Sitting in my silence of solitude,
I won't spark a conversation.
Won't fight if I'm the exclude,
I'll be fine with this isolation.
I know I won't become that focal point,
For I'm much too afraid I'll disappoint.
I'm not that shy in actuality, mainly just afraid of letting people down
There's beauty in broken things
Even light has to be fractured to make color
The only way your demons can hurt you,
Is if you let them break your will and surrender.
But if you keep fighting you shall never perish,
You'll find each one fall with a single slash.
And that you're stronger than any of your demons.
Trust me when I say you're stronger when you truly believe in yourself
Slit the veins of truth,
see all of our ugliness
spill from this society.
That stole my youth,
as darkness hit my eyes
with fear and anxiety.
Please end all of this grief
and let's show loveliness,
maybe live in coalescence.
Our lives are rather brief
so can't we all be allies,
Isn't love life's essence?
Late after we've all gone to bed
I'd always find myself awake
With my ears being mistreated
Didn't mean to hear evils spill
I tried my best to go to sleep
But each night tears were shed
I heard everything slowly break
When daddy admitted he cheated
Then mama could only shrill
Yet all I wanted was sleep
Once more daddy had gone and fled
Left mama to feel the same heartache
Because history had surely repeated
As it was that night life lost it's thrill
Then I cried myself to sleep
When happy endings aren't in surplus
Because some people will lose I suppose
I'll start to question my purpose
Is the world any brighter
than what I can see,
Everything is so dim
I'm unable to see any glee,
Stuck sitting here wondering
how the world is suppose to be.
Silently crying my eyes dry
as I'm lost to the fray,
Because the world is quite chaotic
thinking what can I even say,
Wish I could see some color
but all I see is this world of gray.
When dreams are so vivid,
all my memories get rigid.
As I don't know which are real,
but nothing has ever been ideal.
So I'll simply write about thee
As I sip my confusion smoothie.
Struggle awake, restless eyes.
Arms begin to shake, fix on my disguise.
Walk beneath my toes, legs attempt to fall.
Tired of thinking If anyone really knows, giving up on it all.
Talk though half spoken words, treat your ears to all my lies. Seems as if everyone is sharpening their swords, even still laughter flies. Exhausted from being, wanting to fade away. Questioning what I'm feeling, before what I'm feeling sways. Engulfed by my bed, left to be forgotten.
Except for the voices in my head, because in the inside I'm rotten. Close my eyes for the final time, my tune has chimed for my
Ever darkening the trees slowly take the sun.
Ever thickening the trees surely rule this trail.
Ever freighting trees making you have to run.
Ever attacking trees start causing you to flail.
Ever persisting they will do all that it takes.
Ever exhausting you soon fall from their wrath.
Ever defraying all of your major mistakes.
Ever realizing this was indeed the wrong path.
Before you lose yourself, hopefully you'll notice you're on the wrong path
You were the purest savoir from that forgotten night, the saddest sight, is that of fractured light.
Emotions sinking too low,
so I'll let the needle burrow.
Deep into my bloodstream,
a quick fix is your scheme.
When it's happiness I need most,
think I may find it in a lethal dose.
We take, inject, smoke and drink,
for it's much too tiring to think.
You only need one reason
To stay alive that is
Sometimes it may be large
Or it may be small
But a reason always gives you purpose
We're all worth the same
Despite fame, politics, and other nonsense
That in actuality doesn't matter
You are you and only you
And you will never happen again
Don't take your beauty away
Because the fact you exist is truly beautiful
You're beautiful in so many ways you don't expect, keep breathing please.
And stay strong even when you don't know when this storm will end.
In kindergarten we learn the alphabet,
We color and make terrible art,
And that sharing is caring.
In 1st grade we learned bigger words,
With the worst thing we had to worry about,
Was yet a simple spelling quiz on Friday.
In 5th grade we learn numbers are confusing,
And learn about the planet we live on,
We find out why the moon goes away.
In 6th grade we learn about morals and sorrows,
As we're quickly taught the horrors of our history,
Of all of the pain, torture and lost of life we caused.
Honestly such a jump in what we got taught in school
Still I think of an old habit, that I had once made to inhabit, it developed quick as a rabbit.
