Sometimes a paper lies in front of you
And a pen sits still in your hand
But the only thing on the paper
Are wet drops of tears
Falling from the heart

A whisper in the wind
No ordinary voice could speak

Walking towards the unknown
Seeing nothing familiar
Then
Suddenly I see you
No,
I do not really know you
And no,
You do not really know me
But
You're presence is enough
I tap you
On the shoulder
You turn and smile
Im greeted by love
Even though you do not really know me
You love me
Our friendship is enough

Youre steady base,
Keeps my off beat rhythm
In tune.

my eyes glaze over
ice burns my soul
another countless night passes
out here on this road

Let my hands be the pages
That hold your unspoken words
Let my voice be the letters
That refills the pages once burned

I want to heal you
But I cannot feel your pain
Please open the door
Ive seen your eyes rain
You feel so hopeless
Yet a smile you feign
Crying cant help you
Let me be your drain
Call out for help
Before you walk down the wrong lane
I refuse to watch you
End your pain

Shes supposed to pick me up when I fall
Not put me there in the first place

The fragile spine breaks
As you read the words
Silenced by my pen

Blazing heart of gold
Can't puncture diamond
But the sunlight can see weakness

Only safe at night

Did I forget?
Did I let go?
Wasnt I there when you needed me most?
All those promises
Each and every one
I followed my heart and didn't run
Did you forget?
Did you let go?
You weren't there when I needed you most
All those promises
Each and every one
You followed what?
I saw you run

Sitting.
No one notices.
Standing.
No one cares.
One step back.
Two steps back.
A glance or two.
On the edge.
Sorries.
Two hands.
Desperate words.
One hand.
Crying.
Nothing.
Screams.
Not in her head, but in reality.

Reality is not Hiding

It is being hidden
By liars

It is being covered
By demons

It is being shielded from us
By cowards

It does not hide
It fights everyday to be seen

....like me

Romanticize
Fantasize
Glorifies
Horrifies
Reality
VS
Daydream

No one knows the real you
Because that person is forever in your head

Living life with no regrets,
Isnt about not regretting what you do
Its about striving not to do anything regretful

away from me,
like they always do.

Every step I make
I fly a little
Each breath I take
The wind blows away
My mind filled with ache
Catches up to my thoughts
For my own sake
Leave me alone for a while

Never being known
Is a feeling Im used to
So when love is shown
I try not to overdo

But she spreads it around
Like a whisper in the wind
That we have all found

Scribbles before bed
Is all she said
But there must be something more
Though what Im not sure

Everyone has secrets,
That I know
Me included
But mine dont show
All caught up in their "drama"
They dont notice my pain
That my biggest secret
Is when I feign
Not standing alone
Having friends
Being known
Please make amends

Its not going to **** you,
Just leave it alone.

Well, what did I expect?

Nothing is impossible
Except silencing the chaos inside my mind,
Apparently.

It’s like the only time I can see outside of this hole
Is when I’m trying to make sure others don’t see
That I’m digging it deeper
And
Deeper
And
Deeper
And falling
Further
And
Further
And
Further
Until I can’t get out

The words I could never say
Fall as silent tears now
By tomorrow theyll be forgotten
But I can only escape them for so long

I always hold on tight
But somehow
You manage to slip through
Like water down a cliff
Like sand through cracks
Like hope through my heart

A melody fills my head
So dark
Yet so sweet

It draws those near me closer
It pushes those far from me further

But it doesnt let them see
This mystical beauty
This enchanting sorceress
This magical creature

And it doesnt let me feel
Worthy
Trust
Love

So in the end who wins?

