Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
494 · Jan 2016
Outrageous!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2016
Is it a thought, it can be!
Is it a hope, no harm to consider!
Is it around Love, let us find out!
Is it a confusion, slightly!

I know one thing…… A lot of whispers inside every corner in me!

Am I getting angry…. absolutely!
Am I reaching beyond the stretch of my patience…Definitely!
Am I touching the ceiling of losing my faith… Obviously…


I can survive out of pain!
I can move on with the hurt!
I can tolerate wounds outside and inside me!

But
I can’t survive Lost!
I can’t tolerate wasted feelings!
I can’t let my reborn heart down!

I just want….
To shut up all those  voices and talks inside me!
I don’t know who is talking to me…..
Is it myself…
Is it my heart…
Is it my brain…
is it my soul…
is it The God…
Are they the angles…
Are they Heave’s blesses…

I don’t know where they are coming from…
I know they are taking me to places, where I can’t rest…
I don’t know their structure…
I know they go deep in every breath I’m inhaling and not going out…dwelling and going in circle all over me!
I don’t know why they wan to talk to me!
I know there is a message…

What the message is!….
I woke up feeling i’m  becoming a Hell-boy doomed ages ago!
Other days, i feel i’m the Grey Wolf, protecting my territories ..


I don’t want to reach “Beware the levelheaded person if they’re angry.”….
I don’t want to reach the cry that who are in Heaven and Earth can’t understand…

I just want…
Sleep with her…. Not the way you are thinking…
Smell her… Also not the way you are thinking…
Looking to her eyes before i close my eyes and sleep in peace…

that is a dream, a wish, a hope, that won’t come true…
and that what makes it more…..
Outrageous!                                      

I might…
Not open my eyes after that and die in peace…
Leave the world behind me and go far away…
Lose the faith in something called love…

At least…
Finally i slept in peace!
A peace not defined by human and defined only by my…
Heart and Love!
I still have that Anger! The Irony I'm still looking for way out of it!
I'll keep looking, and don't know how long it will take!
494 · Jul 2018
Meaningful Beat
Mazen Edlibi Jul 2018
Maybe years passed by you with no hope in the horizon!

Maybe hours wasted in things you didn't feel them!

Maybe breathes sneaked away without feeling where they went!

Then that unplanned minute happens when your eyes touch that person while he is in front of you projecting that peace that you were fighting for!

When your heart gives that beat, were you straying for ages to know you are alive!

Then...

That is the moment when you realise that you reached one of your Meaningful Beat in your life!
493 · Oct 2016
The Awkward Silence!
Mazen Edlibi Oct 2016
What is there in Silence that ****** every portion of me to listen?
The mind is somewhere...
Body doesn't belong to it.....
Feelings are somewhere wondering for answers!...
It is a Silent that worth a million lifes!!!
Would you ask for it?
490 · Jun 2016
Who is she!
Mazen Edlibi Jun 2016
In the darkness of the first night, I saw nothing except the mysterious energy around that bed!
I saw her gold hair, and I said what I'm into now!
I couldn't sleep!
I was sensitive to every single movement of me so I won't disturb the mysterious sleep of her!
I heard the fight between her pen and paper... A battle of proving a point of view that no one won't understand!
"It is raining" a voice i won't forget!  
A voice of caring!!!
Beneath her bed, I was playing a game of guessing!!!
Is she writing!
Is she drawing!
Is she fighting!
Is she in pain!
The question I keep asking myself!
Is it my business to be so sensitive about the energy around me!
What I am made of!
489 · Dec 2017
A State!
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2017
Holding The Pen and closing my eyes, making my Heart opens his book in pain!

Listening to that Melody calling me loudly to hear the unsaid words, makes all lines shake in fear!

Space and every Element surrounding that space lead to hold my trembled Heart to Fade in Illusion!

Questioning my Reasons....

Questioning my Versions i went through and became....

Questioning the Purpose I have every Now and Then....

Questioning "Should I go Further than this Point that I reached?"...

The Sun is hiding behind those shy Clouds, trying to keep the Light of A Road from being Seen!

And I'm Questioning....

