By Arcassin Burnham


I'm washing my hands now...
I'm washing my hands of you,
The feeling of dread is tasteless,
But you have no intention to be rude,

~[ I'M TOUCHING YOUR FACE]~
~[JUST LOST IN THE WORLD]~
Thinking of a million ways,

of you just hurting me,
feeling so sparkly,
while your eyes are still blue

No control of what my mind is thinking,
From my feet to my eyebrows,
Washing bad memories away now,
You use to wanna make me proud,

~[I EXPLORED ALL YOUR FEELS]~
~[WON'T YOU GIVE ME YOUR LOVE]~
~[FRUIT WAS MEANT TO BE PEALED]~
~[AND I WANNA OPEN YOU UP IN YOUR LOVE]~

of you just hurting me.


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By Arcassin Burnham

Admitting all the wrong doing just to make it right with
the Lord And Savior for all of eternity just resting my
Sanity of being paranoid of short comings and demons
That out weight on my life and execute my thoughts of
Bringing what I owe to the man up stairs getting away
From the black tar that burns the souls of the people
From the inside out and claiming their life as their own.


/


It awakes,
Like the fear to ache,
Opening my heart up to a force that loves and accepts
Any of my mistakes for I am a simple human being,
There's nothing in between,
Be my giving tree,
I'll build a box for you with Roses and letters glued to it
Like a mural,
I bet you didn't know I was an artist that's exquisitely
Careful,
If the light,
Shines brightly,
Run to it ,
Don't you stop,
Then hold his hand tightly,
I got a proper dose of reality for ya, when I open up
My mouth it's like an lucidless coma,
When I tell you I have issues,
Don't expect you to understand,
As long as I see the angels I will be a better man,
Than,
The guy that left me and guy that was never there,
In here tonight call to the light and recite all my prayers.
Can't say she never cared,
My mom,
She'll always be there.

By Arcassin Burnham

Don't look,
Don't open my eyes,
inside,
I look within,
To realize,
What my whole deal is,
Lucid,
As it gets,
Take your pick,
Your the expert,
I got to leave all this behind,
Can't be like this my whole life,
Picking your poison,
And your ivy to,
Looking decent in your favorite jeans,
Worthy cannibal,
Yeah your pretty cute,
Pretty as in pretty , and as cute as the soul in you,
Look at whos...
Flirting with you,
So subliminal,

I-know-this-is-not-real,
Expl-aining-how-you-feel,
I­'ll-wake-up-any-minute,
Loo-sing-you is no big-deal,

Insomnia is coursing through my veins as we speak
In tongues and reminisce about the feeling of kissing
Your lips in my dream state,
Was so sweet like cheesecake,
With my knees straight,
Forward like I'm coming off as crucial to them,
My brain cells are dancing to all the track's of
Riddim,
She mind controlled me to make her lust when the
Lights were dim,
And all the other females are reality Sims.

I-know-this-is-not-real,
Expl-aining-how-you-feel,
I'll-wa­ke-up-any-minute,
Loo-sing-you is no big-deal.

/

I find peace and solace knowing that I show
forgiveness and all that comes to me,
Lacking a lot out of life still,
Walking through the streets with my head held high
with mental illnesses,
but still,
I'm a loser and I will always remain a loser but not in Gods eyes,
moving moutains with my words and Reminiscent dreams overcrowding,
i sleep still,
Even though insomnia has me in its clutches,
thinking that the devils gonna hold my body down for practice,
hes a coward still.

by Arcassin Burnham



I don't understand why a guy like me is rejected by you for a guy that thinks
hes like some sort of big shot while having friends and drive a car while I
have nothing at all...
I don't understand why girls don't like me , I'm the type of guy that'll marry
you from fields to scenery,
But you just want a cool edgy dude with an attitude and makes you miserable,
and doesn't really care for your feelings,

i'll give you the joy and the rain at the same time sending signals of everything
that your ex wasn't and you thought he was going to be your husband,
so blinded by the truth of someone that would be sensitive to your
every need,
i was always there , since high school and when we had little feet,
why lord?
why won't any girl love me,
i am just a pawn in the love game while having fantasies
of intimacy?
lord please tell me..
will i grow old and alone in a house and just wait for my death
to hurry up and find me?
and the long distance stuff is just boring...
would i look back on the times that i did that
and it could be reassuring?
and my exes ignore me...
i didn't really see a future with them anyways so it really
shouldn't bother me..
and that's why,
I don't understand why a guy like me is rejected by you for a guy that thinks
hes like some sort of big shot while having friends and drive a car while I
have nothing at all...
I don't understand why girls don't like me , I'm the type of guy that'll marry
you from fields to scenery,
But you just want a cool edgy dude with an attitude and makes you miserable,
and doesn't really care for your feelings.

