He is your knight in shining armor
With all his glamour and bright blue eyes
Offers his sword to protect you
With all his might

While I on the other hand
Carry sand in my worn out shoes
Whose armor wretched in scars from that day
You've cast me away

As a knight I have failed my duty
And you are a queen of wondrous beauty
Who deserves nothing but perfection
And I am no where near of similar complexion

I have never really been into poetry,
Nor have I been into theater.
I was never interested in animated films,
Or movies in general
And music was just a hobby for me

Then I met you...

And now it seems as if,
I have found myself remembering you, by just listening to music,
And spending many nights, sleepless and lorn.

I'm patiently waiting for the next blockbuster hit
To appear in cinemas, so that I may ask you
For a single day together, once again.

Now my ambition is to create a cartoon,
Similar to that of Ghibli's, because you had me by a thread,
On that day we watched Spirited together.

I became the stage manager of a production,
Worked hard so I could make you say
That you were proud of me, but more than that was
To simply make you something beautiful.

And now all I can do
Is write poetry,
Every time,
I think of you.

At first I thought it was nothing
For you to plant that small seedling
Not knowing what it was
Waiting for it to grow
I suddenly felt
This great urge to know

I picked up a rose and searched for you
Place after place, day after day
The rose starts to shrivel and wither

It seems like the seedling you've sowed
Has sprouted to something yet unknown
To my surprise you've planted a heart
But you never cared for it
You left it alone
As it also withered

It took me weeks to months
To simply contemplate
My words to sentences
So I can express
How much you mean to me

It took you a minute
To give me a bright white rose
Just to tell me
How you feel
And how to never be
Seen again

Not today,
Nor tomorrow,
Even the day after.
I long to know if what I feel
Is real.
To see if I could make it through
A month or two without seeing you.
But it's only been a day
And I'm already in pieces
Just wondering how your day went.

Where did you go,
Barefoot and mysterious.
The storm of fate
Has brought me to the heat of your arms.
Why don't you say
What you cannot admit.
Will you let the air just do away with it?
Do not be afraid;
These whispers of feelings.
I'm listening to you.

Here I am
Lying in bed

Still trying to see
if I can count to ten

One, two, three
Why do you do this to me

Four, five, six
You had my feelings mixed

Seven, eight, nine
Hope you can still be mine

Ten...
Wishing we still can

You took me by a glass
Filled it to the brim
Till one small slip
A single drop
And the rest will follow

How about we give it a shot
To try to change the scenes
Of all these heartache themes
All over this website's feed

We start this off
Sitting on the roof deck
Just staring into the bright red
Horizon's heavenly sunrise

A great breakfast buffet
Right beside an orchestral gig
Only just for us they sing
Our heart's connection

We continue the day flying
Soaring through the minutes
Hours and seconds not wasted
All because you're by my side...

**** I failed...

You come home late at night
After a tiring day;
Wash up, bathe and rinse.
Ate that left over dinner
Your mother prepared for you.
Go on your bed
Preparing to sleep.
Wanting to sleep.
Couldn't sleep.
She's keeping you awake isn't she?
Strolling through your thoughts;
Her laughter echoes and wavers.
Your thoughts are emptied,
Except for her.
Took a few shots of that old bottle of whiskey
You had stored for better days.
Hoping for her to disappear
From your thoughts;
As well as in reality.
It's 4am yet you're wide awake.
Emotions are still firing.
You feel heavy;
Wanting her,
Missing her.
You can't ever be with her...
5am drowsiness gets the upper hand
You fall asleep
Only to wake up the next morning
You see her again

It took me months to find the words
Months to cotemplate
And months to say
How much I loved you

I realized after a year
That those months
Never mattered
If until now

I am still in love with you

I want to correct what I did wrong.
Just give me this one chance,
A moment to tell you
What I really wanted to say.
To erase the error
That tore us apart.
Though I'm not completely sure
If this will restore what we were;
But I'm certain of one thing,
You will sleep one night
Knowing that I love you.

I too have feelings I cannot hide
Words that I must set aside and
Trust me when I say
We are all just children inside yet
Till now we still make mistakes
And often we cry when we're awake
By midnight you're fast asleep
Yet you're always in my dreams
That one day I would slip and fall
With your arms stretched out
Ready to catch the burdens
Deep in my chest because
Let's face it
You know me too well and
I know only little of you
I know you're blind on both eyes
And you'd choose water over wine
And half the time you'd drop by
To say hi
But you left your glasses
On my balcony last night
Your sight is 50/50 and I am miles away
We're only young once and
Mistakes are better done now than later
So set down your arms
And let me fall into an abyss
Because I know very well
You've fallen way too many times

I thought it was about to end
Just like a season that has passed by
Waiting for the perfect moment
Which I've lived countless times

I never hoped for a closing statement
Because I knew it was not existent
I hoped for it to just fade
Into a beautiful cascade

Then I saw you once again
Everything I've ever hoped for
Has gone and reset

I really wanted to forget
But I saw you
And remembered

Not a sight even the slightest
Of gaps between my messages
And tickets, boards and bonfires
Collected petals gilded flats
I remember nothing sort of shallow
Memories and stories have left me
Numb and here I have forgotten
How I cared carried and created
The feeling I used to cherish
Now lost and cold and by tomorrow
Still numb till dusk and ask
If loneliness was better
Than nothingness

It may not look like it -
Because I'm always by myself,
Reading a good book with a cup
Of coffee on the side, enjoying
Long walks on streets on windy days,
Just sitting on a park bench
Looking at families fly kites together;
And they know they'll never be alone,
- But I fear being alone.
Though it wasn't for long
And for all the wrong reasons,
You made me feel I was loved
You made me feel what it's like to love.
You're gone now and I'm not sad that you are
It was all thanks to you
That now I know
I can *
Be loved.

You start the day waking up in blight

Staring at the ceiling, neither nor bright

struggling yourself left and right

feeling down and never delight

You gaze at your left to a wonderful sight

A hand has reached out

Grabbing it without doubt

You’ve sat down with a straight spine

Everything seemed all fine

Pulling you to a bright light

A dazzle you’ve been waiting for a long time

A pious voice whispers “You are safe”

But many screams “Farewell”

A great epiphany hits

You’ve lost your tomorrow.

There's no doubt,
That one day you'll read my words;
And see each of my fabricated worlds.
Everything I've been wanting to show
Say, feel, and hold
To these months, years and days;
Even the hours, minutes and seconds
That I've been by your side.

One day, you asked me for a favor;
If I could help you prepare
To be the happiest person,
In his world

You left me skipping through my worlds;
Re-reading your words.
Saying,
"I love you"

I'm not sad that you're with him
Nor am I dismal that he's with you
I'm devastated at the reality
You'll never be mine.
And I'll never be yours,