What is behind that Road?
489 · Apr 2018
That Road…
Mazen Edlibi Apr 2018
I hold the pen and close my eyes, makes my heart open his book in pain!
Listen to that melody calling for that melody, makes all lines shake in fear!
Space and every element surrounding that space lead to hold my trembled heart to fade in illusion!
Questioning my reasons....
Questioning the versions of me I became through my journey!
Questioning the purpose I have every now and then!
Questioning should I go further than this place I reached!
The sun hiding behind those shy clouds trying to keep the light of the new road from being seen!
What is behind that Road!...
480 · Feb 2016
Let...
Mazen Edlibi Feb 2016
There is Fear to stop one day from writing...
The Fear to let, that thing which keeps me Fighting, go...
The Fear to stop and turn my back to Everything..
To let the bleed fill my space with meaningless stillness...
It became the Battle of "Let"..
The Battle I don't know who are its Players...
I don't know its Rules...
I don't know the meaning...
"To Let....."
478 · Dec 2015
Stand With Fist!
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
Hello…
It is True that my words voice demanding, but when words fails to translate what their inside their soul and veins, then excuses are sought…
If I gave you my blood, you would feel the heat, the burning, the eager that human’s dictionary won’t capture…
The only misfortune was coming in/at wrong time and wrong state!
“Is there something else, you want?”
I looked at her and my heart wants to shout out and loud, saying to her “ Can’t you see!”, “ Can’t you hear!”, Can’t you Feel!”….
I’m creating “Drama” of its own, “Drama” ruined by human and I’m counted on them and I’m not one of them!....
Everything is Burning…
Everything leading to those states that I’m leaving behind…
“I am …..” ….. I know more than that….
I know every minute what comes when you are around me or not…
I feel the world more when I look at your eyes and they are telling me “I fear what you carry for me?”….
Don’t walk away! When my world is burning…
Don’t Walk away! When my Heart is Yearning…
I feel the silence when created by your words, sending me to the island of answers, where no answers left for me to give it back to you….
After knowing you, silence became my enemy after being my close friend…
In him you live…
In him your words move…
In him your eyes… your hair… your white skin are portrait…
Tell me when we draw the line…
You let everything flying around!
You let colors be seen!
You let love has a taste!
Time has meaning!
Heart has a life!
Sky is holding many words!
Shooting stars are dancing!
Moon is shining…
You let me ”Fly”
To somewhere…
To Some Places were not visited…
To some emotions were not felt before…

You became the theme of undrawn future… The theme of the air I’m breathing… The theme of silence I’m dwelling in…

They saw the other person in me….
They saw the life in me…
They saw the smile you put inside me..

But
They didn’t see “You” …. SSSSHHHH…. It is a Secret!
Your “Genuine” was clear like a sun…
Your “Transparent” was like a shining diamond…
Your “Strength” was felt in your punches…
I know you from your eyes when looking at mine…

What isn’t real?

God created me with full of packages built inside me…
God sent that angle to trigger the treasure box inside me…
God’s well! I can’t help in that!

What is real, is the inhale of real life started with you, stepping in my lonely castle!

You are “Naked”!

My Emotions were embedded in a written word that are given to me by heaven…
Mind and body surrendered to Heart declaring Love being given from the Seven Heaven….

“Naked” from Flesh, but covered with emotions, love and authenticity … Protecting me, taking care of me and easing my falling…

“Naked” from selfish, naked from meaningless, naked from hypocrisy, naked from lust and naked from earthly desires/whims…

I only want “Love”!

“I do feel safe with you”! “I always did”
“How do you know that you miss me?”

When sleeping on cold bed, takes your life and spirit…
When warmth is leaving your bed for ages....
When your speech is about one person, who colored your life…
When people start saying to you “ You look different”…
When you become a poet of every minute of your life…

When the whole world pause for your moment, and nothing else matters…
When your Heart keeps recalling one Face… One Cough… One Skin… One Figure… Who is You!!!

