Greetings could hide anything
A friendly how do you do?
Or a who the hell are you?

Don't judge a book by its cover
That's what they all say
Who asked you, anyway?

Look there, someone new!
Wow, isn't she fat?
Out loud I'd never really say that

Of course, it's innocent
If it stays in my mind
Aren't I just so kind!

What a weird species we are
Swipe left, swipe right
She's thin, let her stay the night!

Beneath our watchful eyes
The good soul robs the weak
The criminal supports the meek

But you wouldn't know that
With those closed eyes
We're living lies

"Is she doing okay?"
A friend looked down at me
I pretended not to hear, just go away
And leave me be

"Yeah, she's probably fine."
That's how he replied
My mind refuses to align
Why couldn't you have tried?

If I can't hear you
I'll laugh
Since I'm afraid to ask for clarity

If you offend me
I'll laugh
It's just a joke of course...

If you insult me
I'll laugh
My self-confidence cannot be lowered!

If I'm humiliated
I'll laugh
Punishment and anguish will come soon

If you notice the cuts
I'll laugh
"It was just my dog, LOL."

If I'm ready to die
I'll laugh
I don't want you to know

If I cause harm
I'll laugh
It'll make me sound innocent :)

If you see my fear
I'll laugh
To simply strengthen the illusion

How
Can
  I
   Have
    So
     Much
      Hatred
       For
        Someone
         That
          I
           Wish
            They
             Never
              Existed?

Keep your head up high
Even if your heart's down low
When the future rolls around
You'll be laughing about it, I know

The courage that you had
To let your feelings show
Keep it with you, always
It'll surely help you grow

Heartbreak hurts in many ways
You might think it's your time to go
But surround yourself with joyful things
And soon you'll start to glow

The ground is still beneath you
Even when the tears do flow
It may seem like it's over now
But you'll get through it, though

Is it worth the risk
To confess hidden feelings?
Chance for grief or joy

Light whizzes past my eyes
Colliding with the next
Bright hues of every colour
Swirling, hypnotizing, enchanting
All the lies, they will not save me
Fantasies left to crumble

Crisp sheets lay in front of me
Their words scramble together in unending strands
A voice shreds my ears
Scraping lines tie me down

I can't focus
I can't hear you
I'm sorry

My chest is pierced, to no reply
Shrill laughter licks up the blood
I'll surely ignore my punishment
And give myself what I deserve

At my only sanctuary
Numbers and letters invade
Just to eat up my time to heal
My insides are twisted up and empty
Yet I smile around those who see

I am held back by myself
Chains ripping at my wrists
Pressed against a wall of shattered glass
I've misplaced the letters H-E-L-P
They've been scattered on the floor

I can't focus
I can't hear you
I'm sorry

Seated on a bench
Carved with words
Waiting for the train
To take me away

Somewhere far from
This empty town
The streets are too quiet
Only ghosts remain now

A fireplace flickers
Somewhere down the road
Piercing the night
And the whispering breeze

Cackling relatives
Curious children
The smoke curls
As the sounds fade

Beneath my feet
A deep rumble
The train screeches
To a halt beside me

Mist kisses my cheeks
Before I step into the light
The laughter stings
My scarlet ears

I take a seat
And press against the glass
Breath painting shapes
On the foggy window

I've left the town behind
My home nowhere in sight
I could be going anywhere
Yet I'm headed nowhere

On my own
Decisions have failed me
Love now a distant
Tangled lie

I walk among others
Their hearts turning over
My mouth repeats
What my eyes have seen

At last, love blossoms
For two friends close to me
As fate strikes yet again
I observe in utter joy

But I hold my own secret
For my love has returned
Back to habits long faded
Mended with pleasure

I'll be their wings
Into a new dawn
A mere shadow on the wall
But not quite so lonesome

Mother Earth
Twirls 'round, keeping a balance
Of a calm, dark night
And a luminous day

Mother Earth
Not the fairest maiden around yet
She provides
For ev'ry one of her kin

Mother Earth
Her arms are open to those who fall
For when it's time
We'll return to her

Mother Earth
She's growing tired of our antics
Suffering day by day
On our behalf

Mother Earth
Waving the smoke away from her eyes
The heat now grows
Unbearable

Mother Earth
What have we done to deserve you?
Surely we'll
Be your demise...

A time of innocent wonder
The world flowed around me
Bright colours hypnotizing
To my little blue eyes

Before the searing pain
Or the sharpened tongues
When the people I met
Became my friends

How I regret complaining
Of the simple addition
When time was merciful to me
And opinions meant nothing

Drama spread like fire
Over toys, boys, and friends
Only to be forgotten
The following day

Life of innocence
Seemed never-ending
Oblivious and naive
I wish I could stay

Flesh unfolds
Of tinted hues
Reveals no difference
Of heart, in nature

Acts of folly
Acts of grace
What does it matter
When consumed by darkness?

