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Benji James May 2017
If love lives forever
I want your name inked into my skin
But they say don't do it
Love never lasts forever
But she's not just my heart
She's my soul. She's my life
She's the air that I breathe
I would do anything for her
Even if it meant losing my life
So bring on the pain
Inject the ink into my skin
These are some lyrics with a meaning

Nobody's perfect, You see
Have you ever hurt so much
You wanted to take your life
Well you see time after time
I wrote how hard it was living without you
But it got me wondering
If I loved you so much
Why am I not dead
And it came to me
Your my drive, Your my hope
Every time I see that picture of you
I know I'm not alone
So sick of writing songs about death
I mean I don't want to die
but a life without you is hard to bare
But they say love hurts anyway
You just got a find the one person
Worth suffering for and your worth
Your wait in gold

If love lives forever
I want your name inked into my skin
But they say don't do it
Love never lasts forever
But she's not just my heart
She's my soul she's my life
She's the air that I breathe
I would do anything for her
Even if it meant losing my life
So bring on the pain
Inject the ink into my skin
These are some lyrics with a meaning

Girl, I haven't been talking to you
I wonder if you ever notice there's
a person missing from your life
remember the boy that stuck by you through
every hard time but all of a sudden he's gone
But truth is this was a test
To see if you cared
It seems like you failed me this time
You said you would be there
But I was hurting and I'm still all alone
But its okay, I'm alright
(Yeah) Almost turned to drugs
Took up cigarettes
Because I couldn't stand
The pain of knowing you weren't there
But I quickly gave it up
Because I wasn't thinking clearly
Death was on my mind every night
See I started writing a song
Saying it was all over
But then I thought of you
Scrunched it up
Tore it apart and threw it away
Because I ain't given up

If love lives forever
I want your name inked into my skin
But they say don't do it
Love never lasts forever
But she's not just my heart
She's my soul she's my life
She's the air that I breathe
I would do anything for her
Even if it meant losing my life
So bring on the pain
Inject the ink into my skin
These are some lyrics with a meaning

I'm still here, Your the medication to my pain
But your the pain to my pain
It's like ******* it drives you insane
I wrote these other songs about you
And in it, I kiss you
But the truth is our lips have never collided
I kissed you in my dream. It felt so right.
It changed my life
Not sure if you understand, What I'm saying
But if anybody hurts you again, I'll be there
I know it seems like I'm gone
But I've been here all along
Better watch out baby because I'm on my way back
Ready to fight, I'll be ready to save your life
Bet you never could imagine you were my saviour
And protection and you didn't even have to say anything
See I have this picture of you and whenever I'm feeling down
Feel like I'm up against the world
I just look at your smile. It lights me up
Feel Like I can see my name in city lights
Importance returns to my mind
And I feel the urge to pick myself up from the dirt and
Take on the whole universe
You see I'm gazing at stars knowing that somewhere out there
You're looking at them to
Just hope you can feel the love I'm sending you

If love lives forever
I want your name inked into my skin
But they say don't do it
Love never lasts forever
But she's not just my heart
She's my soul she's my life
She's the air that I breathe
I would do anything for her
Even if it meant losing my life
So bring on the pain
Inject the ink into my skin
These are some lyrics with a meaning

Remember I said I dreamt of you
Well it was like heaven on earth and when I kissed those cherry lips
It felt so good, It took me higher than I've ever been
It never felt more right, If thats what it's like
I'll take the pain and the suffering
You might be the girl I've never had
The girl I'll never have
And I know I can never replace you
Truth is I'll probably keep crying and feel like I'm dying
But I'm movin up, Movin on
Baby, Benny's home
And he's never felt more right (alright)
Creativity has taken over tonight
Look out he's back on a high
look towards the sky and see him flying
Your gaurdian angels back with a vengance
Nobody's gunna want to hurt you again
Because if they do he'll be there to hurt them
I get jealous when I see you with another man
But I'll hold it in
Because seeing you happy is worth it
Sometimes I wish I got a text or a facebook message
Saying you miss me
It makes me feel invincible and amazing
But its okay, I'll be alright
Because I see that picture of you
And it eases my suffering
It keeps me happy
I feel like it's our destiny to be together
But even if it's not your always gunna be the one I want
I would give it all up for you
If losing my life meant saving yours
I wouldn't question or give it a second thought
Baby I would take that bullet to my heart

If love lives forever
I want your name inked into my skin
But they say don't do it
Love never lasts forever
But she's not just my heart
She's my soul she's my life
She's the air that I breathe
I would do anything for her
Even if it meant losing my life
So bring on the pain
Inject the ink into my skin
These are some lyrics with a meaning

I've never felt more amazing than I do tonight
Just think who's missing out of your life
Think back to all the things I said to you
Then you'll know this songs for you

©2017 Written By Benji James
Pretty sure this is the longest lyrics I have ever written. :P
1.4k · Dec 2018
Ruined It.
Benji James Dec 2018
I've been killing these verses for years
Better put my feet up, have a few beers
Better raise your glass, cheers
I've got a huge brain between my ears
The one that vanquished all of my fears
The one that seen me through all the tears
While I'm thankful for most of my peers
Others tried to stab me with words like spears
Thought they could control me like puppeteers
Just when they thought I would disappear
Laughter is all they could hear
That is when I would reappear
And be all like "I'm here"
And they'd be all like "Oh, Dear!"
And I'd be all like let's change gear
Tell me was that crystal clear?
Why does it feel like I'm in the Ionosphere
Well some of these peeps are quite the racketeer
Shame they'll never breathe freely in my atmosphere
gee ****, listen up kid
I think I just ruined it.
1.3k · May 2017
Blue Eyes
Benji James May 2017
Crushed to the core,
sinking like an anchor,
To the floor.
Pull me from the depths,
drowning in the wreckage,
of a wounded heart.
Feel the blood from a punctured lung,
tears, screams all around,
drifting in the water below.
Breathing in water through your nose,
but when you rise,
you rose to fill every expectation.
Everybody has an expiration date,
this time I’m not gunna fight,
to find a way out,
cuz I’m tired of being a fighter,
Yeah hold up a lighter.
In loving memory,
of everything we shared,
they gave me more, than I could bare.
And now there is no flare,
to light the skies.
God gave me hope, gave me strength, to carry on.
But you can only keep going, on for so long.
It was in the way she talked,
and in the way she walked,
that the poisonous fumes,
from the scent of her perfume,
Stunned and trapped me in your love.
Got tricked, into a trap,
I’ll never escape from.
Take a flying leap of faith,
Into the ocean and rocks below,
See if I can overcome the pain,
The pain of the day, she walked away.
Swallow all my pride,
learned everything from a beating heart,
that shined so brightly in the dark.
Nobody likes to be alone and apart,
yeah lock my love in your mind,
know that what was mine,
you’ve inherited all of the stars tonight.
Because without you, they just won’t shine.
That means I’ll be walking blind,
so light up everything we have inside,
I’ll be your angel wings in flight,
I’ll take you flying through the skies,
yeah baby blue eyes,
I called her baby blue eyes.

©2017 Written By Benji James
1.3k · Jun 2017
Slut Around
Benji James Jun 2017
Look who came running back
What am I just some fool
You think I just want you?
After all, you did
After all, you said
Oh wait that's right
You said nothing
I was the one chasing you
I really tried and fought for you
I lost and you left
And girl I'm sorry I don't do second best

What do you mean
You want a relationship now?
Weren't you the one
who turned me down?
I'm sorry girl
all I wanna do
Is **** around
You messed with my head
So I'll mess around
with every other girl instead
Oh you really want me now
Sorry girl gonna have to let you down
Because all I wanna do
Is **** around (**** around)

All warm and tucked in bed
That's when my phone lit up
Yeah I got a text
Saying how much you miss me
You wish that you were with me
My eyes just rolled
Can I slam my head against the wall
Because I thought I told you
I don't do second best
Maybe I didn't so I'll send that back in a text I guess

What do you mean
You want a relationship now?
Weren't you the one
who turned me down?
I'm sorry girl
all I wanna do
Is **** around
You messed with my head
So I'll mess around
with every other girl instead
Oh you really want me now
Sorry girl gonna have to let you down
Because all I wanna do
Is **** around (**** around)

Excuse me
while I go find someone else
Someone better
Because I know
I deserve better
I can do better
Plenty more fish in the sea
That want to get with me
Yeah just wait, you'll see
Don't blame me
For all your mistakes
That you went and made
You could have had it all
But you chose somebody else
You placed me back on that lonely shelf
And now I've learnt
to live without you
You came running back
Because you miss me
Chick you were the one
Who completely ditched me

What do you mean
You want a relationship now?
Weren't you the one
who turned me down?
I'm sorry girl
all I wanna do
Is **** around
You messed with my head
So I'll mess around
with every other girl instead
Oh you really want me now
Sorry girl gonna have to let you down
Because all I wanna do
Is **** around (**** around)

©2017 Written By Benji James
1.2k · May 2017
Mascara Run
Benji James May 2017
She's looking out the window
A tear rolls down her cheek
She can't believe
what she had  just seen
The way he up and left
Slamming the door as he went
She called me on the phone
I said hello
There was a vulnerability
In her voice,
it was a conversation
In which I had no choice
And so I rocked up at your house
You opened the door
And that is when I saw

The pain was really aching
Inside your heart was breaking
I had to grab your hands
To stop them from shaking

It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll hold you in these arms
As long as you need
It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll clean you up
When you're done,
So let your mascara run

I sat you down on the couch
And looked into your eyes
There was a fire raging inside
But you didn't show it
Instead, you were breaking down
So low upon the ground
Tell me what happened now?
That's when you looked away from me

The pain was really aching
Inside your heart was breaking
I had to grab your hands
To stop them from shaking

It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll hold you in these arms
As long as you need
It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll clean you up,
When you're done,
So let your mascara run

She was staring at the ground
And I was running through scenarios in my mind
That's when you turned to me and said
He's met another girl
I saw him with her the other night
I thought I could forgive him
He said he'd make it right
Am I really that unlovable
Am I just not enough
Is that why he left me like this
Maybe I deserved this

The pain was really aching
Inside your heart was breaking
I had to grab your hands
To stop them from shaking

It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll hold you in these arms
As long as you need
It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll clean you up
When you're done,
So let your mascara run

You're always so quick,
To blame yourself
The blame is not yours
The blame lies with him
He obviously couldn't
See the perfect girl
Standing in front of him
You're loyal,
You never break the trust
That's why your heart
Has taken the fall
It's not weakness
It's a beautiful thing
It just means
You deserve better than him

The pain was really aching
Inside your heart was breaking
I had to grab your hands
To stop them from shaking

It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll hold you in these arms
As long as you need
It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll clean you up
When you're done,
So let your mascara run

©2017 Written By Benji James
1.2k · May 2017
Sleeping Beauty
Benji James May 2017
Rainy nights, cloudy skies,
chasing me all through my life,
This time I've just had enough.
People always said, 

“When you get older, It'll get rough.”
But I didn't realise just how much.
When childhood memories are all you've got,
every day you're telling yourself, you can't give up.
You live each day, the way you've been, taught.
And you placed your trust, in the ones you love.
They don’t seem to be receiving your call,
this time nobody's here to break your fall.
It just tears you apart.
Every time you play this part.
You’ll never be a work of art,
nobody will ever see, 

what lays inside of your heart.
Oh, sweetheart, you'll never top this chart.
Give me the morphine,
so I can't feel a thing.
Take some more sleeping pills,
to get me through this.
Just let me overdose,
I've never been this close.
Put me to sleep, sleeping beauty,
I've taken my vows,
it's time to make these lights go out.

