This place constantly changes
And with every step it rearranges
Leaving everything unanswered
But we still remain here
Seeking that very answer
Hidden within this cancer
That we supposedly have control of here
But in that one second, everything had to disappear

I must put on that cloak
That ever so familiar disguise
Veiled only in lies
That has only ever made me choke

Blissful and wistful
Fleeting hearts poured in a cup
Where her lips greet mine

I am the one
Who is never seen
The one who walked away
And who locked the door
The one who couldn't even scream
Within his own room
You all assume
That my birth
Held no worth
But now I realize
That I'm the one confused
I could only see one sky
When you all can see multiple skies
I can't understand why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
It was never fun
To end up so far
Now I remain inside
This tightly locked room
But it was that night
When I was with my friend
Even if we were the abused
There was no need to fight
On that day
Where he didn't choose
For his life to end
Now I'm the one that falls
I was the one
Who controlled fate
I hurt much more
Than any time before
I was left feeling unsure
I cried
In that room
For a long time
I needed a cure
That I knew could never be found
Because everyone that was around
Couldn't get into the locked room
I've looked at the same walls
All this time
While carrying this crime
I've dealt with all their views
And I still don't comprehend
I know I will never be alright
But now I have some clarity
To stand up in that room
There is light
Flowing from the open doorway
Where with sincerity
I can finally show them the walls
And I can see all of their skies
I will proudly bear this scar
And join everyone in this life
Even if I can't bear all this strife
I know I will eventually find my way

Please never go away
From our little paradise
Where you and I can stay
I don't want to be cold
Laying here all alone
Our story will go untold
So, come back and hold me
So I can melt away my struggle
In our little paradise where we can be

You Won't Hear Me Say This
But yoU Aren't Ready Yet
I wilL neveR See You As One Of Us
Unlike You, I Had To earN This
So Stay Out Of mY Way
And I Will respecT Yours
But Know This...

They say do as your told,
Says Wise Old Sage,
And then your story will eventually unfold
But why do that when you can rip off the page?

I've been lost in my mind
For as long as anyone can remember
And I was nothing if not kind
Only because I didn't possess that ember
I run off of oil
Not the desirable heart
Even within this turmoil
Everyone found there start
That's why I look up above
Because it is my dream
To soar like a dove
Without a voice that can scream
About tomorrow's endless sorrow

Here I am once again
Picking up this dainty pen
To write about that pain
That crawls within the muddy rain
The day where I picked up that rose
The moment where I  froze
Eternally at every social strife
Because I realized, I stole its life

Would you follow his will?
To patiently stand still
And accept everything you're told?
To live in a world where the bold
Are sent down to Hell?
Go ahead, ring that bell

I will form my own way
With no need for him
I am able to prevent the sway
And I will slowly trim
My path forward
There is no other way to proceed onward

This is my mistake.
Not yours. Not anyone else's. Mine.
This was my doing.
I'll take all the booing;
That's just fine.
I'll show what this mistake
Is able to make.

None of it makes sense
Why do we create this cycle
That causes our pain

I was never able to comprehend
Why it was she had to send
Me down to fulfill the end
She didn't even try to defend
Her people or me, her friend
Even while I met my end
For my one and only friend
But I guess some things never mend

I wish I was strong
if not for myself
But for her sake
If only I could raise my voice
To sing this song
So she can dance
Let her be herself
And let it all out
To have my voice give me a chance
I want her to see my choice
To know what it's all about
But my voice never gets a break

They each have a duty
But this girl named Angel is different
She does not ascend
For she has something to amend
To sin was never her intent
Will she ever reclaim that beauty?

I wish I could run
To wherever it is you are
But I can't even hug

Do you know what it's like to be worthless?
To constantly be the unproved?
I can't begin to tell you how remorseless
They are when they see the disapproved
Yet, I will hold no spite
Because I have this dream
That will win my fight
To prove myself in this grand scheme

I wonder what is in those eyes
They have never given me lies
But they do hide behind a pair of glasses
It's like she is wearing a mask
To persuade others off her task
But she is finished with her experiment
Now it is time to reveal
What she had to conceal
The feelings she found in the results

Don't worry about me
You are off the stage
So don't look back to see
The shadow you left in the cage

How much longer, huh?
Will you keep me suppressed?
Away from mystery?

