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28.0k · May 2015
anxiety
moss May 2015
Foot tapping
Hand shaking
Mind racing
Walls breaking
Strength taking
Nail biting
Head throbbing
Knees clattering
Life shattering

*Leave me,
Anxiety!
11.4k · Oct 2015
Mud On His Shoes
moss Oct 2015
He had mud his shoes
And I wondered why
He was singing the blues
When the sun was in the sky

I wondered where he had been
And what all he had seen
So many answers could begin
Why his shoes were not clean

I'm curious to know
I'm curious to care
But it's difficult to show
Through a quizzical stare
"Momma always says there's an awful lot you could tell about a person by their shoes. Where they're going. Where they've been." -Forrest Gump
9.9k · May 2015
Resting Bitch Face
moss May 2015
I always wondered why people frowned at me
Without reason or apparent controversy
Until I was told, against all odds
That supposedly my face is the cause.

"Resting ***** face" is what they call it
They say my eyes glare out of their sockets
And honestly this makes no sense
I have to come to my own defence.

Are you mad?
Are you sad?
Are you okay?
I thought she hated me...


Yes, it's true, I've heard it all
Somehow I'm the one who takes the fall
For any petty issue that's produced
From your misreading! It's no abuse!

What? No, I'm fine. I was just thinking.
Why are you always pick, pick, picking?
Just leave me alone. I've done no wrong!
What do you want? Me to burst into song?

Do you know how much effort it takes to keep
A smile on my face while I'm falling asleep?
If it bothers you, don't look at me.
I'm really not trying to mislead.

Look, I'm sorry if you're offeneded.
I just think it's time that this has ended.
I don't want to lose any more friends
Because the way my face naturally bends.

Please understand that I don't mean
The expression my resting ***** face puts on for me.
Haha! All my life i've had issues with people misunderstanding me because of my resting ***** face. My mom would tell a teacher that they were my favorite and they'd be like "i thought she hated me". Basically on an hourly basis i get asked if I'm mad or upset and you know its just so exhausting to have to smile all the time.
9.3k · May 2015
summer vacation
moss May 2015
summer is my freedom
stress and anxiety leave me
my mind breaks the chains
School needs to end like right now. Three more weeks...
7.6k · Feb 2016
Metaphors for Metaphors
moss Feb 2016
I explain my metaphors with metaphors
I don't know how else to express
My thoughts that sit in clutter drawers
And leave my mind a mess

If you don't understand my comparison
I'll just say it in a different way
My thoughts still shielded by a garrison
Suppressing things I need to say
5.2k · Jul 2015
Invasive Empathy
moss Jul 2015
I don't know how to describe
But they all seem to inscribe
Their every pain on me

Whenever someone feels down
I just kind of start to frown
But they will never see

I know it doesn't make sense
My feelings are so intense
And they drive me crazy

What I feel is much deeper
The cliff doesn't get steeper
Will I ever be free?
Struggles of an empath... It's very difficult to describe in words, but when I say I know how someone feels, I say it in all seriousness. I may not know how to express my feelings, but they're there. I kind of just soak up people's emotions unconsciously. Like, there will be someone who walks in the room who's in a bad mood, and I just kind of feel horrible without even realizing someone has walked in. Call me weird, but I can't help it. I may never say anything, but I know. And that's weird. But then my mind gets so clouded by other people's emotions that I'm not always sure how I actually feel... wow, I'm too complicated. Oh well.
5.1k · Jun 2015
Comfortable Vulnerabilities
moss Jun 2015
Usually I hide away
Deep within my shell
I'm safe

