As the smoke clears
I am left with the perfect image
Of the destruction I caused.
Here the air is heavy,
The weight of my mistakes
occupies all of the space in my lungs.
And tonight,
As I stand alone,
The urge to etch my flaws
Into my skin
Overwhelms me.
It craves the kiss of cold metal.
I am fighting a never ending battle
And my body keeps the score.

My scars run deep.
Memories of pain etched
Where the metal kisses skin.
Even though the pain
Doesn’t seep,
The guilt flows heavy
With the red waves
And shame wraps it’s arms
Around me like a blanket
As I stand gripping the scissors
Willing the world to just
Stop

Roses are red, violets are blue,
They say it's addicting now I know that it's true  
But the roses are wilting the flowers are dead  
My hands are shaking and my hips are lined red

Etched into my headstone
please write
"eternally happy,
eternally free"

You will always be
My favorite form of self harm

I put my hand on my chest
Where my heart used to beat
The drum that it played
So soft and so sweet
Now it’s lefty empty
So hollow and cold
Just whispers of memories
Of the stories once told
The foundation is crumbling
The walls starting to crack
So I’ll just close my eyes
And let the world fade to black

This morning
I sat in the shower
Staring at the razor
On the edge of my tub
Wondering
If the water would turn cold
Before my body did

As I stand,
Staring out at the edge of forever,
Death approaches
Welcoming me home
With open arms
To a bed of eternal ease
And weightlessness.
All that’s left to do
Is let go

The water rushes over her feet
And carries her away
On this dark
And stormy day
And her friends
They scream and shout and cry
As she tells
The world goodbye

If the rain is falling
And you're stuck outside
Just know my arms will be a
Safe place to hide

The colors
dance in waves
across the darkening sky;
a beautiful calm before the storm.
The kind of calm
the world only experiences
in the early hours of the morning
when everyone is asleep
before the weight of everything
comes crashing down on it.

The world has gone dark
No light to be seen
The best moments of life
Fade fast from the screen
The pain isn’t real
It’s all in my head
My body is living
But I’m already dead

Please take a breath and hear my words
For they were meant for you,
On the cold and bitter days
That you don't think you can get through.
I want to remind you that this life
May be hard but you are strong,
And anyone who says otherwise
Is straight up wrong.
I want to remind you of the sun,
Its light will come again,
And no matter how dark it seems to get
The darkness always ends.
And I know it may seem impossible
Like it will forever go on
But I'm telling you the darkest hour
Is just before the dawn.
Sometimes we fall and need help up
Because we can't do it alone
And if this happens please ask for help
Because I promise you're not on your own.
You've still got mountains to climb
So many things to do and see,
And I promise you it's worth it in the end
I promise you you'll be happy.

I've never seen a soul
Shine as bright as yours
You could give the stars
A run for their money.

I may not be
The smartest girl,
I may not be the happiest.
I may not be the apple of
Everyone's eye.
I may be more broken
Than I am beautiful.
But I promise I
Am
Still worth
Loving.

Dear fierce,
and little warrior.
The battle you are fighting
will not be won overnight
and your sword is so heavy.
You deserve to put it down;
you deserve to rest.

One by one
the list gets longer.
Promises of continuity
turn into emotional tourism.
The word "goodbye"
has built a permanent home
behind my teeth.
But despite the familiarity,
I am still left with a bitter taste.
Alone, I choke on the silence
as I sit in the presence
you once filled
wondering what the hell
is so wrong with me
that no one ever stays

It is 6 AM
And the light of the morning
spilling through the cracks of the blinds
is a bittersweet reminder
that yet another day has passed
and I am still here.
I can't help but think
with each rising sun,
that maybe,
just maybe,
I will be okay.

You became
A distant memory,
Nothing left of you
But a story for the moon

Your presence calms
my restless soul.
As we sit on the couch,
my head on your chest,
I am lost in the waves
of your breathing
and the soft rhythm
of your heart beat.
It's here,
now,
just you and me,
everything is calm,
and time finally
stands still.

I don't think my lungs like the taste of air anymore.

I feel so broken
And alone.
My lungs are on fire,
The home you built inside my heart
Set ablaze
And my love for you crashes over me
Like waves.
Cold as they move through the space
In my chest that you once occupied.
And though strong and unforgiving,
Still unable to salvage the burning home.
And I am alone in the dark
Waiting for it
To consume me

Don't give up on her.
If you give up on her,
She will give up on her too.

He finds beauty
In all of the ugliest corners
Of my existence
And trails kisses on my scars
Sweetly,
Tenderly.
His lips plant flowers
In the cracks of my skin
Until nothing but beauty remains

Since you've been gone,
I have been slowly rebuilding myself.
A garden devastated by tornado
will soon grow the most beautiful flowers.

I’ve resorted to making wishes on dandelions
For miracles
I know
Will never come

You are my favorite chapter
in the story of my life.
Your page is dog eared
so once I reach the end,
I can come back to you.

She kisses her demons
More than she kisses
Actual boys.

The moon whispers stories of the stars
And I tell him tales of you,
The boy who stole my heart
And parted the clouds
To see the sun.

You peeled back
all of the layers of my existence
to reveal cracks
in my weathered being.
My soul eroded and destroyed
from the harshest of rains
and the most unforgiving storms

He was the kind of dream you fell into
And here I am
Wrestling many sleepless nights

Let **** go,
You can't see the world
If you're carrying it on your shoulders

Leave it to the mind
Of a flower
To deny the beauty of
It’s own petals
Even though
It shares the same soil
As all of the others

Tonight
I stood in front of the mirror
Bottle in hand
The world as blurry as my feelings.
Someone please help me

You,
My love,
Are a walking galaxy.
So full of beauty,
Mystery,
And passion.
You,
My love,
Are a walking miracle;
The entire cosmos in a single being.
You,
My love,
Have the universe in your eyes,
The stars in your soul,
And stardust in your bones.
You,
My love,
Are brilliant in every way.
Remember that the next time
Anyone makes you feel
Any less than what you are

One day
Driving in the car
Her hand in his
She started to cry
“What happened?” He asked.
With happinesses in her eyes
She smiled and said
“You did”

And it's okay, maybe we're both a little broken,
But that's okay,
Because it turns out our broken pieces
Fit together perfectly.

She covers her body in art
Hoping one day someone will look at her
And think her beautiful

It wasn’t until I met you
That I realized people
Are supposed to live
In your heart.
That’s why it has chambers.

I gave you
A piece of me
Under the impression
That you
Would put a piece of you
Back in its place.
But time and time again,
I am left wanting.
Empty
And alone
With nothing left
To give

You have the power
Of the stars,
Oh hell,
The whole **** universe
Raging inside of you.
And that is how I know
That you will be alright.

You say that you are insignificant.
When compared to the whole
Of the world,
And the universe.
You say you don't matter.
But darling,
To me, you are my world.
You are my universe.

Your words cut deep
like daggers as they leave your mouth
but all my brain hears is
he loves me,
he loves me,
he loves me

I love you,
Ask me to stay and I will.
Tell me you love me
And I will drop everything
And stay.

You are beautiful,
You are breathtaking
You are quirky,
You are funny,
You are unique,
You are awkward.
You are weird
You are loveable.
You are you,
And you is pretty
Damm spectacular.

Be careful
Some times it's hard to tell salt from sugar,
I have found,
People are like that too.

These feelings I have for you
Are too much for me.

Every time I opened a door
I pray that when I walk through
I’ll be transported to another universe
Where you’re at home waiting for me
On the other side

When the storms rage
Don't be afraid
for I will am here
Until the end of
Our days.