Maybe I expected too much,
A kiss with such passion it’d make me fall in love,
It would sweep me off my feet with its dialogue in tongue,
It would be every and anything I had thought it was.

It would be perfect.
Tilted head, parted lips,
Lusciousness and sweet glances,

A stroke to my cheek,
A gaze into my eyes,
Only to reach disappointment,
I slowly died inside.

I can touch you with words,
I can bring you to heights you’ve never been before,
I can caress your mind and envelop your spirit,
I can **** you so deeply into my expressions you have no choice but to taste them.
I can be your weakness and also your strength,
I can show you beauty in cloudy skies and sunsets,
I can empathize with you,
I can stand by when tears leave,
I can purify your soul and keep your mind at ease,
I can show you how to breathe –if you drown in me, I can be your release.
I can slow time and make you experience moments,
I can show you how metaphors will make you fall in love,
I can play with words until you feel their touch.
I can bring you happiness,
I can cause you pain,
I can show you passion until it drives you insane.
I can tell you secrets,
I can tell you lies,
I can show you heaven and hell through my lines.

Her eyes spoke to me;
The deadliest story,
A burden of trust in true loves mourning.
When two hearts meet,
A beating vessel will rhyme,
A chime for two at loves first time,
A pump that quickens,
A panic arise,
How cruel can Love be—when at first sight?

I once meant everything to you.
I was yours as much as you were mine.
No one could come between us.
No one to jeopardize what was fated to be.
—or so I thought.
It always begins perfectly.
—falling in love,
Becoming captivated in embraces, voices, hugs...
Then things turn awry.
Simple issues become large.
Positivity swings to negativity,
Love turns to hate.
Love making turns to meaningless *****.
Warm embraces run cold.
Bonds dwindle into oblivion.
No more cuddling.
No more touch.
No more feelings.
No more love.
Regretfully—No more us.

Unexpectedly,
You sweep me off my feet.
Like when tide meets shore—you complete me.

Without you lonesome walks spur need to reminisce.
As if the tumbling leaves bear a delectable breeze; a trace even—your incomparable scent.

Traveling miles with ease to be lost in my love for you.
No matter the roads ventured,
Promises shed to always find way back through.

Even whilst lost you are radiance—my lantern.
The end of my channel never has shown so bright.
Clearly, with you I see,
If being whole is one, you are the missing piece.

If I unlocked my pages,
Would you read me?

If I showed you my chapters,
Would you remember my details?

If I opened my heart to you,
Would you accept me?

If I let down my walls,
Would you care for me?

If you ripped one of my pages,
Would you mend me?

If you scratched my cover,
Would you heal me?

If you completed me,
Would you toss me out?

If I didn’t intrigue you enough,
Would I be forgotten about?

If I served my purpose,
Would I be kept near forever?

Or would I return to the shelf?
Collecting dust,
Never again to be cherished or touched.
Until the silk of my pages lose their beauty becoming foxed.
As if I were not recently in your arms.
Enjoying the warmth of fingertips slowly turning my leaves,
Adoring the tender gaze set upon me,
While nearing a closing inevitably,
Why should I break my seal for you?

One moment I want you
The next, unsure

One moment my hearts open
The next, a closed door

One moment feelings overwhelm me
The next, no more

One moment I feel safe
The next, scorned

One moment I dream
The next, reality hits

One moment I am decisive
The next, ambivalent

One moment I am ok
The next, I cycle again

One moment I know I want you
The next, I am unsure...

Will this perpetuation ever become anything more?

I was not always this way
Broken
I was happy once
Before they stole it
I did not always assume
They fashioned me this way.

These walls I have were not always here
They were created to protect me
Protect me from the wrong people
The ones with secreted intention

My generosity was once limitless
I would love without boundaries
I could trust
I was free
Most notably I was me

I was sweet
They made me bitter
I was once warm
They made me cold
I was loving once
They made me hate
I was once open
They made me shut myself away

I was Happy
Truly happy once
It all began to fade
Attempting to shelter myself from harm
I built these walls
No love allowed
They changed me
Picking up the pieces to loves bitter tragedies
I remain
Another shattered masterpiece

I wish you could see through me
So you know my intensions with you

I wish you could read my mind
The less I have to verbalize the less you question what is true

I wish you would let your guard down
Allow your heart to be free

I wish you would stop combating
What is undeniably meant to be

I wish the words I articulate
Could teach the morals I value

I wish you were open to understand
Not everyone is out to hurt you

I wish the past hadn’t happened
But if that were so, would you still be you?

I wish you could understand what true love is
Detach the vines you allow to trap you

I wish you could find yourself
Without losing parts of you

I wish I could tell you it is easy
Without having that be a lie to you

I wish my unsaid wishes would someday come true, but they won’t.
Decision set in stone, No one ever again shall become close to you.

Your perfect teeth and beautiful smile
Your freckles
Most of all
Your hugs
The feeling of melting in your arms
The smell of your curly hair
The warmth of your mulatto skin
The energy you would bring
The tighter the hold
The deeper I would sink

I Miss You :(

Is the view as gorgeous looking down as it is when I look up towards heaven?

