I don't know where did I go wrong or lie why did you leave and what made you believe that I betrayed when it was my life I layed for your eyes to see that I'm not like any but you were like all promising timers while stopping our calls happily choosing a life without my dullness my brokenness my issues my doubts you did not trust me enough but you took me for someone who wasn't tough so I write this verse last blessing last curse 4 years of confusion and control calculatitive goals I tell you this I don't miss you or your bookshelf-self untitled ice-cube bonds or anything else our talks our walks our texts our interests my dull your bright your voice my fight my guilt my pride your scars you hide.
For some, the world is black, white, and gray. For some, the world may be gay. For some, it can be hard To find a reason to stay. For some, the world is big. For others, it's small. For some, the world has a billion people. And for others, there aren't many people at all. For some, faith and love for God Can get them through the darkest days Some have other ways to cope. Whatever world you live in, It's one and the same. Your world, my world, the world, They all exist on the same planet With the same name: Earth
Everyone is someone In some way, shape, or form. And everyone has been through hell Or survived a storm. Some made it out better than others. Some didn't make it out at all. Some were thanked for their bravery By immortalizing their names on walls But even if their names Aren't on display for the world to see, Everyone has someone live in their hearts. Even you and me.
Let's find some meaning. Exhaustion made me shallow. All I seek for is some true connection. Is that what you are? Or is all you've ever been just another ace. To keep me fighting. Another ace in front of my face. No longer will I cover up this truth reaching for anything. Let's find some meaning.
I know it was me, I became so tired while feeling like it would never be right. I gave it all and lost my own true feeling. Maybe it was all too much to bare so I stopped to care.
And now I only want to care, I want it to matter. If I have to live and I have to surrender. Let it at least have meaning. Not be nothing!
Let's find some meaning. A deeper connection. Not some stupid useless other kind of conversation. Is that what you are? Is all you've ever been just another ace. To keep me fighting. Another ace in front of my face. No! No longer will I cover up this truth reaching for anything. Let's find some meaning.
I know it can feel so lonely if you've been fighting a battle no one has seen. People talking like they have never been at any of all the places you have been. They may not be your deep connection or your soulmate family.
I only want to care, I want it to matter. If I have to live and I have to surrender. Let it at least have meaning. Not be nothing!
Let's find some meaning. Let's find some healing. Let me feel it even though I'm exhausted. Is that how you are? I have to be here so let my time not be wasted. Let's not keep on hiding. And not be aces in front of each other's faces. No longer covering up this truth reaching for just anything. Let's find some meaning.