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 Jan 2015 Emily Martin
KatieM
I want to say it.
I want you to know.
This…
this thing we have…
it's hard to deal with.
This…
this game we're playing.
Relationship chicken,
but kind of opposite,
is ridiculous.
It's opposite
because there's no relationship
to gamble,
except one that does not-
but could someday-
exist.
And this *****.
We're losing each other
but we're both scared.
Scared to care
for fear of getting hurt.
Again.
So we pretend
everything is fine,
nothing is awkward.
But in reality,
we're giving up.
Me on you,
You on me,
both on
us.
 Jan 2015 Emily Martin
Susan G
Everytime I kiss you I do it like it may be the last
Even though I am praying that it won't be
The only prayers god hears from me
Are when I am asking him for you
Dear God please let me have her
Dear God please make her mine
When I hold your hand I swear it is like
I am touching a star
7 billion people on this planet
and your eyes and smile are my favorite
I wish the hickeys I give you would be permanent
So that you'd be reminded of me whenever
You want to wear a v-neck shirt and can't


                              When I fell in love with you on the first day I saw you
                         It should have been the day I started planning my funeral
9/21/2014 9:39pm
 Jan 2015 Emily Martin
kendall
i miss you
i miss how you used to touch me so gently and it felt like a fire kissing my skin

i wish you would have stayed longer so i could map out your body
so you could map out mine
but i was the one who always said "wait just a little longer"
"not yet"

i knew if i gave myself away to you it would be harder when you left me
im glad i didnt
and yet i wish i had

because now i cant even touch myself knowing that youre not going to touch me again

i want you to leave hickeys all over me
i want to leave hickeys all over you and claw the **** out of your back when you give me a Love Injection
i want you to walk around and people see that Youre Mine

but you left me
you dont love me, not anymore
and yet i do still love you like Day 1
youve probably moved on since the month weve been apart
but i havent
i cant
because it feels like im betraying you
I have written three ******* books about you,
and all you ever gave me,
was a half finished song
and a broken heart.
 Jan 2015 Emily Martin
SJ Stine
Laying under the weight of a pile of comforters, quilts and blankets,
Trying to make up for the lacking heat,
I notice the empty space beside me.
I can't help but imagine you pressed to my back,
Guitar roughened fingers on my skin,
Stubble strewn face brushing against mine to whisper secrets.
Your warm scent and warm eyes draw me in.

Why did I not notice it till now?
Why did I chase after another with you standing there?
Why did I let her hang on you, try to charm you, when I knew it should be me?

With the new year comes new chances,
And I am headed your way.
 Jan 2015 Emily Martin
haley
My body
 Jan 2015 Emily Martin
haley
He pushes me away
But pulls me right back in when he wants something
He wants to see a little skin
I gave him what he wanted foolishly thinking the boy who wanted to see me naked also wanted me as a person
I play the game waiting for someone to win
We're just going in circles
He wants my body and I want to be loved
He wants to mess around and I want someone to stay in my life
We're like fire and gasoline
I let him go trying to end this silly game once and for all
But he slithers his way back in my life
And I let him stay
I know he will never love me
I can't make him love me
He only loves my body
 Jan 2015 Emily Martin
JGar
loneliness is
looking at the imprint your shape left on our bed
gripping your shirt in my clenched fists

you left more than that behind, but memories won't fit in the washing machine.
 Jan 2015 Emily Martin
haley
please don't change the subject
when  tell you something
i wouldn't tell anyone else
like:
i feel so alone
i can't find my meaning
i'm not really going anywhere
i'm lost
i'm scared
i'm so **** exhausted but i sleep just fine

you just tell me
"huh, that *****,"
or
"it could be worse. everyone feels like that,"
that doesn't make it any easier
i want to scream
you tell me to trust you
and get mad when i say i can't
but you make it so **** hard
when i can tell you don't care.

sometimes i still feel like i wont ever
be good enough
to be loved
or trusted
or even
important.
and i'm so scared.
it's days likes these
where the rain soaks my bones
wilting the flowers I use to line my soul
and I seem too busy
to care for those roses
but if I'm not willing to tend my own garden
why do I think another poor soul will be up for the challenge?

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