©2017 Written By Benji James
Benji James May 2017
Making wishes on stars
As I fall apart
Tears in these eyes
Why does this never come as a surprise
Giving in to this hurt inside every time
Losing my mind, trying to hold the line,
trying to keep this heart together
Before it tears apart inside
Where did I go wrong
Just what did I do
To deserve this pain
That you put me through
Why am I always the first to lose
Where did I go wrong
Just what did I do
To go and completely lose you
Guess I'll just keep making
All these wishes on stars
As I fall apart without you

©2017  Written by Benji James
1.2k · May 2017
Biggest Regret
Benji James May 2017
VERSE ONE
Can’t seem to forget,
everywhere that I went wrong
Trying to keep all these emotions pushed down.
It seems I’m reminiscing of you now
Try to stay strong every day
Try not to let these thoughts
get the better of me
These days, All I can do
is look at you from a distance
and I feel the hurt in you
Every time you look my way
There is so much I want to say
Just wish I could find the courage to speak
All of these words, held here in my mind

PRE CHORUS
Hands are shaking
All these doubtful thoughts
build up within me
Can’t even look you in the eyes
without pain growing more inside
Every mistake that I made
Is something I wish I could change
Night after night, day after day,
I wish things hadn’t of ended this way

CHORUS
You’re my biggest regret
There’s a whole lot of things
I wish I never did,
There’s a whole lot of words
I wish I never said
You’re my biggest regret
All of this I’ll never forget
Tried to forgive me
for all that I did
but it’s just something
I’ll never be able to live with
You’re my biggest regret
I’ll never forget, No I’ll never forget

VERSE TWO
I’ve always had a gift
for making a mess
And after I was done
that’s all that was left.
I’m trying to make amends
Always try to be
The best person I can be
Always try to see
the brighter side of life
Can’t seem to find
A way out this time
Consumed by late night thoughts of you
Reminding myself, Everywhere I went wrong
What could have been
Guess we’ll never know
Now we’ll never see
Just what we could have been

PRE CHORUS
Hands are shaking
All these doubtful thoughts
build up within me
Can’t even look you in the eyes
without pain growing more inside
Every mistake that I made
Is something I wish I could change
Night after night, day after day,
I wish things hadn’t of ended this way

CHORUS
You’re my biggest regret
There’s a whole lot of things
I wish I never did,
There’s a whole lot of words
I wish I never said
You’re my biggest regret
All of this I’ll never forget
Tried to forgive me
for all that I did
but it’s just something
I’ll never be able to live with
You’re my biggest regret
I’ll never forget, No I’ll never forget

VERSE THREE
One day, I hope you’ll see
just what you meant to me
maybe next time around
I might just get it right
Still looking for answers in the stars above
still trying to understand this love
Still stuck on you girl
Always running through my mind
Maybe I can find that inner peace
Deep inside of me
Maybe one day, I’ll heal all this hurt
Until then I'm trapped within conscience lines
Reminding myself of all the times
I failed you, yeah let you down
never let that rest,
Of all the mistakes I’ve made
Yours were the best
I’ll never let that rest

PRE CHORUS
Hands are shaking
All these doubtful thoughts
build up within me
Can’t even look you in the eyes
without pain growing more inside
Every mistake that I made
Is something I wish I could change
Night after night, day after day,
I wish things hadn’t of ended this way

You’re my biggest regret
There’s a whole lot of things
I wish I never did,
There’s a whole lot of words
I wish I never said
You’re my biggest regret
All of this I’ll never forget
Tried to forgive me
for all that I did
but it’s just something
I’ll never be able to live with
You’re my biggest regret
I’ll never forget, No I’ll never forget

©2017 Written By Benji James
1.2k · Apr 2018
Lauren
Benji James Apr 2018
I need another taste of your kiss
From your soft red coloured lips
I need another touch
Of your silky smooth skin
I feel your so tight 

Rocking my heart right

Yeah you’re making me feel like

Your body is talking to me

Yeah your rubbing me the right way

Are you down to play?

Cuz I wanna do ***** things 

with you babe.

Oh Lauren, you turn me on (girl)
You know that you do
Lauren, you got it going on (girl)
I can see that you do

Oh Lauren, I see what you got
Yeah you know what I want
Every inch of you
You know that I do
I want to give it to you
(You want it, I got it)
I want to give it to you
(You want it, I got it)
I want to give it to you

It seems to me
That she seems to be
Teasing me sexually
Yeah she's explicit
In the things that she'll exhibit
It's exquisite,
her cheeky smile
her bright blue eyes
Seem to get to me every single time

Oh Lauren, you turn me on (girl)
You know that you do
Lauren, you got it going on (girl)
I can see that you do

Oh Lauren, I see what you got
Yeah you know what I want
Every inch of you
You know that I do
I want to give it to you
(You want it, I got it)
I want to give it to you
(You want it, I got it)
I want to give it to you

Yeah I'm impressed
by her sexiness
But I'm working out
How to get her out of that dress
then into the bed
She knows I want her ***
Gonna get her wet
Gonna make her sweat
Till we're both out of breath
Fall asleep in the bed
With her head on my chest.

Oh Lauren, you turn me on (girl)
You know that you do
Lauren, you got it going on (girl)
I can see that you do

Oh Lauren, I see what you got
Yeah you know what I want
Every inch of you
You know that I do
I want to give it to you
(You want it, I got it)
I want to give it to you
(You want it, I got it)
I want to give it to you

©2018 Written By Benji James
After seeing a beautiful Lauren at my work tonight, I just had to post this...
1.2k · May 2017
Twisted Mind
Benji James May 2017
If this is ain't love,
then what is it?
Just another obsession to reacquaint with?
In the memories of a story long foretold,
in the midst of this dusty storm
,
the sensual feelings I've applied to life

have left me in the blistering cold outside.

Each time we try to comprehend ourselves
,
The constant reminder, of our dark paths,

Become one with the start of our lies and deceit.

Something long forgotten now stands before you
,
as clear as day
,
As clear as the scars revealed upon your face.

In between the lines, you don't choose to read, 

There is something hidden you didn't see.

As you're standing trial for past mistakes,

The sincerity seen, in each look you take.
We know another part of your heart breaks.

At least that's what I think, 

In this twisted mind of mine.

©2017 Written By Benji James
1.1k · Mar 2018
Individuality
Benji James Mar 2018
Can't keep up with these kids
Outrun, outclassed
Left flat on my ***
Trying to reach a new level
Making bargains with a devil
Got left in the dirt
Feelings hurt
That's why I sold my soul
Soulless, No emotions
Now try to read my cards
Opinions inflicted wounds
Labels covered me
Until I washed them clean
Now I won't let anybody place me in a box
I'm cunning, You can call me Mr Fox
Cuz I'm unique, Individuality, Totally me
May never be on top
But I am everything else that you're not.

©2018 Written By Benji James
1.1k · May 2017
On The Roof
Benji James May 2017
Yeah,
Twenty Seventeen,
Yeah,
You are feeling me.

Hey let me set the scene
It's night, and stars are shining bright
Parked car by the ocean side
She's sitting front seat
Right next to me
Can't help but look into your eyes
And that's when I decide
To turn the music up high
climb out the door
Opened up yours
Grabbed your hand
Yeah helped you out the car
Picked you up
Placed you on the Bonet
I climbed up on it
grabbed your hand
Helped you up again
Climbed to the roof
Helped you up to

I just want to ***** dance
With you (with you)
On this car roof
Let the playlist play
Yeah pull you close to me
I just wanna dance with you
All night, all right
Till the sun comes up
All I want to do
Is ***** dance with you
On the roof

You're looking mighty fine
In your dress, oh yeah
I like the way you're grinding
Upon me, I like to see
You smiling, laughing
Having a good time
Keep rocking out
Till the sun comes out
Yeah I like your moves,
Yeah, they're so smooth.
I like what you do.
You know what I want
Show me all you've got

I just want to ***** dance
With you (with you)
On this car roof
Let the playlist play
Yeah pull you close to me
I just wanna dance with you
All night, all right
Till the sun comes up
All I want to do
Is ***** dance with you
On the roof

Yeah, this has been perfect,
Yeah this was worth it
Don't know how this moment
Could get any better
And that's when a slow song
Just magically came on
And that's when the vocals
Came clearly through the speakers
And said all the things
I want to say to you
Like how I'm falling
more in love with you
Alright okay let's just dance real slowly
Spin you around
bring you back
Pull you as close as I can
That's when you rested your head
on my shoulder and you said

I just want to ***** dance
With you (with you)
On this car roof
Let the playlist play
Yeah pull you close to me
I just wanna dance with you
All night, all right
Till the sun comes up
All I want to do
Is ***** dance with you
On the roof

Oh what a night
And as the sun
Starts to rise
I'm sitting next to you
That is when you move in
Closer to my face
You look at me and smile
And that is when it hit
I had to kiss those lips
So I did, and that taste
Oh this moment
I don't want to let go of it
I love you. You know that I do
And that's when I heard
those magical words from you
I love you,
I want to do this all again
Do you think we can?
Well alright, hold tight
Because you know that

I just want to ***** dance
With you (with you)
On this car roof
Let the playlist play
Yeah pull you close to me
I just wanna dance with you
All night, all right
Till the sun comes up
All I want to do
Is ***** dance with you
On the roof

©2017 Written By Benji James
Wanted to put something fun on here today.
I'm not all doom and gloom after all. :)
1.1k · Dec 2021
Happiness
Benji James Dec 2021
Why am I
Feeling this low
Why do I feel like
Life is moving too fast
Am I just that slow
That I can't keep up
What is this intense aching
In my heart
These emotions
are too much to bear
Trying to find ways
To make these feelings clear.

Let me reset
one more chance
to give my best
all this blood rushing
through my chest
eager for another shot
at happiness.

Is it just me
or does anybody else see
this life passes by too quickly
Before you even get a moment to breathe
Still trying to find ways to shine
The more I try, The more I feel like
I am running out of time.

Let me reset
one more chance
to give my best
all this blood rushing
through my chest
eager for another shot
at happiness.

Getting older
Should be gracefully changing
Seem to be battling ageing
Each day I lose a little more hope
That the dreams I've set
Will never get met
and that makes me a little depressed

Let me reset
one more chance
to give my best
all this blood rushing
through my chest
eager for another shot
at happiness.
1.1k · May 2017
Should Of Known
Benji James May 2017
It's perfection when I kiss your lips,
This is a desire I just can't fix,
Oh somethings just aren't meant to be,
Now I see you were never really in love with me.
I was just somebody to get you through,

until you move onto the next dude. 

I just can't find any reason why,

I should give you anymore of my time
,
you’re draining the essence of my soul.

You may have been my perfect fantasy,

but now I see, that it was all just a dream.

Now it's never gonna happen, 
no not with me.

Because I'm sick of you walking out on me,

leaving me to question everything I feel deep down inside,

and I'm so clueless as to why, 

you couldn't even give me an explanation.