Usually I just obey
Ignorance, I sell
I'm sound

Usually I do not say
And I dare not tell
I'm silent

Somehow, unlike anyone else
*You make me comfortable
When I'm vulnerable
5.1k · Jun 2015
dependence on independence
moss Jun 2015
he kept trying to convince himself
that he didn't need anyone else
so he spent his days up on a shelf

many hours went by when he just thought
about how independent he was
so without help his battles were fought

sometimes he would almost get worn out
but he had a fear of going soft
so his freedom he never did doubt

without others he could feel alone
although he had grown far much too cold
so he was lonlier than they'd known
4.0k · Sep 2015
Caramel
moss Sep 2015
the child gazed with caramel eyes
up towards the vast, dark sky
and with contentment he sighed
as he watched a dragonfly
make its way into the night
3.1k · Jun 2015
The Masquerade
moss Jun 2015
Come on in! Step inside!
Don't forget: try to hide!
Cover your weary face
With soft ribbons and lace.
You'll win at any task
If you just wear this mask.
Don't ever let them know.
Don't let emotions show.
We'll teach you a smooth dance,
So you'll live in a trance.
Your face will never fall
Within this sacred hall!
Life will be a parade!
Come to the masquerade!
3.0k · May 2015
Spell from Hell
moss May 2015
Deeply she fell
Under his spell
The wishing well
Just couldn't tell
Or hear her yells
Right through her cell
Within it dwells
Her living hell
2.8k · Aug 2015
Playground Countdown
moss Aug 2015
5
monkey bars
they were all she could hold on to
when the ground crumbled
beneath her trembling feet

4
swings
they were the metronomes
that conducted her life
so she could stay together

3
slides
they helped her explain
what she was feeling
when everything was moving too fast

2
basketball hoops
they showed her how to do
what other people wanted
to get what she needed

1*
merry-go-round*
that taught her how not to puke
when things wouldn't stop spinning
inside of her head
Life is just a playground full of little children and their games.
2.7k · Feb 2015
What is This
moss Feb 2015
on this earth
in this place
things are used
as strings
for the puppet
of the population
the dancing marionettes
to not think
for themselves
they believe what
they are told to
and do not question
but questions
are important
they are a necessity
to our very survival
they want diversity
yet persecute
the truly diverse
what thought is this
that they believe
they call for logic
but do not use it
they call for peace
but start wars
they plead for love
but harbor hatred
they demand equality
and equal understanding
for different opinions
yet they do not accept
those of the people who
don't agree with them
they call for rights
then elect restrictions
and immobilities
into the office
what is this thought
what is this day
that we must live in?
Far from poetry. Just a rant.
2.4k · Jun 2015
Hide and Seek
moss Jun 2015
All my nights are hide and seek
Searching here and there for sleep
Just around the corner, I peek
Falling down a ***** so deep
I can barely even speak
So I lay here, counting sheep
2.1k · May 2015
Those Eyes
moss May 2015
Those eyes captivate me
When I look into them
I lose the ability to breathe

Those eyes reach into me
They grab my stomach
And tie it in a thousand knots

Those eyes devastate me
I cannot know about the
Universe that lies inside them

Those eyes are a mystery
But a miniscule clue
Has been left behind...

And I don't know what to do.
moss Oct 2015
what's this liquid falling from the sky
with its pitter-patter, pitter-patter?
to the drought of summer, it says "goodbye"
with its splitter-splatter, splitter-splatter!
look and watch as the world grows vibrant
as it pitter-patters, pitter-patters!
oh, thank you, dear clouds, for being our hydrant
as it splitter-splatters, splitter-splatters!
watch as the parched lives are finally quenched
by its pitter-patter, pitter-patter!
the once dry earth at last is drenched
by its splitter-splatter, splitter-splatter!
It just rained here today for the first time in almost three months, at least the first time it's rained beyond a slight mist, and I'm so happy.
1.9k · Nov 2022
itchy scars
moss Nov 2022
no matter how far I've come
how much I've been doing better
I always return and succumb
to this deep and chronic fetter

the darkness slowly creeps back in
too tired, to scared, to restless
maggots wriggling under my skin
psyche becoming monstrous

I know the feeling all too well
like an old friend I can't let go
encasing me in a protective shell
personally fitted not to show

