On dark & destructive days
I lay there in despair
I'm such a ******* fool
Nothing but a Narcissist's tool

I suffered like a chic in an egg
Couldn't survive & had to beg
I had no shame
I have nothing to blame

Everyone begs one day or the other
Kings beg, Gods beg, Priests & Politicians beg.

I know she plays to win
That's how she won me over
I tried to impress her
But she already fell for another

Last year I learned how to let go
But I kept doing it over & over
When do I learn to express myself
Before I forever suppress myself.

On the stage dancing
With thunderous applause
Not for me either
But for my brother

Hard to swallow that pill
Without having jealousy to ****
Took everything from me
Yet I let him be

We see them all the time
Who sell happiness as a meal
To unsuspecting people who're confused
They sound smart & have the right jokes

But follow closely & they get old
Bitter, experienced old men
Meddling into everyone's business
Trying to sell some happiness.

I had it figured out
Before it shattered away into pieces
Then I went on a journey
To get it all back, like in the movies

I got more confused than before
Worked a lot & got high everyday
I've seen the depths of darkness
Even though I descended into madness

Choose me one day
Instead of all those men
Take me home and
Make love like there's no tomorrow

Let's not fall asleep
Reading each other's heart out
All those poems we wrote
Fo people we'll never meet

A dog, by your side!
Someone good to show off!
To please your parents
While I disappear into darkness

Nothing hurts! like her compliments
When I become what she wants
Give me death & despair
Instead of true love

For they are
Fuel to sad people & poets

The times they were
Dying to be free
Like the strandbeests
On the sandy beaches
On a sunny day

Dancing around fire
To the grandiose drums
Some preaching Culture
What others called Nature

**** the romantic movies
**** the one true love
Nothing lasts, Not even
The memory of you (I hope)

But the truth is, Scars last
Often forever
Alas! I won't die a beautiful man
I'll be an ugly old man with scars!

What do I do on this tear-filled, lonely night ?
Should I scream out of pain & frustration ?
Wishing she would comeback & lay next to me
On this cold winter night comforting me with her warm embrace.

How do I tell my broken heart that it's over.
And it's time to move on.
Am I still in love with her or just with the idea of being in love ?
Whatever it may be, it's tearing me apart at 2 in the morning.

Oh lord take this pain away,
And bless me with them golden slumbers.

I was thirteen and
So was she
I followed her around
Like an aimless puppy

Stalking from a distance
Too afraid to be close
I got some courage
When I turned fourteen

I sat behind her and
Smelled her hair

I got sad
When I turned fifteen
I promised to myself
To never look at her again

In a week I broke my promise
And have been doing ever since
I turned sixteen
And she disappeared

I shaved my head
And got depressed
I wish it ended there
'cause the greatest tragedy in life
Is to get what you wanted.

If only, I can fly again
If only, I can fall again
If only, I can love again
If only, I can break again

If only, I can accept
I'll never see you again.

I miss breathing the same air you did
I miss happily kissing your cheeks
I miss your head on my chest and your kiss on my lips
I miss cuddling you and sleeping like a baby
I miss the way you smell when I hug you
I miss kissing the tender skin on your neck and your
changing breathe on my face
I miss your loving hands on my face
I miss kissing your soft ears
I miss kissing your sweet lips and biting them slowly
I miss hearing you sing a beautiful song
I miss dancing with you
I miss your witty jokes

I wish I wrote Poems
When I was in love,
At least then, I would've remembered
How It felt like.

Finite Minds, Infinite Confusions
Love in the air, hearts in the hands
Great Ideals, little perversions
Vegan dreams, fishy cravings

Land full of dreams & plants
Mind full of ideas & ****** dreams
A place to grow at a pace so slow
To be or not to be ? O'lonely dreamer

In a mindless rush
To get from one moment to the next
I fumble around in this desolate town
Filled with hopes and dreams

I work in a lab printing toys
Can't even afford to bring them to life
Sometimes I look at the lifeless beings
And wonder, Is that how they look at me ?

I walk from home
I get on a train
I walk to work
Where I pretend to be busy
I take the train
I go to class
Where I pretend to learn

Then I come home to a cold bed
Falling asleep in no one's arms
Look how alive I am

Lonely are the days, When I'm caged at home
Deprived of the sweet scent of summer mountain rain
Lonely are the days, When I'm deprived of dancing to
The strums of spanish guitar with a beautiful partner

Lonely are the days when my legs can't climb a mountain or
My hands can't paddle through the ocean with salt in my hair
Lonely is the life who's little joys had been taken away and
Instead got 24/7 fear **** of a news cycle with talking idiots

It's a place where
Broken hearts & taken women go
To heal & feel. It's a town
where people are awake in the nights

Roaming the lonely streets
At an odd hour to meet people
Who roam on those streets
Desperately looking for love & lost youth

My heart skipped a beat
The day she said we meet
I wore a shirt so white
Just to make her hold me tight
For I know what she likes
A thousand magnificent flying kites

For hours we talked
For miles we walked
Remembering those days
Finding more ways
To rekindle the fire
Until she called me a liar

That's how it ended
True love 'twas indeed ?

"You have a nice smile", She said
No! Don't give me hope
Don't make me happy
I know how this ends.

Soon, You'll realize
My heart masks a hole
As deep as the Marianas Trench
There's nothin here but Melancholy & Madness

Here I'm, left with all the things we bought together
Each with a story of it's own, walking me down the memory lane
Of the deeds we did together.

First shower, first ***, first fight & first laugh
All wrapped into the things we bought for each other
Waiting for me to set them on fire.

Hollowed out heart
A scoop for you Madam ?
All meaty, red & ******
It comes with a sprinkle of my emotions too

Take a spoon & have a taste
Do you feel me now ?
Or do you need the air in my lungs too ?
To feel my love.

