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Jun 2015 · 302
I miss you
Violet Blue Jun 2015
The whole time
Last night
You were on my mind
Thinking
I wish he was here
The whole time
Something bad happened
I wished you were there
So I could run into your arms
And feel safe again
I miss you so fucken much
That it physically hurts
Please be okay
Please still love me
I miss you so much
And these feelings won't go away
Jun 2015 · 1.8k
Smile
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Fake a smile darlin
They'll never suspect a thing
Jun 2015 · 348
Feel
Violet Blue Jun 2015
I feel
Hurt
Scared
Confused
Loved
Hated
Annoyed
Sad
Happy
Angry
*******
Upset
Down
Unwanted
Not Good enough
All in one
And all together
Makes me feel
More Upset
And Sad
Than anything
Jun 2015 · 327
Untitled
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Truth is
I'm getting bad again
And your the only one
That helps me genuinely
Makes me happy
But
I can't tell you this
No
Your slowly slipping away
And it hurts
But I can't let down my wall
Jun 2015 · 16.1k
Fuck boy
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Grow some *****
You little *****
Be straight up
*******
Grow a ******* pair
Stop making a big deal
Out of nothing
I was upset
And you didn't even care
Didn't give a ****
Cool dude
Thanks for fucken nothing
**** boy
Get ******
Jun 2015 · 338
Ugh
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Ugh
Why can't my happiness
Be as strong as a brick wall
Instead of being as strong as thin ice
One step and its broken
Jun 2015 · 767
Explode
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Head thumping
Stomach in pain
Chest pressure
Arms weak
Heart on my sleeve
Opened up
Silly idea
Stupid girl
You let your wall down
Slowly let them
Take it down
Brick by Brick
How silly of you
To trust someone
To hold your heart in their hands
To hold a gun to your head
And trust them to not pull the trigger
Silly Girl
Head Thumping
Stomach in Pain
Chest pressure
Arms Weak
Brick wall
Building up again
About to
Explode
Jun 2015 · 416
Scared
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Everyday I'm scared
Constantly
Feels like I'm standing
On the edge of a cliff
At any minute it will crumble
Like I'm standing on thin glass
Any minute it will break
Like I'm standing on ice
Thin Ice
Any moment it will crack
and I'll fall in
Into the icy pool
I'm that glass
I'm that thin ice
That crumbly cliff
Any moment
I'm going to break
Once again
Any moment
I'll crack
And when that time comes
I'll fall for a long time
And won't be able to get back up
It scares me
Everyday
I hide everything
Everything that;s going on in my life
Because I don't want to bore you
With my problems
And show that I'm not the happy person
That everyone thinks I am
Not the person think
That everythings perfect in my life
It's really not
Everyday I'm scared of getting that text
That phone call
From my Dad
to tell me that my uncles
back in hospital
and that he wont make it
this time
everyday I wait
For that one phone alert when
I will finally break
Jun 2015 · 5.7k
Fuck Boy
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Oh god,
if you turn out
to be a **** boy
If you turn out to
be like all the rest

I swear I'll hate you
I swear I'll have trust issues
I swear you'd have ****** me over
I swear
No
I promise
I will gladly punch you
And let you know what
a **** boy you are
And how you proved me wrong
That you are like the rest
A **** boy
A user
To make yourself look better
By making me
Seem like a loser
Like some lovey dovey idiot
Something I'm not
Ew
*******
That's not the case
But if that's what your doing
Get ******
You **** boy
Jun 2015 · 1.5k
Weird
Violet Blue Jun 2015
I find it kinda strange
How everything
Seems to be working out
Lately

I'm not used to this kind of happiness
Something usually bad happens
That causes me to not stay happy
But right now
I genuinely am
Happy

I don't really know
What to think
What to feel
Because nothing seems
To be wrong

It's not what I'm used to
I'm used to pretending
Used to faking a smile
And hanging out with people
That don't make me
Feel that wanted
Used to being just okay

Now everything different
Is changed
For the better
It's a good change
But I'm not used to it
It feels weird
But I'm happy
Genuinely