I find I've changed drastically
yet still not much at all
just a child dreaming fantastically
a forest fairy in the fall

the more I learn to love myself
the less I'm fond of others
a dress up doll atop a shelf
with poor emotional buffers

I wonder what it's like to live
as oblivious as you are
what it feels like not to give
your years to itchy scars
1.9k · Mar 2015
Cold Crystals
moss Mar 2015
The smallest flakes of hope
That shine like little stars
Are floating from the heavens.
As they land on my pale skin
They begin to melt away
Back into their liquid form.
I am so cold, but so are they.
How can they melt on me?
It's odd how such fragile crystals
Can create such a deadly storm.
1.8k · May 2015
shuddering storm
moss May 2015
the lightning flashes
then followed by the thunder
foundations shudder
1.8k · Sep 2015
blind is deaf
moss Sep 2015
this voice of mine was designed
to be written, not spoken
to be read, not heard

but we seem to live in a society where
to be seen, you have to be loud
and they say written words can't shout

and so I shall forever remain
invisible

but only to those
who keep their eyes closed
to choose to be blind is to choose to only hear a fraction of those who wish to speak
1.7k · May 2015
Illusion
moss May 2015
All that we can see
All that we can hear
Is nothing but a dream
It isn't really there
"Reality exists in the human mind and no where else."
-George Orwell
1.7k · May 2015
gentle showers
moss May 2015
the gentle showers
bring soft and quiet hours
and water flowers
1.7k · May 2015
Once Upon a Time
moss May 2015
The words "once upon a time"
Begin a fantacy story
Who's seemingly shallow rhyme
Creates a deep allegory

The princess traped, endangered
Our deepest fears are revealed
Yet, saved by the kind stranger
Our wishes are to be appealed

The prince fighting, enthralling
Our search for love is now released
Always hopes for belonging
Our strong courage not so repressed

Then "happily ever after"
Soon ends our magnificent tale
But what is happy hereafter,
Far beyond this twisting trail?
1.6k · May 2015
The Caged Bird's Song
moss May 2015
It's been asked before
But nevermore
Why does the caged bird sing?

He's been locked away
No sight of day
Why does the caged bird sing?

His vision's blocked
Out of sight, he's locked
Why does the caged bird sing?

No soul to hear
His voice so clear
Why does the caged bird sing?

But oh how his song
Is out of tune, it's wrong
Why does the caged bird sing?

Maybe what he sings
Isn't what it seems
Maybe it's only screams.
"We think the caged birds sing, when indeed they cry."
-John Webster
1.6k · May 2015
cardiac arrhythmias
moss May 2015
Thinking about him:
palpatations

Being around him:
flutter

Talking to him:
fibrillation

All that's left is
cardiac arrest...
Far from poetry, but I found this while I was cleaning my room and thought it was interesting. I think I wrote it a couple years ago.
1.5k · Aug 2015
Sunsets and Swing Sets
moss Aug 2015
< sunset >
bring me your celestial wonders of light
show me your colors of pluto and mars
quickly before the sky fades into the night

< swing set >
sway me so high that I fall into the clouds
launch me up into the moon and stars
quickly before we're covered by darkness' shroud
1.5k · May 2015
capture
moss May 2015
Photographs can't capture
The majesty of sight
The daisies in the rain
Cloaked in vibrant light

Recordings can't capture
The music of ears
Melody of wonder
All I wish to hear

Words can't always capture
Feelings I possess
Raging storms in me
Leave me as a mess
1.4k · Oct 2015
the birds
moss Oct 2015
the flock of ominous black birds,
in a plethora of numbers beyond words,
lands in swarms on swampy, dark mud
as the dead yellow grass is washed away by the flood.
the sky is heavy, low, and gray,
with a gravitational force of depression and dismay.
our vision clouded, we no longer can gaze
upon the warmth of the sun's sweet rays.
1.4k · Oct 2015
High-Maintenance Friends
moss Oct 2015
If we don't talk for a few weeks,
Our friendship might start to seem bleak,
But are you quite sure that is a reason
To go and commit blatant treason?

