real love, daily.
I’ll be the one who’ll make you smile daily.
I still find good moments in bad days, daily.
We can fight our fears bravely, daily
I can give you hope, daily
I can shine a little light I hold inside, daily
I still write lines, daily
I promise I’ll strive to be,
The best me I can be, daily.

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside

Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display

This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

©2018 Written By Benji James

In the dead of night
These lines come to life
This is the legacy
That I leave behind
Am I awake or blind
I can't seem to find
The light on the other side
Am I, am I alright
Still holding on tight
Know a little, still, don't know a lot
Is this the way, I keep going off
Think I'm lost
I keep going off
I think I'm lost
I think I'm lost

Lost in the deep end
I think I might be drowning
Too much, too late
I've gone a little overboard
Trying to float
Keep my head above the water
Seas are getting rough
Do I say too much, too soon
Suffocating,
air leaving me like an open balloon
I've had enough of the strangers
Messing in my brain
Ever live in life
Wishing you were dead
Late nights in bed
I'm out of my head
It's not right,
give a little, lose a lot
That's how it goes

In the dead of night
These lines come to life
This is the legacy
That I leave behind
Am I awake or blind
I can't seem to find
The light on the other side
Am I, am I alright
Still holding on tight
Know a little, still, don't know a lot
Is this the way, I keep going off
Think I'm lost
I keep going off
I think I'm lost
I think I'm lost

Spill a little blood,
give into the screams
Frightened by these horrific scenes
Behind the silver TV screen
Looking for a script
I could apply to life
Hate not knowing where I'm going in this life
Have you got a plan
That maybe I could apply to mine
Always need a way out
Another formulated escape
I think I need to get out of here
Before I lose myself
Turn into something else

In the dead of night
These lines come to life
This is the legacy
That I leave behind
Am I awake or blind
I can't seem to find
The light on the other side
Am I, am I alright
Still holding on tight
Know a little, still, don't know a lot
Is this the way, I keep going off
Think I'm lost
I keep going off
I think I'm lost
I think I'm lost

There are gremlins in the closet
Monsters underneath my bed
Something invading my skies
Can't see what it is
Don't know what it is
Voices keep whispering in my ear
Not sure I want to do
What it is I hear
Something just sunk inside
Think my heart could stop at anytime
Pains in my chest
Vital signs, I'm still alive
Somethings out there
Coming for me
Reapers here R.I.P

In the dead of night
These lines come to life
This is the legacy
That I leave behind
Am I awake or blind
I can't seem to find
The light on the other side
Am I, am I alright
Still holding on tight
Know a little, still, don't know a lot
Is this the way, I keep going off
Think I'm lost
I keep going off
I think I'm lost
I think I'm lost

©2017 Written By Benji James

All dressed up
With nowhere to go
A phone full of numbers
With no one to call
Guess I should have replied
To all the messages I got sent
Instead, I shut everyone out
That when you pay the price
In behind these lonely eyes
Lies dormant emotions inside
Ready to awaken from this slumber
Oh how I wish I could rewind
Make better decision in my life

Sympathy ain't found here
You made your own decisions
It should be crystal clear
Why you're all alone
Staring at your shadow
Upon the wall
Hoping, waiting for somebody to call

That is when you hear
Just deal with it
No, I won't give in
Just deal with it
Can't shake this
Sinking feeling
I won't just deal with it
I won't give in
I'll keep fighting
till my last breath
I won't just deal with it
Deal with it

Late night drives
Just don't work like they used to
I need someone till fills this void
There's a hole in my soul
Looking for a spark
Looking for a jumpstart
To reenergize my heart
There's something in my mind
Trying to stay optimistic
That it'll all be okay
But there's still no sign
Of an end to all this rain
There still no cure
To this pain.

Sympathy ain't found here
You made your own decisions
It should be crystal clear
Why you're all alone
Staring at your shadow
Upon the wall
Hoping, waiting for somebody to call

That is when you hear
Just deal with it
No, I won't give in
Just deal with it
Can't shake this
Sinking feeling
I won't just deal with it
I won't give in
I'll keep fighting
till my last breath
I won't just deal with it
Deal with it

They say home is where the heart is
Never has a line ever been so true
That why I'm out in the darkness
Searching for you
Looking for a little light
To brighten my sky
Somehow I hold onto hope
Everything's gonna work out right
Somehow I figure
I'm gonna find you
At just the right time

Sympathy ain't found here
You made your own decisions
It should be crystal clear
Why you're all alone
Staring at your shadow
Upon the wall
Hoping, waiting for somebody to call

That is when you hear
Just deal with it
No, I won't give in
Just deal with it
Can't shake this
Sinking feeling
I won't just deal with it
I won't give in
I'll keep fighting
till my last breath
I won't just deal with it
Deal with it

©2017 Written By Benji James

You are so beautiful,
Your eyes glow like sapphires
You've got a smile
that lights up the night skies
I know cuz it makes me smile too
I feel your pain when your hurting
And that burns me to the core
Cuz making you happy
it's what I'm here for,
I'd give everything to have a girl
like you in my life
You inspire and give me courage
to keep on fighting every day
You'd be all I'd ever dream of
if you let me in
Your secrets are safe
in my locked mind
Cuz I'd do anything to prove
I'm worth your time
I'd share the world with you
And give you all I have
Your kind and sweet
as far as I can see
your perfection in my eyes
And I wouldn't believe anybody
who told me otherwise.
I'd wipe the tears and running mascara
from your eyes
If you took the chance
to see what lies inside
I can see what lies inside of you
You can make me laugh
with your quirky little ways
Your an individual
and that makes me proud to say
I've never met anybody quite like you
Your cute in everything you do
Being mad or upset with you
would be impossible in my world
Because you're such an amazing girl
I'd die, I'd lie, I'd cry with you
And always hold you tight
I'd never want to let you go
Cuz you're all I think about
every minute of every day
I wonder how your feeling
I wonder what your thinking
And all that is running
through your mind
I know things aren't easy
for you right now
But I'll always be there
when you call
I'll catch you before the fall
I'll always find a way to heal
the scars deep inside your heart
And share the load you bare
Cuz I'd do anything to get you
through every twist and turn
You have all my love
and the honesty in my heart
Your the only one I'd give it too
If you took the chance on me
I'll be everything you need
I hope that I'm everything
you could want
But deep inside I feel like
you deserve a better man
But I don't know how to let go
I wanna know you inside out
I'd like to find
what makes you weak in the knees
Your favourite colour
and favourite place to be,
the movies and music
I could share with you
Long walks and hold your hand
But most of all the taste of your kiss
the soft touch of your tender lips
is a memory I'd like to make
But there's a long road ahead
I wanna do it right
Take it slow, are you in for the ride?
Or would you pass this opportunity
and deny all that I write.
Would you let it just pass by?