I’ve been “Reframed”  in a way old “State” of an unknown world was shaken and led to unvisited world before…

The “Context”  is New!
The “Sensory” were not belong to me…
I’ve been “NLPed”  in a whole person producing a …..
“ Lover”
It is really painful when you fall in love, and there is no one to receive you... So, you don't know where you fall! I'm thankful to that fall, to the strength I gained out of this experience...
Merry Christmans everyone...Thanks for going through my words, which I use to write and throw them but I said let me share them with those who do care about emotions and feelings even they don't k now you!
Thank you!
473 · Nov 2016
Hard way!
Mazen Edlibi Nov 2016
What a normal day...and funny as it is not normal on the other part of it!
Trying to search for words to help my soul in finding the right meaning to describe....However, in vain!
I asked for simplicity, and in return, answers were learnt in a hard way!
what is wrong with me!
What is wrong with my feelings!
What is my space!
I really loved that person!
I felt the warmth... The safe to be myself!
Is it my fault to feel so!
472 · Dec 2015
Hope...
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
Every day in the same corner...
Every day in the same coffee shop...
With the same Espresso and bottle of water...
Alone and no one on the other chair!
Headphone embracing my ears with "All along the watchtower" melody!
Violin screaming out for me to show what is hidden inside!
It is not the time! still there time to dwell in silence and listen to you!
When a Ronin rest, he heals the In before the Out!
He Listens to Messages from Heaven!
He Reads what Nature is giving!
Still there enough time to raise!
He still has that..... Hope!
472 · Jan 2016
What I feel!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2016
This is how I feel the music with gentle melody and sad tone…
It let me go into deep thinking inside my the lost soul and crazy world…
I don’t write my poems so i would be labeled a poet…
I just want to smell the breath I’m taking inside me…
I just want to taste the water that dancing inside me...
I just wanted to retrieve what has been taken from me all those year...
                                       I wanted to...
                                      Love in Peace!
I was looking at her! asking myself why I met her! still there something inside me towards her! something has been lost in the deep hell!
470 · Apr 2016
Last prayers
Mazen Edlibi Apr 2016
Saying my last prayers, obliged to end a chapter in painful epic!
My prayers are blasphemous, painted with wonder!
My prayers are not shared and closed inside me! It would burn those eyes who can't see!
I read them with closed eyes!
Read them with silent heart, unheard beats that won't scare the universe!
"You are a Star"! .... No I'm not!? I'm the Darkest  Sky that hides Stars, Shooting Stars and Rains!
Don't come near me!
I'm carrying packages inside me!
I'm surrounded with unseen halos!

That is why my prayers are not heard!
I'll keep them posted on sphere!
Let them be voiced out but not comprehend!
Let them be free from being part of little talks!
Let them be ****** and blasphemous!
             Let them be just a last prayer
466 · Feb 2016
Not anymore!
Mazen Edlibi Feb 2016
Sorry "Love"....I'm not after you anymore...
I let you took my emotions...
I let you painted by spirit with your feelings...
I gave you the freedom t kiss my spirit with new pulses...
I let you "Love" every corner inside me...
I feel I need to explore other territories than
You..."Love"...
Mazen Edlibi Feb 2019
I found those papers in my drawers!
Knowing my own words, would make it easy to feel their belonging to me!
Tried to paint the landscape I dreamt of…
Tried to place my hope of joy and peace in its corner…
I can’t find my true color…
I can’t find the details that speaks me…
I realized I have  a picture of my world painted by others colors…
I realized I don’t own that painting

23-10-2018
449 · Jan 2016
Is It a Crime!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2016
Does love exist!
                                  Is it a fancy....
                   Is it only found in mythology!

                                    With her.....
                                       Love
         Like the kiss between Arwen and Aragon