If you so easily lose your interest,
You will surely create a gap, a distance,
Between what you love and who you love,
And you might never rise above.

If I can't always make the time
To find your hilltop and to it climb,
Shall you assume that I am idle and lazy
Before considering that your ridges are hazy?

If they break my bones and tear open my scars
As they stab needles into my flesh and release my stars,
Will you still wait for me to come around
When you know I am debilitated on the ground?
1.4k · May 2015
Nothing But Your Words
moss May 2015
Nothing but your words
Float in my head

Nothing but your words
Heavy as lead

Nothing but your words
Hang by a thread

Nothing but your words
Fill me with dread
A poem about overthinking and social anxiety.
1.3k · Aug 2015
Lonesome Longings
moss Aug 2015
Sometimes I get a longing
to fade into the sky
to watch my skin turn pink and orange
and drift into the night

Sometimes I get a longing
to sink into the sea
to hear my voice become the waves
and crash along the shore

Sometimes I get a longing
to wane into the wind
to blow between the brushing leaves
and touch tree tops again

I long to be a calming force
but one that's violent too
I long to take just any course
of this life that I so choose
1.3k · Jun 2015
Disaster Hereafter
moss Jun 2015
There's always a place
Where the sand meets the sea,
Yet Earth's changing face
Seems so stable to me.

Nature is a maze
Mountains, deserts, and plains,
Yet we, in our craze,
Seem to enjoy its chains.

Dependence, we own
We kiss the dry soil,
Yet seeds we have sown
Seem so worth the toil.

Pains we do endure
Natural disaster,
Yet this ground's allure
Results in hereafter.
1.2k · Feb 2016
Cloudy Skies, Rainy Eyes
moss Feb 2016
Inside her head lived a dark cloud
That dampened all her thoughts
And roared with thunder storms so loud
The lightning like gunshots

The cloud got bigger all the time
With the turmoil that it stored
It got so big, it made her rhyme
But when it rained, it poured

She rained, and rained, and rained, and drowned
She rained until she dried
But no one ever heard a sound
She stuffed it back inside

She sometimes felt she got it out
And could almost see the sun
But just because she had a drought
Didn't mean that she had won

She kept a little residue
To metastasize again
That's why she always feels so blue
Why melancholy is her friend
1.2k · Oct 2015
misperceived (10w)
moss Oct 2015
he perceived their silence as rejection
yet always craved affection
1.2k · Jun 2016
The Ultraviolet Paradox
moss Jun 2016
The sun beats down on my boiling body,
Defeating the last morsels of energy left in it.
A concoction of sunscreen and sweat covers my skin,
As I reach to feel the rays beaming into my skull.
My fingertip gently touches my crimson cheek,
Anticipating a needle ***** upon contact.

The heat seeps from the pavement,
Through my sandals, I feel my feet burn.
This concrete is hot enough to host a cooking show,
And it seems I’m being served as the main course.
Hoping to cool my toes, I step aside into the grass,
That wilts with weariness as I do beneath the sun.

The sun causes such misery when the clouds hide,
And yet our mere existence depends upon it.
These precious and plentiful ultraviolet jewels of light,
Possess such a power in their incandescence.
And as the sun’s gravity pulls our planet into orbit,
We must force ourselves to acknowledge its importance.
My creative writing teacher thought walking outside would inspire us to write, so I wrote about the only thing I could think of the entire time: the sun/heat. This is Texas in June. Why would we walk outside?
1.2k · Mar 2015
Old Books
moss Mar 2015
She was in love
With old books.
She was in love with
The way they smelled
As she flipped the pages
And felt the air hit her face.
She was in love with
The rough texture
Of the paper worn over time.
She was in love with
The yellowed tint of the pages
And the crumple of water spots.
She was in love with
The broken and tattered
Binding that crinkled
When you touched it.
But most of all,
She was in love with
The stories that not only
The words written in them held
But the stories behind each
Coffee stain and torn corner.
The idea that this book
Had connected with
So many other people
Enchanted her,
And she wondered if
Maybe she wasn't as
Strange and odd
As people told her.
And she thought that just
Maybe she wasn't as
Alone as she felt.
1.1k · Jan 2016
seven billion
moss Jan 2016
there are seven billion puzzles
on this third rotating planet
each one has their troubles
in this world that we inhabit

