I should of never bought the story that the devil sold me He said he'd put demons in my head so I'd never be lonley Little did I know they would try to control me And now my heads to heavy for the angles to hold me Listen very carefully I'll tell you what they told me "Why would you want to be OK when you can O.D slowly
Today you will let go of him I told myself but it´s nothing you can decide
You can´t just stop feeling You can´t just stop thinking
I thought I would never be able to let you go I thought your sent would have staint me forever
But it was till the moment I saw you again first it broke my heart how you smiled so easily without me how you acted like nothing ever happend but then I understood You wear my key to happiness but in fact the key opened an illusion
I became someone I wasn´t just for you to like me you never fell in love with me you fell in love with what I became which was nothing but your sidekick boosting your ego and showing me off
so now I understood why you never cared and never will because you fell in love with being loved but you didn´t thought it was necessary to show love back
You took away my voice but the day I saw you again I got it back because I could finally tell myself that I would have been worth it and that I am not the reason you walked away because you never walked in to begin with.
Today I gaint my voice back and I can finally say your name.
You the one with messy brown hair brown eyes with you birthmark over the left side of your face. You who left me crying. You who made me believe in love for the first time. You who stole my first kiss first time first.
You with your straight blonde hair blue eyes and that ****** smirk You who left me broken You who showed me a new way of living You who left me being second choice second best second.
You with your dark blonde hair hazel eyes you with your beautiful hands You who left me angry You who showed me a different way of love You who went with me on my third concert third love third.
You with your curly brown hair hazel eyes with your cute braces you never liked You who left me questioning You who showed how hard love can be You who decided I wasn´t worth it You never happend We never did.
I with wavy dark brown hair hazel eyes with freckels on my face
I who loved everyone of you but still couldnt forget you, number two
I who loved everyone of you but you left me wanting more, number four
I who loved everyone of you was being loved. but not anymore.
Usally I write my poems on paper first, and then I will reread them and think about them, may make some changes and then upload them here. But in this very second I am just so full of emotion that I want to write and I want it to be honest so no rereading or correcting. Just me.