By Arcassin Burnham


Country roads seemed more cleaner than the first time,
Looking back , how could we have lost so much of this time,
Mashing reality's guilt..
cloudy days with matching stilts..

Worth,
i know i'm worthless,
countless times i had to pick myself up from the times
you've promised me and let me down,
And I'm just like please , why did you leave,
you said you'd come back,
Again..
And this hatred lingers for as long as you live,
it'll never lack,
My friend..
There's nothing you could possibly say to gain my love,
you messed up,
this time..
I hope you know where you went wrong in the situation,
and get stuck,
in time..

You were a mistake in disguise picking at my soul,
thinking back , to the things you used to do and the things you told,
fake relations that we build,
if only time would just stay still,

Worth,
i know i'm worthless,
countless times i had to pick myself up from the times
you've promised me and let me down,
The kissing , hugging , touching , telling me you love me
was a lie miss backwoods..
And I'm just like please , why did you leave,
you said you'd come back,
Again..
And this hatred lingers for as long as you live,
it'll never lack,
My friend..
There's nothing you could possibly say to gain my love,
you messed up,
this time..
I hope you know where you went wrong in the situation,
and get stuck,
in time.

By Arcassin Burnham


Men being afraid of other men is a joke,
Pretend to have a hard exterior from ****
that they spoke,
You seem to act tougher than the man
you brought with ya' but when he leaves
all those you said will just up and choke,
Men ain't men no more, they just come with a gloat,
For me its not easy to be a black man and
be broke,
Can say it two times , can say it three times,
If I don't get it the first time, its not gon'
work,
Leave my emotions and my feelings and my anguish and my insecurities to put a
troubled man under the dirt,
Manhood comes first,
This is a curse,
Wicked worlds worth,
How many men does it take to lift the earth,

Not intimidated by no man.


/


Sparkles don't last as long than an life expectancy,
Lashing my threats to my enemies,
I am nothing but holy,
I know I could peel the corruption from my skin, my soul,
A morning like this could take me out
of feeling old,
A good solid feeling from the this I've told,
Some days I feel my words are not enough and so,
Reap what you sow,

And so will they also be sold.

By Arcassin Burnham

I've been all around,
Been all around *,
Been all around.
I've been all around,
Been all around ,
Been all around.
I've been all around,
Been all around ,
Been all around,
I've been all around,
Been all around ,
Been all around,

Good intentions will turn bad,
giving all the actions the praise.
scrawny man with a big heart will become something to hate,
wish I was an orphan in this cruel world to a family that's fair.
after all this world took from me,I hate to say that I cared.

Don't matter what you feel like , Hey,
Guns out da' car like , Hey,
Might be nervous at first,
But you'll get the hang of it, Hey,
Some robbers don't rob these days,
They have a purpose to take these bills,
Not living by the governments rules,
They really don't care how you feel,
They don't care what you feel like hey,
Mayday on the oxfrey , if this keeps going , this might be my
payday,
Cracked out hoodlums on the streets of gotham,
Red shinning mask with it,
Reflecting the chaos over the city while the waynes sitting
up there pretty.

I've been all around,
Been all around ,
Been all around.
I've been all around,
Been all around ,
Been all around.
I've been all around,
Been all around ,
Been all around,
I've been all around,
Been all around ,
Been all around*.

By Arcassin Burnham




Boy : Who am i to disagree,
when lonliness and heartbreak,
pushes over,
steady watching me,
looking at the odd,
i can tell shes pretty much done,
looking at the past,
Reminise about the fun,
now its a break up.

Girl : His love was like the sun,
and all its heat-waves,
knocked me off my feet indeed,
now i swimming in the shade,
love the fun times,
as if it was only yesterday,
flipped around a few dimes to make a payday,
im wishing i didnt have this bad day,
now its a break-up.

By Arcassin Burnham


Walking Through a lot of dead shadows,
Dirt covering the coffin leaves a dry rose,
We-don't-want-no-one-to-know-we,
Exist..

The troubles of the world creates a wormhole,
For the fears that you posses and brewed up on a clean stove,
Theres-no-need-to-worry-we'll-be,
Okay..

Might Have dealt with some issues in the pass,
Girlfriend left you for a guy that drives fast,
You-hope-they-just-both-end-up-in,
a crash..

But There is no need to be so hateful,
In a world of sin and people raised shameful,
Why-don't-you-just-be-your-own-man,
today..

By Arcassin Burnham


Wrong place,  wrong time, two nickels make a dime, but I just don't wanna fail.