©2018 Written By Benji James

All these thoughts that fill my head
Bringing up past memories again
Crystal clear images visualised through these eyes
Once a lost moment in time
Now lay before me
A replay, rerun, on all the wrong that I had done
All the words I sprayed they were displayed
In a mantle case, Dumb things I once said
Wish I'd erased them from my head
They keep creeping up on me
A person I wish I'd never been
Seems it keeps bringing me to my knees
Why can't I let it go
I'm better now than I was then
I'm just a mortal man
That makes mistakes
In all these perfect ways
And all these silly things
Plague my mind
Distorted images through time
Remember when?
That is when memories come flooding in
All these questions we face
At random times through the day
The What If's and Buts
Still, linger in each one of us
No matter how much that we refuse
There's gonna be a time
In which you reflect
And question things you've done
It's not silly, It's not dumb
It happens to every one of us
It's all of those things
That we are, who we are today
And no matter your flaws
or what mistakes that were made
I'll still hold you in the highest embrace.

Look who's back 
with a lyrical attack
One to divide all nations 
But I'm trapped in a game
Where I can't even make a name
Isn't it a shame 
Still looking for someone to blame
What's the reason 
that keeps me from making music
Guess it's time I came to claim 
What is rightfully mine 
I've been down a hard road
A bandit in time
And holding me back 
That's is a crime
By the grace of God
I've got to give all I've got
And maybe that isn't a lot
But you think that will stop me
I think not
I had to come back
With brand new tactics
Cuz lets face it 
I've let this go on for far too long
And to not do anything 
would just be wrong 
It's time to build an army 
Come back strong 
Cuz I've been waiting 
For a moment for far too long 
Yep guess I got it going on now
Anticipation is starting to build 
And I may not have much *** appeal
But that doesn't mean 
I can't make you squeal 
Say my name, 
ain't no more chains
Holding me down
Got my gun reloaded
Back for another round
And maybe you scratched 
my name In the side
Of a piece of shrapnel 
Try break my pride
Think I give a **** what you think 
**** life's not bliss
Living on the edge of a knife like this
come along for a ride 
Inside of my mind 
Come through the darkness, blind
That's not enough to keep me 
Off of my grind
The stars realigned 
For a person with passion 
I'm back on the rise 
No natural disaster can stop me
No bullet can **** me 
No razor blade cuts will scar me 
Sometimes things cut deep
But I'm impenetrable 
After everything I've been through 
Won't burn through the pages
Don't lie, you know I'm dangerous 
Not afraid to dance on the tables
Cuz I've been through it all
Ain't nothing gonna phase me no more

©2017 Written By Benji James

Mmmm
That dress brings out your eyes
Mmmm
You're the one who lights up my life
I wanna take a drive
With you at my side
Let's take a drive
Just you and I
Take control of my stereo
Let's go somewhere beautiful
Because girl you know
That you're beautiful to me

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

Girl put your hand in mine
When I look over at you
Can't help but smile
It's cute how you sing along
to every song that comes on
Pretty sure that you
could do no wrong
And I want this moment to last forever
This is where I'm happiest
This is where I feel I should be
What does it matter
All that matters is that you're with me

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

And I'd drive 1000 miles
Just to see you smile
Yeah I'd drive a thousand more
Just to prove
that you're the girl that I adore
Windows down, hair flowing in the breeze
Look any more beautiful
and I'll hardly be able to breathe
You're everything to me
And it completely seems
You've unchained my heart
Oh free to fall in love

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

You're the release that is need
You helped me to see
Those good things will come,
To those who wait
Thought my fate
Was to grow old alone
But now I know
Life was just waiting for the right time
To bring you into my life
And I've opened up my heart
To let your light shine in
To let you show me how to love again

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

Every moment is perfectly worth it
You're showing me, it's okay
To trust, it's okay to open up
And as we sing along to the radio
I feel that you know
My heart only beats for you
Your lips are all I want to kiss
It's all these thoughts
That make moments like this
Absolute bliss
And I never thought
I'd deserve something like this
Yeah, girl, you're perfectly worth it

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

©2017 Written By Benji James

Girl, I need one hundred percent
I'm not gonna be second best
Girl, I need one hundred percent
Don't wanna be the broken hearted again
Girl, can you give me one hundred percent?
Or do we need this right here to end
One hundred percent
I need it
I need one hundred percent
I need one hundred percent

Girl, I won't let you
Just become words on a page
Something I express when I hit the stage
I'm done with breakup songs
Been writing them far too long
I need a girl who's gonna give there all
I need a girl
in which I can place my trust
Know they'll protect this tender heart
No more looking for love in the wrong places
No more being trapped in friend zone spaces

Girl, I need one hundred percent
I'm not gonna be second best
Girl, I need one hundred percent
Don't wanna be the broken hearted again
Girl, can you give me one hundred percent?
Or do we need this right here to end
One hundred percent
I need it
I need one hundred percent
I need one hundred percent

Tell me if we need to break it off
Tell me am I wasting my time
Are all these just throwaway lines
Are you lying behind those bright eyes
Am I suspecting something
Or is this tingling feeling nothing
Can't see between the lines
To read the signs
Tell me I just need to know cuz

Girl, I need one hundred percent
I'm not gonna be second best
Girl, I need one hundred percent
Don't wanna be the broken hearted again
Girl, can you give me one hundred percent?
Or do we need this right here to end
One hundred percent
I need it
I need one hundred percent
I need one hundred percent

Somethings stirring inside
Why doesn't this feel right
I have a sickening feeling
Something feels off
Something aches inside my brain
Is my intuition latching onto something
I couldn't see
Is there a hidden message
On your lips
(Didn't read it)
Didn't see it
Come on baby
Make me believe it
I need to know cuz
I gotta feeling we aren't okay
And you know what they say

Girl, I need one hundred percent
I'm not gonna be second best
Girl, I need one hundred percent
Don't wanna be the broken hearted again
Girl, can you give me one hundred percent?
Or do we need this right here to end
One hundred percent
I need it
I need one hundred percent
I need one hundred percent