Maybe I just had to much expectation, 

of trying to feel all of your sensations.

And my spirit just keeps dying,
every time you steal my breaths,

turn around and tell me to stop there.

I thought this was passion, not just lust.

Seems this whole time I thought this was love,

Oh wrong again, looks like you’re gonna reject me all over again.

And why should I be surprised?

I believed in every one of your lies.

And out of all the memories, 
you were the best of them.

There you go turning my life upside down again.

Seems nothing is making much sense, anymore.

Girl I know I'm done playing these games.

Should of seen it coming from the start,

should of known you would break my heart.

I should of known, you wouldn't play your part,

I should of known, that this would fall apart.

©2017 Written By Benji James
1.1k · Jun 2017
Losing You
Benji James Jun 2017
I'm making a killing  
These are some
******* true feeling's
Let the ******* haters hate
Look at the hatred I've made
Oh **** you deleted me
Shame you won't be able to read this
Guess I'll have to grab a mic
And scream this out loud,
Show you what you made me do now
Razor blade cuts aren't enough
How much longer till I O.D.
On all of these drugs
Think I've lost my mind?
Guess that's something
We will see in time

I bled for you
Ran a river of red for you
Screamed your name in pain
Cut incisions into my veins
I've cried for you, lied for you
The repayment you made
Was leaving me,

What is this hurt
Why all this confusion
Clouded judgement
Increased delusion
Shaking, trembling
Falling apart
Lost myself in you
Lose myself in art
Paint me black and blue
Because I beat myself up
For losing you

I hate when I see your face
It reminds me of your taste
It reminds of the kisses you gave
Yeah your lipstick stains
All over my face
And now all I have
is this sadness in me
And my anger boils deep inside of me
And way too many times I've lost control
Laying on the cold hard floor
Naked and chained
All these blood red stains  
Losing my way,
disconnected in my brain
From all the shame
Not strong enough
to take the blame

I bled for you
Ran a river of red for you
Screamed your name in pain
Cut incisions into my veins
I've cried for you, lied for you
The repayment you made
Was leaving me,

What is this hurt
Why all this confusion
Clouded judgement
Increased delusion
Shaking, trembling
Falling apart
Lost myself in you
Lose myself in art
Paint me black and blue
Because I beat myself up
For losing you

All this rage,
my body feels so strange
Must be all these pills I take
There is a light fading in this dark place
Scratches, bite marks, bruises
From the push and shove
Saliva sprays from your face
Screaming, yelling, so much hurt
From jagged edged words
Blades penetrate hoping to numb the pain
Pills just to calm you down
Before violence sets in
And all this sweat
is flooding out of my skin
Eyes dilate, increased heart rate
All these reasons
I'm losing my way
Fading away, my skies are grey
Is this the reason I've lost my place

I bled for you
Ran a river of red for you
Screamed your name in pain
Cut incisions into my veins
I've cried for you, lied for you
The repayment you made
Was leaving me,

What is this hurt
Why all this confusion
Clouded judgement
Increased delusion
Shaking, trembling
Falling apart
Lost myself in you
Lose myself in art
Paint me black and blue
Because I beat myself up
For losing you

The guilt kicks in
Tears run down these cheeks
Bedrooms dark,
thoughts become bleak
Haven't eaten for a week
All these feelings consuming me
Torture my heart, ripping it apart
All these drugs just aren't enough
To cleanse me of all my mistakes
Tried locking all the memories away
And nothing seems to be working for me
I'm pushing through each day
Looking for a reason to live
And everything I've tried to give
Hope has been stolen out of my pocket
I've been left an empty shell of nothing
Thought I was something
When I was with you
Truth is I'm nothing
unless I have you
To keep me grounded
You were the one
that reinvigorated my soul
You were the one that brought me up
When I was low
When you were around
I never felt alone
You were my safety, my home.

I bled for you
Ran a river of red for you
Screamed your name in pain
Cut incisions into my veins
I've cried for you, lied for you
The repayment you made
Was leaving me,

What is this hurt
Why all this confusion
Clouded judgement
Increased delusion
Shaking, trembling
Falling apart
Lost myself in you
Lose myself in art
Paint me black and blue
Because I beat myself up
For losing you

©2017 Written By Benji James
1.0k · Dec 2018
Steep
Benji James Dec 2018
Have you ever felt so sick
That there's a churning in your stomach
That you just can't shake
Have you ever felt so broken
That you just can't sleep
Lost in confusion to how life brought you here
Have you ever felt so low
That you didn't think there was anywhere else to go
Have you ever been so angry
You can't control your rage
Ripping every photo in you picture frames
(Yeah) have you ever wondered why it is your heart breaks

Are you good at getting stuck in situations
Feel as though you have lost all communication
And you can't seem to navigate your way out of this dark place
You landed yourself in
Shouldn't have given everything so soon
And maybe then you wouldn't have lost you

Signals beyond detection
Lost in my own space
No stars or light to guide your way
You just met the monster under your bed
Gave into the voices inside of your head
This is the moment everybody dreads
So is this my hell
This is where I've been sent
This is the fall
This is the steep descent

Told you I bleed for my heart
Can't you tell from the scars
Engraved into my skin
Maybe I'm addicted to the pain
Maybe it doesn't feel right when life kicks me back in the face
Maybe I just can't go a day without making a mistake
Maybe I'm a lost cause
Maybe I have no faith
Maybe I've fallen from grace
Maybe I'm a disgrace
Maybe there is no hope for the hopeless
But I still give hope to those
That hang off of every word that I write
And it's lines and times like this that keep me alive (Yeah)

Are you good at getting stuck in situations
Feel as though you have lost all communication
And you can't seem to navigate your way out of this dark place
You landed yourself in
Shouldn't have given everything so soon
And maybe then you wouldn't have lost you

Signals beyond detection
Lost in my own space
No stars or light to guide your way
You just met the monster under your bed
Gave into the voices inside of your head
This is the moment everybody dreads
So is this my hell
This is where I've been sent
This is the fall
This is the steep descent

Maybe I'm drowning in sorrows
Maybe you have some love I could borrow
Maybe you could get me back on my feet
Should never have worn this heart on my sleeve
Maybe I shared too much
Maybe my kindness
got the best of me
Maybe I gave to much trust
Maybe I just lost the one
Maybe the battle was lost
Before it was ever won (Yeah)

Are you good at getting stuck in situations
Feel as though you have lost all communication
And you can't seem to navigate your way out of this dark place
You landed yourself in
Shouldn't have given everything so soon
And maybe then you wouldn't have lost you

Signals beyond detection
Lost in my own space
No stars or light to guide your way
You just met the monster under your bed
Gave into the voices inside of your head
This is the moment everybody dreads
So is this my hell
This is where I've been sent
This is the fall
This is the steep descent

©2017 Written By Benji James
1.0k · Jan 2018
Silver Lining
Benji James Jan 2018
Here it comes, here it comes
my silver lining
watch the lightning striking
these waves come crashing down
The fallen and the fearless
are in the house
Oh, oh
here comes my silver lining.

Eyeliner and painted nails
mascara starts running
when you sweat it out
watch out now
here it comes
it's on the horizon
here comes the sun
and my silver lining

The moon is glistening
over the open ocean
nothing goes to plan
even when set in motion

Money Burns, life's a mess,
girls can play hard to get.
Love is tough, the road is rough
but we're taken on challenges
as they come
I'm coming up hard
I'm coming up fast
I gotta silver lining
within my grasp

Here it comes, here it comes
my silver lining
watch the lightning striking
these waves come crashing down
The fallen and the fearless
are in the house
Oh, oh
here comes my silver lining.

Eyeliner and painted nails
mascara starts running
when you sweat it out
watch out now
here it comes
it's on the horizon
here comes the sun
and my silver lining

©2018 Written By Benji James
Benji James Jan 2019
Hello, fellow Hello poetry poets.
I hope that you all had wonderful New Year celebrations,
and I just want to say Happy New Year to each and every one of you that decide to read this.
Hellopoetry has been a big part of my life through 2018 I didn't expect too much when I came here I was actually introduced to this site or platform through a friend of mine.
He told me about it so that I could put my lyrics out there and share them with people who would appreciate the works that I had created just as much as I do. And I will be forever grateful for that advise.
Because when I came here I found people with a pure passion for the art of poetry and writing.
Now on to you my fellow poets, I just want to say a huge thank you to anybody who took time out of there lives to comment, like, etc on any of my material, I do not take what anybody has to say for granted.
2018 has been a big year of growth for me
I've learned to fight for my beliefs
Push boundaries as far as I possibly can
And I have so much more room to grow and so much more boundaries to push through this new year in 2019
Seriously Hellopoetry, You guys have all been great and supportive
An extra special thanks to Sue, for your kind messages and support
And you also inspired me to write probably one of my favourite pieces I have ever written called "Challenge Accepted"
And a big highlight for me was also getting The daily.
That really was an honour.
Once again a big thank you to everyone
I'm looking forward to more mind-blowing pieces of art created by this community, may you all have a prosperous year full of growth, kindness and love and I look forward to sharing more lyrics/poetry or whatever this brain tends to conjure and share within the near future

Peace Out
Much Love
Benji.
1.0k · May 2017
Take My Hand
Benji James May 2017
She loves like she hasn't loved before
And it leaves you hanging wanting more
The serenity is intensely seen, in your eyes
As the moon revolves around the world
At the speed of light, while we take a
Trip through the starry skies
And our seas of love will rise
While something in our stomach ignites
A fire burning so bright so bright
You can feel it in the air,
Something that was never there
It's tumbling, crumbling away
The walls that you built to stay
Just fell now you float away

So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
Babe, you gotta know I would never hurt you
(I'll be there to catch you when you fall)
And you've never felt like this before
So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
You've made me a better man
So come on, And be my girlfriend
Baby just take me by the hand

You're the brightest of all the colours
The chemistry we are sending one another
Oh, baby, I'll be your shelter and protection
The hard times are gone, I'll wipe away those tears
You are cute as can be
And you've never taken the time to see
What is inside of you and me
Thousands of fireflies will light our skies
While I hold you in my warm embrace
And the butterflies will never cease to fade
Oh baby take a little time, We can make this right
Whatever it takes
Babe, tell me if you need a little space
Because there's no room for mistakes
When your so perfect, And that's not a hint
I just want life to be bliss
Together forever, Life won't be better
Without you, Without you

So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
Babe, you gotta know I would never hurt you
(I'll be there to catch you when you fall)
And you've never felt like this before
So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
You've made me a better man
So come on, And be my girlfriend
Baby just take me by the hand

And I say that you're amazing
In how you've created a sea of love
In which we can drown
Oh tell me where does the part end
and how, we're getting deeper than
I've ever been, and I think that you're showing
Me places I've never seen
And it's crazy, How much I couldn't see
That you were in love with me
Where, When did I go blind
I threw my heart out on the line for all this time
You were there, and I just didn't understand
How you pictured me as your boyfriend.
So let the sunshine through
It will guide me back to you
Every single time your my raise of light
So let the sunshine
With my rainbow in the sky
You're my rainbow in the sky

So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
Babe you gotta know I would never hurt you
(I'll be there to catch you when you fall)
And you've never felt like this before
So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
You've made me a better man
So come on, And be my princess
Baby just take me by the hand
You can trust in me.
So so take my hand
You gotta believe in me
Believe in me.