Too many heartbreaks plus hardships,  set sail for through fiery hell.

Life is hard,  we all know,  the same scenario,
It's not hard than you portray.

Good things,  good days,  come and go,
Melting away.
Anyway.

Do you see the shame?  That you threw on me , laughing and scheming afflicting the
Meaning of pain,
No respect given in this life will leave you in suspense , making it harder to sustain.

By Arcassin Burnham


....So the next morning comes and he's slumped halfway off
The bed with drool spewing out from his mouth,
Must of had a good dream inside a kerosene filled with doubts
Thinking about his future spouse,
Gets up , does everything that he didn't think he would do
To get ready for school,
Saw his friend walking to the bus stop and decided to join him,
He said "Man those shoes are cool, are they new?" He bragged
"Yes my friend it's called shop lifting", looking in astonishment,
He said "are you telling the truth?" He sarcastically admitted, "haha
No I got them from a yard sale", he replied "you *******" and then they
Got on the bus, knowing that his friend on the bus , is really the only
Guy he could trust,
Which brings us,
To first period , fixing his hair in the bathroom and talking to
Himself in the mirror saying , "the day is only as bad as you make it",
Aligning his collar and pants to at least in the slightest look presentable
But his hands started to shake, oh what a day! You couldn't possibly
Say that if you've made it to the end he thought,
He walks out of the bathroom and into the hall looking into first
Period and then ducks so he wouldn't get caught,
Sitting by the door , he looks down and sees that one of his shoes isn't
Tied and then looks to his right only to see Felicia walking down the hall coming towards him, thinking to himself , what I am I gonna do
If she wonders how stupid I look sitting outside of this door I need help,
He stands up quick and she walks right in front of him as graceful as a
Million swans and a thousand beautiful smiles put together and says ,"Hey",
Brushing her hair passed her face shylike,
With sweat on his face he replies nervously , "ahh ...he...hey",
They stare at each other for like 4 minutes almost like syncing into each other's minds using eyes and raging emotions, she looks down and looks back up and says ,"so umm , you gonna let me through or should I be worried?" As
She giggled, he replies ,"no not at all ... I'm um ... Actually in this class too",
Blushing a little...........To Be Continued.

By Arcassin Burnham


Watching the flame burn out quicker than most of the times
When I've seen a lot,
Going back to the times in school when I was an outcast and
The feelings were shot,
I'll put myself on display for enemies and envyers just to see,
I have confidence in myself like all you should have in empathy,
Still searching for a way to get out of this place but its still a
problem now,
too much sweat on my face and brow kinda leaked from depression
and disarray,
distorted vision and constant pacing in a room with a broken face,
Looking to the past,
i'm so glad you should ask how i'm doing every time you gain popularity,
turn around and laugh,
when i would speak to you in a world full of starving kids that don't
do half the things you do,
ignoring is key but later on in life you're gonna need someone to
vent to when your days are through.

/

Sometimes we could all look for love in 72 places at once,
And all the others just wanna criticize and bring you down,
instead of being positive they're blunt,
But they just need a little leg room , a leg room,
to get out this stress they afflict on you,
its hard to be positive i understand too,
by all these little reckless things that we do,
we need a little leg room , leg room;
decisions don't come easy when we choose,
Be around people that'll understand you,
by all the lovely things that you do,

Blinded by the light but it'll teach us,
taunted by the strong knowing that the're really just like us,
living all through the system with your bible in your hand,
but not knowing they're getting ready to judge us,
if this wasn't hard enough,
to gain what we earned in this stuff,
a society that's corrupt,
you would have thought that we were stuck,
you see depression is a given in this world , we can't adjust,
please trust,
and give your time to people that don't sell out or backstab,
we ain't a free people,
guess thats why we just need to laugh,
when was the last time you ever had fun with your dad,
and all the embarrassing things he does and had a great tact,
i don't know why i mentioned that,
But i just need a little leg room , a leg room,
but really this my gift to all of you.

By Arcassin Burnham


When the sun is off work and the moon takes shift and the
lights turn off , I'll b e missin' you,
As I lay in bed with the t.v. up loud while watching youtube,
I'll be missin' you,
Remaining thoughts run off at the top of my head but I'm slowly
calming down when I'm missin' you,
you give me lost thought highs, I ain't taking no drugs but I gotta
get you back cause I'm missin' you.