©2018 Written By Benji James

Lost my way, Lost my life
Lost the girl
I think about at night
There's nothing for me to say
Baby, I should have never
let you walk away
I'm hurting like never before
There are no words to describe
what I feel anymore

I'm struggling
to keep my heart running
I'm struggling
To give everything
Because either way, I'll never win

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Poured my hear, my soul
into everything I did for you
Shattered every piece of love
I had for you
I remember back to when
you screamed my name
and when I heard you say it passionately
yeah those memories are still killing me

my broken heart lies beating
on the floor
Not sure I can keep ripping pictures
off the wall
And I'm all out of options
Can't talk at all
Can't see anything in you
no more
Oh babe is the love you had for me
all gone

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

I'm still in love with you
I think about you every day
it hurts so bad every time
you look my way
I will never forget the past memories
I will never forget the words you said to me
the sweetness of your voice
the heart that left me with no choice
but to let you into my life
baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Oh my heart
still skips a beat for you
oh my love
still burns for you
so caught up in what we had
feeling there's nothing left
just makes me sad
can't stand to think
we've lost everything we had
Baby, I'm afraid
I can never let you go
You're my angel, you're my life
the light that still burns bright
and I can't stand to see you go
so ill do what it takes to fight for you

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

The sweetness of your voice
The heart that left me with no choice
but to let you in my life
Baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can
pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

©2018 Written By Benji James

Ever prayed for a sign
For God to prove his alive
I have, that's when someone
Unexpected came back into my life
Wouldn't that make you think
Wouldn't that make you wonder
And now I've got a lot
I need to say to you
Gonna keep it simple
Gonna keep it short
Hope you don't mind
here are my thoughts

Dear God
We need to talk
You keep taking
The best of us
And tearing us down
Dear God
We need to talk
You keep knocking
The best of us
Straight to the floor
Why do you keep doing this
Don't want to see any more

Oh my lord
Are you listening now
Do you really have a plan
Or are you just watching
The world like a play
Or is this life
just some kind of game
Because I'm looking for answers
Need to change the world
If you're all powerful
I've got something to say

Dear God
We need to talk
You keep taking
The best of us
And tearing us down
Dear God
We need to talk
You keep knocking
The best of us
Straight to the floor
Why do you keep doing this
Don't want to see any more

I've got a vision in mind
Oh Lord tell me
Have you seen a future
I want to see through my eyes
Come on, you sent me a sign
Now just give me
A little more of your time
I'm looking for answers
To all of these questions
Oh Lord, can you hear me?
Tell me why I need to know
Where am I meant to go

Dear God
We need to talk
You keep taking
The best of us
And tearing us down
Dear God
We need to talk
You keep knocking
The best of us
Straight to the floor
Why do you keep doing this
Don't want to see any more

©2017 Written By Benji James

Plant two feet firmly where I stand
You'll never move me from here again
I never wanted me and you to end
Now I've got to find another way for us to begin
But I like the sensation I feel
It makes me believe what I've felt is real
I'm standing strong and firm
This hurricane won't ******* from here
And you can pretend
I don't mean anything at all
You can believe I won't find a way
For you to react
I thought it came down to all the memories
But now I realize there is so much more
Out there for you and me
I didn't want to give in to these emotions
But I see the girl
As more than what we are now
I see you as apart of me in everything
And I thought there was no chance.
But now that I've had another glance
Your my future, your my world
I'm changing my ways for you, for me.
The story doesn't end here
There's something deep inside
That brings me back to you
It's more than just your beauty and grace
Baby girl this must be fate

©2017 Written By Benji James

Give me the sunrise
Give me a new dawn
Let the sun soak into my skin
I'm so optimistic
A future shining so bright 

Give me the setting 
of the sun
rising over the ocean

Let me feel the heat

In this good feeling of emotion

I'm starting to pave my way

To the place, I've been trying to create

The one that is filled with serenity

The one that gives me the inner peace

That I need 
and wanted so badly

I'm burying my past
Don't you dare allocate your allegations
It's time to move on
Time to look up
I'm tired of drowning in the sorrows
I'm tired of this smile I borrowed
I want to feel the warmth
Of happiness inside
I want that in my life

The sad memories
Are buried six feet under
I don't want to feel another
I held onto so much doubt
The pills wouldn't even drown it out
I had to work so hard
Just to be able to let go of my past
They say that is what makes your future
But I'll be ****** if I'm judged by a jury
I'll be ****** if I let life do that to me
I was hit and kicked while I was down
But I've got skin made of armor now
And I'm happy with where I'm at
That is something no one can take
And now I'm somebody
who doesn't easily break

I'm burying my past
Don't you dare allocate your allegations
It's time to move on
Time to look up
I'm tired of drowning in the sorrows
I'm tired of this smile I borrowed
I want to feel the warmth
Of happiness inside
I want that in my life

I've taken every task
Thrown my way
I've given all the blood
I can give
I've said every word
To band aid that hurt
I've got scars that show
But they're just a reflection
Of who I used to be
I'm starting to look at life
with more positively
I'm starting to feel more secure
with who I am
I'm starting to feel happy within myself
that is something that has been
a long time coming
Now my world isn't crumbling
Before my eyes
Now I've seen hurt heal with time

I'm burying my past
Don't you dare allocate your allegations
It's time to move on
Time to look up
I'm tired of drowning in the sorrows
I'm tired of this smile I borrowed
I want to feel the warmth
Of happiness inside
I want that in my life

©2017 Written By Benji James

I won't be satisfied
Till something takes my life
Too many pills I've been prescribed
To many times I take more than I should
Something's gonna get me before my time
But that's not enough to fulfil my desire
I'm standing on a ledge on the side of a bridge may be
This might be the thing to quench this thirst
The adrenaline's pumping through my veins
My mind has been declared insane
But I won't be satisfied
Till I find a way off this ride
Cuz I've lost all desire to keep on fighting
I've just run out of thunder and lightning
Something's gonna get me before my time
Maybe super high speeds through deserted streets
Just hope I don't end up
Running into a tree
I'm still lost within my conscience
I've seen too many people come and go
Maybe I'm next to end up the mess
Maybe I'm next to be blessed
But something's gonna get me in the end
I don't need to pretend
I don't need another reality check
Cuz I know I'm getting reckless
And I know people couldn't care less
I don't feel the need to impress
I don't feel the same as I did
Something's gonna get me
I can feel it in my bones
This downward spirals coming to a close
Something inside me knows
There's not long left to go
Before everything in me explodes
Before everything shuts down from all the blows
Something in me knows
There's not much time left to go

©2017 Written By Benji James

Feels like just yesterday
You were, taken away
Your that spark inside
That keeps me alive
You are the reason that I write
You are the light in the night

Hope you can hear this
Hope you can feel it
Hope you see when I perform it
This is what I can do
To send my love to you

Imagine if stars
were souls just passed
Imagine if shooting stars
Were souls being
reborn again
That's a cycle of life
I want to believe in.