Tyrants, we are
Too clever for ourselves
Yet again
We deface our own

Beasts weep before us
The ground grows bare
Alas, we build skyward
Destined to fall, the cycle of life

Clockwork minds stand in rows
Held captive by flashing lights
"I am better than you!"
We shriek in pure delight

Our pride ineffable
Forever climbing further
Scoffs of mockery slaughter innocence
Drawing blood with hearty laughter

Are we not simply ******?
Watch us drown in pleasure
And let our corpses rot!
Just for human desires

So selfish are we
Craving earthly possessions
They dig our graves for us
As we suffocate in false joy

Who are we?
What are we?
Why are we?
Human...

Hir eyes
Are full of emptiness and sorrow
His eyes
Want to be someone, someday
Her eyes
Glisten with beauty, yet she lashes out
His eyes
Keep all of it locked away
Her eyes
Soft and gentle, but under strict laws
His eyes
Hurt and broken again, still moving forward
My eyes
Trapped in fear only longing for joy

We all stand together
Never fading away

Paper thin slits
On my pale skin
Blood glistening
A deep crimson

Sets the shame free
Cools the anger
But I still hate
This part of me

Blades press deeper
For each mistake
The searing pain
I cannot hide

This punishment
I deserve it
So my mind says
Repeatedly

Love can heal
A broken heart
But love takes many forms
A touch of another
The embrace of a mother
Hold close those you cherish
To a dear friend
A few simple words
Could truly mean the world

Told to hold
My memories close
How many will I forget?

Still, I will
Set them on my shelf
Already some forgotten

The future promises
...
Nothing, really

Just a shrowd of dreams
That will never happen

The screams have been roaring
Thriving, locked in my head
Had I done nothing
There they would stay

But a new day has risen
Change I stray from, change I seek
Alas, the scars burn
Screams merely dulled to whispers

I am able to turn my ears away
Yet they linger in my heart
So cold, an aching snowfall
On my very soul

"You still love him, desperate as always"
"Difficult, unstable, unworthy *****"
"You are too afraid to try any more"
Now be silent and perish already"

The snow dissolves to nothing
In the midst of my true flame
The screams silence themselves
For I no longer listen to deafening lies

Despite my efforts, forgetting is futile
I am still persisted by whispers to this day
I cast them away as illusions
Bringing focus to the light I hold

Life is a gift
Of random splendour

Pain starting swift
Then the next so tender

Or so they say
Give a reason to me

Why my sweets stay
As stagnant as can be

Would you love me if
I put forth an apology?
Would you love me if
I could make you jealous?
Would you love me if
I changed my looks?
Would you love me if
I acted normal?
Would you love me if
I̸ ̷s̶t̴o̴p̵p̴e̴d̸ ̸c̸a̶r̷i̵n̵g̴?̷
Would you love me if
I̷̞̦̽̈́ ̴̖̗͊s̶̪̑t̵̼͑͂o̶̧͂p̶̈͜p̶̨̖͊e̶̙̽d̴̗̈́ ̷̨̖̾p̷̥͉̎̃l̸̯̈́͘ĕ̴̳a̵̜͘͝d̵̺̏͗i̴̩̇͜n̶̪̰̚̕g̵̡̞͆?̷͙̀̋
Would you love me if
Ì̸̱͉̳̭̄ ̴͎̜̱̍͐̕s̵̜͗t̴̩̗̟̉̔͗͛ì̵̦̘̿̾̌͜ͅt̴̹̿c̵̗̜̫̏̄h̸͖͛͌e̶̹̔́̓d̷̼̙̐ ̵̖̱̙̪̄̉͗ṁ̸̯͕͒̿̈́y̵̙̪͖̠͊͑ ̴͓̻͉̪̽͒m̸͉̙̝͒̈́̔ȯ̴̧̮̙̍̓ͅù̴̪̀t̵̨̘̘̾́h̷̰̏͐́͐ ̴̻͎͕̆͒ş̴̛̘̱̌͘͝h̸̭̊̊͝ù̸͚̍͘ť̷̞͖͍̏̿?̴̭͂͗̍
Would you love me if
Ĭ̸̻̠̱̪̞͔̰̬͖̰̳͔̅̔̆ ̴̨̛̲̺̝̙̻̩̒͒̆̽͋̆͛͊̇̓́̈́̈͂̇͌͝Ḱ̴̨̢̛̯̟̫̹̣͍̜̼̤͈̤̫́͗̊̔͋͌̐̆͒͛̀̏̏̾̀̾̊̚̕̚ͅ­͔̮̣̝̠͉Į̵̛̝̭̺̲̤̱̊͐́͌̋͆̏̒̃̂͐̎̈́̐̓̔̏̿̔̚͘̕͠͝L̸̨̢̡̦̜͍̠̗̖̜̼͔̞̗̔̄L̷͗̏͑͋͝­̡̪̲̫̥͚̘͖͓̜̰̭̔́̑́̓͐̓͂̅́͊͘͜͝͝É̷̡̛̗̍̓̾̾͗͋̽̃̿̐͗D̶̛̛̆͐́͐̈́̋̽̑̈́̈̀͑̓̚͝͝͝­̢̨̗̥̥͔̥͋͋͛̅ ̷̛̰̙̱͕̼͈͂̌̅̇̊̍̊̑͊̂̉͂̆̏̈͋̃̓͐̕̕͘͝ͅͅM̷̨͈̾̌̈́͐̀͊̌͊̓͆̈́̂̄̾̆̎̈́̌̆̆͝͝Y̵̢̨̟̏­̢̧̨̧͕͇̣̳̲͖͕͉̬̪̝̣͓͍̬̩̭̪̖Ś̸̻̱̜̞͇̬̫͔̠͓̬͕̲̥̯̬̭͖͕̣̰̤͉͇͕͗̈͗͌͆̓͜͝͝E̵̓̿̕­̨̛̛̹̞̪̱͍̤̩̦̿͒̾́̄̍́͛̏̿͑̔̀͑̀̉͗͐̍̐͝L̸̢̡̰̙͇̞̩̞̜̜͕̝̲̝̠͇̻̩̻͊̈́͗͂͆̂̀̂̒̃̕ͅ­̹̼͓̱̗F̶̛͙̪̂̈́̋͂͛͛̈̓̂̇͘͘͜?̷̪̯̤̹̱̖̇͆͂̉̈́̒̏̿́̿̐̄̎͛͒̑̔̍́̈́̿̄͠͝͝


