There’s a coffin buried inside of me,
Boxing the bones of a child.
Whispering a temptation to me,
Killing every part of me.
Creeping behind like a shadow,
That no longer belongs to me.
There is something here controlling me,
I am not alone in my own body.

Drop down a ******,
for me to climb into.
Open up my old womb,
And breathe life into the new.
Let me eat your human sacrifice,
So I can gain a new life.
Wash this evil beneath my skin,
So I can start all over again.

I am dying everyday
Slowly slipping away.
Sinking lower than low,
This is my new low.

There is something inside that pushes us,
We can either push against it,
Or push with it.

Put a gun in my hand,
Pushing me to put it to my head.
If I happen to pull the trigger,
The bullet will carry me far away from here.
Then you will have your answer.

Light and color come to hug me.
I’m bathing in a melting rainbow.
I am the colours,
And the colours are me.

My love,
You are like an isolated ray of sunlight, beaming down upon the earth, and bouncing back up again; gliding across the universe.
Boundless and open, free of gravity and restriction. You are unconditional, as giving as the light of stars in between the vastness of black; dripping down onto the planets, giving them life.
Soon you shall be immortalized with the furthest reaching stars of space.
You’re gravity will pull all loose connections together, as you pulled mine.

You turn on the music,
The tv,
And the radio;
To scare the silence away.
You’re scared that it will separate you from you.

You cling to the fear like a dying atheist,
Unsure what there is to come.
You are too busy living as a child,
And an old man.
You are running away from you.

You are being chased by your ghost,
Followed by the echo of the future and the past.
Body degrading in a crypt,
Below your carpet.
The smell wreaks of the death of you.

The vacuum of your mind is ******* you in.
You ask the person in the pool,
“Where is the person I recognize?”
The person asks the question too.
Your thoughts have become you.

Terrified of the life I live,
Looking for a way out.
I’m forgetting how to live.

As I try to find my way,
To the life I seek to claim,
I’m forgetting how to live.

Those who are most ready for a bad meal,
Are those who are starving.

I cut a peep hole in space,
Enough to squeeze my fingers through. Stretching it open, and wrapping the fabric of the universe around me.
Feel the stars rotating around my center point, a cosmic web netting all over me. Dotting every speck of me, I am more than what the unopened eye can see.

The stars they beat in rhythmic poetry, sending their words through me. I sing to them and they sing to me, we are all in harmony.
It is balanced and perfect.
Sway with the music.

Sorting to find god in the storm.
Be an instrument in his hands.
Sing his melody through your sacred cords.
Let the sound fill your center,
Let it bounce around you and out of you,
To touch the hearts and minds around you.

Is this separate or is this a reflection?
In everything I see myself, echoing through the gaps between the particles of inner space.
Staring right at god’s face.

The universe is singing to me.
Listen to that old sweet melody
Sway with the rhythm of the music,
Let it pass through body, mind and spirit.

Accept thus holy gift.
Sway to the music.

I can hear the hum of Saturn,
Resonating inside of me.
The stars they sing out,
Verses from a healing remedy.

I am,
An instrument,
In sync,
With the music.

Sway to the music.
Witness every in-between scenes behind the moment!

To reach beyond the stars in a restful headspace,
Only to pull a guise over it when we begin to think again.
We shelter ourselves in our pin point perception of reality, masking the reality as a dream to shroud out all questions that arise out of it.
We cling to this world, for it is all we have ever known. If we let go of what we know for a moment, we begin to see reality for what it is, not how we perceive it to be.

Owning up to the fact that I cast a shadow.
One that seems to have no end.
Hiding just behind me.
Mechanisms to keep it out of view.
Catch it in the act before it gets past you.

Turn your back to your devil,
And you will see the shadow that it casts.
The reach of its shadow,
Grows larger the longer you hide,
Until all you can see is darkness.
Our devil figure,
Reflects in another.
The Archenemy,
Is buried inside me.

We are our own devil,
And make everyone else our devil.

I cast my devil onto you,
And now you are my devil too.

Your archenemy,
Don’t push that onto me.

Your misery,
Don’t make it mine too.

Your elegy,
See that the devil is you.

Own up to the dark.
Amend yourself.
Catch your devil out in the open,
Trying to make an enemy out of someone.
Blameless, you believe,
You hide the shadow beneath your feet.
Unveil the creature,
Walk through it,
Until it is not your devil anymore.

I love to sleep with both eyes wide open,

So I can catch my dreams in the real world.

Maybe I just made all this up in my head.

I have written the truest story never told.

I dared to laugh at a joke nobody spoke.

Disembarking the coattails of a trail of smoke.

Where's my car?

I forgot where I parked.

I am lost,

In this labyrinth of thought.

But it is okay.

Maybe this is where I am meant to be,

A place made by me.

A baby talked to me,
Whispered from beneath my skin.
Asking to not be killed again.
But I didn’t listen.
I answered the question,
Before I even knew what it was about.