©2017 Written By Benji James
Benji James Jul 2017
Looks like a good day
To stay in bed
Alarms waking me up again
Feels like a good day
To stay in bed
Throw the phone across the room
That's when the home phone rings
*******, can't seem to catch a break
Guess things ain't gonna go my way

Trying to make the most of each moment,
Trying to stay positive and not lose hope
Kicked my toe, on the bed corner
**** hurts like hell
Bad luck streaks building up again
This has to change sometime soon
They say good things will come to you
The longer you wait,
the bigger the reward
Starting to think those people are all talk
Not sure where they picked up that thought

Looks like a good day
To stay in bed
Alarms waking me up again
Feels like a good day
To stay in bed
Throw the phone across the room
That's when the home phone rings
*******, can't seem to catch a break
Guess things ain't gonna go my way

Lost all sense of social skill
Can't chill, can't keep it real
Trying to find the light
Amongst all this dark
Trying to find something
To spark this broken heart
Nothing seems to go to plan
Keep trying to improve myself and
become a better man
Insecurities are getting the better of me again

Looks like a good day
To stay in bed
Alarms waking me up again
Feels like a good day
To stay in bed
Throw the phone across the room
That's when the home phone rings
*******, can't seem to catch a break
Guess things ain't gonna go my way

Feels like I'm wishing
On broken mirrors
Life really kicks you
When your down
Thought there wasn't anything lower than the ground
It seems I've found a deeper ditch
Sometimes life makes you its *****
And you get fed up with all this ****
And all you can think
Yeah all you wanna do
Is sleep the whole day through

Looks like a good day
To stay in bed
Alarms waking me up again
Feels like a good day
To stay in bed
Throw the phone across the room
That's when the home phone rings
*******, can't seem to catch a break
Guess things ain't gonna go my way

©2017 Written By Benji James
Benji James Aug 2018
Went through so much together
Until you hurt me so much
Had to leave you
Before there was nothing left of us
Day by day, things got worse
Friendzoned from mistakes I made
Not saying I didn't deserve it, still hurts
Can't say, you aren't always on my mind
Everything that could have been
Now a distant memory
Didn't want me in all the ways I wanted you
After everything I said
After all the assumptions that ****** with my head
Even after all of that, Even after hitting rock bottom
Still, want you, Still, need you
I was better when I was with you

Even after all the ways
you broke my heart
I'm still in love with you
You're everything I see
You're everything I dreamed
Even after all the ways
You shattered my soul
I'm still in love with you
And I hope you understand
I still want to be your man
I still want you to be my world
I still want you to be my girl

And maybe this all falls on deaf ears
And maybe you'll never read this
Put it in a letter, just so you know
All that you mean to me
Maybe one day, you will see
I was sincere in these words I wrote
Maybe one day, you will see
You should have been with me
There's nothing I wouldn't do for you
There's no distance that could stop me
From making it to you
Even if you're sent to heaven
I'll follow you there
Hell couldn't hold me back
If I was what you wanted
I'd be there
With you is where I want to be

Even after all the ways
you broke my heart
I'm still in love with you
You're everything I see
You're everything I dreamed
Even after all the ways
You shattered my soul
I'm still in love with you
And I hope you understand
I still want to be your man
I still want you to be my world
I still want you to be my girl

And I'll never live down
The hurt that I caused
And I was stupid
For letting go
Of the one girl, I truly loved
And they said to have faith in
“Gods plans”
But, I questioned his plans
With the way we ended
All I'm left with now is what “ifs”
and a longing for your touch and kiss
And I hunger for your graceful gaze
And the way you light up my face
I miss us and the way we talked
I miss everything we were
But most of all I miss you

Even after all the ways
you broke my heart
I'm still in love with you
You're everything I see
You're everything I dreamed
Even after all the ways
You shattered my soul
I'm still in love with you
And I hope you understand
I still want to be your man
I still want you to be my world
I still want you to be my girl

©2018 Written By Benji James
Not sure if I uploaded this one yet...
I couldn’t be bothered checking...haha
Either way...Here it is! :)
979 · May 2017
Crying Over You
Benji James May 2017
Once in a lifetime
You'll meet that one in a million
And you can't help but drown
In such divine beauty and grace
Lost for words
with every move that she makes
Feels like I was falling deeper
This girl she was a keeper
Never thought I'd ever mistreat her

Oh honey can't stop
Crying over you
Straight from my heart
I'm breaking in two
Still, can't bear that I lost you
And memories of you
Are playing on repeat
All these thoughts
I can hardly sleep
Oh honey
Still crying over you

Everything fell,
went stone cold sour
Go through this situation
In my head for hours upon hours
How did we grow so close
Just to be torn apart
Words I should have left unspoken
We're put out in the open
And that's when we slid
into a constant fight
I'll never forget that night
Because I was so wrong,
And you were so right.

Oh honey can't stop
Crying over you
Straight from my heart
I'm breaking in two
Still, can't bear that I lost you
And memories of you
Are playing on repeat
All these thoughts
I can hardly sleep
Oh honey
Still crying over you

And it's here and now
I realise just how
much I messed up
If I could do it all again
You know I would
Let my insecurities
Get the better of me
Resulting in the hurtful words
I put you through
And I'll never forgive myself
for the hurt
I've caused inside of you
So much heartache
In watching your heartbreak

Oh honey can't stop
Crying over you
Straight from my heart
I'm breaking in two
Still, can't bear that I lost you
And memories of you
Are playing on repeat
All these thoughts
I can hardly sleep
Oh honey
Still crying over you

©2017 Written By Benji James
955 · Jun 2017
Purify Me
Benji James Jun 2017
Oh bathing in the water
Cleansing my skin
Trying to wash away
All of my sins
Trying to bring
The best I have back out
Time to burn this heart to the core
I've got love want to release it all

Got a little feeling
Got a little spark
Yeah this fire
I want to light it up
Needed that feeling
To take hold
Needed this feeling
So I can bring it all

Purify me
Wash all this negativity
Away from me
I wanna feel that light
Shining brightly
Purify me
I wanna feel that
Warmth inside me
Purify me
Purify me

Time to shake
My world up
Time to change
This whole landscape
Positivity gotta let it
Shine in, shine so brightly
Come on these demons
They've taken enough from me
Time to believe
We can do better things
No more drowning
I need to breathe freely
From the mountain top
This time, I'll take the time
To enjoy the view
I'm changing me
Are you gonna change you, ooh

Got a little feeling
Got a little spark
Yeah this fire
I want to light it up
Needed that feeling
To take hold
Needed this feeling
So I can bring it all

Purify me
Wash all this negativity
Away from me
I wanna feel that light
Shining brightly
Purify me
I wanna feel that
Warmth inside me
Purify me
Purify me

Kicking these demons
Back to the kerb
Wash them away
back to the sea
I won't disappear
Got a smile on my face
Clearing up my soul
All this darkness inside
Can fill up with light
Let the sun shine
Heat this cold heart up
It's time to make a pact
Yeah time to restart

Got a little feeling
Got a little spark
Yeah this fire
I want to light it up
Needed that feeling
To take hold
Needed this feeling
So I can bring it all

Purify me
Wash all this negativity
Away from me
I wanna feel that light
Shining brightly
Purify me
I wanna feel that
Warmth inside me
Purify me
Purify me

Rewriting this story
From the start
It all begins here
Past memories
Only hanging on to the good
Letting go of the bad
Learnt from mistakes
That made me angry or sad
Time to let go, time to look forward
Leave all those mistakes
That I've made
Cleanse it away
Yeah cleanse it away

Got a little feeling
Got a little spark
Yeah this fire
I want to light it up
Needed that feeling
To take hold
Needed this feeling
So I can bring it all

Purify me
Wash all this negativity
Away from me
I wanna feel that light
Shining brightly
Purify me
I wanna feel that
Warmth inside me
Purify me
Purify me

©2017 Written By Benji James
945 · Sep 2018
I'm Not Sorry (My Side)
Benji James Sep 2018
Are you ready, keep it steady
I got a secret I want to share
Turn the radio up, turn the radio up
I heard a rumour
That is going around
It seems I've copped a lot of flack
For my last lyrical attack
The word is out
Now there's no going back
Watch the mirror as it cracks, oh

I'm not sorry
I'm not sorry
I'm allowed to tell
my side of the story
I'm not sorry
I'm not sorry

No more keeping it inside
No more running
Nowhere left to hide
This emotional ocean
Just exploded
And I'm the volcano
Overflowing

I don't need any safety net
Because I'm standing on the edge
I'll take all the hate
I'll take all the blame
I'll take all the shame
I'll even take the pain
Eh this is my form of communication
Was never any good
at the small talk situation
This here is my outlet
This is when I'm in my mindset

I'm not sorry
I'm not sorry
I'm allowed to tell
my side of the story
I'm not sorry
I'm not sorry

No more keeping it inside
No more running
Nowhere left to hide
This emotional ocean
Just exploded
And I'm the volcano
Overflowing

I'm not taking any prisoners
I said I'll be letting loose
So maybe just don't go
and give me an excuse
To put you in my lyrics too
Maybe I was just a little mad
But I still don't feel bad
I needed to get it out of my system
Before my emotions caved in
Yeah maybe it was a bit too much
Maybe I hit a little bit hard
In the words that I wrote
That's just the road I chose to go

I'm not sorry
I'm not sorry
I'm allowed to tell
my side of the story
I'm not sorry
I'm not sorry

No more keeping it inside
No more running
Nowhere left to hide
This emotional ocean
Just exploded
And I'm the volcano
Overflowing

©2018 Written By Benji James
929 · Jan 2019
All My Life
Benji James Jan 2019
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

Another sweet goodnight
Another sweet gesture
Always so kind
Always running through my mind
Sweet talks, Longs walks
Your hand in mine
Don't want to let go for a long time
Can we, can we
just breathe
Let me take a moment
Cuz I see, I see
Just how beautiful you are
And I know, I know
This love could take us so far
This love could take us so far

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

Can't help but look in your eyes
I feel a great feeling growing
And this deep conversation
Just keeps on flowing
So comfortable with you
With you, nothing I wouldn't do
All I need, is you and I
All I want, is you at my side
All I've got, is love for you
Crushing so long, on you
I couldn't tell ya
You leave me speechless
Too shy, to even comment
On all your perfect features
So I, guess that's why
I wrote it in a letter
Ever since then
This just keeps getting better

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

I've been looking for a line
That could describe
Exactly how I feel
This still feels surreal
And I'm trying so hard
Not to make mistakes
That'll push you away
So far, so good
Taking it slow
Making the most
Of every moment
Photographic memories
And I love how you keep telling me
Corny little lines,
Every single time
Igniting butterflies
Your voice, your laugh
Only makes me adore you more
I need this in my life
All of the time
Nobody makes me smile
The way you do
Nobody else compares with you

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

I think I'm in love
Just can't get enough
I think I'm in love
Looking for a sign
In the stars above
I'm in love
Can't get enough
In love
With you, it's you
I can't get enough
Of your love

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

©2019 Written By Benji James
925 · Jul 2019
Speechless (Reupload)
Benji James Jul 2019
Brick by brick
I'm building a new foundation
In weakness and strength
I hide in fear of some of God's creation
but there are just somethings
That need to be admired
The tree's, The rivers and open oceans
The mountains that stand tall over us
But most of all I admire you