                                    With her.....
                                       People
         Labeled me the lover.....However I'm in reality
                                    I'm a friend!
                              What is my crime!
444 · Oct 2016
The Nigth!
Mazen Edlibi Oct 2016
I miss you in today's night!
The first time I realized the night without you is dark!
I can't tell  you "I miss you"!
I can't tell you how the day was!
I'll keep my words away from you, till you wake up in the morning!
Till my day becomes Night!
444 · Jul 2016
What a waste!
Mazen Edlibi Jul 2016
When kisses are wasted on someone you don't know!
When lips are united in the unfair moments of life!
When the Eager is burning your virginity!
When you end up ultimately alone in freezing bed!
When your beauty is no more than a represent from Medieval age!
Your belongings are no more than lethal rage that is blowing inside you!  
Hugging her, sensing the fragility between your rough hands!
Wondering... of A moment of happiness that lead to another visit to a hell of unrevealed emotions!
Wondering.... of what favour I'm doing to that child's feelings!
Becoming the atheist... who is losing the blesses of heaven!
She looked throughout a torn soul with unspoken words!...
"Say it" .....I said!
"I forgot the world with you!...I'm not worried"!
What a Blame i would receive from my burdened heart!
                                       What a Waste!!!!!
443 · Dec 2015
"The Poker Face"
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
How on earth my "Love" landed with "The Poker Face"!
Every details of her glowing eyes speak freedom, was seen!
Every vibes of her little smile and shielded words were felt and touched...
Every unclear fear was wonder in her tone!
Every concealed happiness is breathed!
                              How on Earth she is a
                                 "The Poker Face"
How on earth I felt safe with her with her hug!
How on earth I found the lost self with her!
How on earth I'm breathing from my soul, when I'm with her!
                            Unless I'm still Dead and I'm in Dying Process!
                                                   Then
                                      It makes sense!
22-11-2015
443 · Nov 2016
The Real You!
Mazen Edlibi Nov 2016
Fly Away!......I looked through their eyes with fear...
It is your time to show who you are!...I hold my tear with lost inside my soul!
I'll do it!..my voice proceed faster than my mind!
You will see!....my lips uttered those words and my mind still perplexed!
What would I show you! that is my question that freak me out!
I can't find the answer that calm my worries!
I don't know anymore The Real Me!
I'm still searching eagerly for Who I Am!
Where .....I have to .... Fly Away!
443 · Dec 2015
Who are you!
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
I keep asking myself this question!
Am I living a scam called love!
I Kept asking myself, am I right to have my emotions out of my Chest!
Is it worthy to breath the fresh air out there!
Is it right to tell the girl " I love you!"...
Does she exist for that moment!
I can't see her face there!
She is a fancy that I don't want to get in love with!
She is not the love I'm looking for anymore!
I don't know who is she anymore!
Farewell to her chapter in my book!
Let someone else comes and writes another episode in this strange epic!
Merry Christmas:)
I feel I'm giving up on Love!
440 · Aug 2016
On the Edge!
Mazen Edlibi Aug 2016
In my dark and silent room, Sleeping on the edge of my bed!
Staring outside my window and Sleeping on my side, turning back to the rest of king size bed!
Feeling i'm turning back to the world!
What else I'm turning my back from?
what is the cost of keeping silence and darkness  the component of my themes?
A point worth to ponder about!
437 · Jan 2016
Everywhere!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2016
Tried to connect with my breath and I found you there!
Tried to close my eyes and meditate and saw your face with that crazy smile!
Holding my billow I remember when we hug each other saying goodbye!
                            I realized......  
                       How fragile I am!
                    I realized she is......my Universe!!!
When I try to put everything behind, it turns that everything return back to me!
437 · Nov 2016
You and me!
Mazen Edlibi Nov 2016
She laid her head on his shoulder, in peace and in silence she surrendered to the fountain of Love!
She shared that smile in silent looking to his eyes, telling him. "My life with you is the world I was dreaming of"...
she let those terms go away i the silence...
She believed...She has the faith... She stayed telling him " No matter how bad it is... Or how bad it gets" ...
I have what I need
I have what makes me live and survive
I have "You"
He said....
"Me" is "you"!
436 · Dec 2015
Losing
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
With her I lose my compass!
I Lose sensing myself...
I lose my words of logic...
I lose all my directions...
I lose my moment of peace...
With her losing is the trophy, where authenticity is gained!
with her my daydreams became reality!
All those losses became the power I was missing!
The Power of Heart, who was in ICU heading to death!
The Lost Love, who give up the hope to rest!
With her absence, like a tiny sparking star in the sky!
I became myself again!
435 · Jan 2017
Lao Ma!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2017
She trusted me... She filled with her smile and laughters the world of silence and mystery...
I forgot who I am... I forgot my anger.. my pain..my loneliness..
I felt I am Alive... I felt I am the world Savier...
I am the mystery with beautiful eyes...
I am the castle with warmth...
I am the safe heart that hold you to your edge...
I am who you need!
I am looking for who is me!
I am Loa Ma!
432 · May 2016
Share
Mazen Edlibi May 2016
When you are sharing your plate with yourself.....
When you are alone,  eating no spoon is shared with someone you care about!
When you are waiting for that smile, when you get that bite from her share!
When you loOK and you find the chair next to you..... empty!
Then you realise you miss something!
You ask..... what am missing!
                            A question with no answer on the horizon!
429 · Apr 2018
I choose…
Mazen Edlibi Apr 2018
I didn’t choose you for your color….
I didn’t choose you for your brain…
I didn’t choose you for your wealth…
I didn’t know…
I will meet you in such kind of path…
I will share my passion in this life
I will find myself with yours…
I don’t know…
What life is brining for us…
Where our feet are taking us…
How we will keep meeting…
What I know…
I’ve chosen a heart that talked with mine in a different language than others…
The blessings are in us and I am HAP (Hippo and Proud).

