you might be wondering why it happened.
why they did this to you.
and they might even tell you it was a mistake.
they might even tell you they’re sorry.
they might even beg for a second chance.
but remember.
always remember.
that at that very moment.
they knew how much it was going to hurt you.
they knew how much it was going to shatter
your world and turn it on its head.
they know how empty and how hard it was
going to be on you.
and still, they chose to hurt you.
and still, they chose the other side.
they disrespected you.
and they took you for granted.
and please believe that, that was not a mistake.
that, that wasn’t an accident.
because during that moment they knew.
and that’s all you have to wonder about.
they knew.
and they weren’t sorry.
and during that time, they didn’t choose you.

is it bad to need someone?
is it so bad to constantly need someone?
checking their status, location, activity?
is that too far?
am i too in love?

they say they will treat you better
but this is yet to be proven

it’s excruciating to not be needed by the person you need and need to be needed by

he left me.
he hurt me.
he lied to me.
he made it hard for me to trust.
but,
i trust you.
i trust that
you won't leave me,
you will be kind to me,
you will be honest,
you are the best thing for me.

just because i make other people happy
doesn’t necessarily mean that i am happy myself.
but what it does mean is that i am willing to
sacrifice my personal emotions for the best
interests of the people surrounding me.

no.
she isn't the easiest girl to love.

she has this bad habit of overthinking, she tends to over react more than she should & she gets a little insecure every once in a while.

she'll be needy of all of your attention, she'll want to literally take up all of your time & she'll require a lot of reassurance.

if anything,
she is everything you wouldn't want in a girlfriend.

she isn't capable of fully trusting you, she doesn't know when to stop fighting with you even if she's wrong & she has no problem pushing you away if she feels you're close enough to hurt her.

loving her will stress you out, loving her will make you angry, loving her will break your heart at times, loving her will test you, loving her will challenge you and loving her will change you.

it may get so demanding that you'll be tempted to walk away, it may get so hard that you'll think about giving up, and it may get so complicated that you won't want to deal with her anymore.

loving her means you won't deal with her anymore. loving her means you get to see her at her worst and her most vulnerable times. that is something you'll have to be strong enough to handle because she needs someone who is patient enough to understand why she is who she is today.

it's not going to be an easy relationship with her. but if she is in love with you,then she can promise that you'll be loved with such passion and intensity that you'll forget what life felt like before she came along because she'll always be there to put your heart back together after breaking it.

maybe she's not the best at being loved,
but she is pretty amazing at loving.

he is the heaven
i would go to hell for

please           me
              let            stay


in              arms
     ­  your              forever

i give all of my love to others
that sometimes i forget
that i deserve to be loved too

i have too many emotions
that can never be put into words

so many things i want to say
but it’s just too early

i fall for people too easy
i get too attached too soon
i get too involved too quickly
too early too soon too fast