Those bad days come
The days were getting out of bed shouldn’t be an option
Were looking at everyone can’t be a choice
But you have to smile for the camera
Everyone is looking at you
While you see that moment
That moment of being on a bus with a friend
A friend that took your friendliness for flirting
A friend that decided to play fight with you
But play fighting turned into something more
Into something you wished it didn’t
He kissed you
You didn’t want or intend for that to happen
You didn’t know what to do
As you tell him no, he tries play fighting again
You reject that too
But in the end, he bites your arm
And now you are stuck with the feeling of teeth on you
The feeling that you still have the bruise
A bruise that you had to hide from your family members
A bruise that symbolized
“You are broken”
You get stuck wearing anything but a normal shirt
No one questions it...but yourself
You can feel the pain
You can see yourself crying all over again
You can feel the hug that your teacher gave you when they found out
That teacher helped you more than anyone
That teacher took care of you in your time of need
That teacher was your parent because you couldn’t show them your bruise
You can feel the nothingness that came out of that experience
You can hear the whispers
The whispers of blame toward you
The whispers of “they asked for it”
No you didn’t ask for it
All you asked for was a friend
A friend to sit next to
A friend to stay close to, so you wouldn’t get lost
But in the end you got more lost
If anything, you got lost and betrayed
Within minutes before and after that first kiss
But you still feel that bruise, even after it’s gone
You feel where their teeth sunk in on your skin
That part of your skin remembers every nerve being in pain
Your muscles remembering tensing up right when it happened
That friend marked you
For what, because you were friendly
Because you gave them attention they hardly got
Who’s to say,
All you know is that you had a bruise and a bad memory on that bus
A memory that haunts you till this day
A memory you wished would just disappear
Just like the bruise
That friend got in trouble
With a slap on the wrist
And everyone on their side
You are the one at fault
You started the whole thing
But you are the one with the wounds
You were too friendly, everyone said
How could that have mattered
When you are now bruised on the inside
Where their teeth were
It takes a week to heal the bruises.
It takes an eternity
to heal the bruise in my heart.
how are you doing today?
glad you got away
from the abuse he gave,
and the mean words he said.
I remember you,
defending the bruises
and the scars he left,
they were all blue.
you were in love
with the idea of being loved,
you weren't in love,
with the idea of getting hurt.
we're no longer mutuals,
you're no longer mutuals
with him too,
and that's okay.
I'm glad that help is on its way.
I was mutual friends with this ******* Facebook; constantly saw her updates on her abusive relationship. Last we got connected, I figured she got out of it, and that's more than okay.
The eye of my blood blinks crimsons
And sweat thick nuggets of gold
It glistens through sheens of purple
And flickers when it be so bold
It throbs with pulses of grayness
So stricken in pain and sore
It ravages pitches of black
And swallow it dark even more
prosperity comes in…
she comes in...
shades of black and blue,
when you hit me and tug on my hair,
apples that ripen and then soften...
A half sequel to my prom “I am on my knees.” It wasn’t intended to be a sequel or even be a poem at all but reading it made me think of it. I don’t chew on my fingernails anymore. I’ve been really interested in writing that features a lot of hesitation / stuttering
Breathe in, breathe out
I close my eyes and picture us
If God can look down on us, what would He say?
I am a ghost ship, lost at sea
I dream about your lips,
I have set my anchor.
Come closer, pull me in
Do you ever think of me?
Or am I just skin, flesh, and lust?
I touch you with my fingertips
And I make three thousand small wishes,
Each for every freckle, every lie.
You laugh like stars,
And I cry like the ocean,
Will I ever be loved?
Breathe in, breathe out
Add one more, to my bruises
My ship can no longer sink.
When I see the saints
Casting shadows of thorns
When I see smiles
When I see bravery
Huddled in the corner
Crying out its soul
I bite my tongue
Imprinted on my mind
To think of you a thousand times
Before the minute was over
Hollow as the sounds echo
Nothing to hang onto , I must let go
New hour has begun
But silence fell over the voiceless voice
That feeling of thinking I had a choice.
The dark day has arrived .
Million words , a million ways, to say
I love you, and not a letter missing out of eight.
It's been a week
Eternity line snapped, hopeless string.
And I believed in every Viber of my being.
How many months has it been.
Rewind and please stop , I'm dieing
In your world , I'm not even trying
But my minutes are years .
However long this eternity takes it to be
I'll always wish someday you'll know me
Even after 6 years of "nothing"...
How do you heal a bruise on your mind?
I have yet to find out to erase memories.
How can one person sit on someones mind till that person is crushed? . Every minute of every day . I think of every moment I let slip away . Don't let go of love . Even know love let go of you.