30-6-2017
427 · Oct 2016
The Uncertainty!
Mazen Edlibi Oct 2016
Who you Trust!
On the Ladder of life, your steps are counted..
On the Ladder of life, you will question all your beliefs and your being alive!
Nobody is there except that voices of who love you!
The voices that will be there always as your voice will be for them!
You are fully worth of every step in your life!
You always trying your best because your life means a lot to you!
You always keep trying although you fail a lot!
You always keep that hope lightening inside you!
You always have that "Meaning" that you are the one that will clear "Uncertainty" and light the Way! 7-9-2016
426 · Jan 2016
What do you want to say!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2016
I beg you to stop beating...
I can't understand what do you want to say...
I can't help you, I can't understand your language...
I wish...
I put you in was...
Comfort you..
Take you to peace...
I don't think my world now is your place!
I'm in War!
My Armor still wet of sweat of those years...
My wounds not yet healed...
My body still aching...
I'm sorry...
I don't have place for you in my world!
If you want to stick around, feel free!
But..
I won't...
Understand what you are trying to say!
419 · Dec 2015
"The Contract"
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
All over the years I lived...
Throughout things I've experienced...
I concluded that nights are the only companion to contract with...
I want to stop reading the lines of my life...
I don't want to live the predicted life...
I don't want my lines to go out of my books...
I want to sleep without waking up for anything...
                           "I can't stop thinking of her"
Recalling her last image and voice like making love at Celestial level!
Making love with pain in soul!
23-11-2015
417 · Feb 2016
Demons...
Mazen Edlibi Feb 2016
In my silence...
Demons of Logic are visiting me...
Haunting my cells with burning questions ...
Asking me to give up on my words about you...
To give up on the hope that still living in me...
To stay away from those burning emotions..
To let them be frozen...
To turn them to be
Demons!
Scary Thoughts...but felt to put them out my system!
416 · Jan 2016
This is Me....
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2016
All my writings, words, feelings are processed differently, painfully and genuinely...
This is Me...
Drifting somewhere, talking everyone away from me to nowhere...
This is Me...
Bleeding with no blood in veins...
Draining from Soul into sphere...
Crying for one peaceful sleep...
This is me...
Trying to break law of logic...
Trying to live humanly...
Trying to see what God created inside me...
Trying to breath normally...
This is Me...
The norm of life does not suit me...
The Logic of people can't be understand...
The Existing of me around them pleases me...
This is me...
Trying new Chapter with me lovely Kids..
413 · Jan 2017
Your Love!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2017
I love you
That what Fills me with Faith
I love you
That what makes me stay optimistic
I love you
That what makes the war i live peace!
I love you
That What makes your words a lullaby!
I love you
That what makes things worth to fight for
I love you
That what makes life has a meaning
I won't give up on you, that what makes your love makes the life I'm living be with a bless filling my soul!!!
412 · Jan 2016
Lost!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2016
I'm lost with and without you!
And I'm asking myself..... what about me!
The Hell became my Castle!
Devils are my chatters!
The funny that they will be lost as well...
What is more funniest...
They will still be chatters with me in the...
                                           The wonder! :)
I said I'll post it even it is not completed, but it should go out of my chest and papers! I'm not confused or sad, but happy I can confront my feelings and put them in words to take the unhealthy feelings out of my inner realm!
410 · Aug 2016
How I feel!
Mazen Edlibi Aug 2016
I want to melt into a heart , to silently look someone in the eyes and say I dun wanna run anymore , and they know that..I want to feel safe and taken care of, to feel warmth and fulfillment!

I want to dissolve into the arms of success, without feeling the pain from the strength of the hug!

I want to fall in love and fall all over again with a best friend!

With a truly enjoyable company of a supporter , a backbone!