My apologies
I forgot how much
You caused me to suffer
I'll forget you too!
It won't be long now...

The thought that you
Would harm me so
Had never crossed my mind
For I was utterly obsessed

Secrets
Smiles
Safety
Revolved around you
Oh how I craved it all

But still, I fell
And you caught me
With love growing less
My pain growing worse

Soon my eyes were opened
Blind no longer
To my actions
So I waited for your return

The words which followed
I did not fear
You loved me, you loved me
Right?

Leaving for uncertainty
All reasons stayed valid to me
My hope still stood
Just for you

But there was a single sentence
Not another girl
Not turmoil between parents
Not collapsing grades

You simply wanted to leave
"Difficult and unstable," you spat at me
My dearest friend
Whom I fell in love with

He
left
me
suffering

My insides churned
Words flew onto the screen
I cursed him
Wept until breath refused to flow

The last words I received
From my future, my place of joy
****
You

All
Lost words
Find their way
In a poem

Brandish a pen
Catch your thoughts
And guide
Them

Close your eyes
Take a step

Into the soft grass

Velvet blades in rows
Start tickling your feet

Look to the heavens

The sky a deep navy
Like ocean blue

Stars flicker and giggle

For along the horizon
Lie tips of sleeping dawn

Your feet begin to wander

The wind whispers a breeze
Poking cooly at your cheeks

Fireflies flutter peacefully around you

A heavy veil of fog
Descends upon your figure

Rest soundly until morn

Back to the world
I still refuse to awaken in

Back to the world
That reminds me of a corpse

Back to the world
Which stole my warmth and praise

Back to the world
Where my safeties cease to exist

Back to the world
That hurts me so

Back to the world
And those burning eyes

Tears shed by my eyes
Capture sorrow and hopelessness
In a wailing sob

Tears shed by the sky
Pour from the heavens to nourish
All who live below

Why can't I
Cry like the sky?

Leaving not a salty burn
But the scent of petrichor

Please let me stay
Right here
Where the faces
Are not shadows
But instead
Filled with light

Leave me be
To observe a memory
Or indulge in a thought
So my joy
Will forever
Thrive within

The pain has vanished
The fear finally fled
So why must it be
Sent back to me?

A wanderer approaches you
His eyes are those who've seen the world
For this man, what would you do?
Turn your cheek and fear his act
Or greet him, ease what he's been through
He'd smile back, old and worn
Like painted art that's lost its hue
"Release hearts still confined, forget not your own."
His advice a mountain, solid and true
Every day you'd meet those eyes, growing ever-so softer
The wandering soul has advice for you

Teen problems, they're ****
Everyone has been through them
Can't wait to laugh now

To live
Is crafting a prized novel
Memories resting on every page

To end a life
Is deeming it complete
Before the reader is satisfied

A book lacking a proper end
You could call it a book
But it is not a story

I donned a suit of warmth
And dove into my memories
They swirled around my body
Teasing scars I left behind
But what once scraped my soul, past love
Won't hurt the same again
Taken softer, just a heartbeat
Like a storybook for me

A laugh
A grin
A hand
A kiss
Something to treasure, not to fear
For learning
For growing
Even for showing
In my heart, all held dear

I smiled as they carried me away
Letting them flourish, it gave me breath
For I knew a reader stood close by
In case I ever dove too deep

I have climbed the cliff
To gain a chance for praise
Alas, the times I know too well
Are ones where I have fallen
The air itself had parted beneath me
Now to the cold, unwelcoming ground
My body is left to lay

But something sparked in my writhing mind
"Take the leap once more"
Brushing off the fear and dust
My ascent began anew

Before a word was uttered
The ground was far beneath my feet
Left behind with those worthless doubts
Today, I took flight

And when the wind was no longer
Beneath my frail, young wings
Smiling faces met my eyes
Warmed my heart
And caught me

A lost stranger
Waved at me today
My aching heart
Hurt a little less
The corners of my lips
Raised a little more
Face every trial
Knowing that you made my day
Brighten a little more

I get what heartbreak means now
My chest is throbbing