I'm hanging on every word you say
(ooh) Speechless
Hopelessly lost within your words
(So) breathless
I can't even say a word
She's everything a man dreams of
Her voice is sweet, honest and true
Oh, girl, I'm amazed by you

Struck with a new sensation
Brick by brick
I'm completing a new foundation
I'm starting to learn
She can be my medication
She makes everything better
With her dedication
Her kiss, Kiss
Has got me (Blushing)
It starts my blood (rushing)
Her sweet, Sweet taste
Has created a new flavour
She's making me feel
A little bit braver
I can try, But I know I can't win
She already has my heart
Caught in a string

I'm hanging on every word you say
(ooh) Speechless
Hopelessly lost within your words
(So) breathless
I can't even say a word
She's everything a man dreams of
Her voice is sweet, honest and true
Oh, girl, I'm amazed by you

If I could give you the stars (I would)
It's heaven on earth
When I'm with you
I feel there's nothing that I can not do.
You're so amazing, girl.
I can feel my heart racing,
the fires of love are blazing
She's a princess
that leaves me speechless
Caught up
And hung up on you
I'm trapped, in a web,
I can't break loose

I'm hanging on every word you say
(ooh) Speechless
Hopelessly lost within your words
(So) breathless
I can't even say a word
She's everything a man dreams of
Her voice is sweet, honest and true
Oh, girl, I'm amazed by you

©2017 Written By Benji James
916 · Jun 2017
Another Night Alone
Benji James Jun 2017
Driving down the freeway
Looking at the stars
Wondering how far you are
I've been spending all of my time
Looking for a girl
Who'll fill in my life
And my heart it only beats for one
I'm still looking
still, can't find the one

I've been searching far and wide
Don't know where it is she hides
Not sure why this flame keeps dying
I set my heart alight
Why does the fire keep fading

I don't want to spend
Another night alone
I can't hold myself together
On my own
I need a girl
Who can hold me tight
I need a girl
Who can light up my skies
No, I don't want to spend
Another night alone
Won't hold myself together
On my own

Cruising through the street
Looking for a sign
Looking for a sign
Of a girl who will just be mine
And I keep walking up mountains
Looking at the views
Hoping soon that I'll find you
And I've been going to all of these places
Hoping soon a girl will fill these spaces

I've been searching far and wide
Don't know where it is she hides
Not sure why this flame keeps dying
I set my heart alight
Why does the fire keep fading

I don't want to spend
Another night alone
I can't hold myself together
On my own
I need a girl
Who can hold me tight
I need a girl
Who can light up my skies
No, I don't want to spend
Another night alone
Won't hold myself together
On my own

Laying in my bed
It's pitch black
Have we ever even met
I'm thinking of places
Where I might find you
Maybe I should just stop searching
Maybe this is fruitless
Maybe everybody thinks I'm just stupid
All I know is I can't find Cupid
And my heart is slowing to a calm pace
That's when I drift off to sleep

I've been searching far and wide
Don't know where it is she hides
Not sure why this flame keeps dying
I set my heart alight
Why does the fire keep fading

I don't want to spend
Another night alone
I can't hold myself together
On my own
I need a girl
Who can hold me tight
I need a girl
Who can light up my skies
No, I don't want to spend
Another night alone
Won't hold myself together
On my own

Tell me am I dreaming
I can hear a voice
Off in the distance
Sounds so sweet
That's when I turn around
And I see you
I think I'm melting
You said I can love you
My heart starts racing
She goes in for the kiss
That's when I wake up
And now my head won't stop thinking
Who was the girl in my dream?
Who was that girl I've just seen?

I've been searching far and wide
Don't know where it is she hides
Not sure why this flame keeps dying
I set my heart alight
Why does the fire keep fading

I don't want to spend
Another night alone
I can't hold myself together
On my own
I need a girl
Who can hold me tight
I need a girl
Who can light up my skies
No, I don't want to spend
Another night alone
Won't hold myself together
On my own

©2017 Written By Benji James
844 · Mar 2018
For Me, Myself and I
Benji James Mar 2018
Hey, hey, been racking my brain
Thinking of something to say
about my confusing sexuality
Sorry for leaving you guessing
because not figuring it out
gets kind of depressing
Am I right, or am I right
Not sure I can't decide
Don't think I'm Bi
All of this thinking
Is hurting my head
So let me put it this way instead...

Doesn't matter if I'm straight or gay
Don't get laid anyway
Every time I try, get the evil eye
Looks like another night
For Me, myself and I
It's alright girl, always get the same reply
Thanks for giving me a little of your time
To ask the question, if you're interested in some sexin'
Thanks for a little of your attention
Thanks for your rejection
It's just another night
For me, myself and I

And my Pornhub search is very extensive
Lucky I'm not a subscriber,
that would probably be expensive
Premium's what you need, Nah not me
I like it like I like my women, free.
And this attitudes why you aren't getting any
Sorry just a guy with a little decency
Can you hear me on my ***** frequency
And imagery plays in sequence
And ****** thoughts become more frequent
I'm a bad, bad, bad boy
And lately, all these ****** references are flying out my mouth
Better get the soap and wash it out

Doesn't matter if I'm straight or gay
Don't get laid anyway
Every time I try, get the evil eye
Looks like another night
For Me, myself and I
It's alright girl, always get the same reply
Thanks for giving me a little of your time
To ask the question, if you're interested in some sexin'
Thanks for a little of your attention
Thanks for your rejection
It's just another night
For me, myself and I

All these ****** jokes
Got my colleagues rolling there eyes
Just kidding, they're laughing on the floor
With this little creeper
It's all right girl, I won't hassle ya
So you can hustle my heart
break it, so I can turn it into art
Think I just set a new bar
A new record has been set
Not sure, I'll ever top it
Just like I can't get on top of anyone
That's why I'm left singing
Not pretty enough
And if you got that reference
I salute you
Don't laugh, because it's true

Doesn't matter if I'm straight or gay
Don't get laid anyway
Every time I try, get the evil eye
Looks like another night
For Me, myself and I
It's alright girl, always get the same reply
Thanks for giving me a little of your time
To ask the question, if you're interested in some sexin'
Thanks for a little of your attention
Thanks for your rejection
It's just another night
For me, myself and I
Benji James Jun 2017
Look who is going around
Trying to capture my attention now
Mean to tell me you still ain't figured this out?
better tell you my side of the story now
Just so everyone can see how
You went and lost me the way you did
The reason I've been ignoring all this ****
Oh, you remember what you said?
Can you feel it's presence in your head?
You said you'd moved on (So long, So long)
And you blamed me for all the things that went wrong,
In your last relationship, Yeah you did
I was part of the reason you broke up with him,
That is what you said, So I did the logical thing
I went my separate way
And now your acting like the victim, ouch.
Seems this situation is spiralling out of my control
but there is more left to be told

Does it hurt?
Does it hurt?
That I don't need you now
Does it hurt?
Does it hurt?
That I don't need you now

Yeah maybe it's a little tragic
But even best friends say goodbye
You went and betrayed my trust
I was left to pick up the dust
And maybe it's a little tragic
But even best friends say goodbye

Yeah you showed your brand new friend
Every **** message I ever sent
Why not just stab me in the back
Best friends don't act like that
I took the blame
And I took the fall
I stuck up for you on the freaking phone
I told your ex and that *****,
to leave you the **** alone,
I stood up for you
And when you couldn't see us getting together,
You moved on, Yes you left
So I went my own road
Paved my way
to a new life and place I made
with my new friend's I have made
I feel completely safe

Does it hurt?
Does it hurt?
That I don't need you now
Does it hurt?
Does it hurt?
That I don't need you now

Yeah maybe it's a little tragic
But even best friends say goodbye
You went and betrayed my trust
I was left to pick up the dust
And maybe it's a little tragic
But even best friends say goodbye

You went and found somebody else
It's time to let go of the past
We both walked separate paths
He needs your all, And I don't
I've got everybody that I need
I didn't like you like that, I never did
I knew we weren't meant to be
It's time to get this out in the open
Yeah clear the air
Breathe in deep
It's time to move on (Really move on)
You said you moved on
So just move on (So long, So long)

Yeah maybe this is tragic
But even best friends say goodbye
You went and betrayed my trust
But I'll cherish the memories in my heart
I was left to pick up the dust
So I did, you left me standing here
So I walked the other way
Yeah this sounds tragic
Sometimes even best friends say goodbye
Even best friends have to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
(Goodbye, goodbye)

©2017 Written By Benji James
806 · Jun 2017
Monster
Benji James Jun 2017
There's a storm raging
Inside of my stomach
The weight in my mind
Is getting too heavy to hold
I can't seem to focus enough
There are voices in my head
Scheming, Planning where this should end
The life I live has turned upside down
And nobody's around to pull me out
Nobody's around to save me from myself
Oh dear god I don't want your help

In your eyes
I can see how much you couldn't careless
In your eyes
Your Independence shines again
Tell me what do you see in mine?
Can you see all the tears I've cried?
Tell me what do you see in my eyes
Can you see the pain that burns deep inside
In your eyes
I can see the water washing away your soul
Tell me what do you see in mine?

How's it make you feel?
To know your the one
Who brought out the monster in me
What's your explanation?
For bringing forward all these demons
How's it make you feel
To know your the one
Who has brought me to this
Oh, baby, I'm a monster
Lurking in the darkness of the night
Oh, baby, I'm a monster
Watch your step before my teeth sink in
You are the one who conjured all of it.

Can you feel the hurt
Taking control of your body
When you know you lose
The one who means the most to you
And somethings missing
In the darkness of the night
Oh dear lord where is my light
Something doesn't feel right
Something in your stomach turns
The memories you left yearn
And you thought you could learn
From all the mistakes you made
But it was worth every risk you'd take
Because it was her who made you smile
It was her who made you laugh
She was the one who saw you cry
And I wasn't man enough to admit you were right
I wasn't man enough to see that you saw inside of me
Why'd we go and say goodbye
Why'd we go and burn the photographs
Now my mind knows things won't go back to the way they were
But there was nobody else I loved more than her

In your eyes
I can see how much you couldn't careless
In your eyes
Your Independence shines again
Tell me what do you see in mine?
Can you see all the tears I've cried?
Tell me what do you see in my eyes
Can you see the pain that burns deep inside
In your eyes
I can see the water washing away your soul
Tell me what do you see in mine?

How's it make you feel?
To know your the one
Who brought out the monster in me
What's your explanation?
For bringing forward all these demons
How's it make you feel
To know your the one
Who has brought me to this
Oh, baby, I'm a monster
Lurking in the darkness of the night
Oh, baby, I'm a monster
Watch your step before my teeth sink in
You are the one who conjured all of it.

I'm the creation of your own making
What goes wrong falls onto you shoulders
But it's not just you who's to blame
I'm the stupid one for falling for your game
And if you thought this was ugly
You haven't experienced the worst
It's coming swiftly and quick
There's nothing stopping this
Like a wave crashing upon the beach
There is no stopping this
He's gonna lose himself in the darkness of the night
There are no stars lighting up his skies
Just a sensation of revenge burning inside
There's no soul left to save
But I can see into your eyes
What do you see in mine?