With how fast the crimson would flood, with mountain of tissues soaked in blood, as my body is tossed in the mud.
In all honesty I still miss the rush, the gush,
That silent shush.
But I'll keep my word,
Though i might be a flightless bird,
I can still be beautiful even with the scars, is that so absurd?
Often I would love life to just freeze,
only for a moment can it all please stop.
Allow me to breathe in this warm breeze,
Let me soak in the light and let it fill me.
But the sun won't stay in the sky forever,
no it will ever so slowly begin to drop.
And all the clarity will surely sever,
the hope I managed shall quickly flee.
So I'll feel this peace in all of its glory
before everything gets rather gory.
Slithering sparks slicing the darkness in two, it makes me shiver.
Off in the distance is another storm I'll have to weather,
but it's okay I'm a striver.
Because if I catch even a glimpse of that beauty,
I can stand though even the strongest storms.
Far from Me, far from Sea
Gone from Pain, gone from Gain
Close to Smoke, close to a Choke
Coming to High, coming with a
But most of all I'm
Beyond Trying Everything
Being naive is undeniably more blissful,
Better than this self aware nonsense
I want be a dog I don't care
What an unfaithful little liar,
why couldn't you just love pure.
All you caused was this fire
that we had to fight and endure.
Love true, love honestly
As you go to sleep
Counting every sheep
Till you're falling in deep
As you've fallen fast asleep
Dreaming a world with gleam
And with hills made of ice cream
Oh take me with you as you start to dream
When up is down,
left twists into right
Green burns brown,
day becomes night.
I'm walking on the ceiling
confused by everything.
Feeling that I am unfeeling
as I don't know anything.
sdᴉๅɟ ʍouʞ I ɔᴉɓoๅ ǝɥʇ uǝɥM
op oʇ ʇɐɥʍ ǝɯ ๅๅǝʇ ǝsɐǝๅꓒ
Whispers heard through out the night
Saying that they know all the truths
Don't let their lilac tongues fool you
They know of nothing
For their merely voices
Because we can't quite
yet predict the weather.
But we can surely put
two and two together.
And we know
we must mend.
For our story has
to have bitter end.
But we'll try to
set out a plan.
Live our lives
best as we can.
Till that one day
we greet death.
our last breath.
Why do we fear
Endings a new Beginning
Beginnings of an End
Is it all a loop
Or just a straight line that never Ends
Ending of the world
Or just the End to Yours?
Just the Preamble
Or now the Revolution
I'm not sure of much Anymore
But I'm sure of a Thought
That this is the Ending of Worlds
When I can't comment on your small talk and I feel dumb
When I can't feel anything and pain becomes numb,
Wondering if I even have free thought.
Wondering and questioning if iRobot?
Selflessness comes from sacrificing
Your time and your best effort
You don't think you just do
And you do because you care
For you care about their well being
So that they might live a little easier
Because life's really hard by ourselves
And It means so much when someone is selfless
Ashamed to see how much selfishness this world has
Fear left people in a shear panic
Panic left people feared for their lives
The worst of times pulls on the worst of our souls
Bring the light to someone's hidden dark world
Fear leads to panic, panic feeds on fear, anyone in the crossfire be dammed.
It's up to each of us to call a cease fire
before no one's left to write in our history books
Rising falling, east to west
The life of the ocean, shy's
it's broken face.
Can't you see the drawing,
See the colors and
strokes and think
about what they mean,
can you see it in all its grace.
If you missed it don't worry,
for this is The Forever
Dance that we watch.
Whether down in the quarry,
Or stuck on the nightwatch.
The blazing ball and the cold
crest are forever locked in a dance where the only hint at a
rhythm is the crashing of waves.
I may have stagnant waters now,
And I know I'm not always needed.
As the waters slowly reach my brow,
Truly I just want to flow unheeded.
Terrified to open up the floodgates,
Careful not to **** the town below.
The inevitable day calmly awaits,
Lonely as I live in my own shadow.
Stolen from the light,
Trapped among the night,
Everything's flight or fight,
Everything's just out of sight,
We all face the struggles of trying to get it right.
We all have something we're trying to get right.