Hollowed out heart
A scoop of ice-cream for you, Madam ?
All meaty, red & ******
It comes with a sprinkle of my emotions.

Take a spoon & have a taste
Do you feel me now ?
Or do you need the air in my lungs too ?
To feel my love.

I forgot what you smelled like
I'm afraid one day I'll forget you
I successfully fooled everybody
Saying that I moved on!

But I keep returning
To our moments together!
Reliving them,
Wishing I never left you

We all want it
But we haven't got any
Having it makes you free
Or else you're a slave to society

If you have some
You can go around the world
If you have a lot
The world goes around you

What good are you,
O'penniless pauper
In a society full of money
And devoid of love

I solve problems
To get my blood flowing
I play like a happy child
When I'm on an obstacle course

Getting ever more complex
And solving it even more gratifying
I make a mud castle
And kick it down, when I'm bored

Match my strength & love
My goddess, overpower me
In the most primitive way
Make me laugh & Make me cry

But most of all
Don't walk away
Let's fall asleep
In naked bliss &
A passionate kiss

Take me with you
where the women are free
Where *** is not a taboo
Where love is not a luxury

Where I can watch flowers bloom
Where I'm content & complete
Where life begins & death lives
O'Divine animal Friedrich

I'm a wandering soul
With a meandering goal
Some say, choose something
And stick to it, it's a good thing
It's like a life
With only one wife
While I want a mistress
Even though I'm in distress

It's now, you need to be brave
For you've fear in your heart
It's now, you need to obey
For you've been free, too long

It's now, you need to be responsible
For you've ran away from it all your life
It's now, you need to fall in line
For your entire life was out of line

It's now you need, Balance
For you've enjoyed the imbalance in chaos
It's now the time to sit still
For you've never stopped moving

It's now the time to build
For you've only but destroyed
Remember the message
Alas, you'll repeat the mistake twice.

Aye I fell from the stars
When I touched ground, it broke me
My folks gathered the pieces they can
It took me a while to piece it together

Then I went looking for the missing pieces,
In places so alien & people so insane.
I was reduced to ashes in the process
My friends gathered a handful of those ashes

And gave me courage
To rise up like a Phoenix.

Run brother run,
The tides of regrets are coming,
To drown you in the Sea of Sorrows.
Each year the tide gets bigger,
Until one day it swallows you whole.

So start building that boat
Full of adventures & memories,
To sail across the Sea of Sorrows,
And reach the island of tomorrow.

Why do I feel so lonely
Even though I'm surrounded by all these people
Is my heart searching for someone
Who can touch my soul & other parts

How can I stop this conflict in me
About wanting & not wanting love at the same time
When will I learn to feel again
All those things I forgot long ago

The night is young & sweet
The highway stretches to heaven
Rain kissed & just dry enough
To cruise around my motorbike

Cold wind blowing through my hair
We climb into the hills of Deccan
And we find a scenic spot to camp
To welcome the songbirds & sunrise.

Thoughts racing in my head
Laying in bed wide awake
Loneliness getting on my nerves
Closing my eyes hard, to sleep

But all I can do is weep
Wanting love & also afraid of heartbreak
Oh god, show me the way
In this treacherous terrain

Every-time I try something new
I get excited like a few
When the charm wears off
And the pants come off
I give my best
Try it with zest
Till it bores me
Or it scares me

Sky & Sea merge
In a magical land
With different hues
Of crimson & blues

Photographers, Surfers
And spectators on a
Rocky beach watching
A million diamonds sparkle

An Orange Sun
Playing peekaboo

The stillness feels like death
But movement isn't life either
I'm getting bored again
But moving around isn't the answer

I'd rather move inward
Make a temple in my heart
That only I can build or destroy

For I know why I move.
To feel home in places
Alien to humanity

Days turn into nights
An endless labyrinth of
Empty weeks and months
With no semblance of life

Years go by, memories not made
Everything STOPS...
People, Planes & Countries too
To bear the wrath of Animalcules

There is beauty in working with hands
That I can never describe in words
Yet here I give it a try, before my land goes dry

Everyday I sow seeds & plant plants
Without knowing what they'll look like
In years to come, when there's no music to hum

Some say it's boring farm work
Under hot sun & cold rain
Yet I keep doing it over & over

For I know why I'm growing
As it's the only way to a world
Free of tyranny, depression & eternal suffering

So I'll keep growing till my land goes dry
For I need to feed the last man on earth
Give him hope & few seeds to grow.

I thought I left you a while back
But I realized, you didn't
Today I dreamt about you
You were beautiful as ever

Your naked body shining in the moonlight
Me watching your shy eyes begging for a kiss
I close my eyes & I wake up
With tears in my eyes & rain in my ears

For days I wandered
In the mountains green, white & brown
Drinking from cold water streams
Eating berries & watching slugs
Sharing my tent with people from strange lands
Walking steep trails & lighting camp fires
Waking with sun & gazing at snow mountains
Sadly I walk down from heaven
Back to humanity all alone
Wondering what I found in nature
That I couldn't find in people

When words lose their meanings
When Authenticity becomes an act
When truth  starts to hurt
When solitude is nowhere to be found

I'll start asking my questions

Why do you need to lie ?
Why do you need to act ?
Why don't you speak your mind ?
Why don't you enjoy the silence ?

I had a happy & sad childhood
Had great tragedies & greater triumphs
But nothing changed me
As much as women did

I had an eye for the special ones
Like the predator for the prey
Nice, Intelligent & truly beautiful girls
Who didn't know their worth yet.

Words are all I have left
For I have lost you
Truths are what I'm holding onto
For I forgot how to feel

I'll bleed on this page
While you read in pain
But all will be lost then
Too much time passed through my greying hair