- Sonnet 14 -

Original: - 13/03/13
Edited: 21:30 - 23/12/15
This Version: 00:30 - 18/07/17

This is about harmony and the perfect balance of complementary people, friends, partners... lovers. People who find their strengths capture each others weaknesses, raising one another to soar together in completeness. A dance of personalities, fulfilled by the mirroring of their emotions - their joys, their sorrows. Whatever form these relationships take, what they give, will always belong in the realms of love.

22:00 - 22/09/17
Sonnet - 29 -

26/12/15

16/06/16

08:00 - 25/01/18
State of mind: wholesome.
Perspective: natural.

Thoughts: from feeling - through an intuition, the flow of life, the oxygen being carried.

Questions: none.

16:15 - 15/03/18
State of mind: patient; waiting; worried.
Perspective: personal.

Thoughts: none.

Questions: none.

11:00 - 26/03/18
State of mind: calm; reflective.
Perspectives: natural; philosophical; social.

Thoughts: from thinking - about the problems that arise when a community is broken up, society becomes divided and people no longer understand one another.

Also from watching the film Jane - about the primatologist and anthropologist Jane Goodall - and this passage from the book, The Tibetan Book of Living & Dying:

             'Obsessed, then, with false hopes, dreams, and ambitions, which promise happiness but lead only to misery, we are like people crawling through an endless desert, dying of thirst. And all that this samsara holds out to us to drink is a cup of salt water, designed to make us even thirstier'.

- Sogyal Rinpoche, Patrick Gaffney and Andrew Harvey, The Tibetan Book Of Living And Dying (London: Rider, 2008), p. 21.

Questions: None.

23:00 - 29/04/17

23:30 - 29/04/17

10:15 - 30/04/17

18:00 - 02/05/17

21:45 - 02/05/17

21:00 - 04/05/17
(May the forth be with you).

10:30 - 05/05/17
State of mind: quizzical, nostalgia, calm

Thoughts: from thinking - about what I've read from Epicurus combined with ideas of a wave passing through something which temporarily alters or moves it, returning to its original state once the wave has passed.

Questions: Does not life behave like a wave, in this sense?

18:00 - 07/05/17
State of mind: pensive; melancholic; longing.

Thoughts: from conversations - what Piotr said about time and the ideas about omnipresence.

Questions: Is it possible that all information that appears to be lost to the past can somehow still be accessed?

26/12/15

19:00 - 07/05/17
State of mind: pensive, content, hopeful.

Thoughts: from conversations - an idea about perception - the sensation of complex spatial awareness.

Questions: None. Just a good feeling.

22:00 - 07/05/17
State of mind: reminiscence, certainty, gladness.

Thoughts: from conversations - an idea about how impacting a few strong word can be, perhaps even shaping the person you become.

Question: For every person we meet, what can be said to have the greatest meaning, to have the deepest impact?

23:00 - 07/05/17
State of mind: confused, tired, tired.

Thoughts: from reading - Carl Sagan. Somewhere he said 'somewhen', although I can't remember where, or when.

Questions: None.

18:30 - 09/05/17
State of mind: anxious, troubled.

Thoughts: from thinking - originally about how my thoughts are like a lightning storm... and then this.

Question: Is emotion to the mind what oxygen is to the body?

21:15 - 10/05/17
State of mind: joy, comfort.

Thoughts: from memories - walking along black sands combined with Blake's line's 'to see a world in a grain of sand...'.

Question: Light and sound are both waves. We talk about composing music with sound. How can we make music with light?

22:10 - 10/05/17
State of mind: contentment, happiness, comfort.

Thoughts: from observation - Looking at my notebook combined with a memory of flip-books.

Question: when I am open, what do I reveal?

00:15 - 11/05/17
State of mind: sorrow, tiredness.
Thoughts: from memories...
Question: none

10:30 - 13/05/17
State of mind: thoughtful; relaxed.

Thoughts: from thinking - about how opposites attract. I have likened it to the polarity of planets.

Questions: are the rotations of love spherical and oscillating?

Notes: expand idea into a sonnet.

12:30 - 13/05/17
State of mind: thoughtful; readiness; anticipation.

Thoughts: from thinking - about how we travel far and wide so we can find a place where we belong.

Question: if we are denied our freedom, how can we know who we are?

15:30 - 13/05/17
State of mind: thoughtful; calm.

Thoughts: from thinking - about how important silence is and the intervals between on/off signals found in communication systems - code. Silence has meaning. Also, Wittgenstein's quote - ' What we cannot speak about we must pass over in silence'.

Questions: How can we use silence as an expression? Silence is usually reactive - how can it be active?

26/12/15

21:30 - 16/05/17
State of mind: rested; pensive; reflective.

Thoughts: from dreams - I sometimes have strange dreams that involve someone who I seem to identify with but can never see their face. I just feel their presence, which is supportive and reassuring, in essence.

Questions: how can we recognise that abstract thought - such as dreaming - is just as important and affecting as the tangible world around us? Why do we lose grip on dream states more easily than regular thoughts?

