In the midst of our passion, I tried to make you show your hand. You were losing your poker face, I thought your inhibitions were gone.
But when I said “tell me what you want” You replied “for you to be happy and healthy”.
And that shattered the dam. The wall that held back the sea splintered. And I let you see me drown in my pain.
I told you how letting you gorge on me Made me the kind of sad I could control. It was a shallow kind of sad, one that could be fixed with scotch tape. I ripped the adhesive off of the shallow sad When the deep dark sad became too much.
I told you how letting you gorge on me Made me feel useful, even if it validated everything he told me. I don’t care that my body is nothing more than something to be ******, At least I’m doing my friend a favor.
So even if I can’t be happy and healthy right now, And even if you know that, At least we can see each other for what we are As I let you feed his desires for me, And you let me feed my desire for pain.
There’s ***** inside my veins Words can’t explain what I feel for you You got me thinking And feeling blue Let’s go on an adventure tonight I wore the underwear you say “They look so nice” I miss you I know you do too
Let's get it back like nothing happened and return to normal, Nice while it lasted but the way that this has turned is awful, Friends with benefits? This is the end of it, We should've never kissed, it's best we just forget this ****, I don't wanna be strangers, giving ****** favours, That'd probably fail I've just gotta honour the changes, That you made me make, because they made me great, It was the games we played that swayed me babe, No one's ready with a friend and a plan at birth, But we've got each other so I wanna put my hand in hers, Just platonically honestly, I promise, it's gotta be, Let's get high as **** and binge watch Planet Earth.
I hope you find a strand of my hair in your bed And thoughts of me flutter your mind I want to end things with you But I can’t bare to feel lonely again You’ve come to fill a void space in my heart But I can’t bare to confess my feelings for you You told me you just want things to be casual But I don’t think I can do this to myself anymore
Sometimes I forget you have feelings As harsh as that sounds How do you go from a night of fun To a stranger at dawn I go along Night after night Waiting for you To slip up And finally confess You have feelings for me, Too.
I’ve written ****** poems before About a person I used to adore He was all that and more Until I caught him cheating with that ***** It almost caused another World War He swore that I wasn’t a bore I guess his feelings went over board Our love was like the shore I was just another chore