In your eyes
I can see how much you couldn't careless
In your eyes
Your Independence shines again
Tell me what do you see in mine?
Can you see all the tears I've cried?
Tell me what do you see in my eyes
Can you see the pain that burns deep inside
In your eyes
I can see the water washing away your soul
Tell me what do you see in mine?

How's it make you feel?
To know your the one
Who brought out the monster in me
What's your explanation?
For bringing forward all these demons
Hows it make you feel
To know your the one
Who has brought me to this
Oh, baby, I'm a monster
Lurking in the darkness of the night
Oh, baby, I'm a monster
Watch your step before my teeth sink in
You are the one who conjured all of it.

©2017 Written By Benji James
799 · May 2017
Lay Me Down To Rest At Ease
Benji James May 2017
You wouldn't know,
what it feels like,
Tearing apart your heart,
You haven't seen the darkness
my future hides.
You haven't seen,
passed all the lies,
I have a much darker side.

You look into my eyes,

trying to figure out what pain, 

lays tormenting me inside
.
You're still blind,

to the things, I have done.

They don't see the tears,

behind the laughter
,
the hurt I feel it's like no other,

It can't be fixed, by another.

All the secrets of my past,

just another memory 
in the shattered glass.

They don't see the reflection, 

That I've seen, 
I despise every part of me. 

It's hard to see
, maybe hard to believe
.
Right now I just want to feel numb,

Don't want to taste any more blood.

No more hurt, I've had enough.

Don't give me love. 

Just lay me down to rest in peace,

that is all I need,

I've seen all I need to see,

I've been all I need to be,

I'm ready now take me, please.

Let me lay down to rest at ease.

©2017 Written By Benji James
795 · Oct 2017
Animal Reaction
Benji James Oct 2017
Your magnetic attraction
Gives me that animal reaction
Your such a distraction
I want that infectious affection
All of her love and attention.

©2017 Written By Benji James
791 · Aug 2018
A message from me to you 2
Benji James Aug 2018
Hello, Hellopoetry...
It's been a while
Since I posted last
Don't worry
I haven't been sitting on my '***'
I've just been busy pouring 'Love'
and 'Light' back into my 'Life'
I've been doing things I dream about
Beneath these stars,
Hope glistens in the distance.
I may not have had much time
To write new lines
This is just to check in
So you know I'm alright.
I really miss you guys!
Your comments and love
Refuelled my fire
It made me determined
to aim 'Higher'
I've been doing things
I never thought I'd do.
And Hellopoetry it's all because of you...
This community binds
together through the darkest times
I urge you, Don't ever give up
on whatever it is you love.
For if you give up, you'll find
In the back of your mind
A regret that never fades.
With a little nudge and push
I found some new motivation
To retry and build a new creation.
770 · Jul 2018
Brother
Benji James Jul 2018
Hey bro, I got your back
Through thick and thin
Won't let any harm come to him
No matter what weapons they bring
The hate can never break the bond we have
We got a connection nobody else has
Same blood flows through our veins
Same creative forces in our brains
Never give up
Strive to be your best
You have a talent you're willing to share
You've got a knack for showing you care
Even with this sibling rivalry
Nothing can change the knowledge I've gained
From watching you grow into who you are today
And we may pick fights,
It's just brotherhood gets a little rough sometimes
But I know you will achieve great things
And I can't wait to see you living your dreams
All this faith in you I have
You've inspired me to be better
I need to set examples for my younger Brother
Need to get out and try and reach these dreams
Show him if you work hard enough for it
You can make it anywhere you want
Dedication can take you beyond the stars
A little blood, sweat and tears, can take you so far
No matter where it is we are
You’ll be always shining from afar
No matter what happens I got your back
Just hope you always remember that.

©2018 Written By Benji James
So I recently uploaded a brand new video to my youtube channel featuring my little brother doing a voiceover in the clip, if you want to...feel free to check it out. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4g8C-dPp4jM
You can also follow me on social media if you so desire.

Social Media: BenjiJamesTV
768 · May 2017
Love
Benji James May 2017
Living in a time
where nothing feels quite right
Why does it feel like
All eyes are on you
I’m just trying to live
and express the best way that I can do
people criticise every opinion you display
but I guess that is okay
that is the sacrifice we have to make
with freedom of speech anyway

I don’t want to become
numb to the fact
that people are turning their back
on love, on love
In a world rooted in hate
some of us are just looking
for a better way

Everywhere I seem to look
Everything I seem to hear
is spoken in words out of fear
From the left to the right
Nothing ever seems to reach compromise
Am I looking from the inside out
Does this world seem to be
tipping upside down
Because I can’t figure this out
Looking at reflections
In deep thoughts now
Don’t know how this will turn out
Got grave fears for this earth now

I don’t want to become
numb to the fact
that people are turning their back
on love, on love
In a world rooted in hate
some of us are just looking
for a better way

There is a tension growing in the air
I can feel those icy cold stares
Trying to focus on thoughts inside
Emotions exploding through my mind
Happy, scared, confused, rage
change in an instant at times
And I’m still thinking what can I do
Change is something that I want to
Some people just say things
without thinking it through
and the implications of the harm
That it can cause
People scream and shout with force
Just hope that your argument
comes from a reliable source

I don’t want to become
numb to the fact
that people are turning their back
on love, on love
In a world rooted in hate
some of us are just looking
for a better way

©2017 Written By Benji James
737 · May 2017
Star-Crossed Lovers
Benji James May 2017
I can feel the ****** tension
I've always said leave
an everlasting first impression
She said I'm taking a step in the right direction
We have such a magnetic connection
You're like my chocolate selection
When you're with me it's perfection
Can you feel the sugar rush darling?
We go together like
lightning and thunder
I love the enchantment we are under

You can smell her perfume scent
in the air
I can taste the salt in her skin  
Feel the passion in her kiss
You're sweet like honey baby
When she puts her hand in mine
It's like will be together
till the end of time

We are star-crossed lovers
In the heat of the night
Encrypted in the stars
In the dark of the night
We wish we may,
we wish with all our might
That we'll spend together forever
As angels in the sky

It's in every breath she makes
It's in every step she takes
That the love we share is made
It's in the way she looks at me
Her bright blue eyes
staring back it seems
Every moment we create
We are just getting deeper & deeper
I know she's a keeper
I trust and adore her
The butterflies grow larger
My heart rate gets faster and faster
The closer she is
The better it is
Because no other girl
Can make me feel like this.

You can smell her perfume scent
in the air
I can taste the salt in her skin  
Feel the passion in her kiss
You're sweet like honey baby
When she puts her hand in mine
It's like will be together
till the end of time

We are star-crossed lovers
In the heat of the night
Encrypted in the stars
In the dark of the night
We wish we may,
we wish with all our might
That we'll spend together forever
As angels in the sky

This is a story of love, passion and lust
You want more,
Can never get enough
She's my addiction, my drug
Eyes as bright as the bluest ocean
She's got my heart exploding
Totally devoted loves overflowing
Blushing cheeks are glowing
Feelings and connections are growing
see the public affection she's showing
I'm her Romeo and she's my Juliet
She's my one and only even in death

You can smell her perfume scent
in the air
I can taste the salt in her skin  
Feel the passion in her kiss
You're sweet like honey baby
When she puts her hand in mine
It's like will be together
till the end of time

We are star-crossed lovers
In the heat of the night
Encrypted in the stars
In the dark of the night
We wish we may,
we wish with all our might
That we'll spend together forever
As angels in the sky

©2017 Written By Benji James
715 · Jun 2017
At Least
Benji James Jun 2017
2017 and I'm still writing
2017 and still no one likes me
Let me take you back to 2011
Back to when lyrics were
Jumping out of me
Like visual scenes
Back when I was an emotional mess
Where every song ends
With me dead
Remember
The razor blade cuts
All of  them scars
All that blood
I called Art

I've been looking around
And nothing has changed
I'm still the mess that was made
I still crave that attention
I still end my nights in depression

I'm still looking for something
That can save my life
Keep failing at everything that I try
Sometimes it's an effort to even smile
At least I can admit it
At least I know I'm like this

Doctors keep prescribing me pills
With this, I can't even deal
Drug addict
I just won't be
They get poured down the drain
My soul is damaged
Beyond repair
In a pitch black room
You'll find me there

I've been looking around
And nothing has changed
I'm still the mess that was made
I still crave that attention
I still end my nights in depression

I'm still looking for something
That can save my life
Keep failing at everything that I try
Sometimes it's an effort to even smile
At least I can admit it
At least I know I'm like this

Happy go lucky
That's supposed to be me?
Guess you just don't really know me
And all the things
that run through my mind
Every single night
I'm lost in life
And I can't seem to find
A map that shows me the right direction
They said life's all about perception
And my perspective
Is that I'm just dead and floating

I've been looking around
And nothing has changed
I'm still the mess that was made
I still crave that attention
I still end my nights in depression

I'm still looking for something
That can save my life
Keep failing at everything that I try
Sometimes it's an effort to even smile
At least I can admit it
At least I know I'm like this

©2017 Written By Benji James
704 · Jul 2019
Perfect
Benji James Jul 2019
Hold onto this heart
And will never be apart
We’ll fight for our rights
Girl just hold on tight
Take my hand
Because our love can never end

Baby you mean everything to me
You could never be more perfect
This is what I want
You are what I need
You’re the one I want to be with
You’re my heart, My soul
I can never let you go

Girl, let me show you
Just how much I love you.
Girl, let me kiss you
Because I really miss you.
Girl, let me hold you
So I can never let you go.

Baby you mean everything to me
You could never be more perfect
This is what I want
You are what I need
You’re the one I want to be with
You’re my heart, My soul
I can never let you go

I’ll be there
To dry your eyes
To caress and hold you tight
There’s nothing we can’t do
When I’m so in love with you

Baby you mean everything to me
You could never be more perfect
This is what I want
You are what I need
You’re the one I want to be with
You’re my heart, My soul
I can never let you go

I’ll always be there
She knows how much I care
I’ve opened up and let her in
Because she’s my everything
When I look into her eyes
I see, just where I want to be
In this place, I want to stay
And embrace your beautiful face

Baby you mean everything to me
You could never be more perfect
This is what I want
You are what I need
You’re the one I want to be with
You’re my heart, My soul
I can never let you go

She’s got the touch of an angel
Girl your loving leaves me breathless
So enchanted, I am speechless
She can tell, all that’s she means to me
She is all I see
This girl is my world
And all I’ll ever need

Baby you mean everything to me
You could never be more perfect
This is what I want
You are what I need
You’re the one I want to be with
You’re my heart, My soul
I can never let you go

I love the feel of your soft skin
And the warm touch from your hands
I hope these moments never end
I could never fall as hard
As I have fell for you
No matter the odds
Stacked against us
I know will make it through
Because it’s our love
That binds me and you
You’ll always be the girl I choose
This I’ve promised you
And yeah girl, you know it’s true.