So this is what it feels like
To be happy
Genuinely happy
Jun 2015 · 1.4k
Jacket
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Your jacket
Smells like you
I've carried it everywhere with me
All weekend
Kept it by my side
In my hands
Or on me
The scent of you
Lingers
Helps me sleep
It's his jacket
I have to give it back soon
By the time I give it back
It will smell like me
His jacket
His jacket :3 <3
Jun 2015 · 1.5k
Sleep
Violet Blue Jun 2015
I'm resting my head
On your chest
My hand on your shoulder
Your arm around me
Playing with my hair
Gently stroking it
Helping me fall asleep
Your other hand
Holding onto my arm
gently moving your thumb
Up and down
Your chin on my head
I can hear your heart beat
Your arms tightly round me
Holding me
Making me feel safe and happy
Genuinely happy
Even though it was the worst sleep
I've ever had
Because of the little space we had in the tent
It was one of the best sleeps
Just because you were there
You move and your cheek is pressed against mine
I can feel your breathe on my neck
You moved your hand into my sleeping bag
And pull my top
And gently rub my back
Because I'm almost in tears
With how sore my stomach is
I giggle quietly cause it tickles on my side
It starts to get cold
So I move closer to your chest and you hold me tighter
You're dreaming
A nightmare possibly
Sounds like your crying
My arm isn't on you anymore
You make a weird noise
And I pull you closer to me
And you seem to feel better
It's cute really
You felt better with my arm around you
Just like I did
Continue stroking my hair
As I fall gently asleep on your chest
Feeling the steady rhythm
Of your heart
And hearing your heavy breathing pattern
And you light airplane sounding snore
From you being sick
Slowly falling asleep
In each other's arms
Happy
And safe
Jun 2015 · 783
Sad
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Sad
I'm sad
I don't know why
I do
It's a lot of things actually
The fear of losing him
The fear we won't be close anymore after this year
If he leaves after this year
I'm not ready for that
I also don't know what to say to her
To ease her mind
To make her feel wanted and that I care
She's my best friend
But I can't  tell her
I'm still afraid of getting bullied
I'm still afraid people are judging me
All the time
It's painful
I'm confused
Hurt
Scared

**BROKEN
Jun 2015 · 361
What am I supposed to say?
Violet Blue Jun 2015
What am I supposed to say?
What am I supposed to do?
When all I can think is
All the times you shut me down
Didn't think I cared
Tried so hard to show you I did
But it didn't work
When you got angry at me
And I didn't know why
You told me to open my eyes
You swore at me
Just like they did
Just the same way I've been hurt in the past
If you push me away enough
I'll eventually leave you
There's only so much
One person can take love
I hang out with this group
You're not very fond of
But when I'm with them
everything bad goes away for a while
They help me forget
I love them with everything I have
You don't understand that
I don't understand you a lot
Jun 2015 · 503
You
Violet Blue Jun 2015
You
There's so much I could say I don't know where to start. I like how much you care for me and I don't know why you care for me so much or how  deserve you but I can't even begin to tell you how grateful I am. I like how protective you are of me you always have my back ALWAYS even when you can't be there you're still there for me through messaging me. I like how you message me good morning just to check on me and see how I was and if everything was alright. I like how you messaged me every time I go on road trips and tell me to stay safe everyday and message me when I'm travelling there and home and make sure I get home safely every time we walk somewhere at night. I like how you made me keep that promise to keep me safe at night. I love how we tell each other stuff and how I can trust you with anything and I can tell you anything. I like how we fight about the silliest things they aren't even real arguments just us joking around pretending to be mad at each other when we're not and one of us sneaks a look at the other and smiles and the other person catches us and we know we can never be angry at each other. I love how we share the same morals and i don't really know what to say there's too many things I like about you. I like the way you hug me slowly and tightly and you don't let go for ages long enough for me to feel your warmth and appreciate the moment and even long enough for a small conversation in each others ear. I like the way you say goodnight to me it helps me sleep with ease of knowing I still have you.  The truth is I'm scared of losing you so scared I've never been so scared of losing someone in my life. I need you in my life I can't lose you not now not ever please never leave. I'll miss your touch, your icy fingertips touching my knee comforting me making sure I'm alright, I'll miss being able to sleep on your shoulder feeling your warmth on my cheek and you softly talking to me so no one else can **** in our conversation, I'll miss the way we put our arms around each other and walk together to protect each other, the way you whisper in my ear and scare the **** out of me to point out some imaginary thing in the bush when it's dark just to scare me so I get scared and bump into you so you can laugh and put your arm around my shoulders and we'll laugh together, I'll miss the way you sit closer to me when it's cold and offer your jacket to me, I'll miss your quiet comments in my ear when we're watching plays together, I'll miss our stupid little conversations when we're mad at each other but still want to talk but we're not really mad at each other just pretending to because you know I can't stay mad at you if you flash your big cheesy smile at me and you know it gets me every time, I'll miss the way you look deeply into my eyes when your looking at me and talking to me so please never leave or a part of me will leave with you
Jun 2015 · 497
I can't
Violet Blue Jun 2015
I can't seem to
Tell you how I feel
But it hurts how much I care for you
I've never been so afraid of losing one person
In my entire life
You mean the entire world to me
Everything you've done
Makes me feel more for you
Everyday
And when your gone
It's as if a lot is missing
Half of me is gone
As they say absence
makes the heart grow stronger
And they're right you know
Because God did I miss you
Jun 2015 · 26.1k
Feelings.......
Violet Blue Jun 2015
I can't even seem to type
what I feel right now
I know what  want to say
But the words won't come out
Through my poetry
Jun 2015 · 217
Untitled
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Why does it hurt to love someone
Jun 2015 · 1.2k
Love is painful
Violet Blue Jun 2015
I really like you




