i force myself to sleep because i know she’ll be coming soon i feel her arms around me and her fingertips across my veins before i’m able to pull her close i awake and realize that my sleep was only a vacation for her to come and visit me
she only comes to visit me every now and then in my dreams
Why do I have to be lucid Present Together Because all I really want Is to let go of reality Get so high I could never come down Drink until I can't feel anything Let my body go numb And my mind soar Away from all The ****
when I died I did not sense or feel myself leave the body I was just inside and then outside there was no sense of time of pain of anything other than conscience there were no walls, no pressure no sky or ground no sea or wind only thought and light as I've never known and then I was not dead all had returned all that I had suddenly despised blinked back in and to miss death less I simply wrote it off as a beautiful nightmare
as the pens ink meets blank paper, a deal is made, a price is paid, tears rolling down my face in shame, was not aware of the price that would be paid, if one could turn back the clock, would you still strike the same deal?
Slip sliping away Hide away My pain At the back of My closet Dwelling in my pain All the hurt and wrong Done on to me Screeming for them to leave me be To let me be me still thankful of those who foiled my plan And boy was it grand Instead I sat in the grandstands at Contact 2013, Vancouver BC Combating a invisible disease To where everyday It’s hard to breath Still I stand tall With the ball in my court Not going to port To where attempt number 3 Takes place Instead a Near death experience at sea Thanks carnival 50 bands Taken away from me All in order to save me From myself.
Thank You Chase for always being there for me in dark times. Thanks for not letting me have 50bands to just end it all with it. Thanks to you a known time and predreamt dreams all come to be and continue to do so. Thanks for showing me the lighter side of life to where every day is a good day. I love you bro, Always
I got my issues to combat Family that’s now astranged Disowned for not being a hard enough worker in my parents eyes Though having a invisible disease made it difficult to keep active Chronic fatigue from chronic pain Made working I don’t even know how many times harder.