I know you wanna pick up the phone with shaky hands at a steady pace,
Sacrifices go out the window when i hold your face,
Cause now I'm contemplating love like I really didn't have a care in the world,
But if that were so you would have been erased,
Uncontrollable urges,
search for purpose just for loving,
Was it affordable to have a guy that you deserve or was it not in vain to sell
your heart in the first place,
I know a good guy would waste your time and all of your space,
bad boys come your way,
Your suddenly all nice, with me its all fake,
argued and yelled a lot,
but most arguments you just mistake,
I told you that I loved you everyday, It'll be forever,
Said **** it and left me with a four page letter.


When the sun is off work and the moon takes shift and the
lights turn off , I'll b e missin' you,
As I lay in bed with the t.v. up loud while watching youtube,
I'll be missin' you,
Remaining thoughts run off at the top of my head but I'm slowly
calming down when I'm missin' you,
you give me lost thought highs, I ain't taking no drugs but I gotta
get you back cause I'm missin' you.

/

Situations and complications are that easy to surpass if you and your
companion have a strong a mindset to recite over and over like they
were lines at a play,
bed you lay , you can't see another on nights that you sleep alone,
ain't a happy home,
stepped in terrordomes,
this is negativity but it has grown,
can't but help to feel a hate,
in knowing that this ain't the place,
the time even nor the space,
should have apologized to your face.

But I can see you fallin' , fallin',
In Love.
Nobody else above you , above,
except the one thats above.
But I could hear your voice and its killing me,
from inside.
I won't run from your lovin' , your lovin',
I can't hide.
But I can see you fallin' , fallin',
In Love.
Nobody else above you , above,
except the one thats above.
But I could hear your voice and its killing me,
from inside.
I won't run from your lovin' , your lovin',
I can't hide.
Can't hide.

By Arcassin Burnham

Lilac in the morning sun while the feelings were
Still there lingering questions through my
Cranium yet it fills a mental stadium full of
Bad brain cells of bad memories and bad
Frequencies,
That means that everything that I went through
Was all in my head,
The posture of a levelheaded troubled soul is often
Dead,
I don't negotiate with corrupted feds,
I'm just being honest,
There are quite a few regrets,
my feelings are like a bucket of glass barrettes that
Are being worn by the classiest females of our time
And our time is still hanging in the balance,

/

you better choose the right card,
but please don't put up your guard,
I'm the only one that knows who you are,
you've only gone so far,
You're so majestic in your ways of socializing
All of the beautiful attributes that come with
Bliss in your heart,
And if I'm hanging with the wrong crowd lately,
I'm so sorry, we could talk about our feelings
To start.

By Arcassin Burnham


wanted to make it last forever with some girls,
wanted to put the ring on the finger of some girls,
wanted to be the one they could call on when they needed me,
wanted to the one that could make them happy,
with out any since of empathy,
but i was unnoticed.

By Arcassin Burnham


There's a spider on the wall,
Somebody **** it,
please don't **** it
I could be the motion in your sensor bleeding imagery into
Your head when you are dead and gone to a place when it
Could just be us two,
Like Where did we go wrong,
There's a mirror in the table
(a mirror in the table)
A mirror in the table for a luxury to be stable in the times
When we call it the end,
Thats what I see in this mirror,
No Need to pretend,
I see my reflection in the table of lies and false spells to
Do as it wishes while keeping the tears inside and the
Smell of baked cookies that will take you on a ride,
I just won't know what to decide,
But theres a mirror in the table...

By Arcassin Burnham


Morbid Souls that don't get by,
The days are short so dry your eyes,
We all got demons and they got demons too, don't just lay
Down and die,
Swinging side by side,
We stick on the ground until we fly,
Trials and tribulations you gotta go through just to be with
The most high,

It's been a while since you seen me...
drowning in sorrow like watching the world burn and all
the birds just fall...
I've lived through it all,
why didn't you save me,
you left on the first, flight back to your home town,
while I was at worst,
You know I have no more worth here....
No calls,no E-mail,how could you forget about me,
reminiscing or future before our memories,
I thought you cared about love,
oh look how selfish of me..
it's been a while.

By Arcassin Burnham


Something different about the sight of you while vasting into
my emotions fluttering with thoughts when i would
visit you when your dad was terribly sick and we would do
so many things in your room which was an eye-opening
experience for the both us with the touching and the kissing and
the love-making, thinking , contemplating about how
it would be to be as married as the good ones,
Have a daughter or a new son,
get away from this while we run,
hide your skin from the exes we possessed, we don't need a new one,
Find religion on the country roads,
They use to ignore me , its getting old,
If we fail , then we're failing together in this cruel world that is so cold,
Get A Jacket,
fully loaded with a passion,
to find a love in your life,
from certain things , call it actin',
i feel so close to you,
like everyday when we talk,
i feel so close to you,
like everyday when we talk,

baby,baby,baby,
Trust me to give you everything..
baby,baby,baby,
you don't have to really say a thing..

baby,baby,baby,
i'll be better than he was..
baby,baby,baby,
i just need to know if you'd trust.

