Darkness
consuming my sanity,
leaving a crack in the soul
for
demons to gain access
to the
inner world !!

misapprehended by the world,
she was the outcast
trying to survive life
her only lifeline were
the words of her stranger
that he gifted her
every day
then one day,
his words abandoned
her soul
leaving it all alone
in the middle of
a barren desert
under the blazing sun
to be scorched, wither and  die ...
Housing the grave
of her dead soul with in
she was then
the desolated remains
of what
she was once !!

Ragged breathing, tangled legs
Beating hearts, a crazy mess,
wrinkled sheets, so you'd know,
Two souls basking in the afterglow !!

The darkness
trickled down
the window pane,
temperature dropped down
a bit,
silence grew thicker
as her heart skipped
a beat,
atmosphere reeked fear,
she ****** in a breath
as she heard her
inner demons knock
at her soul's door !!

She was his cinderella
but he was too blind
to see that,
so
she was left alone
to fight for her life
as
in her story
there was no
fairy godmother !!

Lets take a walk
by the sea shore
under the midnight sky
listening to the waves
as they tell
those untold stories
that drowned
without saying a word
just drinking in
the beauty of stary night
and feeling the cool wind
against the body...
Living the night to the fullest !!

write me a poem
and play flute for me
we'll drink the night sky
and walk by the sea !!

She was the one
always working hard
obeying the elders
never letting her heart lead
sacrificing her wishes
suffocating the dreams
as she was the good girl
They told her
to follow her heart
always ...
to let go and
live to the fullest
only complicating
her already arduous life
as it made stronger
her rebellious side
making it hard for her
to obey the orders
for once she listened
and let her heart have its way
and it was then
they called her a **Bad girl

Known as the beast,
He actually was the
cursed prince,
his only parts that were human
were his beautiful heart
and the crystal blue eyes
that held so much pain
mixed with hope
to find his Beauty
who, with her True Love,
will break the spell
but
the beauty was too blind
to look beyond his ugly appearence,
to drown in his crystal blue eyes,
and
to fall in love with his
beautiful heart
the hope in his eyes died one day
the curse grew stronger
and now he was
The Beast by Heart !!

before i met you...
i used to write
about people...
things
happenings ...
with so much precision
that people could see
what i want them to see
feel .. what i want them to feel
then u came along
i tried to write about u
but failed
coz it felt like no word in
dictionary
could do justice to what
i feel for you...
or describe how i see you
or tell what you mean to me
I LOVE YOU !!
is all what words have to offer
and i know they are not enough
but only a bit of what i feel for u...

when the falling rain drops
generated purple music
and last rays of evening sun
painted the clouds crimson,
she felt nothing but blue !!

Sitting on the rocking chair
in the dark corner
of his dimly lit study
with gaze transfixed
on the steam rising
from the coffee mug
he rolled cigarette
between his fingers
caressing his forehead
with other hand
he put the cigarette
between his lips
and
inhaled the bitter smoke
with a hope that
it will be the antidote
to her memories
poisoning his soul
cigarette after cigarette
pack after pack
inhaling, exhaling...
Drowning himself
in the greyness of smoke
to the world outside,
he was nothing
but an addict
but little did they knew
that it was his only way
to save himself
to build the thick wall
of acrid smoke
between him and her ...

Sitting on the floor
in a dark pitch room
curled up in a corner
spining her cocoon
blocking out the world
feeling so safe
to get her walls up early
she picked up new pace
once the work was done
she let out a sigh
they were the harsh words
that made her to keep the walls high!!

Black coffee
running in her system
was the only thing
keeping her warm
as the cold wind
continued to
mercilessly strike against
her body
and its bitter taste
lingering on her taste buds
helped her to mask
the bitterness of memories
that eroded her soul
as she stood there
on her balcony on a
winter eve.

