This feeling of missing you isn’t helping me;
knowing that I can’t see your face even for just a little bit.

I want to be needed.
I want him to need me to be there for him.
I want to be someone he could depend on.
I’d like to feel like I have contributed somehow.
I want to mean something and everything,
but not nothing,
to him.
I like the feeling like I’m worth something.
I want to feel needed.

I need to believe that I’m worth it.

I'm only human
I might make the same mistakes
Nobody's perfect.

here you were,
                there you are

then you were near,
                now you are far

            nothing but a pretty scar

It's sad that the love we once shared is through.

The taste of your lips
Sweet, and intoxicating
Let me savor you

The way your tongue moves
brought me to another realm
of burning passion

Explosive pleasures,
Your body in sync with mine
Lost in satin sheets

The early sun dawns
a soft whisper in my ear
"Morning, beautiful."

For anything that's worth having;
One must pay the price.

From the time we met
I knew you were not trouble
You're the missing piece.

And I thought it was easier for me to move on
and forget everything about us.
Forget you, forget us.

Until I see you, again and again...
in my sleep.

My lips has tasted so many, trying to forget you.

The boy has gone deaf
'cause what she's been saying was,
"You never listen!"

The boy doesn't care anymore
'cause what she repeatedly told him was,
"You never bother!"

In loneliness and tears, she whispered,
"What have I done wrong?"

Reflect.

Knife to my neck,
He licked the tears off me.

"She's always smiling!"
they said. But they know nothing
behind those closed doors.

Do not hurt me so much, and then be nice to me.
Keep your words, don’t bother about me.
Don’t listen to me. Don’t ask me anything.
My heart is in ruins.
My mind is in a mess.
Just keep on walking, like how you’ve always been doing.
Don’t even, for a second, try to show concern towards me again.
I don’t need it anymore;
'Cause I didn’t get any when I expected it the most.
And if you think you can’t handle all these,
Back off.
Stay away from me.

Tell me that your love for me was a lie

Tell me that you see Her
every time you look into my eyes,
and you wish you could just turn away
'cause you loathe the sight of me

Tell me that your skin burns
each time I hold your hands,
or run my fingers across your face,
and you wish I would just stop touching you
'cause you despise these palms,
that go sweaty around you

Tell me that you had to picture Her in your vision
every time I pull you into an embrace,
and you wish that my waist was smaller,
just like Her perfect figure;
'cause these baby fats that I have,
disgust you even more
than my sweaty palms

Tell me that you suffocate
each time I kiss you,
and you wish you could just push me away,
or pull yourself away from me,
'cause you hate the aftertaste of me
lingering on your lips

Tell me that you have always been putting up an act
all these times while you're with me,
and you wish you could quit
and that I would finally come to realize
that you have never loved me once before,
that whatever you have been doing
was only out of pity,
'cause you couldn't bear to break my heart.

But honey, you did.

You said,
"Pain is only temporary."
But so were you.

I yearn for your unconditional love
but you ignored me;

Yet I found some love
in your ignorance.

..which makes me alive.

I notice everything,
All of them.
All of the details of you,
I love every single one of them.
I really want you.

I want to love all of you.
Your smile, your tears, your laughter,
Your flaws, your scars, your tempers;
And I still want you.

“When you share hidden parts of yourself
with someone else,” one said,
“You’re trusting that person to hold the
secret sections of your heart,
and to love the bits you thought
were unlovable.”

Everytime we meet and spend time together,
And you leave my company,
I want you to go away happy, with a smile on your face.

Everytime you talk about me or say my name to your family or friends,
And you leave their company,
I want you to go away happy, with a smile on your face.

Hence, each time we part ways, my dear,
Please go away happy,
With a smile on your face.

Yes, on that adorable face,
Go ahead and put on a smile on that face,
'Cause I'll know that I was the one who placed it there.

I waited for anything to happen.
Patiently.
But nothing did.

I am doing this with you. We are going through this together. Never feel like you’re all alone, ever. I got your back.

Why do you have to beg someone to stay?
You shouldn't.
Whoever wishes to stay, would stay;
whoever doesn't, would go away.

There is no need to beg.

They might be here today,
but eventually,
they will leave you someday.

Don't bother saving someone who doesn't want to be saved.

I took a bullet for you, but you're the one behind the gun.

Let me take you back
to the time we both first met,
Still fresh in my mind

Carefully planned out
My birthday celebration;
A lovely surprise

Taken to Wine U,
The Big Bosses' "Paradise";
That's where I found you

Little did I know
The place housed my Ma'am's secret;
Ulterior motive

Arrived at seven,
Hand-kissed by a neat waiter;
Not my cup of tea

Settled on Merlot
A Cabernet Sauvignon;
Heaven in a glass

Air filled with laughter,
Music and the smell of beer,
I still felt empty

Tipsy on red wine
Whispered the waiter, "Let's smoke!"
Sighing, I followed

That's when I saw You
The one engrossed in his phone,
I wondered, "Who's that?"

"Oh, this is our Chef!"
Introduced the waiter, who
Spoke highly of You

Small, little, quick chat
What You do, and where You're at
I ditched the waiter

The following week
I returned; for wine and You,
Excitement ruled me

This time, Jager bomb
was my partner for the night;
My sanctuary

Clock struck Eleven,
The corner of my eye caught
a familiar form

Too much sexiness
in a man dressed so simple,
You must be a dream

My heart pulsated,
butterflies in my stomach,
No words came to me

A polite offer
made by my Ma'am - "Join us, Dean!"
That wasn't my plan

You stood next to me
My heart was pounding madly
"Just one drink", You said

"Why don't You sit down?"
I eyed the stool beside me
"Nah, I love to stand."

Another round came
Still, You didn't budge from your spot
I knew You're staying

We chat, joked and laughed
Amidst others' loud chatters;
I was Your focus

Minutes went by, and
alas, we found comfort in
each other's presence

My mind went astray
in between sips and Your stare;
Pictured us kissing

What a great vision;
If it was only US there,
I'd have made my move

Clock struck Four-Thirty
I didn't want the night to end;
Yellow cab waiting

With a heavy heart,
I left the wonderful place;
I'll see you again

Blood of the innocents spilled, can’t we live in peace?

It’s sad that
I remembered everything you once told me;
You’ve been hurt,
been lied to, been cheated,
been abused and neglected.

It’s sad that
I remembered everything you once told me;
I came into your life,
made it better, made you happy,
made it meaningful, made you complete.

It’s sad that
I remembered everything you once told me;
You wouldn’t ever break my heart,
wouldn’t lie, wouldn’t cheat,
wouldn’t abuse me, wouldn’t leave.

It’s sad that
I held on to every word you once told me;

You left me in the end.
You left me in the end.

You say that I look at you like you're magic.
Perhaps, there is magic in you after all.
If you can cast a spell on a person's heart;
then you will be magic indeed.

- James M Vines