Plunge a block inside, to widen the gap.
Spread you open to take a look inside. To see what you are all about.
I can see your soul, shimmering like a talking stone.
I must be at one with it, in order to be at one with you.
Let me squeeze my way in, so I can be whole within.

My journey has just begun,
I am a quarter of the way in.
Shine on me with your internal sun,
Let our two souls coalesce and become one.

This place is so tight,
But it is strangely comforting.
Warm and embracing me from every direction.
I need to keep on digging.
All this pain will soon be over,
And all you will know is pleasure.
You showed me your soul and now I will show you mine.
Listen to me, breathe in deeply, it will all be fine.

My journey is close to over,
I am half way there.
Shine on me with your internal sun,
Let our two souls coalesce and become one.

I know it is hard my dear,
But I promise you it will get better.
Allow me to show you a new way to love,
And we can love again.
I can feel your heart beating in my hands,
Does it feel what I feel?
Don’t hand me the gun,
And tell me to pull the trigger.
This will all be over soon,
Just hold on a little longer!

My journey is done,
I am all the way in.
You shone your internal sun,
Our two souls are now one.

Closer to you than death.
Closer to you than heaven.
Closer to you than spirit.
Closer to you than yourself.

Sing to the stars,
And they will sing down to you.
Harmonize with the melody,
And you will recognize a chorus or two.

We are the children of the stars.

Before you can explain it,
It changes.
Don’t try to explain it,
Just watch the weather change.

Every moment is a gift,
So accept this moment.

Fear comes from the past,
And is projected into the future.
If you choose to live now,
The world will look so much brighter.

Accept this gift,
And live in the moment.

Overthinking again.
An insanity of my own making.
Separate from the universe’s song,
All these moments will soon be gone.

This will not happen again.

These thoughts do not serve me,
Why do I keep doing this to me?

I need to let go,
And sway to the music.

The universe is singing to me.
Listen to that old sweet melody.
Move to the rhythm of the music.
Let it pass through body, mind and spirit.

Unify this separate spirit.
Sway to the music.

I hear the hum of Saturn,
Resonating inside of me.
The stars they sing out,
Verses from a healing remedy.

I am,
An instrument,
In sync,
With the moment.

Sway to the music.
Witness the in-between scenes behind every moment.

Accept this holy gift.

I am an instrument in the universe’s hands,
Guide me through all the sacred cords.
Surrendering to the will of something bigger than me,
Joining in as the planets sing that ancient melody.
Feeling the unification of body, mind and spirit,
Swaying to the rhythm and the echo of the music.

Sway to the music.
Choose to live in this moment.

Accept this holy gift,
Receive enlightenment.

Walk behind the shadow,
Where the light begins again.
The sun reaches over,
To greet you on the other side.
Feel the warmth,
Then see the dark,
From the object you’re behind.

How do I stop these images,
replaying in my head,
How do I stop the voices,
Of those who are dead.

When I lay my head down to sleep,
I pray that the dead and I never meet,
But when I close my eyes,
I see those screaming skies.

All the tears that shed,
All the bodies that bleed,
Screaming in my head,
Dreaming of the dead

Life is tapering down,
Birth on one end,
Death on the other.
Fire runs down the middle.
We're all conscious of the fire.
Unsure on what came before,
And what is coming after.

I was tired of trying to outrun the fire.
I burnt my fingers attempting to put it out sooner
Lower your hand, take me someplace higher.
I close my eyes hoping to stare into forever.
But something whispers that I'm going to nowhere.

Dipped my fingers into God's mouth
And tried to ***** it out,
But the flame burned on.
I'm too scared to close my eyes,
I'm too scared to open them.
Nowhere follows from behind,
And waits at the end.

Peal back the crust built over my eye.
Spread it open, let it adjust to the light. Let it see the world all anew.

I dance in starlight. Moving to the sound of the whistling trees.
I feel every blade of grass touching me.
I smell all the flowers reaching up to me.
I taste the fruit bared by the plant for me.
I gaze upon its infinite beauty.

I move in sequence to the change of the weather. I don’t try and alter it, but rather change with it.
Born in autumn, born again in winter, born again in spring, born again in summer.

I felt a touch from a far,
It was like you were there but you were not.
My mind must have been playing tricks on me.
For one sweet little moment I thought you were there.

I caught a glimpse of a shadow in the corner of my eye,
I turned my head but there is nothing there.
It was like I was being haunted by the ghost of you.

The spark that once built our bridge burnt it down.
As you burned I just turned away,
Even when you begged me to stay.
Now I can’t escape the ghost of you.

Love was supposed to bring us together but it just tore us apart,
I managed to push you and myself away,
Managed to tear you and myself down.
Now that you are gone all I see is the ghost of you.

Breathe in. Breathe out.
Expand. Contract.
Awaken perennial spirit.

The we. The I.
Somewhere between the eyes.
Wake up from your slumber,
And remember:
The self and the other.

How cruel it is to hold a mirror up to a man who has no face.