These members are not my own
They seep through the rapids
As I drown

They ask me questions
They tell me what to do
How to feel
And then condrtridict their own

*** am I supposed to do
When I can't get through?

He wrote serotonin
On his brainwaves

Made oceans to swim
Inside fascination
And wandering eyes
Instead of demons
At play

He willfully
Passed his away
Shared with another
Calming every wave

And on those days
His mind took haze
And the tools were overlooked
And instead Of giving
he took

Any inhaled past
Will keep recycling
In your lungs
Exhale

The wind speaks
Of secrets in
Kalidascope spectrums
Through branches and trees
Birds sing to thee
Spread your seeds
Be free

Your lips open
To speak the unknown
Swallow the broken
Pieces of earth
Channel higher callings
Make light of the Universe

Everybody wants me to be
The queen Penelope
Of this palace

When I'm really
An up roaring *****
Holding a chalice

Not knowing
What I'm really like
Keeping it stuffed down
Really bites

I feel like a destroyer
A dominant domain
Under siege
Attacked
On the left side of my brain

I feel words being
Taken from my soul
And lifted into another plane

I feel castrated
While menstrated
Drops of blood
Pour out of me again

I feel nothing

I feel creative scars
Trying to mend
Trying to help
But I won't let them in

I'm scared I won't be able
To block all the negative out
Which is intrusive and invasive
And never seems to stop

I feel soulful
Joyus
Loved
Alive

Until
The bread crumbles
In to rye
And I cry

Then I'll heal
Then this pain
Won't penetrate
My atmosphere

My heart
Has been lost
Kept under wraps
If softened
Then what happens next

If looked at
What will I find
Deepened rivers
Opened wide

Gushing
Rushing
She knows who she is

Understood
Misspoken
The real is here again
I must end

Lost
Not loved
Bruised
Not enough

Perspective

Okay
getting better
Things look up
A little lighter

Come out come out
Where ever you are
Do you hear the battle ground
Feel the rumble in your bones

Light up the stage
Sit back
And take charge

Unknown persuasions
Unlit candlesticks
No vacancy
Here at the
State Of Normalcy

The space
In between
Where we want
To be
And reality

What lies
Beneath
Will never be seen

What lies ahead
Is all in our head

Go for it
Make a dream

See the future
Break free
From what use to be

Hold dear
To the quiet atmosphere

Time here is inevitable
But the illusion
Is the lie

That takes us
From prison and hell
To doors we never
Thought were there

§wallow the Light

She wants to feel important
She wants someone to see her talents
And smile and laugh

To share a common bond
A similar interest
Cause right now
She mostly feels alone

And the silence
Doesn't fill her
Her soul rots away

If she can't get away
From her inner demons
She fears she'll soon fade

Her inner child wants
to feel joy again
To sparkle and such

To light up her eyes
Is all she'll ever want

People
Why

Lengthy
Eulogy
Paraphrased
Pathology

Box is cold
Light is thin

Would someone please
Let me the hell back in

He pulled me in
Never to return again
One last look
One last touch

I'm lost without it
***

Raw
Wet
Details
Fine art

Veins
Soaked
Blood
Fine art

Corrupt
Broken
Worned

Complete
End
Sworn

Abide
My love
Never look
Back again

Looking in your eyes
I saw your universe
Divine creation
Fullfilling patent destinations
Out of pure concentration

Will power
Mind over matter
Help and friends

You my sir
My madam
Are The Life force
Of earths true beings

What a sight
To see
Be the light
That shines
Inside

Inspire
Try new things
Push a little harder

Ask with intent
Set goals
Drive higher

And in the mean time
Ride those waves
Like the Bad *** *****
You were designed!

Poem
FOR YOU

where are your footprints?
Do they still mark your
Territories
REPENT

****** numbers
Line against the fire
YOUR ONLY Sacrifice
Would be blendered
In the making
And spit out
Ghost style
Waiting
Waiting
Crawling
Forgiving
Taken

If the birds
And the butterflies
Can make trees
Then where would
The bees be

Her hair blossomed
Orange lilacs
Underneath her
Firey stare

She performed magic
In another's eyes
And made them
Disappear

She held tight to
The rhythm that night
Then too let it
Slip away

Why the grasp she was
So hungerly needing
Why the long face

My bravest
Youre in love
With a ghost
You must erase

Where does the bird weep?

Tokens
To loose
To keep
To shake
To speak

For that
Hold no grudge
They just want
You to realise
You're not one
Of us

You are unique
Your own to keep
Write it down
Repeat

How to invite;

Take a light
Pen it down
Write a movie
In your mind

Juggle thru the vines
Untangle the myseries
Unfold the petals
To find

Simplicity in words
And nature's sweet tune

Listen to the heart
It calls for you

Open up a prayer
Down beneath the earth
Ask the core
For the answers
You search

Follow up on scars
Heal them if you may
Ask for forgiveness
For them and yourself

Sing sweet harlows
Rapture in the dance
Wind rain fire
All make up your name

Hold yourself
Make something
Out of this
Human being

Give authorization
To you
And not them

Show this mirror
That life
Is temporary
Thoughts
Emotions
Are too

You don't have
To feel the pressure
Or conform
To their to dos

You are enlightened
Firm and true
You are a million
Stars birthing
Kalidescopes turning
You are you

The light touched my hand
And I was transformed
Back into the earth

The dirt I lay in
Seems to eat me
Knowing I have
no shovel
I began to delve

Mad at the world around
I began to see myself
Wanting to breathe
Just not on the surface

I've got to hide
Run away just for a short time
As the earthworms search me
I see a spotlight beneathe me