Baby you mean everything to me
You could never be more perfect
This is what I want
You are what I need
You’re the one I want to be with
You’re my heart, My soul
I can never let you go

©2019 Written By Benji James
704 · Apr 2018
Happier Now
Benji James Apr 2018
Did more than just flip the script
Threw it in the fire
Watched it burn
Told you I was down
To sing a brand new song
Hoped yall were willing to come along
All those dark thoughts
Watched them circle the drain
When I washed them away
And every inch of me has been cleaned
Prayers under starlit skies
Now I've pieced together this life
I'm ready to start again
Postive vibes, clearer mind
this life I'm living is finally mine

I'm happier now
dug out all the doubt
Feeling confident
in the decisions, I'm making
stopped all my body parts failing
My heart was shattered
and maybe it'll never truly be the same
But the blood is still pumping
Yeah it is still running
With a little care,
these emotions that were
locked here in my chest
Have been set free
And now that I can just be me
I know I'm right where I need to be
Living this life happily

Deserted wastelands
a mere memory for me
Try not to take too much time
Reminiscing of darker days
I find my self-basking in positive rays
The sunlight shines on my face
Feel the warmth in the form of a wave
The heat that hits my skin
Heats me up within
Where holes in my soul once laid
The stitched up scars now faded
I've been rejuvenated
The torment that taunted me inside
I've erased it
Memories cleared for new images
Now a rebooted system
Refreshed, I'm ready for new heights
I'm ready for new moments
To be captured through these eyes
Thinking all these positive thoughts
Now I can share all that I've been taught
All those battles I'd fought
now on display
In this museum filled with words
These are all the things I've learned
What it took to get here was earned
And well deserved

I'm happier now
dug out all the doubt
Feeling confident
in the decisions, I'm making
stopped all my body parts failing
My heart was shattered
and maybe it'll never truly be the same
But the blood is still pumping
Yeah it is still running
With a little care,
these emotions that were
locked here in my chest
Have been set free
And now that I can just be me
I know I'm right where  I need to be
Living this life happily

Cut everyone off
That was dragging me down
Less negativity in my life now
Sure it was a little lonely
But I found the ones that truly cared
And with a little help
They raised me up
To this place, this feels like home
Comfortable in this skin, I've been gifted
Only reminiscing about the times
That truly made me smile
Childhood friends,
Achievements that made me proud
And I've been writing better than ever
I can't be thrown from my throne
Got my rightful crown on
Armours strong, demons are gone.

I'm happier now
dug out all the doubt
Feeling confident
in the decisions, I'm making
stopped all my body parts failing
My heart was shattered
and maybe it'll never truly be the same
But the blood is still pumping
Yeah it is still running
With a little care,
these emotions that were
locked here in my chest
Have been set free
And now that I can just be me
I know I'm right where I need to be
Living this life happily

©2018 Written By Benji James
701 · Jan 23
Deeply
Benji James Jan 23
When you left me
You cut me deep
Shredded my heart
Into pieces
Really hit me hard
In my feelings
With that I wasn’t
So good at dealing
I was left in a mess
Found I had issues
I need to address
So that I can
Be a better man

Still think of you
Every night and every day
You gave me a wake up call
Had to lose it all, had to fall
It’s not so easy without you
I hope that you know
I still deeply love you

Even after the fights
And all the hurtful words
I still find myself
Missing you,
holding you deep inside my mind
Took you walking away
To realise i didn’t commit
In the ways that i should have

Still think of you
Every night and every day
You gave me a wake up call
Had to lose it all, had to fall
It’s not so easy without you
I hope that you know
I still deeply love you

Thoughts of you
Keep plaguing my head
And all the things
That could have been
All those place we wanted to see
All those things that can never be
All I can do is reminisce
And think about what might have been
If we had worked it out
We’re nothing more
than strangers now

Still think of you
Every night and every day
You gave me a wake up call
Had to lose it all, had to fall
It’s not so easy without you
I hope that you know
I still deeply love you

©2024 Written By Benji James
698 · Jan 2018
Expectations
Benji James Jan 2018
I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

Don't go dragging me down
Just cuz you've got no one
to push around
I ain't your little puppet
I ain't your man
You shouldn't go
******* with someone
You can't handle

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

Just stop, reminisce
I don't need you all up
in my face like this
excuse me miss
could you stop telling me
How I should live
Cuz I don't give a ****
you can **** on this...

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

Don't really care
About all these people
Heading my way
They may go acting
like there **** don't stink
But their nose is in their ***
Don't you think
What are yall saying
You don't know me
Wait...Have I told you my story?

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

©2018 Written By Benji James
691 · May 2017
Just Us Two
Benji James May 2017
Driving home
Song reminds me of you
Comes on
That's when I break down
Eyes will be red
From all the tears
I'm gonna cry now
Don't know how I fell this hard
For somebody, I never met
The only answer I can get is
I'm in love with the idea of you
I'm sorry for lashing out
Just wanted you to be all in
Didn't like the games
it felt like you were playing

They tried to tell me this was lust
But I know it never was
Wanted more than just *** from you
You gave me that rest of my life
Kind of vibe
And all I wanted to do
Was fall deeply in love with you
Could somehow picture just us two.

There seems to be
All these little things
That just remind me of you
And I'd give anything
Just to talk to you
You know I would
(You know I would)
Images flash in my head
Memories of you
Can't escape
This heartbreak
Can't find a way
To lose these feelings
You gave

They tried to tell me this was lust
But I know it never was
Wanted more than just *** from you
You gave me that rest of my life
Kind of vibe
And all I wanted to do
Was fall deeply in love with you
Could somehow picture just us two.

Feels like I've lost
A part of my soul
Feels like there's a massive hole
Inside of me
Where you used to be
I'm trying to fill it
With something else
Can't seem to find something
That makes me feel the same way
That I feel about you
Still crushed
Still, hurts with every heartbeat
Ode to her on repeat
Can't believe I lost it all
Just like that
It all ended
Just like that

They tried to tell me this was lust
But I know it never was
Wanted more than just *** from you
You gave me that rest of my life
Kind of vibe
And all I wanted to do
Was fall deeply in love with you
Could somehow picture just us two.

Still, love ya
Still, want ya
Want you to know
This heart is still yours
No matter what you think
What you thought
I was always gonna be yours
I may be, broken
Shattered at the core
But I'd go back through it all
for you
I'd do anything for you

They tried to tell me this was lust
But I know it never was
Wanted more than just *** from you
You gave me that rest of my life
Kind of vibe
And all I wanted to do
Was fall deeply in love with you
Could somehow picture just us two.

©2017 Written By Benji James
686 · Sep 2019
Star-Crossed Lovers
Benji James Sep 2019
I can feel the ****** tension
I've always said leave
an everlasting first impression
She said I'm taking a step in the right direction
We have such a magnetic connection
You're like my chocolate selection
When you're with me it's perfection
Can you feel the sugar rush darling?
We go together like
lightning and thunder
I love the enchantment we are both under

You can smell her perfume scent
in the air
I can taste the salt in her skin  
Feel the passion in her kiss
You're sweet like honey baby
When she puts her hand in mine
It's like will be together
till the end of time

We are star-crossed lovers
In the heat of the night
Encrypted in the stars
In the dark of the night
We wish we may,
we wish with all our might
That we'll spend together forever
As angels in the sky

It's in every breath she makes
It's in every step she takes
That the love we share is made
It's in the way she looks at me
Her bright blue eyes
staring back it seems
Every moment we create
We are just getting deeper & deeper
I know she's a keeper
I trust and adore her
The butterflies grow larger
My heart rate gets faster and faster
The closer she is
The better it is
Because no other girl
Can make me feel like this.

You can smell her perfume scent
in the air
I can taste the salt in her skin  
Feel the passion in her kiss
You're sweet like honey baby
When she puts her hand in mine
It's like will be together
till the end of time

We are star-crossed lovers
In the heat of the night
Encrypted in the stars
In the dark of the night
We wish we may,
we wish with all our might
That we'll spend together forever
As angels in the sky

This is a story of love, passion and lust
You want more,
Can never get enough
She's my addiction, my drug
Eyes as bright as the bluest ocean
She's got my heart exploding
Totally devoted loves overflowing
Blushing cheeks are glowing
Feelings and connections are growing
see the public affection she's showing
I'm her Romeo and she's my Juliet
She's my one and only even in death

You can smell her perfume scent
in the air
I can taste the salt in her skin  
Feel the passion in her kiss
You're sweet like honey baby
When she puts her hand in mine
It's like will be together
till the end of time

We are star-crossed lovers
In the heat of the night
Encrypted in the stars
In the dark of the night
We wish we may,
we wish with all our might
That we'll spend together forever
As angels in the sky

©2017 Written By Benji James
684 · Jun 2017
Originality Best Policy
Benji James Jun 2017
Have you ever tried to be someone else
Instead of being yourself
Because you felt as though
You'd make better impressions
And people you thought
that would never talk to you now will
Is this supposed to be how we feel
Instead of being original
Staying true to ourselves
We'd live a better life
In the mind of someone else
What about the fake,
if I don't act like me
is that something that can make a change
Is that something that will make
the people want to be friends with me

Yeah you say you don't want to be popular
Your happy being you
But why is it we always wonder
What it'd be like to be in another's shoes
They say you write your own stories
So why does it feel like it's written for me
You're born one day, the next
you're a slave trapped within life's cruel games,
you lose yourself more every day

Do you want to be a cover model
Do you want to be a star
Do you want to be a top businessman driving a fancy car
Do you wish to be a king or queen
Wish that you had money to buy everything you dreamed
Welcome to the madhouse
Where these thoughts drive you insane
Only the mentally strong survive
The rest are just runaway trains

I tried to be somebody else
Even creating a new name
Funny how the girl of my dreams
Now seems to talk to me
Not an image had she seen
But she told her whole life story
To me, well not quite me
But the character I envisioned
Somebody I brought to life
She entrusted secrets to a total stranger
Whom she had never met
So does that mean the closer
you are
That's when they shut you out
But feel comfortable with a total stranger

Yeah you say you don't want to be popular
Your happy being you
But why is it we always wonder
what it'd be like to be in another's shoes
They say you write your own stories
So why does it feel like it's written for me
You're born one day, the next
you're a slave trapped within life's cruel games,
you lose yourself more every day

Do you want to be a cover model
Do you want to be a star
Do you want to be a top businessman driving a fancy car
Do you wish to be a king or queen
Wish that you had money to buy everything you dreamed
Welcome to the madhouse
Where these thoughts drive you insane
Only the mentally strong survive
The rest are just runaway trains

Danger, danger,
you're not putting trust
in the ones you supposedly love
Who is willing to die and protect
You are letting out your inner most secrets
to people who'll take advantage
when you're at your lowest points
and it feels like there is no way out
Just cast yourself of doubt
Be happy with yourself
trust in the ones you love,
Try and see the beauty within yourself,
you're original and that's what's beautiful,
Be smart in your choices,
Don't be afraid to take risks
Just know sometimes there could be a consequence

Yeah you say you don't want to be popular
Your happy being you
But why is it we always wonder
what it'd be like to be in another's shoes
They say you write your own stories
So why does it feel like it's written for me
You're born one day, the next
you're a slave trapped within life's cruel games,
you lose yourself more every day

Do you want to be a cover model
Do you want to be a star
Do you want to be a top businessman driving a fancy car
Do you wish to be a king or queen
Wish that you had money to buy everything you dreamed
Welcome to the madhouse
Where these thoughts drive you insane
Only the mentally strong survive
The rest are just runaway trains

I'm learning to be happy in the choices that I make
I'm learning to think before I risk everything
But I'm not afraid to take chances
I'm learning to love myself
I'm trying to sustain my mental health
I'm starting to look after myself
I'm learning from the mistakes that I've been dealt
This is the story that I write
I'm choosing to be happy in my life
And this is where I am.

