Oh, how strongly I am missing Those simpler times when everybody would have listened Oh, how tired am I Of being ignored when the end is nigh Oh, how much did I pay For choosing chastity over Apollo's dark rays Oh, how much will I suffer From those evil hands that will treat me rougher Oh, how evil gods can be When mortals hurt their vanity Oh, oh, oh I wish I didn't know
Do you remember? When I was suffering You ignored me I'm still recovering You still expect me to be there when you need me Sorry, I'm not free You're in so much pain? Well I disagree You can't feel the pain I feel All that happiness you could steal Don't you remember? You have quite a temper Stop your whining My feelings declining I might have loved you once For that, I was a dunce Your feelings can go die for all I care And don't you start talking about being fair There's no return All my feelings burn ~18/5/21
Should I even try to speak When you don’t hear me My words don’t “benefit” you Like your friends do
I want to tell you I’m weak Like a plant in the storm that bends I can only bend so far under the pressures
But you would just blow it off Maybe you can’t take the stress of it all You don’t want to bear mine But I think of ur friends You listen to them… Maybe I'm forgetting the times you’ve listened to me rant Maybe I’m expecting too much from you
But it still hurts when you don’t even look my way… It’s never perfect But is it supposed to feel this lonely?
Maybe I’m not good enough I don’t deserve love I’ve made mistakes Piled higher than the mountains Would you forgive me if I let go? Because I can’t see the love...
The whispers in the wind are starting again. Every inch of me is covered in chills as my soul passes through my body. It desperately struggles to choose between many or none. Choosing many gives it the chance to be hurt more as there are more to be hurt by. Invisibility is a strong feeling which is greater among more. None can feel like an empty well that will soon be filled by the tears falling from my cheeks. Sometimes none is more but often it is not. Neglected by the souls of those who are too preoccupied by the slightest things, Failing to give one second of their time to the one that needs it. The one who needs to be embraced and feel the warmth of caring. The one that wants to feel the love from words spoken to them of any topic. The one who desperately wants to just be noticed for more than a mere second. The very one who wants to feel like they are enough.
Love was on the horizon Rose with the Sun rising She drove, he was driving Life was dancing in rhythm Her voice sounded music Elaborate breakfast and lunch Every moment was a fun The Sun was descending to the horizon Partying was coming to an end Now some moves were being calculated He was being ignored Things were turning boring The Sun drowned into the horizon She disappeared forever