these seven billion mysteries
hold secrets left unshared
they all have their histories
but their futures make them scared

and these seven billion riddles
leave you speechless, without answers
with pieces missing from their middles
we're unconscious of their cancer
I always found the idea that everyone is a puzzle that can never be completely solved to be both a beautiful and a devastating concept at the same time. People are fascinating.
1.0k · Feb 2015
Beneath the Waves
moss Feb 2015
While others dream sweetly
in the comfort of their minds,
you scream in the hurricane of your own.
Your mind is a knot
and when you try to untie it,
it just gets more tangled.
All your faults and mistakes
throw themselves further into you.
They are a tidal wave
and when you try to swim,
you just get pulled in
deeper below the surface,
into the sea of thoughts, emotions, and dreams.
You keep wishing on the stars
but when you reach out to touch them
they just fly farther away
from the reach of your hand
which slowly retreats back
to its guarding position
shielding your ears
so that the voices will stop;
the silent whispers that are so loud
they make the walls cave in
and as they fall you are buried alive
by everyone and everything.
And once you dig deep enough into yourself,
it all goes quiet as an eerie silence
covers your entire body and you are still;
paralyzed with feeling as you try to block it all out
because it’s all too much.
And you remain frozen until the sun rises
and saves you from your mind.
11/25/2014-- yeah I know this poem *****... I wrote it after 3 days without sleep and when you're sleep deprived your mind doesn't really filter thoughts... but oh well.
1.0k · Dec 2015
Mental Health Week
moss Dec 2015
Their freedom to tell their depths is now confined to a week.
But despite the propaganda, they are still afraid to speak.
On the outside, they are perceived as nothing but freaks.
On the inside, their lives are catastrophic, yet also bleak.

From their mountains of anxiety to their valleys of depression,
Nobody wants to listen to their pleading expressions.
They're forced to hold down their feelings with constant suppression.
So desperate to become invisible, it becomes an obsession.

As if their sickness was not as legitimate as one of the physical kind
Just because it plagues their body on the inside of their mind.
Behind their daily masks, they are continuously confined,
And the rest of their lives will be wrapped in a box and predefined.

They often wish things were how they saw them: nothing being real.
They use third person pronouns to describe how they feel
Because, whether they like it or not, they aren't made of steel,
But continue to futilely dance around the solar system's wheel.
I meant to post this earlier in the week, but I've been busy. Supposedly, this was "Mental Health Week" in case you weren't aware. It really bothers me that it's such a social taboo to talk about mental illness any other week of the year, and even during that week, it seems most people are just helping "raise awareness" by retweeting or sharing, but it's still always something that no one wants to admit that they themselves have problems with as if it's not as legitimate as some physical ailment like the flu or even cancer if you want to take it that far. The more people distance themselves from a problem, the more distant it will seem, and then the people who have those problems will seem more distant, producing the opposite effect that was intended. Good grief, do we need a special day/week/month for everything?
1.0k · Aug 2015
Full Moon
moss Aug 2015
she felt a connection with the moon
because it was like her in so many ways

it too illuminated the darkness
but was merely a reflection

it too was surrounded by emptiness
but was not completely alone

it too was full of craters and crevices
but still remained full
1.0k · Jan 2016
Sad Sunflowers
moss Jan 2016
sometimes I just wonder
if sunflowers feel sad
if they're hiding thunder
beneath their petals' glad