When it's been pouring heavy all day
then this feeling comes and always befuddles.
A couple cuts to make demons obey
rather I should jump in some muddy puddles.
Or is the pain supposed to put me place?
But no longer will I be at their disgrace.
Oh my dear don't cry
Even though it's so cold
And the trees are bare
Hold out a little longer
For spring is on it's way
With leaves and flowers on the standby
Given the beauty mother nature foretold
Soon the sun will bring warmth to share
I slightly opened up to you
but your face of smiles
turned to a face of tears.
That's when I knew that's
all you could ever know,
for the rest surely ****.
A rabbit hops happily
In this lively forest,
Right into a trap
Now surely doomed.
But only the rabbit's at fault
For moving too fast,
And oh so confidently
The rabbit is snared.
Falling teardrops Rising in thunder
Shoulders begin to shudder
To the striking light that flies
To the silenced cries
A window tightly shut
An ever hollowing gut
Now the curtains are drawn
For I'm just another lost swan
Lost another one of those fights
Lost to another one of those
Lost in the rain, I ever so slowly begin to breakdown
I start to ponder the grim
On particularly slow days
That if I can't be here to stay
Just thinking with a simple whim
That the sun will still shine it's rays
Life would go on If I were to die today
Never knew what the night would bring
when I'd sink to the bottom of everything
as it slowly cracked my mind to pieces
then all these urges crept in the creases
causing yet another careless bloodstain
because I could only think about the pain
Nothing feels quite the same
and it's simply horrifying.
I'll cut off my own hands
For everything I touch shatters
We're all humans so
why is there a problem?
Our minds our different,
but we're the same species.
No one is better than anyone,
we're all just stuck on this rock,
So why don't we just get along,
Instead of slaying our own kind.
Aren't we all homosapiens?
Lost at sea is when I heard you singing
Among many shattered rocks she laid if as a sleeping fox.
Putting me into her terrible trance with that graceful glance.
So distracted you lead me to my own doom.
Eventually we all get tricked by a siren or two.
Walk upon a star to lands increasingly far.
Their lights shine though my skin, healing darkness deep within.
Wander though the abyss, never asking them to assist.
Words can't reach me anymore, touches fade furthermore.
Glance you sharp looks, they attempt to pierce your ego.
Chased by too many crooks, so maybe it's my time to go.
So there's your final goodbye, I'm now falling to the sky.
Grab my hand for I'm drifting farther and farther up, till the sky eats me alive.
Run though the alleys in my mind, running from these distorted thoughts. Should be careful to what you might find, for I am a misleading bright red gleaming apple. Polished on the outside, but slowly decaying on the inside. Never be too certain when you bite a gleaming gilded fruit
Between the shadows of our minds comes the answers to all of our questions
I felt so truly disemboweled when
I was told that my little sister
Won't even be given the chance
At life or to explore the world
Never to laugh and smile or
Would never say my name half correctly
Can't help but feel like I was gutted
I found the only thing that helped
was to just go to sleep.
Because if I didn't shutdown my mind
It would surely take control.
All I ever wanted to do was dream,
thought at least it wasn't real.
But sleep never came easily to me,
yet it was what kept me alive.
Is it really weird to be weird?
I think it's weird not to be a bit weird.
Levels that went unchecked,
were left to harshly fluctuate.
You say It's just all chemicals,
and that I'm only very distrait.
I start to feel like a test subject,
as you experiment different pills.
Just trying to fix my chemicals,
so maybe I won't feel these chills.
Endless stringing fumes, pitter patter of a fruitless place. Fed by the doubts, in fear from shouts. Discovering all your pretty hue's, does this heart share the same face
Treat my flaming heart that burns and churns for more passion, cut it to pieces and make it whole, because it's all
getting too dull
Swallow it all
Show me it all
Sing a song to my heart
Sing a song to my soul
Dance with my flame
Dance with my name
Just don't let my fire falter
Keep it growing
Keep my flaming heart for me, I don't need it back just yet dear
Up above and far away
Is where I wish to go
Not in this burning astray
Stuck turning into snow
But guess I'll keep my hopes high
While I get lost amongst the sky
Can we ever fully be sane
Cause to live in the now
Is so very much insane