She said that she loved me but didn't mean it despite everything l did From age to age hoped to marry you but the evil that breathed under your pretty face ruined and broke me Only trusted you more than my own like maybe you fell down from the stars to shine the light to the dark You were the spirit of doom For you were my first and will always hold a place deep in my heart because l still love you.
Here I sit upon this cream white carpet Salt streams down my face like a river, gently trickling over my freckled cheeks Copper drips from my arm onto my hands, falling into the cracks of my palms My eyes are burning but my skin is cold My mind is racing but my heart is still My posture weakens but I don’t let my head fall Instead my gaze flickers to the ground The floor a jarring hue That lovely white carpet now streaked with crimson What a mess I’ve made...
Everything had crumbled into ruins When I lost everyone I once called mine It seemed I almost had no grip over life There was no drive, no hope to rise back and shine Not until I bowed my head down; In front of the almighty god, the divine And he blessed me with a basket full of hope Once shrouded in fog, my life is now full of alacrity and I cannot decline.
Dark is the hour Shattered windows Moonnight tears Covered up faces Fighting back frustration Track and trace Isn't an option It a command Like a government plan Crashing economic ground Family's left reeling without hope or reconnecting Children's education forgotten No plan To Reunite false hope Withers a storm of season cradled by the sea. Children drowning Life becomes hulunation Virus silences the nation. Lack of pity With little empathy. People loose heart Become drawn apart World leaves in fear Because of new episodes Mountains rages with burnt out favours News And Politics are ***** to the core It must take back control
Who knows what tomorrow will bring. But just now I won't give up hope . I hang on tight to God's promises with all my might . Fighting until the end . I will master a plan.
Blue eyes White lies Broken hearts And shattered parts Long nights Too many fights Life was good Until our mouths filled with blood A time never to be forgotten Even tho things got so rotten A love I’ll never forget Although I know you’re filled with so much regret To much pain Then we both got vein hurtful words Cut us down like swords Swords straight to our chests How can we fix this mess? No amount of sorry Could ever fix the worries A love so kind Made us both so blind I could never forget those times we shared Once you really cared A dedication of my life to you It left me so sad and blue Something so broken It needed the token Token to the bright Token for no more fight Energy severed Expectations lowered Now were both the ones hurt And left deep down in the dirt.
I have been conditioned by toxic people previously in my life, that I was not good enough because of my quiet nature, because I would rather keep to myself than be in the limelight, because I am introverted, because I am not like other girls who 'crave attention' - but rather the opposite.
They made me believe no one would ever like or even date me, that no one will ever love me because of my 'different and unusual personality'
They broke me, ruined me.
But they will never know, as they go on to live their lives and leave me in the mud - as I live on hating myself.
to those who have been in a very toxic friendship / environment that made you question your self worth.