©2017 Written By Benji James
Benji James May 2017
Another mistake, I made you cry,
I can't believe I told a lie.
I told you I never cheated,
and to my luck, you believed it.
In the end, you found out,
But now I realise I ****** up.
Won't let this love go to waste
You could never be replaced.

Stay beautiful I need you,
Don't leave, I want to be with you.
Don't say no, I can never let this go.
Don't throw my heart away,
please don't leave me this way.
I will make it up to you,
I truly do love you.

Here comes an argument again,
and I can't pretend.
I know I have your heart to mend,
give me a second chance.
I promise I won't let it go to waste,
I will make it up to you,
and prove I truly love you too.

Stay beautiful I need you,
Don't leave, I want to be with you.
Don't say no, I can never let this go.
Don't throw my heart away,
please don't leave me this way.
I will make it up to you,
I truly do love you.

I know this is not easy,
just breathe in deeply, let it out.
I'll dry your eyes,
I'll hold you tight.
I will never leave you again,
because you are a true friend.

Stay beautiful I need you,
Don't leave, I want to be with you.
Don't say no, I can never let this go.
Don't throw my heart away,
please don't leave me this way.
I will make it up to you,
I truly do love you.

Love can be hard sometimes,
but never cease to reach for the skies.
You know you are my love, my life.
I will never let you down,
give me this one last chance.
You will never regret this move,
because I will always comfort you.
Trust me this one last time,
show me you can still be mine.

Stay beautiful I need you,
Don't leave, I want to be with you.
Don't say no, I can never let this go.
Don't throw my heart away,
please don't leave me this way.
I will make it up to you,
I truly do love you.

Stay beautiful.
(Don't let go.)
Don't leave.
(I need you now.)
This isn't the end.
(I know somehow.)
Just show me that you love me still.
(Because I know I always will.)
Love you.

©2017 Written By Benji James
673 · May 2017
Take A Chance
Benji James May 2017
Take a glance
Take a chance
Take a deep breath
Breathe in the fresh air
Cuz you know that I'll do
Anything for you
Run your toes through the sand
Feel the spark that we both share
Trust in every one of God's plans
Come girl take my hand
Let the sun soak into your skin
Cuz you know I'll do anything
And give everything for you
You know I will
I'd lay my life on the line
Let me be your guide
Let me heal the scars
You hold deep down inside
I'll hold you close in my arms
Just like the sky holds the stars
Girl, you are perfect
just the way you are

I won't let you break down
I won't let you fall
I'll be there every time you call
I won't let the storm
Come crashing through your walls
I'll be there through it all
Yeah you can own my heart
I won't give up
Cuz I'm addicted
to everything you are
Cuz you're my drug
I know that this is love

Everything you do
It's so **** cute
And everything you say
Makes me happy every day
You're so sweet when you blush
Oh I just can't get enough
Of your perfect face
The way that you taste
Every time our lips collide
You ignite the butterflies
Deep down inside
And I hope I do for you
You know it's true

I won't let you break down
I won't let you fall
I'll be there every time you call
I won't let the storm
Come crashing through your walls
I'll be there through it all
Yeah you can own my heart
I won't give up
Cuz I'm addicted
to everything you are
Cuz you're my drug
I know that this is love

Princess you know I'm here to protect,
I'm here to defend
Can you feel my heart
bleeding through my chest
I'll bleed for you; I'll bleed for this
Cuz you're everything I am
I won't leave you a mess
I'll do everything I can
I'll wipe the smudged mascara
From beneath your eyes
Every time you cry
I'll take your pain and make it mine
I'd write a million lines
Just to see you smile
I'll hold you tight
Let's light fireworks tonight
To brighten up your skies
I'll never lie, yeah girl it's true
I'd do all of this for you

I won't let you break down
I won't let you fall
I'll be there every time you call
I won't let the storm
Come crashing through your walls
I'll be there through it all
Yeah you can own my heart
I won't give up
Cuz I'm addicted
to everything you are
Cuz you're my drug
I know that this is love

Let the fire of desire
Light that sparkle in your eyes
I love your smile
When you say
would you stay a while
Your teeth are so white just like the stars
that shine so bright
You're my lover, and you are my life
I see you as my future wife
So put your faith and your trust
Into our love,
cuz you're the only one
I truly want
The one that I love
You take me to heaven and beyond

I won't let you break down
I won't let you fall
I'll be there every time you call
I won't let the storm
Come crashing through your walls
I'll be there through it all
Yeah you can own my heart
I won't give up
Cuz I'm addicted
to everything you are
Cuz you're my drug
I know that this is love

©2017 Written By Benji James
657 · Jul 2017
Stole My Heart
Benji James Jul 2017
Hello misses Aphrodite
Oh yeah,
That girl is a goddess to me
(To me)
That girl is a goddess to me
She comes to me in
flesh and blood
The most beautiful girl
to deceive this heart
Nothing ever comes for free
But this girl
Just stole my heart from me

Oh your beauty is undeniable
The way you touch me
Is indescribable
I think I'm in
For the ride of my life
The flame that burns deep
Inside grows brighter
Every time our lips collide

Hey there misses
super model
Think I've just been hit by
Cupids arrow
Make no mistake
I want you
I wanna take you higher
Then you've ever been
Just relax yourself
And let me in
Together let's take this
Opportunity to spread
Our angel wings

Oh your beauty is undeniable
The way you touch me
Is indescribable
I think I'm in
For the ride of my life
The flame that burns deep
Inside grow brighter
Every time our lips collide

The stars shine bright
In the evening sky
As our passion for each other
Fire ignites
And will blow this earth away
Just like dynamite
As soon as our chemical
Love sparks fly

Hello misses Aphrodite
Oh yeah,
That girl is a goddess to me
(To me)
That girl is a goddess to me
She comes to me in
flesh and blood
The most beautiful girl
to deceive this heart
Nothing ever comes for free
But this girl
Just stole my heart from me

©2017 Written By Benji James
647 · Apr 2018
Headline
Benji James Apr 2018
It seems I've been travelling around
Through the word of mouth
Look at the way they speculate
Whether I'm gay or straight
Some say that I am autistic
Used to be so optimistic
That we could unite and harmonise
But it seems we are too busy
Pointing out each other's flaws
And fighting needless wars

When did I become
The headline of everyone's day?
Why do I seem to be the topic
In the stories, they spread
It seems I'm the centre focus
Once again
I'm starting to question
Will this ever end?

What will they think of next?
What do I think of Bec and her new boyfriend?
It seems like everybody's
Watching every step I take
And hanging off of every word I say
And maybe I'm a little crazy
But could you really blame me?
They think I'm an attention seeker baby

When did I become
The headline of everyone's day?
Why do I seem to be the topic
In the stories, they spread
It seems I'm the centre focus
Once again
I'm starting to question
Will this ever end?

It seems to me
That I seem to be
The talk of the town
And all the rumours
Are circulating around
Everyone's questioning me
And my sexuality
Who I'm with, what I am
What I feel, what he writes,
Is it real?

When did I become
The headline of everyone's day?
Why do I seem to be the topic
In the stories, they spread
It seems I'm the centre focus
Once again
I'm starting to question
Will this ever end?

©2018 Written By Benji James
Benji James Jun 2017
Rainy nights, cloudy skies
Chasing me all through my life
This time I've just had enough
People always said when you get older
It'll get rough, But I didn't realise just how much
When childhood memories are all you've got
Every day your telling yourself you can't give up
You live each day the way you've been taught
And you placed your trust in the one you love
But no one is receiving your call
This time nobody's here to break your fall

It tears you apart
Every time you play this part
You'll never be a work of art
Nobody will ever see inside your heart
Oh sweetheart,
You'll never top this chart

Give me the morphine
So I can't feel a thing
Take some more sleeping pills
To get me through this
Just let me overdose
I've never been this close
Put me to sleep, Sleeping Beauty
I've taken my vows
It's time to make these lights go out

Lost within these dark nights
You used to be so starry-eyed
Now all you are is mystified
That everybody's gone and left you behind
At one stage you were cool
But now everybody's played you for the fool
Thought you were all in the game
But instead, you've lost your mind
For committing to this crime
Shouldn't have tried to steal her heart
Should have listened to yourself
From the start and just gave up.
Now look who's dealing with a broken heart

It tears you apart
Every time you play this part
You'll never be a work of art
Nobody will ever see inside your heart
Oh sweetheart,
You'll never top this chart

Give me the morphine
So I can't feel a thing
Take some more sleeping pills
To get me through this
Just let me overdose
I've never been this close
Put me to sleep, Sleeping Beauty
I've taken my vows
It's time to make these lights go out

You've been driven insane
From all the blood rushing to your brain
And you thought you could outrun this train
You've been hit by love
Cupid what have you done
I've been hoping, praying and wishing
That she was the one
I tried to follow the dove of love
It lead me somewhere
I never want to see again
It showed me a part of me
That I never want to feel baby

It tears you apart
Every time you play this part
You'll never be a work of art
Nobody will ever see inside your heart
Oh sweetheart,
You'll never top this chart

Give me the morphine
So I can't feel a thing
Take some more sleeping pills
To get me through this
Just let me overdose
I've never been this close
Put me to sleep, Sleeping Beauty
I've taken my vows
It's time to make these lights go out

©2017 Written By Benji James
620 · May 2017
The Girl Is Fire
Benji James May 2017
Rocking around the world
Looking for a girl
Who can fill the empty spot
Within my life
Looking for a girl
I can't seem to find
Still got time,
But I really need
Somebody who will give
All they've got to me
Someone, I can wake up with
Where can I find someone like this

I've been searching high
I've been searching low
Looking for a girl
I'd like to get to know
Inside out, upside down
Like the back of my hand
I think I've found one I can

The girl is fire
I'm heating up with lust
And I don't even care
If I get burnt
The girl is fire
She's the one
I've just gotta kiss
I have to taste those lips
I've gotta run my hands
Over that body
Hope you know
You're really doing it for me

If you wanna be with me
This is what I'm gonna need
Somebody who'll sing
there lungs out with me
You wanna ride front seat
Go on adventures with me
Yeah let's go travelling
Turn up the music
You can pick the soundtrack
Wind down the window
Your hair sways with the breeze
Oh lord you're the girl for me
Could you be that girl for me

I've been searching high
I've been searching low
Looking for a girl
I'd like to get to know
Inside out, upside down
Like the back of my hand
I think I've found one I can

The girl is fire
I'm heating up with lust
And I don't even care
If I get burnt
The girl is fire
She's the one
I've just gotta kiss
I have to taste those lips
I've gotta run my hands
Over that body
Hope you know
You're really doing it for me

I think I need a minute
Just let this sink in
Oh lord, I need to feel
Every inch of your skin
Hope you know
I think I'm about to lose control
I'm heating up for you
Hope you're feeling
What I'm feeling too
I really need your loving ooh

I've been searching high
I've been searching low
Looking for a girl
I'd like to get to know
Inside out, upside down
Like the back of my hand
I think I've found one I can

The girl is fire
I'm heating up with lust
And I don't even care
If I get burnt
The girl is fire
She's the one
I've just gotta kiss
I have to taste those lips
I've gotta run my hands
Over that body
Hope you know
You're really doing it for me

©2017 Written By Benji James
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