I like you so much
It hurts sometimes



When your not here



I'm so scared of losing you



You have no idea
Jun 2015 · 437
What's the point
Violet Blue Jun 2015
What's the point
In trying
What's the point
In making an effort
With you
When you have "goals"
**** your stupid goals
They're not goals
They're just an excuse
**** it
*******
Without you
There's nothing
I have no one
I have no one to share
My everything with
No one to help me
Like you do
No one to protect me
Like you do
No one to talk to
No one to joke around with
Like you
**** it
I can't
Jun 2015 · 728
Oh Lord
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Oh God help me
I'm stressing again
The what ifs are getting to me
The confusion
The fear of losing them
Is getting intense
Stress
Tension
Pain
I don't know what to think
I don't know what to do
Ahhhhh
Lord help me
May 2015 · 1.0k
Goodnight
Violet Blue May 2015
Thankyou
So fucken much
I went to a party
And only had one drink
Everyone was drunk
I got hit on
Followed
I told him
He made sure I was okay
He had a huge day the next day
That he needed a lot of sleep for
But stayed awake
Just to make sure I got home safely
I don't know why he cares for me so much
But I can't explain how grateful I am
Goodnight :)
May 2015 · 515
Broken
Violet Blue May 2015
I don't really know
But I feel like
I'm slowly breaking
losing it all
Slowly breaking
Inside
Trying to hide it on the outside
You three people
Make me happy
Happier than I've ever been
But you can't seem to make me
Genuinely happy
anymore
I'm slowly breaking
And I don't know why
I'm scared
Falling
Breaking
Worried
Scared of falling back into that hole again
She screams but no words come out
She finds it hard to reach out for help
No matter how much they notice
That she's not okay
She won't even admit it to herself
Shes breaking
Slowly
Falling
She doesn't know what to do
Or how to even handle herself
She's been through it all before
She can't go back
Back to that hell
She stayed in for years
She's so scared
HELP
she screams but nothing but silence
escapes her lips
May 2015 · 3.0k
Down
Violet Blue May 2015
I'm down
Hit the bottom
again
Nothing seems to be working out
right
Families fighting
People Distant
Alone
Down
"I'm Fine"
"I'm just tired"
"I'm okay"
"Just a bit cold"
I am tired
I am cold
I'm not fine though
I dont even know
What I am now
A hug from a friend
Well needed
Thankyou
You have no idea how much I needed it
May 2015 · 670
Little talks
Violet Blue May 2015
"Stay safe"
"Please stay by me today, you'll be okay, I won't let anything happen to you, I won't let anyone hurt you"
"It's really pretty"
"Awwww"
"Right in my heart"
"Good morning :) "
"Goodnight get some sleep yeah"
"Did you eat up at the hospital you should eat something"
"I pray for you"
" lord keep her safe protect her all the time"
"Lord please let her be healthy and not get diabetes please"
"Goodnight, have a good sleep and swak dreams"
"Please stay safe around all that I got your back if anything happens but please be safe"
"Promise me you won't I don't want anything happening to you okay"
"What do you need right now"
"Swag guy"  "swag girl"
"It's a date"
"You look great"
"Everything going to be okay I'm here for you they're just jealous don't worry about it"
"Keep smiling they're not worth it"
"Enjoy your meal poo"
"Have a good day and safe travels"
"Stay safe please in (city name) "
"Stand behind me they're dodgy"
May 2015 · 314
You don't even know
Violet Blue May 2015
You see what we show others
The outside
Not the inside
We don't show you what we feel
For each other
We keep that special for just me and him
You say you don't seem interested
In him
He doesn't seem interested in you
You don't even know
You don't know the messages
The touches
The looks
The smiles and the kind eyes
The beauty of it all
You have no idea
You don't even know
The half of it
**** out
You know nothing
You have no idea the emotions
Built up over time
You don't know how I feel
Because your not me
How would you know
Anything about it
It's different
You don't even know
You just see the outside
May 2015 · 17.0k
Goodnight
Violet Blue May 2015
I practically tell you
How I feel
Without
Exactly telling you
I say goodnight
You say no
You don't let me go
You carry on talking to me
You don't want to end it there
Twenty minutes later
You say okay
I better let you go now
Goodnight
May 2015 · 790
How is it possible
Violet Blue May 2015
How is it even possible
For someone to be
Remotely as great
As you are
To me
How is it even possible
To have all of that
Talent
Looks
Genuinity
Protectiveness
Love
Humour
Care
Wisdom
Warmth
Touch
All in one person
How do you do it
How is it even possible
For you to be all that
In one person
From the beaming white smile
To the comforting hugs
And comforting touch of the knee
To the way you move to music
From the words of wisdom
To the quick wit
From the protective caring type
To the joking around laughing type
How is it possible
For all of that
To be in one package
To be mine
I really don't know
May 2015 · 1.6k
Emotions
Violet Blue May 2015
Why
Why is it
So hard
To simply
Express your
Emotions
Your feelings
About someone
Special
Someone
You care dearly for
Why is it so hard
To simply say
I like you
Why is it so scary
Why is
The fear of rejection
So empowering over us
Violet Blue May 2015
Me: take me with yous hahaha jk
Him: yeah sure haha :)
Me: oh yay :p
Him: yay