Like a small kitten I'd run and hide in the lap of my friend!
Someone dear to me asked to share her words!
408 · Dec 2015
Sorry....
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
I might be a stranger for you!
I might be a freak for you!
My words are a fountain of mystery!
My feelings are untouched! and they are looking for harbour to rest!
The core burning the soul, and leaving me doomed in nowhere!
I might be angry!
I might be resenting!
I've dismissed everything in my life, but I didn't dismissed you!
You paid your dues because of others, but I paid your!
Are we friends!.... can't see except that we are rivals and about what i'm not sure!  
I don't know what makes you scared of me!
Something died with you, and I won't fall in love with you again!
Did you hear a soul came back to body after death? I didn't!
I look back only to say.....
                                  Sorry
I have a path to take!
Pinky promise under the eyes of heaven made!
Later, I felt my only pinky finger was giving the pledge!
I can't see your there! and so.... I am
                                  Sorry
406 · Dec 2015
Explode!
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
What would "Explode" looks like? Interesting to know!
Would "Explode" by my signature...
How would "Explode' be seen!..
How would "the discussion between heart and spirt" be perceived!
Hallucination... Maybe!
Rebelion... Could be!
Depression... What the Hell!
Lonely Nights... It doesn't matter!
All those might be seen, but I was not seen!
The real me was still not seen!
The Real Bleeding of Soul and honest heart!
I would love her and tell the whole world!
I would be Crazy...
I would be Messy...
I would be whatever they think...
                               But
I won't harm my heart anymore..
I won't go through silent heart....
I won't go through human contexts of what is right or wrong!
I won't "explode"...
                          I am simply alive...
                          Simply Breathing...
21-11-2015
399 · Oct 2019
Try!
Mazen Edlibi Oct 2019
They told me to Let it go... And...
I Found that I have nothing there to let go...
Still searching for that song that to be sang!
Still looking for that life to be lived!
Still aiming to reach the beat that shows I'm alive!

I'm wondering If.... there are answers to those questions;

Are dues still not yet paid?
Are sins not yet repented?
Are wounds not yet healed?
Am I still having a human's heart?
Am I still holding that soul which will guide me?
Am I still pure?
397 · Dec 2015
Ask!
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
silence with those who are on roads…
their souls are somewhere lost in places that hard to reach!
My Love… has no faith in those roads declaring Why?
I didn’t ask her for anything, I asked her to be with me…
I didn’t ask her to change, i asked her to be with me…
I didn’t ask her to worship me, i asked her to be with me…
i didn’t ask her to change her beliefs, i asked her to be with me…
i didn’t ask her nothing…
I just asked her not to walk away!
My world is burning, but I want nothing except her smile…
I asked her to be my partner in discovery and not to commit to me!
I asked her to feel safe with me since i was wounded by others for hundred of times and i know the feel…
I asked her to sit with me, as I am a stranger of my own!
I asked her to give me her trust, not to **** her dreams
I asked her to dream with me, not for me…
I asked her to cry with me, not because of me….
I asked her to love with me, not to be obliged to love…
I asked her to be Herself!
To be….!!
389 · Apr 2016
Open Garden!
Mazen Edlibi Apr 2016
I still be the fountain of Peace and Trust....
My Garden is open for others... Open without noticing I'm the owner!
I felt their eager, their pain and I took it so deeply inside me and gave them peace in return...
Gave them "Love" out of fable imagination...
I gave with being hurt unintentionally...
I gave with the blessing of a spirit lost in the human world!
I gave piece of me!
388 · Dec 2015
Desert Rose!
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
Folding her legs and sitting gently on sand afraid of hurting sands under her...
Like a gentle breathe on those dunes... dancing gracefully in silence...
Looking at her silence, like a story of a longing to peace is prevailing...
Looking at her silence, ****** me to dwell in the untold story...
Eager to know where the deep will reach inside her...
I will sit with her, listening to her story, but would she trust me...
Would she feel safe with me...
I can keep writing about her till my ink ends... But do i have the right?
A question that even life couldn't answer!
388 · Dec 2015
Go Sleep!
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
If I have no place to sleep, then where to go?
If all places are clod, what the point of sleeping?
If "Go" is not a direction, then will I end into nowhere?
All my sleeps where with no sense...
Sleeping in spot and my soul searching for its place!
I'm not afraid!
I'm not anymore belong to those boundaries....
I need peace within me, for me!
I long for the hope i felt in love... I long to walk in my road, with happiness...
My dictionary has no "Go" and no "Sleep"!
387 · Dec 2015
The Unpacked
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
I die to be unpacked!
So eager to be taken somewhere to be recreated differently!
Don't want that!
Resenting all my feelings!
My emotions!
Heart!
Butterfly in stomach!
Welling to be taken away freely without regret!
Loneliness is my fear!
384 · Oct 2016
If I can!
Mazen Edlibi Oct 2016
If I can take the pain and talk to him!
If I can look into his eyes and tell him, how difficult to have him deep inside!
If I can touch his Coldness, and tell him how he is indifferent!
                        I wish I can give him back the piece he is leaving in me!
                        I  wish if he can Listen!
                                 I still wish I can!
381 · Oct 2016
Part of Nothing!
Mazen Edlibi Oct 2016
I have those voices inside me to hold on you!
Those Voice to keep faith of my feeling in what I can't see in front of me!
In keeping those kindles of passion ignited!

