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Marina Kay Feb 24
One look from you
dismantles my bones.
Jordan. His eyes send me to my knees.
Nomkhumbulwa Jan 7
I am sorry mum
for everything,
For who I am,
For what i've done.

I am sorry mum,
For everything,
For what im not,
What I havent done.

I am sorry mum,
For staying away,
For being with friends,
For being far away.

I am sorry mum,
That I am ****,
For what I wear,
For the state of my hair.

I am sorry mum,
That my opinions are wrong,
That I spoke without asking,
For the things that I know.

I am sorry mum,
That you think I dont care,
That I have upset the family,
That they never wanted me there.

I am sorry mum,
That you couldnt love me,
That I wasnt normal,
That other people like me.

I am sorry mum,
That I have expressed things,
That I have dropped things,
Caused a mess in your home.

I am sorry mum
That I wanted to study,
That I liked being outside,
And that I looked untidy.

I am sorry mum,
That Im an embarrassment,
Have caused so much shame,
And that I cause you pain.

I am sorry mum,
That im always a disappointment,
Showed you my photos of Africa,
I know now that I shouldnt.

I am sorry mum,
That I didnt have the right friends,
That I didnt wear enough make-up,
That I read about Science, not fame.

I am sorry mum,
For being vegetarian,
For picking out bits of meat,
In front of everyone.

I am sorry mum,
For when I didnt know what i'd done,
And you had to stand on my foot,
Or pinch me ******* my arm.

I am sorry mum,
For going walking,
For not doing house work instead,
Or finding something else to be done.

I am sorry mum,
For my work with charities,
For my love for Africa,
For feeling there so free.

I am sorry mum,
For having weird phobias,
And letting you down,
By mentioning it to others.

I am sorry mum,
That I struggle with Maths,
For being dyscalculaic,
I know this is bad.

I am sorry mum
For causing you sickness,
And for not being there,
I know it looks like I dont care.

I am sorry mum
For upsetting others,
Being the cause of all problems,
And hurting my brother.

I am sorry mum,
For my choice of work,
For the places i've been to,
For not always putting you first.

I am sorry mum,
That I made you so angry,
You had to hit me in the face,
And I made you go to bed unhappy.

I am sorry mum,
That I was quiet in school,
That Claire was my best friend,
That we were both quiet in school.

I am sorry mum,
That I chose Scotland,
For moving far away,
It cannot be forgiven.

I am sorry mum,
For my musical instruments,
I know I dont play them well,
That I gave you a headache instead.

I am sorry mum,
That I played the violin,
At my brothers wedding,
For you- ruining everything.

I am sorry mum,
That i;ve never been good enough,
That I always let you down,
I am just never good enough.

I am sorry mum,
For speaking about family,
For letting you down again,
And the family.

I am sorry mum
That I struggled so much,
You had to put chilli in my mouth,
As I couldnt do my homework.

I am sorry mum,
That I went "home"
That I let the **** happen,
That I spoiled your "name".

I am sorry mum,
That I do not love you,
I have cursed myself and tried,
But I cannot love you.

But I still hear your voice,
And it tortures me still,
And the thought of your anger,
Still gives me chills.

I am so sorry mum,
That I am a failure,
But I am no longer "Emma"...
...I am "Nomkhumbulwa"....
Back to the depressing style sorry :(  This could have been much longer, but think ive bored people enough.  If you can understand it, then thanks.
Sometimes on a beautiful sunny days like to watch
the white fluffy clouds passing over the sun
In
brief Intervals
causing
Its shadows
to creep
slowly over
the land like ghosts in
a painted landscape
bringing suddenly with them a chill to make one shoulder with the brief but sudden drop In the temperature
Laid watching clouds on a sunny days, passing fluffy white clouds over the sun
causing shadows, ghost like shadows
Sometimes on a beautiful sunny day like to watch
the white fluffy clouds passing over the sun
In
brief Intervals
causing
Its shadows
to creep
slowly over
the land like ghosts in
a painted landscape
bringing suddenly with them a chill to make one shoulder with the brief but sudden drop In the temperature
Laid watching clouds on a sunny days, passing fluffy white clouds over the sun
causing shadows, ghost like shadows
Johnny walker Dec 2018
In dreams, I've been today
trying to beat the bitter cold, a wind so powerful outside my door and another storm on It's
way
The best place to be under the duvet snug and warm hibernate till winters over
but sadly missed my
a wife who once did keep me warm, one can't buy the kind of warmth Helen generated
from her beautiful
body
Oh how I miss being snuggled In to her, Estee lauder youth-dew filling
my nostrils Helen favourite perfume beautiful, when one has won then lost It very to take for Helen had a heart of
gold
Winter storms outside my door
frighting powerful wind now no wife to keep me warm to beat the winter chills
keila skie Dec 2018
I want to fall
So bad
To run
And trip
To crash
And burn
I want to hurt
To feel
Pain
A reason for it
The air is
Thin
Can't take too much
It hurts
But why?
No reason at all
There is a moment where one feels hopeless, where one feels pain, but we can't seem to find the reason why. It hurts, but why?
Brynn S Nov 2018
Metallic kisses
Melt my lips
Each drop of crimson
Each silent drift
Blood spills
Spinal thrills
Moments of madness
Each smoke pour
Reach for the gods
You never asked for more
Makenzie Odom Nov 2018
Kissing you
Is like drinking ice water -
Sending chills through me,
Teasing me with every taste,
Stinging my mouth with each inhale.
Making me crave more -
Like a breath of fresh air.
And gosh I dont want to stop
Because it tastes so **** good
Not too sure how I feel about this, but I wanted to share anyways.
Solaces Nov 2018
Sun and stars..
Moonbeam scars...
Light of the night..
Is my darkness sight..

Under pale silver false sun..
The midnight run...
Hunting for your soul..
In pockets of moon glow..

I felt your lips on my neck..
Ghostly chills leave behind light specks...
Only it was not me looking for you all along..
But you looking for me in this ghostly song..
Who is the Ghost?
Stark Oct 2018
The trees swayed with the wind
Casting a dynamic shadow upon the piles of leaves around it
Autumn washed over us
Bringing the chills of windy hours
Clouding over the sun in the early hours of dawn
Raining down on us with the mourning of summer
Fall marks the death of life
And begins the long slumber of winter
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