I lay awake
I hurt, I break
I can give, I can take
I'm brave at the
same time afraid
I hope, I pray
Some days I lose faith
I fear, I shake
Without you here
Everything feels unclear

Hope you can hear this
Hope you can feel it
Hope you see when I perform it
This is what I can do
To send my love to you

Imagine if stars
were souls just passed
Imagine if shooting stars
Were souls being
reborn again
That's a cycle of life
I want to believe in.

I still think of memories
I feel pain, yeah I still cry
Feel like I'm dying inside
I'm hurting, broken, scared
I still wonder how you are
Do you receive my love
Do you hear my thoughts
In my prayers
Do you know I still wish
You were here

Hope you can hear this
Hope you can feel it
Hope you see when I perform it
This is what I can do
To send my love to you

Imagine if stars
were souls just passed
Imagine if shooting stars
Were souls being
reborn again
That's a cycle of life
I want to believe in.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Why would I want to be like you
when you go hurting people
the way that you do
You know I try, you know I cry
You know I really hurt
deep down inside
You know I hide, You know I'm shy
Just don't go throwing
things my way
Words can hurt, I can break
but I can't hate
Because with every word
and every breath
I know it gets harder
to get up again

You can bring me down
Leave me in shame
But I won't be haunted
by your game
The pain you leave
Will make me stronger
I won't be the victim any longer

You really don't impress me
with the way you act
So I'm just gonna keep walking
never look back
Soon you'll be the victim
of antidepressants
Razor blade cuts
Cigarettes and drugs

You can bring me down
Leave me in shame
But I won't be haunted
by your game
The pain you leave
Will make me stronger
I won't be the victim any longer

Don't you see
you're destroying yourself
But nobody can help you
until you help yourself
You shouldn't have said
what you did
because what goes around
comes around in the end

You can bring me down
Leave me in shame
But I won't be haunted
by your game
The pain you leave
Will make me stronger
I won't be the victim any longer

©2018 Written By Benji James

Just another year older
And the days grow colder
She still won't let me hold her
And it all comes down to the facts
It just seems to be how she reacts
And I couldn't careless
If I'd live or die

Because a life without you
Isn't what I wanna live
I know you've seen right through me
I'll just disappear into the shadows
Your hearts so full of doubt
I'm trapped in a hole and I can't get out

I'm lost in all you are
I'm losing my way
Walking into the wrong direction
Into your anger and perception
There is no need to mention
What you feel in this deception
I came to you and got corrected

Because a life without you
Isn't what I wanna live
I know you've seen right through me
I'll just disappear into the shadows
Your hearts so full of doubt
I'm trapped in a hole and I can't get out

All we had was a lie
There no way I can deny
It was all in my head
And in days I haven't slept
Because with you on my mind
How can I not think
will our two different worlds collide

Because a life without you
Isn't what I wanna live
I know you've seen right through me
I'll just disappear into the shadows
Your hearts so full of doubt
I'm trapped in a hole and I can't get out

©2017 Written By Benji James

Musics my art,
It's like a sketch,
Sculpting a verse,
Made out of words.
The music it's the painting
,
The colours, the tones, the shades.

When the image is complete

It's a beautiful picture, expressing emotion. 

Feeling, seeing, hearing, 

It's perfection, in the motion,

It's the creation,

It's the notion,

It's your blood,
sweat tears and devotion
,
That makes it worth it in the end
.
It's the message you send

to change lives again and again.

©2017 Written By Benji James

You've crossed that line
for the final time
try to keep my head held high
but you're dragging me down
I know it's apart of life
But it doesn't mean
I don't stand up for my rights
Everyones singing about there haters
But I'm not sure anybody reads
What I write onto this paper

I don't think anyone can even
stand my voice
but what I put into my songs
is one hundred percent emotion
it's not easy telling stories about me
people think you're a poet
But I can guarantee
Just about everything I say
it's the truth
Don't need to live a double life
to make this reach you

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

Cruising through the streets
in my Hyundai
Trying to figure out the next line
I want to make this the best rhyme
As you hang on these words
When I sing to you
You're still standing there
Trying to discover the truth
What is he saying
What does he mean
Is this really the way his feeling

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

See so much confusion
when I look at the crowd
But when I sing the melody
They scream my name out loud
Still can't figure out
where to go from here
everything drowns out
trying to be sincere
Can't stop pretending
that I don't care
Can't stop procrastinating
This time will be the last time
I share my air
When my lungs
are struggling to keep on running

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

When everything felt
like it was starting to go right
The world backed out
and left me in the sand to die
Hey, I said I'm going to okay
Don't go looking at me that way
I don't give a ****,
You don't need to say
It's going to be alright
There are plenty of fish in the sea
I can't let this emotion go to waste
I can't let her go
I can't watch her walk away
Yeah you can look me in the eyeball
tell me everything will be alright
Well I've got news for you
I was already dead
Never really knew the cost
Oh no there goes my soul
Lost the last part of dignity
Got nothing left to show

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

Guess this is all an illusion
Time to stop me from choosing
the path I'm going to be walking
Death or life, Better think twice
It's a big decision
I must have kept on forgetting
the drive that kept me going
for all of this time
I wonder if she ever looked back on her life
And felt something was missing
Did you realise that I'm not there
keeping you comfortable?
Yeah it's alright
There is no need to keep on fighting
Temptation get on the plane
Do another show, pretend I'm not alone
This is life, Don't want to grow old on my own
Should embrace it
Not sure if I'll even make it past thirty
It'll be a miracle if it wasn't real
but from I can see its crystal clear
I wasn't supposed to make it here

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

©2018 Written By Benji James

Spent so much of this life
Letting my heart lead me astray
Following girls that never really
wanted me.
That's okay
It's alright
I spent too many nights
Questioning my self-worth
I spent too many nights
Despising the way I look, I talk
I ripped myself from the inside out
And there's nothing anybody could
Say to me now, That I haven't said to myself.