Movies yay :) :)
May 2015 · 1.4k
:/
Violet Blue May 2015
:/
I can't sleep
The insomniac back
I want him
I have him
But not quite
He doesn't know I like him
Idk if he likes me
I'm stuck
Idk what to do
I'm upset
Fustrated
Sad
Angry
Messed up
Verge of tears
This fucken ****
*****
I hate this *******
May 2015 · 400
Fustrated
Violet Blue May 2015
I'm Fustrated
At myself
Mostly
In you
A little
I want to tell you
I like you
A lot
A **** load
Okay
Like yeah
But
I can't
I'm fucken scared
Scared it'll ruin what we have
Already
Fucken scared
It'll ruin our friendship
What do I do
May 2015 · 989
Hmmm
Violet Blue May 2015
You
Yes you
You confuse the **** out of me
I love you
But
Seriously
What??
May 2015 · 402
In danger
Violet Blue May 2015
You think your friend
Is in danger
One of the happiest
Cutest people ever
This person we know is on their Facebook
Dragging all this ******* out
Making it seem like something was wrong
When in the end it was just our mate
And said she was asleep
Why'd you drag that out so long
Making us worry
To find it's really nothing
**** sakes
May 2015 · 4.0k
Wifi
Violet Blue May 2015
Lunch time
In 10 minutes
Time to get the school
Wifi Password
Cause yes
I’m a teenager
Wifi is fucken God
May 2015 · 7.1k
Need you
Violet Blue May 2015
Photography last
Need you to be here
But your not
You’re working
Having a good time
While I’m here in school
Stuck in boredom
I need you to be here
To be my photography model
But you’re not
Well…
****
Literally sitting in this boring class doing jack all bored out of my mind
May 2015 · 1.5k
Stolen Table
Violet Blue May 2015
Walk into class
Stop and stare
The tables been taken
Forced to sit with the rest
Myself and one other
Forced to do the unthinkable
Socialize
The rest of this class are either, ******* annoying fuckwits, hoodrats and then theres like 7 people in the whole class that are decent
May 2015 · 2.1k
Childhood friends
Violet Blue May 2015
I had this best friend
As a little kid
She meant the world to me
We had been friends since babies
I thought we'd be friends forever
We don't really talk anymore
I had this other best friend
I met her when we were five
I spent everyday with her
Got into trouble with her
Our parents were best friends
We got poisoned together
By nightshade berries
We did everything together
And last year we started talking again
And now we're inseparable again
We do everything together
Get into trouble together
Sneak out late together
Cry together
Vent together
Rage together
Everything together
Adventure together
I've always wanted that kind of friendship
And I'm so blessed to have a friend like her
Soul sisters
May 2015 · 802
Thinking back
Violet Blue May 2015
It's weird to think a year ago
We never even spoke
Now I tell you everything
Now you tell me everything
Now I trust you with the world
You now mean the world
And we never spoke a year ago
You were just kind of there
May 2015 · 788
Things :P
Violet Blue May 2015
I love how
When something happens
You always want to tell me
Even if it's not that exciting
But you still want to share it with me
But you won't tell me in text
You have to wait to talk about it in person
And I'm the same if something happens
No matter how extrodinary
You and my best friend
Are the first people
I want to tell
May 2015 · 519
Intregied
Violet Blue May 2015
It's funny isn't it
How a mere stranger can
All of a sudden
Without notice
mean the entire world to you
Was it your coffee brown eyes
So full of life
Full of care
Or was it your big white smile
Stretching from ear to ear
Or the way you spoke to me
Like no one else
In that soft tone of voice
What was it that
Pulled me in
What was it
That intregied me
To end up liking you so much
Just all of a sudden you
Meant the world
And I'm not quite sure why
Or how
For you see
I hardly knew you a year ago
But now I know things about you
Even your best friends don't
And you know me
Better than anyone
It's funny that