Sometimes
i want you
to be the Title
of my next story
but then
writing your story
would mean
telling the world
about
your scars
that never healed
your wounds
that always bleed
your battles
that never end
your pain
that you always hide
it's only then
i dont want to
write your story !!

one of those nights
when you crave a friend
who'd listen to
your ******* thoughts
without judging you
and give a soft smile
letting you know
that you are understood
in a way
you wanted to be !!

Sitting by her window
alone in a dimly lit room
fixing her gaze
on the midnight moon
feeling the thickness of night growing
she had that strong urge
to read
his unwritten story ...

She kept her emotions
under her head
ignoring always
whatever heart said

she let her brain lead
cause she had a fear
that she'll get hurt
if she lend heart an ear

she had seen people
who followed their hearts
and ended up broken
with the ugly scars

she decided to do
what she deemed wise
locking her heart alone
muffling it's cries

her brain eased the pain
as her heart bled
changing it's color
to pitch black from red

she witnessed her failure
and soul falling apart
she could do nothing
as she was cursed by heart.

For world,
he is a strong man
a soldier
fighting the bad
defending his land
brave enough
to stand against a million
defiant enough to
make the first move
confident much
to never miss a target
ruthless enough
to **** the enemy
with bare hands
but for a little girl
back at home
he is a teddy bear
who will wipe her tear
a ray of hope and light
a Dad
who makes every thing
go right !!

Night starts fading,
stars begin to yawn;
time slowly drifts towards
the most awaited dawn...

she watched the clouds,
taking over the sky.
she watched the sun,
going down the horizon.
she watched silently...
everybody leaving her side.
she watched the words,
loosing their meaning.
she watched the crystalline,
drops falling from sky...
and then she decided
to let the dreams die.

When the darkness sets in
and you let it consume you
it feels like falling;
falling in a bottomless hole,
and under its pulling force
you feel your demons stirring
finding a way
to get out
and to take over ...
Clawing your soul from inside
getting restless,
causing pain,
so you just decide to
unleash them
and let your demons out
for a HUNT !!

I dont know why
and dont know how
but i can feel this..
Right now
The destiny
may be its Changing
or just
is about to
unfold a new chapter !!

His eyes ...
The most beautiful
shade of emeralds
deep as jungle
holding many secrets
reflecting his emotions
his smile lighting up
the golden flecks
in his iris
like the sunlight dancing
in the lush green meadows
his demons turning
gold flecks into black streaks
like shadows ready to
take over the jungle
but
the moment her hazel eyes
looked into his emerald ones
she knew
she was lost in the deep
jungles
never to be found again !!

as the night thickened,
there she was
standing in her balcony
facing city lights
listening to the screams of
dying words
as she was unable to pen them down
all because of him !!
she watched her demons dance merrily
as they fed on her fear of
feeling the emotions,
she had promised never to feel.
emotions that he had stirred
back to life.
emotions that could break the walls she had built,
emotions that could make her open the doors she had locked long ago !!

"I am sorry."
She whispered, pain swirling in her brown eyes.
She wrapped her arms a little more around herself as she spoke.
"Let me go" silent plea written in her glass covered eyes.
He could see guilt eating her up, for being the reason of his pain, his emptiness...
warm black eyes starred deep into brown ones,
letting the decisive moment take over.
In the split second he realized he needed to let her go...
taking a deep breath,
he tried to feel the excruciating pain
that would stem from his bleeding heart but to his surprise he felt nothing.
She watched his warm eyes turning into icy ones,
thick walls starting to rise around his bleeding heart.
She felt her heart twist in her chest
In that moment she realized he would let her go.
But she will always be entrapped in those deep eyes which are now covered with thick ice.

Under his
intense gaze
she witnessed
world fading
into nothingness
as she felt
herself evaporate !!

"You are insane"
they make sure to
remind me this
every single day

"i know" and smile
is the only reply
i come up with
every single day

it hurts now
more than yesterday
the agony grows
every single day

someone tell them
just to stop
don't make me, hate me
every single day

i feel left out,
can't find the strenght
to smile and shine
every single day.