Wasted a decade
Putting myself down
Put a stop to that now
I'm lighting up
Starting to see the beauty
Beneath these scars
Strong mind, Strengthened heart
Courage comes from the depths of my soul
Not gonna end up trapped in another hole
I got all my cards and I won't fold

Twenty eighteen
Is the year
I turned this life around
Dropped the baggage
Weighing me down
Now I'm floating towards the stars
Light as a feather
All those storms I've weathered
Nothing but past memories
Trapped in the back of my head
Where they can fade and be erased
To make way for new images that fill my eyes
And be captured in this brand new state of mind

This is a new sunrise
Yeah this is a new dawn
A new decade
To take back control
Of this runaway train
Not a train wreck, just yet
Now that I'm back behind the wheel
Starting to get a grip
Get back that natural feel
The way I used to be
I'm still a fighter
Now that I'm out of the trenches
Got all these pains on the back foot
I can breathe, just look

Wasted a decade
Putting myself down
Put a stop to that now
I'm lighting up
Starting to see the beauty
Beneath these scars
Strong mind, Strengthened heart
Courage comes from the depths of my soul
Not gonna end up trapped in another hole
I got all my cards and I won't fold

Twenty eighteen
Is the year
I turned this life around
Dropped the baggage
Weighing me down
Now I'm floating towards the stars
Light as a feather
All those storms I've weathered
Nothing but past memories
Trapped in the back of my head
Where they can fade and be erased
To make way for new images that fill my eyes
And be captured in this brand new state of mind

Stains covered my face
At the end
All these blood-stained sheets
That was used in the cleansing
Of my skin
Now I'm feeling free
Felt good letting go of the heavy load
Been carrying all these regrets and thoughts
For far too long
Never felt better to say, So long, So long
The relief you feel when it's all gone

Wasted a decade
Putting myself down
Put a stop to that now
I'm lighting up
Starting to see the beauty
Beneath these scars
Strong mind, Strengthened heart
Courage comes from the depths of my soul
Not gonna end up trapped in another hole
I got all my cards and I won't fold

Twenty eighteen
Is the year
I turned this life around
Dropped the baggage
Weighing me down
Now I'm floating towards the stars
Light as a feather
All those storms I've weathered
Nothing but past memories
Trapped in the back of my head
Where they can fade and be erased
To make way for new images that fill my eyes
And be captured in this brand new state of mind

©2018 Written By Benji James

I’m immortal
Through the things
That I write
I’m still shining bright,
Through my eternal light
And nothing can **** me now
Always going to be around
Just turn up the volume
You’ll hear my sound
Guess what, I’m on my grind now
Feel the ground fall out
From beneath your feet
I’m upside down
Feet planted firmly on the ground
Filling up the sky
With a brand new high

Get these ideas out of my head
You’ll see the imagery
Through each stroke of my pen
You got the signal
Just tell me when
You’re starting to feel the static
Electrified by my internal sparks
That’s the thing
that’s brought me this far
It’s taken me further
then any jet, train or car
Yeah take a good look
Cuz I just set the bar

Nobody anticipated
I could bring a whole new game
One beyond my lyrical fame
Gave the world a brand new taste
Made them note my name
Through these words
They got a whole new me
Finally, I could be taken seriously
Far from the jokes
That used to cover up my scars
They got a whole new glimpse
Into who I am
And that’s how I became more than I am
That’s how I surpassed just being a mortal man

Surprised by my godly glow
Found confidence in my flow
I planted the seed and watched it grow
Now I’ve formed a brand new home
Set the foundations
Followed through on highly regarded
Recommendations
And built a castle out of stones
These blisters on my hand's show
I sacrificed a lot to make it here
The blood that I shed
And every tear
Gave me the motivation
To create a whole new view
And from the tops of the tower
I can see a brand new world
One carved from deep within me

Get these ideas out of my head
You’ll see the imagery
Through each stroke of my pen
You got the signal
Just tell me when
You’re starting to feel the static
Electrified by my internal sparks
That’s the thing
that’s brought me this far
It’s taken me further
then any jet, train or car
Yeah take a good look
Cuz I just set the bar

Nobody anticipated
I could bring a whole new game
One beyond my lyrical fame
Gave the world a brand new taste
Made them note my name
Through these words
They got a whole new me
Finally, I could be taken seriously
Far from the jokes
That used to cover up my scars
They got a whole new glimpse
Into who I am
And that’s how I became more than I am
That’s how I surpassed just being a mortal man

Angels with harps
Sitting on clouds
Here the choirs sing out
Through orchestral music
My theme rings out
Do you hear me now?
Dream it loud
Working with all that I’ve got
And now I know that what I had
Was enough to create a brand new love
Passion and desire run through my brain wire
A whole lot of heart within these beats
Hear it play throughout these streets
This time I’m here for keeps
Won’t let them down
I’m standing proud
Set firmly on the hallowed ground
My spirit bound
Come set foot in my church now

Get these ideas out of my head
You’ll see the imagery
Through each stroke of my pen
You got the signal
Just tell me when
You’re starting to feel the static
Electrified by my internal sparks
That’s the thing
that’s brought me this far
It’s taken me further
then any jet, train or car
Yeah take a good look
Cuz I just set the bar

Nobody anticipated
I could bring a whole new game
One beyond my lyrical fame
Gave the world a brand new taste
Made them note my name
Through these words
They got a whole new me
Finally, I could be taken seriously
Far from the jokes
That used to cover up my scars
They got a whole new glimpse
Into who I am
And that’s how I became more than I am
That’s how I surpassed just being a mortal man

I’m immortal through all that I wrote
Just had to let y’all know
My lights shining bright
Through this eternal light
I’ll fly through starry skies
While I leave my readers starry-eyed

©2018 Written By Benji James

I ain't no superhero
looking for a fight to win
But I'll try to ease your suffering
I ain't no superhero
flying around town
looking for problems
to take on
But I'll try to ease your suffering

It's all the little things
that makes you complete
It's all the little things
that make ends meet
It's all the little things
(Yeah, Yeah)

Can I take your pain away?
Can I take your pain away?
Hold on hope, hold on hope
why my heart bleeds for you.
All that I can do
is take this pain from you.
Oh give me the time
give me some light
to show you everything
is going to be alright

It's all the little things
that makes you complete
It's all the little things
that make ends meet
It's all the little things
(Yeah, Yeah)