We hardly knew each other
Just our names
And now
We know everything
May 2015 · 868
Once a mere Stranger
Violet Blue May 2015
I'm not quite sure
What it was that intregied me
What pulled me into
Falling for you
You see we never really talked at all
I never took a second glance
You were just the quiet one
That I didn't much care for
Didn't really know
For five years I've known OF you
But only really
This  year we got really close
May 2015 · 554
Delicate China
Violet Blue May 2015
Feelings aren't just like concrete blocks
You can break me
Manipulate me
Make it seem like it's all my fault
Punch my emotions
Like I'm a punching bag
But as soon as I'm done
Over this torture
I'm done
And you'll never hear from me again
If you want me to stay
Don't **** with my feelings
Don't punch my emotions
And please do not break me
For you see
I've already been broken
And it took me years to piece
Myself back together again
I had to find someone to help me
To be my bandaid
My rock
Without them I'd still be broken
And slowly drifting away
From everything I know
Slowly disintegrating
Into nothing
You see
I'm not like a concrete block
I can be broken
Like delicate china
May 2015 · 522
...
Violet Blue May 2015
...
The way that one
Piece of hair
Falls on your forehead
When you don't have enough wax
In your hair
The way you straighten it
Everyday
Because you hate the curls
That I like
The way you get cold so easy
So you sit a little closer to me
Feel my warmth
Put your hand on my knee
Or on my arm
Your icy fingertips
Burning my skin
How you always hold
Onto my hand
Longer than you should
When you shake my hand
Or hi five me
And bend your fingers over
To hold my hand in yours
The way your eyes light up
When you laugh
Or smile at me
As I wake up
From sleeping in class
The way we both are drawn
To a stray cat
Walking down the pathway home
The way you grab my arm
Or put your hand on my knee
And ask if I'm okay
When I'm on the verge of tears
And tell me it's all going to be fine
When I get scared
And you put your arm around me
And run with me in your arms
Away from what we fear
The way you pull me off the road
So I don't get hit
The way your hand is pressed
Firmly on my back
Getting me away
From any bad situation
The way you care for me
My safety
My health
My feelings
Way more than I do myself
I don't really understand why
But oh how I'm grateful
You were that person
I always prayed for
That God would send me
Someone I could count on
Someone to protect me
Care for me
Understand me and my ways
And make me happy again
May 2015 · 2.9k
Wanderlust
Violet Blue May 2015
Let's go on an adventure
Just you and I
Some place new
Where we've never been
Before
I wouldn't mind
Getting lost
With you
May 2015 · 435
❤️
Violet Blue May 2015
I could look at you
For a single minute
And
Find a thousand things
That I love about you
May 2015 · 909
Life's a funny thing
Violet Blue May 2015
Thinking back
Back to those dark days
Where I didn't think
I'd ever live to be 30
To get married
To even get a boyfriend
Thinking back to the day
I would harm myself
To ease the pain
Just for a little while
To the days I'd cry and cry
In the shower
So it wasn't obvious
To the days
I didn't think there was a way out
Of this dark hole
Called depression
But now
I've still gotten bullied
I'm 16
And still going strong
I have the most amazing best friend
I could ever ask for
This guy that was merely a stranger
I knew of him for five years
And we never spoke
But now he protects me
Keeps me safe
Makes sure I'm okay
Won't let me sleep
If I'm upset
Won't let me sleep til
He's made sure everything's okay
And he's bid me goodnight
My best friend stands up for me
Like no one ever has
She doesn't just stand beside me
And watch me get torn down
She speaks up
For what she believes in
The most opinionated annoying person
Who has a lot to say
But somehow she never gets old
May 2015 · 994
Wonder
Violet Blue May 2015
Do you ever just wonder
What if