The Norms of Human... Life...Logic... are haunting my tired eyes with ill thoughts seducing me to close my eyes!... to turn my soul to places of silence, places of white papers without words....!

I'm becoming Part of Nothing!!!....Except... Part of the World of You!
When I hate living the state of conflict between loving and hating something called "Silence"! What i want to Shout?!
378 · Dec 2015
The Endless Garden
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
Leaving my solitary wandering in a world unknown to me…
Leaving my castle, and keeping my secrets locked there…
Leaving my shelter and shielding my soul with thousands of armors…
Leaving my serenity, looking to what is missing back there…

All those years…
I thought I was right!
All Those years..
I felt I was in peace!
All those years…
I sensed I was wise!

But

After All those years, I realized I was Alone!
After being the prince of that castle for all those years, I found that love was not in every corner of that palace!



Loneliness became my companion in that drifting!
Mystery was the scarf wrapping my whole being!
Fear was the pain endured in the wilderness!
It is a journey of an old spirit that didn’t rest!

I passed by a garden not covered by my sight…
I smelled every smell was not known to me…
I saw the blossom of each flower…
I touched every leaves and stems in secret…

Bunches of roses called secretly… Invited me unintentionally to rest…to live…to love.

All those years wiped out…
All those years became meaningless…
I’ve been fulfilled, transformed roughly with them, unable to leave…
The eager is to stay, but the love I met took me to places where I found something beyond the boundaries of human!!

Stranger in the wilderness surrounded with their aroma!
The bless is there touching deeply and leaving you with everlasting scar that won’t cure
377 · Dec 2015
Empty
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
There sitting with my papers alone!
Watching them begging me to write!
I have nothing!
All my belongings of feelings went somewhere to mystery places!
I'm sorry, I can't help it to stop my lost!
Demons are moving around me eager to sit with me!
Eager to sit with old friend!
Eager to shake cold hands!
But they don't know!
I left my body and wondering in lost island!
They don't know!
It is Empty!
374 · Dec 2015
"Love"
Mazen Edlibi Dec 2015
I lost her!
I lost everything belongs to her!
I lost all things that came back from the lost abyss...
I didn't look back to what I felt on that road with her...
Fierce fire was burning my wrecked castle...
Vicious Demons hovering around asking for instruction...
Ruthless Death is smelled all over the palace...
Rude Coldness was hitting my bones, taking away all my nerves...

I hit the road to nowhere, hoping that never ends..
I hit the road, hoping would end into other world...
I hit the road, hoping I would leave myself locked in that Palace...
I hit the road, running away from the annihilation happened inside me...
I hit the road, with question...

                   What possible for me out of "Love"?
23-11-2015
369 · Jan 2018
Be Part!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2018
When the Name became part of A Life!

When every letter of your name represents a Mystery you are Living!



Then...



Write your Name with Letters can be seen by Souls...

Write your Letters with that Spirit of who will fight for you....

Make your Name be part of you!



Live your Name.... Live your Right!
364 · Jan 2016
I still love her!
Mazen Edlibi Jan 2016
I thought something died!
I thought my heart went in a coma!
I thought my skin are frozen!
I thought my feelings were in control!
                   I don't know what happened...
Should I go for the internal process and disappear?
Should I tell her I fail whenever things are around her?
Should I go literally for a coma in my feelings and emotions and **** the spirit inside me!
                      All that for the sake of the.....
                            Funny love! :)
I confused her! :)
I'm crazy because of her:)
I should thank her:)
Next page