Take my hand
And fade away with me
Into the realms of dreams
Where we will find life
And will learn how to live
Happily ever after
With no questions asked
But first
You have to answer one question
"Will you?"
Will you take my hand
And fade away with me ??

Sometimes i wish for fame,
so that every body knows my
name,
but then i have a fear..
To which no one gives an ear.
The Fear i'll be known by all
making it easy for them to make
me fall ..
I fear how this fame thing ends ..
Person stands alone,
left with no friends.
the fear that hollow people will
surround
leaving me with no place to go
around.
the fear they'll call me lame,
the fear i may lose the game...
And then i don't want any fame
so that NO ONE KNOWS MY NAME ...

What it feels like
To feel like a deserted path
that no one takes
because they have fears
because they dont know where it leads
and are afraid to take
the risks ...
To feel like an
abandoned ship
stuck in the middle
of strom struck deep
blue sea ?
To feel like
a jumbled up puzzle
with a missing piece
destined never to be
found ...

She was just a random girl,
but a bit different from you.
Glittering eyes, Lovely smile
but from inside she was blue.
Where the life was taking her,
she did not had a clue.
Ignoring what her brain says
her heart tells what to do
No matter what the matter is
she'll help her friends get through
always longing for glamorous
world
her wishes grew and grew...
She was the girl with thousand
wishes
Hoping they'll come true ...

Standing all alone ...
in the middle of a dark day ...
feeling nothing but, ...
a bit grey ...
Watching the colors ...
as they fade away ...
mind full of words ...
but left with nothing to say ...
loosing the silver lining ...
her eyes were about to cry ...
fighting with her mind ...
the heart begged ...
GIVE IT A TRY!! ...
her lips fluttered ...
as she was falling grey ...
running out of time ...
her only option was to pray ...
Prayer whispered ...
listened ...
& answered ...
Feeling blessed ...
she found a new way ...
as now it was a colorful bright
day !!

I hope that one day
fate will bring someone
in my life
with whom
i'll live my
"Happy Everafter"
Who will love me
when my face
will be wrinkled
and i'll be no longer
beautiful
who will have
to loudly ask
for his glasses
as i may not be
wearing my hearing aids
Who will just smile
and tell me
where my stick is
as i may suffer
from a slight dementia
and
who'll just hold
my hand and
reassure me
that it was just a cat
running on the roof
of OUR house
and there is
nothing to worry about !!

I have this problem
where i find it difficult
to reconnect with
the real world;
after reading a good book
or
after listining to good music
because they are just
that much intoxicating
leading you to another world
into a euphoric realm
where you can't stop smiling
and everything feels so good
as if you are under a spell ..
You never want to get rid of ...

the words
creating havoc
echoing in the vast emptiness
of soul as they strike
against the high walls
built to keep them
within,
Turning deaf ear
to the inner chaos
she wore a smile
and
became the part of **crowd

Surrounded by the darkness,
with no light to see,
She felt her shadow leaving,
setting her free.
with growing emptiness all around,
under her feet there was no
ground.
she decided then
to call her friend,
but she got no answer
from the other end.
left in the darkness
all on her own
she began to fade
reason being alone
fading into nothingness
she realized a fact
not a real friendship,
but it was a mere act.
finding a fake friend
was written in her fate
but to get up and move on
it's never too late
giving up on this world
she created her own
with no fake people
and no hatred grown
in her new world
she found friends then
they were the white paper
and the deep blue pen.

One early morning,
standing on the seashore,
facing the horizon,
watching the sun rise,
aware of the waves making the wet
sand move under her feet as they
leave after kissing her feet ...
The saltish air adding to the
heaviness of atmosphere ..
Feeling the early morning breeze
cold against her pale face...
Staring at infinity ...
Folding her arms across her chest,
inhaling deeply, closing her eyes ...
ignoring the only rebellious tear
rolling down her cheek,
she made her decision ...
To be strong ...
To face reality ...
To smile ...
To shine ...
Leaving her soul to drown in deep
blue sea as she walked away to face
life.