Let the glitter cease the skies
while we watch the sunrise
so put your hand in mine
move closer to me,
while we make a sweet memory.
Sweetheart I'll never let you fall apart,
Sweetheart I'll never let you fall apart.
And we will live this life
Until we reach the end of time.
Will let the glitter cease the skies
while we watch the sunrise

It's all the little things
that makes you complete
It's all the little things
that make ends meet
It's all the little things
(Yeah, Yeah)

No regrets, so reach out your hands
we have no regrets
so reach out your hands
Oh come on, come and grab on
We will pick ourselves back up
every time we fall down
I ain't no superhero flying around town
So baby come on, reach out your arms
And I'll take you by the hand
as we try to make all the little things
make ends meet
I'll try and ease your suffering

It's all the little things
that makes you complete
It's all the little things
that make ends meet
It's all the little things
(Yeah, Yeah)

©2017 Written By Benji James

Stop breaking my heart
(Benji) Uh huh (Yeah)
Baby, you better stop playing with my heart
I'm tired of trying to play this part
I want you so bad
At the same time, I hate you.
Hate how you're playing these games
But I am so addicted to this pain
I love you, then I don't
Sometimes I think of letting you go
But I'm so caught up
In all that you are
I can't give up
Not sure...if this is love
or lust.
All I know is,
I love all the feelings
You're giving me
But you hardly even notice me
So I'm trying to get your attention
with all my affection
And it's essential
You and I have so much potential...Baby.

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Baby, I can't mend this heart
so please don't break it
at least try to let me down gently
Because all I can do is think of you
and how there is no replacing what you mean to me
And the earth is spinning slowly
my mind can't comprehend leaving you
And I can't pretend I ain't in love with you
because it just isn't working
I'm not working for you either baby.

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Look me in the eye
tell me why, oh why
don't you want me in your life?
Is it because I am unattractive,  girl?
Is it because there are better people
in your world
I could treat you so good
But if it's because I'm not pleasing to the eye
If I got plastic surgery would you change your mind?
Although who am I kidding, you're so not worth it
But at the same time, I need you by my side
And I can't get you out of my head
And oh dear god...I wish you never left
Because I can't bear to see my heart break again
And I can't bear seeing you be played by all these men

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Oh baby don't break my heart
Let's run this back to the start
Because I want you in my life
Babe, I can picture you as my wife
I'm tired of fighting
There is no more room for crying and lying
Let me in, Give me a chance to prove
That I can be your man
So I can prove I mean every word,
I've said to you baby
Baby stop hating on me, Let me in
Baby lets lay down out guns
Let's take a moment
we can become one
Let's work it out
I've come too far
to give up on you now
and you're irreplaceable honey
oh so don't break my heart
be my shining star

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

©2018 Written By Benji James

I can see heaven in your eyes
I want to feel the fire burn inside
I like it when our two worlds collide
The sensations of butterflies are on the rise
I'm ready for the ride
Open up to love be my guide
The passion stirs inside my mind
Follow your heart and you will glide
Watch this love tide rise
After you've been burned you're more wise
But trusting in this still applies
There's no comfort in goodbyes
I find comfort in your skies
Don’t let the sun set, stay on my side
I can see heaven in your eyes
I want to feel the fire burn inside
I like it when our two worlds collide.

©2018 Written By Benji James

They think I'm autistic
From the way I walk
Does that mean I have a stutter?
Because of the way I talk
Am I disillusioned, maybe insane?
Is this an overwhelming feeling
Overtaking my brain?
Am I just another stain
That is in your way?
Can you find a reason
To stop the teasing

Spread the word
I don't care
People say it's good to share
What's the news today?
Send some more gossip my way
Spread the word
Spread the word
Even if it sounds absurd
Spread the word

Girl spread the word
Nah spread your legs
Oops think I just crossed the line
It's not my fault
I'm sexually deprived
Maybe a little hated,
but mostly despised
Because of all my selfish crimes
You’re running out of time

Spread the word
I don't care
People say it's good to share
What's the news today?
Send some more gossip my way
Spread the word
Spread the word
Even if it sounds absurd
spread the word

They're looking for all the cuts
From the razor blades
That's in the lyrics
I had out on display
Did I mention
everyone thinks I'm gay?
Am I the highlight in your day?
Why don't you make up something else?
Oh, what you need some help?
Think up something by yourself

Spread the word
I don't care
People say it's good to share
What's the news today?
Send some more gossip my way
Spread the word
Spread the word
Even if it sounds absurd
Spread the word

I'm not speaking to a friend
Who I can't trust again
Now they can speculate
Who, why and how?
I was the blame
For why he went away
She thought that I might stay
But I had to take a break
Because all the rumours
Messed with my head
I felt like I was better off dead

Spread the word
I don't care
People say it's good to share
What's the news today?
Send some more gossip my way
Spread the word
Spread the word
Even if it sounds absurd
Spread the word

©2017 Written By Benji James

Killed vibes, killer lines
I ****** these verses every time
Always got my heart out on the line
Always on the lookout
For that perfect rhyme
Every night I just have to write
I can't stop I'm addicted to this
I like the feeling it gives
Especially when others
Find a connection
Then they find it worth expressing
That is a powerful thing
It leaves me in awe
It just makes me want
To do this even more

Jot these thoughts
With a pen and pad
Give them a story
To which they can relate
Even if it's something fake
Surprise and shock
Is something I love
Like to make people think
Like people to relate
And let them know
there are people out there
Who feel the same way.

Don't need no psychologist
To diagnose me
Truth is I'm not that crazy
These are thoughts everyone thinks
I just put them on public display
On my **** Facebook page
Hey, hey thought of a topic
I can completely address today
Pass me the megaphone
I got something to say...
Jot these thoughts
With a pen and pad
Give them a story
To which they can relate
Even if it's something fake
Surprise and shock
Is something I love
Like to make people think
Like people to relate
And let them know
there are people out there
Who feel the same way.