Someone else is waiting inside
They're there too
Just like i

Guess the lonely
Need the lonley

Why must
The world
Make up your name

Count on your own
Find a friend❤
It can be the pen
In your hand

Or the enveloped sandman
Paper smearing tanning
Watching you sleep alone again

Hes your friend
Let him in
It'll help you breathe
Please don't sneeze
You deserve more than
rock paper scissors

Don't dilute with over thinking
Don't make up a million reason
Just start doing
Things you love
And ask for guidance
From up above

Taken part one
She rapped the wind
With her Cold lack of
sufficational fixated states

Letting blossoms grow out
of her mouth
Forgetting to wash
Before she ate

Please forgive me
While I partake in sin

The frying pan
Is too big
For your fat head

Horse
Magic
Skilled rabbit
Pocus
Pizzazz
Lipstick
Bra
Forgetfulness
Habbits
Rambunctious
Pandamon­ious
For skin
Labels
Misguided heart
Wrong turn taken
Abandoned
Abused
Looked after
Stolen
Virginity
To heaven
Extreme
Behavior swings
Cool
Dude
Out
Can camaflouge
All his feelings
Just so
They don't
Get stolen

My collections
My extremes
All kept inside
This crazy dream
That someday
I'll feel your love
Once again

Hard
Nonsense
Plunk
Downpour

Survivor
Mcgiver
Adolesent
Boys

Jo­kster
Non lipstick
One night
Pool stick
Poker

Midnight
Lacing
Marvin Gaye
Caretaking

Independent
Fraught
National Awareness
Hault

Throat
Clinging
Midnight
Ringing

Gangsters
Para­dise

Parade stealing
Non stop fraud

Caught cha
Oops
Slipped into
Backwards u turn
Of self sabatoge

Coming
Road long looking
But I'm still coming

Sticks and stones
Thrown along the way
Make it hard to continue

Till I start playing
My drums heart tune
Disconnect from the mess
And connect back into you

Be human to yourself

You
Me
You
More me
Less you
More me
Less you
Less me
You
More you
You me
Us
We
You me

Where is my creativity
There's a giant black boulder
Sitting in between

Move this
Let me free
But who has the keys

You'll have to look
On my sleeve

I don't know where to come
I keep telling you

Sure you do, you always do

Then why do I still question it

You do everytime,
let go and unwind
peace, harmony, relaxed mind, body, spirit, and soul
Let go
Let go
Let go

Love anyways

"There's a Maturity
in the cleverness
of calmness."

Her soul grabbed the moon
As she tucked it inside her heart
She said from this day on
We will never part

That moon has been with her
Since birth
She doesn't remember
It holds no ones name

She called it faith
She said that moon
You refer too is not
The same one I use

Mine is of gravitational flights
High in The air
Of sleeping off daylight
Just to capture The night air

Of addicts pour and
Brokens sad state

I say The moon
Is ours
I just saved your soul

Carnival
Cotton candy
Pink illusions

Stark night
Trees moonlight
***** knees will do

Jokes and laughter
*** happened after
Don't freeze
Run run

Sobs hysterical
Turns angry at touches
Deepens wounds
Needs therapy

Behind closed doors
Confidence grows
Sharing secrets with
An honest soul

Growth
Enlightenment
Letting go

Feeling that everything is alright
And you know it
Describes your soul

What were told we are
We are not

Take time today
To write a different script

Say I love you
To your inner child

Smile at the heavens
And say Thank You

The deposition
Repositions us
Dont let it!

We are
Bodies of snow
Windows of ice
Crying in the night

We are
Melted
We are
Thawed out

Profrality: the act of being profound in reality.
Karmellight ♦I just like the way it looks ♦
Parallel always there
Monster
CRAWLING in now
Jack o lantern
Laughing clown
Whoops too triggered
Back up
To dafodilles
No they're bad too
Go to pink pink horizons
Sleep
Now sleep
I'm the garden
You always weep
Now dream
Of peace
Breathe in fragrance
Of a different bread
One two three
Repeat.

Wishes on for hours
Ending bliss
A stolen kiss
Envious glares
Becoming unaware
That there's a signal
To the stares
That keep her there
Unprepared for
Rushes of sin
Sparkling tokens
Lost,
In an effort
To change
The way it's
Always been

Don't tell myself
You are the reason
Don't tell myself
There is another way out
Don't tell you
To put this into reason
Or to try and work it out
Want to work it out all on my own
Because the exceeding yet
Tortures pleasures
I get from the
Guilt of having you as my sin
Right or wrong
It won't go away
A pain I long to forget
To take it away

How do you
Make *** work for you
When you crave intimacy?

You ever felt
Your other half
The person so rare
Made only for you

Their energy
The exact compliment
Their words
Already set in stone

Their wheat
Fielded earlier
When you and I
First began

This was many
Many meetings
Before and after

You never forget
Your other half

Come take at a look
At my wildness
The colors
Let them
Soothe inside
Your own
Unbridled passions

Her electricity vibrated across the red room
She was chemically aroused twenty four hours and one
Endignantly dilluted by her parents influence
She was systemmatically insincere

Yet one taste would send you on a trip no ones ever taken you before
As if the world melted away and you were suspended in mid air by her clear iridecent mind blowing energy of innocence

You start to feel the tingles rapid vibrations encased like a bodysuit just perfectly fitted for you begin at the edge of your toes

This energy climbs your entity as your mind numbs
You are nowhere else
There is no time or space here
You are in your own pyramid
You leave the earthbound
In another place beyond earthbound