what if their color lies
and though they're bright and yellow
they prefer cloudy skies
and feel a little mellow

maybe that is why they wilt
because no one ever expects
their lack of joy fills them with guilt
and we ignore the effects
998 · Aug 2015
conformity is deformity
moss Aug 2015
society revels in the riddle of conformity
every day, living out this deformity
begging to keep up this crazed enormity
984 · Jan 2016
Feeling in Color
moss Jan 2016
I feel red like a snow sled
the big bow tie with vibrant thread
sweet apples, backyard shed
pain that's left from words unsaid

I feel gold like treasures old
the pages found in stories told
sunflowers, marigolds
shining heavens to behold

I feel green like a back screen
the meadows shown in nature scenes
flower stems, crunchy beans
velvet drapes fit for a queen

I feel blue like morning dew
the sky in which the blue jay flew
sad goodbyes, long boo-hoos
rain to make the earth anew
I started this before I thought about the fact that NOTHING RHYMES WITH ORANGE.... what is wrong with the English language?
914 · Oct 2015
Sea Shells
moss Oct 2015
the sea shell spirals with complexity
ridges, holes, and scars
proclaim its years of inner ebony
it represents what we all are
once very much alive on the inside
but after having traveled so far
our first instinct is to hide
and now collected in glass jars
we are no longer full of sea and sand
weighed down and covered in tar
we've been stranded on the land
she sells sea shells by the sea shore
moss Aug 2015
There's a quality to her smile
That these days is not often seen
One that triggers memories
Of places you'd hate to leave

There's a depth inside of her eyes
Of oceans deep and rivers wide
No submarine could endure
The bottom of her waters

There's a sad ache to her touch
A whisper on her wind
That brings you oh so close to her
Then let's you go again

There's a graveness in her voice
A silence filled with screams
That penetrates your very soul
If you dare to listen

Would you like to know a secret
If you do, this one's for free
If you care to dare to look real close
You'll see this girl is me
moss Aug 2015
If I had to guess on what I've seen
I'm not too sure that she likes me
I've played the game, I know it well
But with this girl it's hard to tell

If I could talk to just anyone
Then talking to him would be fun
He seems funny, he seems so nice
I only need to break the ice


I'm afraid of what she might say
If I give too much of myself away
If she thinks me another man
Will she like me for who I am

When conversing, he seems so closed
Almost as if he is trying to pose
Wondering what he is hiding
I conclude that it's dividing


With her style and class she is far above me
Afraid to ask if she could ever love me
A girl like her, a boy like me
I have my wants, she is my need*

With his depth and thought he's far away from me
Afraid to wonder if he could know me
A mind like his, a fool like me
My longing for him is decreed
793 · Nov 2015
Perplexing Paradox
moss Nov 2015
I am not darkness, I am not light
I am not bound by day or by night
I am not evil, I am not good
I am not always quite understood
I am not sour, I am not sweet
I am not gullible for your deceit
I am not winter, I am not spring
I am no bee, but my knife will sting
777 · Mar 2016
Science Fair
moss Mar 2016
Like a 4th grade science experiment
Of a tornado in a bottle
She can't control her temperament
And her explosions look so mottled
Her colors splatter on the walls
When she finally explodes
She pours out like Niagara Falls
With soda and mentos
I was going through the notes in my phone when I found this from about a month ago.
772 · Jun 2015
The Drought's Sprout
moss Jun 2015
there was surely no doubt
that his eyes were a drought
both of them lacked a spout
for no fire to put out
would ever make him pout
so all he does is flout
and sometimes hang about
but he will never sprout
Inspired by a random thought I had that, in a way, tears put out the fire in our hearts when it's scorching our souls.
756 · Jan 2016
mood swings
moss Jan 2016
an hour ago I was crying
and back then I felt like dying
now I somehow feel like flying
it seems by brain is slowly frying
what's going on
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