Hey, hey
To all the Unknown
The faithless, faceless
Looking for a voice
Looking around Y'all gotta choice
In the sadness, loneliness
You're looking for a way out
Everyone that's so full of doubt
Turn to blades, drugs or alcohol
There are other solutions
Listen up now
I put my thoughts
Into a chorus and a verse
The best way out
Is to put your thoughts into words

Jot these thoughts
With a pen and pad
Give them a story
To which they can relate
Even if it's something fake
Surprise and shock
Is something I love
Like to make people think
Like people to relate
And let them know
there are people out there
Who feel the same way.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Look at this wreckage you left
Yeah I'm still cleaning up
All the shattered pieces of my heart
Yeah gazing at stars
Wondering how you are
Still, can't see why you left me
Drowning emotionally
But it's alright
I'm gonna be okay
Just can't help but contemplate
Why you went and walked away
Without me

Still dumbfounded
That you left me in silence
Still dumbfounded
That you couldn't say one word
And I tried to reconnect
Tried to get your side
Why you didn't want
me in your life

Girl how could you
Gov hurt me like that
Girl how could you
Just turn your back
I was there for you
When you were in need
Girl why couldn't you
Have been there for me
Girl how could you
Go hurt me like that

There's an empty spotlight
That's where you once stood
Had all my attention
Listened to every word you were expressing
And in my eyes
You were all I could see
Maybe that's why I was so blind
Yeah mislead by you this whole time
Ended up stranded in the woods
With no light
But it's alright. It's okay
I can light my own fire anyway

Still dumbfounded
That you left me in silence
Still dumbfounded
That you couldn't say one word
And I tried to reconnect
Tried to get your side
Why you didn't want
Me in your life

Girl how could you
Go hurt me like that
Girl how could you
Just turn your back
I was there for you
When you were in need
Girl why couldn't you
Have been there for me
Girl how could you
Go hurt me like that

Ever been abandoned
When you were in need
Yeah that's the way she left me
Girl I see you like to live dangerously
I'm still looking for something
To fill this hole that you left
Looking for something
that can clean up this mess
Yeah this is what you left
Great legacy in my eyes
Betrayed by all your lies
I know your face
Yeah your eyes
Your lips
They're just images I won't forget
You just might be my greatest regret

Still dumbfounded
That you left me in silence
Still dumbfounded
That you couldn't say one word
And I tried to reconnect
Tried to get your side
Why you didn't want
Me in your life

Girl how could you
Go hurt me like that
Girl how could you
Just turn your back
I was there for you
When you were in need
Girl why couldn't you
Have been there for me
Girl how could you
Go hurt me like that

What's this sinking feeling
Why can't I escape
All these memories on replay
Been thinking about this for days
Hope that doesn't become weeks
Turning into months
Not sure that's something
I want on my mind for that long
Come on pull yourself together
stay strong
Yeah just realise
she was never
gonna be the one

Still dumbfounded
That you left me in silence
Still dumbfounded
That you couldn't say one word
And I tried to reconnect
Tried to get your side
Why you didn't want
Me in your life

Girl how could you
Go hurt me like that
Girl how could you
Just turn your back
I was there for you
When you were in need
Girl why couldn't you
Have been there for me
Girl how could you
Go hurt me like that

©2017 Written By Benji James

It's been a while since I've felt your taste
I wanna drown in your beauty and grace
Your trust in me is never misplaced
I'm here in the dark of the night
I'm here for all the hardest times
Me and you together it's the perfect crime
Just give me a little bit more of your time

In the hands of Angels
The melody flows
In the hands of Angels
The light grows (It grows)
Your love shows (It shows)
In the hands of angels

Comets fly through the skies
In a passion of fire
It burns a flame of desire
Just like the moon
Your eyes glow brighter
(And brighter)
When I see the sparkle in your eyes
It takes me higher (And higher)

In the hands of Angels
The melody flows
In the hands of Angels
The lights grows (It grows)
Your love shows (It shows)
In the hands of angels

I feel you at the end of my finger tips
I feel the press of your lips
I feel the attraction in your kiss
The flutter in your heart
When it beats
Oh girl you're seducing me
The power you have is enchanting baby
There is magic in the air
There is magnetic connection between us pair
Oh girl I cant help but stop and stare

In the hands of Angels
The melody flows
In the hands of Angels
The lights grows (It grows)
Your love shows (It shows)
In the hands of angels

He's lurking in the shadows
with bloodshot eyes
A smell of bicardi and wine
I'll put down the knife
When these images
Stop playing on my mind

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

You don't know
What the hell I've seen
And you ain't been
To the places, I've seen
You ain't heard the screams
You ain't see it every night in your dreams
The violence, the anger
Blood is running down these curbs
Insanity in motion please observe

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

Let me paint a picture, clear
Place my voice inside of your ear
Hear the whispers that I call
For what you thought you know
You never knew at all
And there are voices carries within the winds
And demons have been asked to spread their wings
Eerie vibes are running down your spine
You try to dissect the world line by line

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

©2018 Written By Benji James

Have you ever met someone,
that made you reevaluate your life.
It's there spirit,
it breathes in new life.
You're like that breath of fresh air
,
That I really needed
You've got that, love of my life,

Kind of vibe,

and nothing's gonna kick us down.

I'm ready to take that ride,

by your side, love is blind, 

but not in these eyes,

I can see it in your face,

In the way that you speak,

you're that girl for me.

©2017 Written By Benji James

They say bring him back
Where's he gone?
Where's he been?
She said.
"Whats this,
what's this, State you're in,
Can you, Can you answer this?"

They say he's gone crazy, baby,
from all the heart ache.
Blurry, Blustery, Bright eyes open wide,
this darkness that grows inside,
is closing in for the ****.
Fallen angels won't fly tonight,
Broken, Beaten and Bruised.
Fallen angels won't fly tonight
My souls tearing up on the inside.

Finally learning how to stand
on my own two feet.
No ones perfect,
there is a life to live,
take chances, love, hope, give,
You want me?
Come find me.
You need me?
Don't keep on crying, I'm not hiding
Faced my fears,
Though the road is rough and hard.
I still keep on fighting, keep on fighting

Keep On Fighting,  
until the end,
live life with no regret.
Keep On Fighting,
until The end,
Though the road is rough, and hard.
Just keep on fighting.

This angel has fallen from the sky,
Innocence was lost, never found.
Down, Down, Down, He fell,
crashing into the ground.
He used to stand tall and proud,
But his wings were taken,
Its blasphemy, to envy thee,
But I fear my wings won't return to me.

Could he fly, Could he fly again?
Pretend you could go back to then,
Change, Rearrange everything that's happened.
Would you go back,
Would you change your life?
Keep on fighting, instead of fearing,
what you have done, take the pain,
face the consequence,
or live with regret in your banishment.

Am I, Am I to blame?
That this fallen angels,
Never gunna fly again.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Should have known it would come to this,
plagued by all these thoughts,
how did I miss all the signs,
tried to give you my all,
Handed you my heart on a plate,
Only for you to drop it on the cold hard floor.
I’m in pieces, scattered, shattered,
baby I can’t do this anymore.
Had to go, this time baby,
I had to walk out the door.
Can’t keep letting you hurt me, like this.
can’t say I didn’t try,
can’t say I didn’t try to fight,
had to do this, had to say goodbye.