What if I took a chance
What if I just went for it
It could turn out perfectly
But then it may not
I'm scared
Scared to take a chance
Even if its something that
could make me
happier than ever
But
If it goes wrong
It could crush me
Break me
Wonder why
Do you care so much
For little old me
But not feel the same
Its all so weird
Isn't it
So confusing
The things you wonder
May 2015 · 1.6k
Best things hurt you
Violet Blue May 2015
You burnt me
You've given me bruises
You've hurt me
So much it hurts to walk
You've strained me so much
I needed medical help

But I guess the best things in life hurt you the most
Food burns you
Exercise strains you
Sport bruise you
Shoes blister you
May 2015 · 1.1k
Stuck in Darkness
Violet Blue May 2015
That's what it feels like
Depression
I've never really talked about
My depressed days that much
Its just a part of me
I can never really reveal to other people
This is hard
It never really leaves you you know
Its like your just numb
You can lay there for hours staring
At the ceiling
Doing nothing
Thinking nothing
Or you can be
Lying on your bedroom floor
Tears streaming down your face
Crying silently alone
Burning all the memories
You want to never remember
But somehow can never let go of
You can have the blade in your hand
Running across your skin creating
Lines of red
Lines of pain
Lines of anger
Of heartbreak
No one even knows
You hide it so fucken well
The pain is unbearable
But you can't let it show through
Smile
Laugh even
No one notices
No one notices the scars
You keep your jumper on to hide them
Even on hot summer days
Your skirt hides the lines on your thigh
No one notices
No one knows that the happiest person they know
Truly isn't
They're broken
Cut up
Terrible
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