This melody that fills my head
Is dark
Yet sweet

But its taken over
Their mind
And soon
Mine too

I didnt know
How deep I was
Until you found
A piece of me
So lost
Even I didnt know
It existed

As we take our first breath
We are handed a tool
Given to us by the creator of the universe

It never leaves our hand
Although we cannot see it
Or feel it
We can sense it

Some are meant to change people
Into better or worse humans

Some are meant to carve the world
Into the place we love or hate

Some are meant to give us hope
Which without we would fall

Some are meant to teach us
What we would never know, other-wise

Some are meant to strengthen us
To become who we really are

Some are meant to save us
Before we disappear

And some are meant to destroy
The better humans we are
The world we love
The hope we stand upon
The knowledge we know
And the strength we lean on

Which tool is in your grasp?

There are some days
You should just be able to feel
It in the air
Today is one of them

If even the lonely among you have someone,
Then where do I stand?

Fly with her
As your eyes linger on her smile

It touches you deep
And you let it soar through you

Hold her at the breaking point
But she wont let you over

And your love will leave
An endless ray in her shine

I step towards the crowd
Surrounded by
High fives
and
Grinning faces
One stands out though
It is mine
Unlike the others
I do not make eye contact
I do not smile
I do not walk towards
I walk away
From pain
From heartbreak
From betrayal
Maybe one day
This road will lead me
Somewhere far far away
Where I am
Myself
And I can
Be okay with that

You think you know me
Take another look
The mask I wear
Is now falling free
I can still try and hide
But the truth will forever follow me
To my grave
And I hope
To yours too

The way your eyes light up
When you recall
The days of the past
Leave a growing ache in my soul
For those days are not only the time you long for
But also the time
I was not in your life
How can you tell me
You miss those days
But also tell me
You miss me

Hidden behind walls
Wearing a mask
Lurking in the shadows
Is
Me

I am her
That girl
Who has never has laughed
Who never lets the sparkles into her eyes
Who never takes a chance on anyone

But the truth is
I once did
But I was shut down
I was pushed away
I was closed out

And now I want to
Laugh, sparkle, and trust
But how can I
When I have forgotten the way
And there is no one to lead me

Slash.
Dodge,
Jab.
The chance.
It will only come once.
But you let it go.
Mistake?
Maybe.
The chance.
Only this time, not for you.
It will only come once.
But they don't let it go.
Mistake?
You decide.

The danger of
A voice
Soft as heaven
But a figure
Dark as hell

the day
we celebrate
how much a person has grown

the day
we come together with
those we have known

the day
we sing
till the candle is blown

the day
we know
we wont be alone

Broken?
Yes.
So she takes it to the fixer.
Broken?
Yes.
So he takes it to the fixer.
The Fixer doesn’t let anyone down.
It fixes the broken, and heals the breakable.
Broken?
Yes.
So it fixes and heals.
Because it is the Fixer.
No one can fix it or heal it.
Because no one knows the Fixer can be broken.

A reminder,
that even those of us who soar above the rest,
can sometimes fall to the ground,
in a drop of full of pain.

HEARTBREAK

BETRAYAL

PAIN

I see the warning everywhere
But I can ignore them, because,

To have my heart broken
Means for it to have been whole

To feel betrayed
Means to have trusted

To be buried in pain
Means to have been above it at one point

They can tell me what to do
But I will not move
They can tell me what say
But I will speak the truth
They can tell me what to think
But I will listen to my heart, head, and soul
Truth be told
You are nothing but an obstacle
One I shouldve moved past long ago

Finding this place
Helped me see
The world differently
Finding this place
Forced me to find
A hole in my heart and mind
Finding this place
Connected me with
All of you and your words
Finding this place
Let me know
I am not alone

I want to scream
At the little things
That stop me
From being near
Those that I love

Hurtling around in my mind
Knowledge I can only sense
Passing by in an instant of wisdom
Things that I will never really know
I know before I really understand
Or do I understand before I really know?

They say the fastest thing in the world is light
Then how come you are never in my sight?
I cant help but beg you to please slow down
But when I finish, youre already out of town
I cant even tell, as you slip right by
Thats how it'll be, 'till the day I die

You'll know its time to leave
If all the truths you are told
Are just twisted lies
Spoken by a masked figure
You once knew