I’m looking up, looking forward
Where to next, I’m not sure
Not sure, what the future has in store.
Guess I better take a few steps
See where this road leads
Where will I go,
what new faces will I see
Keep telling myself.

Come on just breathe in deep,
you can do this
Done this a hundred times before
Pick your heart back from the floor
Roll up your sleeves,
gotta breathe, lift your head high.
You know what you gotta do next right,
just breathe in deep,
You can do this, Take a few steps,
then take your next breath.
Don’t look back, keep moving, keep breathing.

People say sometimes,
you just need to write a new chapter,
I say why not throw away the whole book,
yeah start fresh all over again.
Because this story doesn’t seem to be going my way.
Sometimes you gotta make a big change,
So things don’t feel the same
Need to set a course in a new direction,
Take elements of this life that I like,
and apply it to a new life,
I can be proud to call mine.
All these thoughts are coming from deep within,
My mind feels clearer then it has ever been.
Only question left, Is where and what do I do next?
Sometimes it’s just best to keep walking until you find,
the next mountain you need to climb,
so you can feel on top of the world again.

I’m looking up, looking forward
Where to next, I’m not sure
Not sure, what the future has in store.
Guess I better take a few steps
See where this road leads
Where will I go,
what new faces will I see
Keep telling myself.

Come on just breathe in deep,
you can do this
Done this a hundred times before
Pick your heart back from the floor
Roll up your sleeves,
gotta breathe, lift your head high.
You know what you gotta do next right,
just breathe in deep,
You can do this, Take a few steps,
then take your next breath.
Don’t look back, keep moving, keep breathing.

©2017 Written by Benji James

I wanna use your heart
Like an acoustic guitar
Let all the emotion pour out
And turn it into sound
Tell me all about
The troubles in your head
That keep you awake so late
While lying in your bed
Tell me about
The nightmares you dread
Tell me what hurts
That has been said
I'm here to serve and protect
And there is one thing
I must confess
I cleaned you up
When you were a mess
I've seen you at your worst
And at your best.

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

I can see your soul
Behind your eyes
I can see the truth
Behind your lies
I can feel the hurt
Behind your smile
I know you want me to stay
Longer than a while
I know you want me
to hold you tight for the whole night
I can see the tears you want to cry
Go ahead let it out,
I'm here with you right now
I can see you want me in your eyes
I can feel the love you hold inside
(YEAH)

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

Don't pull away
Find your way in to me
Just take a look and you will see
How much you really mean
I've been your strength
Through the fall
The demons
We fought them all
I've been there
Every time you called
Now take a chance
Let's make this change
It a decision we both have to make
Don't let me fade
Don't let me down
Because I always want you around
I need you here
You need me to
Don't let these thoughts
Escape from you
Cuz I can see
that you love me
And you know
that I will always be
The one for you

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

©2018 Written By Benji James

Let me invite you in
Open up show you everything 

Every regret that hits 

Tears apart my heart strings

Yeah let's begin

With this girl, I once met

Told her she was beautiful then and there 

Till I found out she had a boyfriend

That didn't stop me from trying to keep advancing

Got a little weakness 

For a pretty face

And I just wish to know

The way her kiss tastes

Eh I just wanna be that guy

That takes her breath away

Yeah Sharnie
Do you remember me?
Am I that regret that you met
That turned your life inside out
I remember the look when we first laid eyes
I remember those butterflies inside
Yeah, girl, you made me nervous
But we seemed to hit it off
Should have been the one to know
That I would ***** it up
Oh Sharnie
Do you remember me?

Do you remember the day
I drove you home
Yeah God was I nervous
I made you smile
yeah I made you laugh
With my silly little lines
And the expressions that I made
When I looked your way
Wish I ended that trip with a kiss
Yeah, girl, I regret it,
just wasn't sure if you were ready yet
Plus you had a boyfriend

Yeah Sharnie
Do you remember me?
Am I that regret that you met
That turned your life inside out
I remember the look when we first laid eyes
I remember those butterflies inside
Yeah, girl, you made me nervous
But we seemed to hit it off
Should have been the one to know
That I would ***** it up
Oh Sharnie
Do you remember me?

This is where it all went wrong
This is where I messed up
I remember the message you sent
After I ignored your calls
You told me how you were kicked out
And left in the cold hard rain
With no one to turn to, your trust I betrayed
And if that wasn't enough
I remember walking you out from work
your boy came into pick you up
yeah we met face to face
and when I walked off
he pushed you to the ground
and when I found out
I wanted to knock his lights out

Yeah Sharnie
Do you remember me?
Am I that regret that you met
That turned your life inside out
I remember the look when we first laid eyes
I remember those butterflies inside
Yeah, girl, you made me nervous
But we seemed to hit it off
Should have been the one to know
That I would ***** it up
Oh Sharnie
Do you remember me?

©2017 Written By Benji James

One day you'll realise
All these lyrics were about you
In fact, I think you're smart enough
To figure out
What they've been all about
Doesn't take a genius to figure it out
You left me in a pool of doubt
Questioning myself why and how
Could I ever let it come to that
Letting you go was the biggest mistake
That I've ever made
And I didn't do it just once but twice
Why did we have to suffer the price
In my head none of this **** makes sense
In time you'll come to see
I was only telling you the truth
It was always gonna be me for you.
And the love that I had for you was real
Whether you choose to believe it or not
That choice is yours, in the end
But for me, none of this went according to plan
And I spent the time
To try and deal with all the pain
That's messed with my brain
And now I'm just trying
To make this right
Can't you understand it
From my side
I wanted you to be
The other part of my life
But it was him who won you, not me
And look what happened in the end
I told you he would **** with you again
I told you to trust me
I tried to be there
I tried to defend your heart
honestly, you didn't really care
Or believe in anything I said
And now I'll leave the rest in your hands
To choose what we should be
I wanted you to know
What is on my mind
And this is the way I can do it right
I want us to still be friends
Maybe more
That choice is yours
Because I'm not sure
what you think anymore
You haven't been making this easy lately
But I can't blame you
I think I've hurt you real bad
But you hurt me to
I just hope you understand
I'll always be there to stand by you
No matter what happens
I love you till death do us part
Girl you've always got a place in my heart

©2017 Written By Benji James