By Arcassin Burnham


When it falls,
And it'll fall,
There's no way out.

Put up a fight,
And when it's time,
You will find out.

Cause when earth grows cold and the
people get weary and the bliss of an
Ignorant boy gets ready,
As the world in diversity, we know to love
another and the vultures fly over us,
They're plotting undercover,

With one mistake,
We cause a rift,
While in this time...

Put down your guards,
Let go of egos,
Silence your hate.

Especially those guns,
All this war,
It's all the same.

Cause when earth grows cold and the
people get weary and the bliss of an
Ignorant boy gets ready,
As the world in diversity, we know to love
another and the vultures fly over us,
They're plotting undercover,

Times are hard,
But in this case,
You will be fine...

By Arcassin B


i thought you were the one,
but instead you were a freight,
i was buried from the sun,
hiding everyday and every night,
but you and your voicemails,
are really annoying,
you use to paint your nails,
with vanity and suffering,
like jellybeans and m & m's,
they really just dont mix,
its like every direct hit,
is an every direct miss,
you keep calling,
i hate it,
you keep calling,
i hate it,
to the core,
do you know for sure,
how much i hate you,
when you do that,
he must of did something that lead you right back,
to me,
i dont see , any future with you,
or any sympathy,
to many,
of your ex's hate me,
and we could go on and on,
about the things that you see,
or i see,
the candles,
the flowers,
or your obsession, with avon,
or that you think mustaches are a turn on,
Conversate about stupid things,
theres nothing more i can say ***.

by Arcassin Burnham



The flowers and the trees,
from the ground to a branch as it swings with a beautiful gust
of wind,
And as it blows,
The feels come rushing through like the hypothesis of everything
created when it comes to an beginning era..
it nearly is when diamond valley makes you see the light,
too bright for the likes of your eyes like goodbyes of friends you knew before,
brain cells carry memories of lust and death like flies carry diseases,
remembering the last time you pivoted into oblivion with materialistic things
in life,
uploading a post on your samsung,
pacing back and forth with the same song,
and this song is so beautiful and lucid like ambiance
that it would be impossible to stop singing in an awe moment,
your brain caught it.

By Arcassin Burnham

When you speak i feel your pain,
Wanna comfort you in rain,
Knowing problems are the same when it comes to this here phase,
She said "shut the **** up babe",
Its the first time you called me that.....
Always wanna up and stay,
Your house is a block away,
This is just the greatest day when I'm touching on your face,
Your soul I wanna embrace,
She said call me when I get home , I'll get right on that,
And then it hits me.....

I know you,
I know your worth baby,
I know you,
I know your worth baby,
I know you,
I know your worth baby,
When you speak i feel your pain,
Wanna comfort you in rain,
Knowing problems are the same when it comes to this here phase,
She said "shut the **** up babe",
Its the first time you called me that,
You called me that.

By Arcassin Burnham

Fire burns,
My titles earned,
I'm complicated,
I'm crawling in my own filth,
I'm unemployed,
And uneducated,
I feel as though god has let me
down on an abandoned scale,
I feel as though more and more enemies
Start to prevail,
Not knowing what's coming as i walked
Through the Valley,
Of diamonds is what I call them as I round
up a rally,
My own magical world where bad people
Can't taunt us,
Where holidays are celebrated right and the
Queen will trust us,
I wish that I could be as inspiring as you are,
I wish I could tell kids that if you believe you
Could do something then dream it to the best
Of your ability.

by Arcassin Burnham

Nice set up you got here,
put up all your glasses for all the devils that provoke you not to think,
I've learned from the highest of things not to walk into evil while gulping down this drink,
the music's too loud and I've doubted being here even more than I could blink,
but my eyes they won't blink,
girls and guys kissing,
so much lip biting , I barely hold my butterflies,
drugs on the table and the shot glasses,
I'm surprised that they survived,
I've got too much on my mind tonight to be ****** up in all of this,
but to find you in this party would be pure bliss in all this bad mist.

/

Every night I'd go to bed and wonder when that phone
Will e-ver ring,
You pulled a wool over my eyes and never told me what
Was the--real thing,
She could never be what I wanted her to be when it came
Down--to it,
Thought I met my match and thought i had someone that
I could call my own--in this,
But I was wrong....
Thought that I could be in love--a-gain,
To know that we sure,
As hell, can't--be friends,
Thought your decision making was better than that,
I'm hoping the next one don't ever hurt you like that,
The hurt that you caused me,
The hurt that you caused me.