Limbo I feel like I am on a never ending train. No next stop. All this precious time I’ve wasted. God, look how much time I’ve wasted. I have wrote of you twice before Once after the first “I Love you” Again after I knew you. And now after I’ve known you.. The raging fire once felt now reduced to a flicker. I can now see you without a glimmer So many misunderstandings we never planned No one would ever understand. Who are you? Someone I should know but it feels as though you are a stranger Gemini Destined to be two halves Your noise echos in my ears Flashing memories of laughter brought While your betrayal vibrates in my body Leaving my stomach in knots Am I to forgive you for wanting to be whole. Sacrifice myself for you to be whole. No. I’ve rebuilt my wall. Brick by ******* brick Every piece to so sadly fall My tears it’s unyielding glue Leaving no clue Of the destruction it’s previously been through Now I know the true lesson in love To love until it is forevermore For in hope of another life where may meet again As lovers with a chance once more.
An honest friend is hard to find. Someone good hearted with a pure mind. So many faces Doing their “task”. Everyone wearing some kind of mask. Hiding their thruth self from theirselves Insecurity laying underneath the shell. Being fake starts in the mind. Anything genuine nowadays Is hard to find.
How to find my peace When nothing fulfills me? When the genuine severe my grave And I am the genuine severing yours? In all earnestness my heart recovers grace, In solemn silence finding petulance, Sulky, old smiles alternating.
I have come to find when I deviate from my muse of melancholy I revile my work more and more. Perhaps because, inside, the darkness and emptiness is a part of every part of me. And pretending, is not in my nature.