Why do
                       you
                               love
                           other
              people
first
b
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yourself?

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I was in a crossroad for so long and that wasn't easy
But things come like the moon that lights a night's so blurry
If I didn't care enough, if this heart didn't think of you
I might not be here to listen, I might not see the view
If I just want to escape and avoid the coming storm
I might not share my coat to keep you safe and warm
If I just want to fly away and forget the nest we've built
I might not have concern inside, it's so easy to jilt
If I just want to see myself in mirror with this smile
I might had walked away, as far as thousand miles
If I am just a person with no heart to love and care
I might just turn my back, leaving you in despair
But see, I am here, never left you all alone
I made it sure you're strong enough to stand on your own
Didn't you feel the care from me I was showing after all?
Didn't you see I'm losing now my strength, now I am starting to fall?
I have collected all my strengths and used most just for you
The remaining flicker of hope, can you even give me, too?
Let me spread my wings, let me nurture, let me grow
Don't confine me in this cage where I won't shine and glow

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What I know about love is...

It is divine
It wasn't made by God to hurt
So if one is being hurt in a relationship
It's not love anyway
Sacrifice is different from masochism
Love is not abusive
Love always understands
While leads into the right track
Love is never selfish
It always think more of others' than oneself
And most of all
Love is faithful

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I miss my smiles
Somehow I just need
To accept my failure
So that I will learn
To smile again
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I thought it would come true
A fairy tale of us
Some wishes, some dreams for you
That pain would never last

You were my knight and angel
I was just a refugee
When the crazy thing came upon us
It's the only thing I can see

We danced and sang under the moonlight
I even slept on your arm
We played and ran along the shore
With you I felt no harm

The seashore used to be our playground
The waves became our guests
The wind and rain witnessed our vow
I thought t'was the end of our quest

Until this day that I wake up
I found myself on this shore
I've waited, my knight and angel
To be with you forevermore

But sad am I, I found out
It was just a fantasy
There beside me was an old book
Now the truth is in front of me

Was our love  just a fairy tale?
Is there no chance for you and I?
The kind of love I just imagined
I will keep in my heart 'til I die.

A bottle of sin
A glass of foolishness
A taste of revenge
A smell of hate

A time of madness
An awful night
An hour of ignorance
A fearful gate

A wasted chance
A pause in dream
A shaded mind
Here comes your fate

I wish there are no bad people who find joy in hurting others
And there will be no one using others just to get what they aspire
I wish hearts only feel how to love, to be happy, and to care
That no hurt and pain would be there to create a baneful fire


I wish I learn to be cold, and to be numb at times
That nothing can hurt my heart that is so vulnerable
I wish this letter could reach the heaven  so soon
For many thorns ***** my heart and the pain is unbearable.

I carry the cross going to this mountain
In search for peace, love and hope
I give everything
Even the clothes I wear
Yet
They want the air from my lungs
They want my limbs
They want my life


I carry this jar of tears all my life
For the hope that someday it will be filled with smiles
I bear the pain, all the miseries
Yet
Sunset extends it's view
I long for  the sunrise
I wait for a new day


One day, my time will end
But I am here again, wishing
That before I get there
I will soon see that smile

Sitting by the window of my lonely abode
Waiting for the end of this tiring year
Remembering those days how I submitted to the codes
Forgotten the strength in me, all I knew was fear

But when you came along, I have seen the light
There's goodness within me, I have learned to love
I collected my strength, I have learned to fight
And I saw you then as a gift from above

My angel and my savior, you made me hear and see
The sense of this life that once has no meaning
With you I found the heart that God created in me
I will never regret that I have this great feeling

There is a better world that waits ahead of us
There's rainbow on the far side that only us can see
There's a home just for two hearts, so free from any fuss
There's a future ahead, a life for you and me.

I will always be your baby
You will always be my honey
Our sweet hearts will always be connected
I will love you always
Forever,  my love

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Amaranthine grace
In this mystique place
I dance like a princess

Kissed by the rain
I stay sweet yet plain
Love is my cess

I bow and flow
You make me glow
I'll keep my word

I always bloom
With love, no gloom
Blessed by our Lord!

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Your words are more than gold
Your smile is greater than silver
You sent me a morning gift
I will always keep in my heart
It's your love that makes me alive
Your gift, your love--
My life

You came that night
when I was afraid of the dark
and the rain
but you let me see
the dark is just a blanket
that I will use at night
when I sleep
and the rain
is just like showers
petals coming from the clouds
gentle and kind
they will never hurt me

I know

Your wings are my protection
Since the day you step your foot
On the ground
for me

Your wings--
my shelter*.

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This is the day, the time to start your life
A happy one, away from all the strife
No more conflict or hatred as you go
That's life, be real, it might go high or low
~~
Start this day with change that you dream of
You can achieve the things that you don't have
When you start doing the things you never did
A change in life means a change in self's a need
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This is the day, another chance to see
How beautiful this life if we are free
Forget the sadness, we start to walk our way
Joy is a choice so choose to make your day!

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I thought the storm was over
And the sun now shines on me
Why the sky is dark again?
Still, I am not free

I beg You, I pray
Why I have this kind of heart?
It is easy to be broken
My life was torn apart

This pain, these tears
Won't they  just stay away?
I did my best to be humane
Do I deserve to be this way?

Another rainy days here
So heavy downpour I see
Not the rain that I've learned to love
I don't know how it came to me

I am so tired, I am so weak
I don't know if I can stand still
The last string of hope in me
Has weakened and took my will

My God, help me to understand
I still don't know how and why
My life, my heart's now broken
Oh, rainy days, this is my cry!

I was here on the seashore
Singing our songs for hours
When the tide is not yet reaching my toes
But now ripples are kissing my legs
But you are not still here
Not even your shadow

I am a bit feeling cold
And nothing is here to keep me warm
But a flicker of hope
That you will come
Before my last song ends*...

The rays of the sun was too much scorching
But I was standing here
On the other side of the road
Hoping that when the rain comes
You will offer me your hand
And we will dance together
With the sound of the raindrops falling
Just like before

Hours passed, then the day ended
Little drops are starting to fall
Not from the sky
But from my eyes

How many days and nights will I stand here
Before I can hold your hand again*?

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I was hiding alone in this room
The war has taken their hearts away
I heard the bombs, I thought it's their doom
When hatred made those ****** days

Victims of war carried the scars
As they escape from this dreadful place
Their words are kept in secret jars
With tears for hiding their voice and face

But today sounds like a different show
I hear no more bombs and cries
And when I look outside my window
They're coming back home with smiles

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How many times I have to cry
this ocean of tears from my eyes?
How many times I have to smile
just to hide these heartbreaking lies?

Oh, beautiful tears from my eyes
come on, roll down in quietude
Beautiful drops like crystal clear
keep my weeping in solitude

Will there be beauty in yelling
letting them know that I'm broken?
I  want to keep my misery
a thousand words be unspoken

Beautiful tears, come hide with me
just stay behind my loudest laugh
Just let them know my victory
A perfect beam in your behalf.

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