Linger in regret
It will get you nowhere here
Switch to a new you

You want to see war?
Religion and Politics.
Welcome to the war.

It's time to go on stage
This will be the final stand
Let us hear
Let us see
Let his voice sing
Make us understand
What it's like to be in a cage
That desire to be free
Let us lose fear
Let us find our start
Let his voice ring
In every single heart

A fear builds in me
For all I can see is you
But I am too blind

A Wise Old Sage carries a cane
And those will feel shame
For calling him insane
With or without, it's the same

Why is this tragic?
"We reap what we sew"
Even if it ended in failure
Did you not see your face glow?
As you held that fabric
And then started to weave....
You made that suit
Not only that, it's cute
That's why you became a Tailor
You must believe in your own sleeve

We aren't quite done.
We still have to do this one.
Aw, look at those eyes.
They just saw their demise.
Don't be terrified my child.
We are just releasing you into the wild.

Mother
Father
Brother
And then we have
Sister?
It would sound weird
If it was "sisther"
But why separate her?
She did nothing
To deserve this hate
Blood has made them
The Same
But she has her
Own Name
And I'll tell you
Now
That's not lame

I see you decided to Pick
This dumb poetic Flick
So let me tell you about this *****
Who doesn't happen to be pickle Rick
He can't even Kick
Anymore since he is Sick
He is as dense as a Brick
Watch for his Stick
He possesses many a Trick
And the metallic Lick
Used to be his happy Tic
Many have called him a ****
That's how it goes for a man named nick
...But hey at least my name rhymes with Legolas

I have overworked my soul
It has taken its toll
I fear I will never rest
Because I never achieved my best
Because there was no chance
Before the white dance

Why does everything ache?
All I feel is searing pain
It's driving me insane
Keeping me awake
In this world that is tougher
Within this dark
I curse this mark
That makes me suffer

What if I told you
I was going to **** myself?
Would you think it true
Or leave it on the shelf?
You always say you care
But what did you mean?
You are never there
When I start to lean
To begin my collapse
Without your stabilizing kindess
While she saps
Away my happiness

Our own care is always there
We flare up out of the chair
To stand even if we don't understand
Our tree will grow free
We never flee in order to see
A new day within this fray

Close your eyes
Don't acknowledge their gaze
Let sit the lies
In the middle of this haze

You wonder why it isn't meant to be
Why it isn't standing in sight
I wonder why it is you can't see
In the eternal light

Open your eyes
Don't acknowledge their gaze
Let sit the lies
In the middle of this haze

Why do you continue to cower
Are you blind
Only you have the power
To break their bind

Open you eyes
Hold them with your gaze
Let sit the lies
In the middle of this haze

They try to hide
With their own line
There is no side
Call it mine

Open you eyes
Hold them with your gaze
There will always be lies
In the middle of this haze

Everything gets blurry
In this room filled with air
You need to hurry
Out of this despair

Open your eyes
Hold them with your gaze
There will always be lies
With your desires entangled by the haze

A wise old sage
Once asked me
When you leave the cage
Are you truly free?

Off in the distance
She chooses to stand far way
To prevent conflict

Even though we love her
We two choose to go to war
To form the right angle

Out of our love's reach
Away she will stand untouched
By the war we wage

Off in the distance
Away she will stand untouched
By the war we wage

The stream starts to flow
Gentle at first but will soon
Be a raging flood

It's just a dream...
It's just a dream!
It can't be a nightmare
For my waking life is the scare
For no one has a care
As I flow along this furious stream
So please just let this be a dream!

Not to be cliche
But I find you to be a rose
Others put you on a display
And make you pose
The way others treat you
Makes me sick
When you withdrew
You fell for their trick
Here you are again in your rain
If you weren't a fool
You would abstain
And leave the cruel
I would go help
But you released your thorns
To make me welp
And you are there again despite my warns

The Sweet Crimson Jam
Present in each living soul
There in love and death