R.I.P Beautiful

I miss you.
The sweet you
Caring you
Beautiful you
Gentle you
The kind you
Forgiving you
The you before you were broken
The you before you were stolen
Taken captive by those who are undeserving

I trusted too easily.
Will you please forgive me?
Can we start over?

I will spend an eternity picking up the pieces to make you once again whole.
I will be careful with you this time.
I will keep you protected.
I will keep a watchful eye.

My heart

Walls of steel will shield you.
I will barricade you by doors.
I will protect you with locks.
You will be secure.

You need not worry.
But you have to know when to let me go.
Release the mind-set of being numb
Trust me enough
To be careful with you
I will be attentive of who I give you to.

I will hold on to you
I know you are a little unsteady
But if you don’t release me
How will I ever find love?

I hate it
I hate liking people
I hate being vulnerable
I hate that I want you

I hate that you have power over me
That I don’t want you to
I hate how beautiful you are
I hate your perfect teeth and clumsiness scars
I hate your weirdness
And your awkwardness too

I hate your sarcasm
I hate your adorable laugh
I hate that your voice is cute

I hate how open I am with you
I hate that you are broken
I hate what you have been through
I hate that every piece of me wishes I could help you

I hate your accent
I hate your perfect hair
I hate your caramel skin tone
I hate your lips
I hate that I still want to kiss you

I hate that you are going to read this
Knowing I am speaking of you
No regrets for what I say
All it is is truth

Most of all,
I hate that I have to pretend
I hate that I have to conceal
I hate that I have to become nonchalant to the fact that I feel for you
So I will continue to hate all the things I like about you.

My eyes tell stories my mouth fails to speak
Words are a burden
When the causes leave streams of tears on me
It is all better left unsaid.

If I lower my lids will my secrets be safe?
Shut the windows to my soul
Keep them closed
And the awful memories be erased

Or will they come back to haunt me
Again another day?

When will I truly be happy?

The sweetest words escape a mouth full of lies
You think I am unaware
I see beyond the disguise
I know what love means
I know how love feels
I know the love we have
Just isn’t real

Stuck in the daydream
Of a hopeless romance
We started out perfectly
I thought it would last

The passion addicting
The *** –amazing
Your kisses breathtaking
But I was mistaken...
Your exterior perfection
The interior heartbreaking...

You are not who you say you are
My trust now abused
Drawing an ending sooner than we both knew

No more second
No more third
No more fourth and so on chance
My patience for you has now reached its max

I try to forgive
I try to forget
But you lie and you lie
Again and again
I believe you

The audacity you present
To look me in my eyes and say
I Love you
I Love...you
With a mouth full of lies

The facade of innocence long overdue
This deception now expected
Years you've perfected the craft
A true player’s form
Always sure to cover your tracts

But I was always two steps ahead of you
I had only turned a blind eye
Accepting less than deserved
Now I question why
I am finished now

No more second
No more third
No more fourth and so on Chance

Love does not lie
Love does not cheat
Love does not cause pain to extents I weep on my knees

But still I thought I loved you
I thought I needed you
I wanted you
But you are not the one for me
This love not pure
Tainted, young and naive

I too shall move on
I too shall love again
I too shall be happy and live with sustenance

Fall deeper in love than the earth’s core
Meet someone who digs deeply enough they find my broken soul
They will pick up the pieces to securely heal me
Then I will say honestly
To the love who is true
I Love you.
Sincerely
I. Love. You.

It was not my first intention
Courting, that is
Never my strongest of suits
Known to closest my true emotions
I let my colors speak for me

The crispness of my whites
Radiating pure innocence
The warmth and joy of my yellows
Welcoming
My orange hints
Full of desire and energy
The subtleness of my pinks
Portraying my delicacy and grace

Be around a bouquet of me
The sweetest thoughts of the most gentle sentiments
Will arise alone from my aroma

After having met my thorny stems
You are rewarded by my silky texture
My mesmerizing fragrance
The spectrum of my colors entice
I spread my own rainbow across the skies

I tease, I flirt
All to my liking
However seducing
Although said to be a natural
I prefer to be picked
Coat smooth as the most delicate of flowers
Queen of the Garden
Rosa is my name.

Different needs call for different hues
I am divine.
I am romantic.
The presence of me, pleasant
The perfume I emit, calming

Creative minds put me to good use
A trail lines the hall
Crimson flutters leave a path to your bedroom
Delicately placed aloft the best of Egyptian cotton
What better sight of affection to see?
The flush of color to my cheeks when we meet
The thumping of my hearts beat?
Rose petals on the sheets?
From sponge baths to massages
Chocolate dipped scarlet strawberries
Each affair we have is the most superb of quality

My red appearance not the deepest of color
But its beautiful elegance is the most sought after of shades
A symbol of deep burning undying passion
Signifying the most immortal dramatic love
The Red Rose is The Rose of all roses.
Rosa is my name.