Notes: I could have written 'after waking up' but I wasn't fully awake or waking up. It was 4:00am, there was no chance of that happening.

23:30 - 16/05/17
State of mind: curious, reflective.

Thoughts: from thinking - about how my mind works.

Question: None.

11:50 - 18/05/17
State of mind: excited; energetic.

Thoughts: from feeling - the polarity of being with someone who complements you with opposing behaviours.
Growth comes from being amongst what is unknown.

Questions: None.

13:20 - 18/05/17
State of mind: joy; energetic;

Thoughts: from thinking - about how it only takes a single mistake to destroy something that took a great deal of effort to craft.

Questions: Is it not a good idea to make all the mistakes? Then we may learn not only what is best, but why it is so.

Notes: violins are held together by hide glue, which is soluble in water.

14:10 - 18/05/17
State of mind: energetic; lively.

Thoughts: from conversations - based on something that was said in conversation. The intention has a greater impact if it means a lot. To build something up and maintain a direction intensifies the impact.

Questions: none

20:25 - 18/05/17
State of mind: sadness; complex.

Thoughts: from memories - the sadness in leaving somewhere or someone you love but also feeling good about those times.

Questions: none.

15:10 - 19/05/17
State of mind: content; curious.

Thoughts: from thinking - about why so many communities are no longer circular. Cities are like disconnected mazes. Houses have no centre.

Questions: why not build a circular home with a central communal area and a network of surrounding rooms? Or better than circular - hexagonal.

20:00 - 21/05/17
State of mind: focused; defiant.

Thoughts: from feeling - about how freedom must not be taken for granted. It is something worth protecting from those who wish to take it away.

Questions: What are our vulnerabilities and how can we ensure they are not left exposed?

22:40 - 22/05/17
State of mind: joy; relief.

Thoughts: from thinking - 'we are stronger together' combined with 'many hands make light work'.

Questions: none

Notes: partially influenced by gin.

23:30 - 25/05/17
State of mind: deep thought; peaceful; calm.

Thoughts: from thinking - about mortal aims in eternal conquest.

Questions: none.

27/12/15

11:20 - 28/05/17
State of mind: low; thoughtful.

Thoughts: from feeling - an uncertainty, of sorts.

Questions: None.

13:50 - 30/05/17
State of mind: focused; energised.

Thoughts: from reflection - on all the gardening I've been doing this morning.

Questions: If we should understand a person better, would we not learn more from how they have come to be, as opposed to who they are or what they possess?

10:00 - 02/06/17
State of mind: doubtful; contemplative.

Thoughts: from thinking - about how I am sometimes accused of sitting on the fence and not having much of an opinion on current affairs.

Every conflict needs a mediator, a diplomat to quell or cool the heat of an argument.

Questions: what is the value in seeing all perspectives of an argument only to side with none? Is that really indifference or is there something deeper to do with acknowledging that there is no truth, only interpretation?

09:50 - 04/06/17
Afterthoughts: change is important because it encourages diversity. Conflict stimulates change.

I think what I am developing with this thought is more to do with the conflict in shaping what people believe is the best environment to exist in. In reality, there are many. There should be many and we should be free to move between them.

The internet is an environment. Some people ascribe to it, others don't. But both it and alternatives are important. Many facets has the diamond.

I believe the fence is symbolic for realising that there is not one perfect way, but many and is wrong to tear down the diversity we have in favour of a singular way.

13:00 - 03/06/17
State of mind: hopeful; anxious.

Thoughts: from thinking - about belief, what is true and what is good.

Questions: If I am true to myself what truth do I represent?
Is a persons self-expression a declaration of their truth?

16:45 - 03/06/17
State of mind: happiness; nostalgia.

Thoughts: from memories - of summer cycling, cruising through the half-mile stretch of tunnel along the local cycle path.

Questions: None.

11:15 - 06/06/17
State of mind: curious; inquisitive.

Thoughts: from observations - of watching this years strawberries grow.

If our plans are to come to fruition, they must flower in the eyes of those who shall have its harvest.

Questions: If something is to be enjoyed, should it be like a ripe fruit? Wonderful to taste and easy to digest.

18:00 - 08/06/17
State of mind: deep thought; meditative.

Thoughts: from feeling - the smallness and powerlessness of being but feeling, simultaneously, connected to a greater meaning.

I just woke up - possibly still connected to threads of my sub-conscious.

Questions: Are we like the sun rising in the east, setting in the west? What light shall fill this day?

12:30 - 9/06/17
State of mind: defiant; focused.

Thoughts: from thinking - about the saying 'is your glass half full or empty'?

I realise that it is a passive question, not serious, but merely to reveal a person's attitude or outlook.

What I'm exploring with this is the idea of, not just thinking about a person's attitude, but what the actual contents of the glass are. A glass half full might taste of sorrow.

Questions: the glass may be half full or empty but where is the source from which it is filled or drained?

01:15 - 10/06/17
State of mind: optimistic; complex.

Thoughts: from feeling - that making mistakes are an important part of learning. They should be supported and examined. Great things have unfolded from the accidental.

Knowing a thousand ways that don't work is knowing why the one that does, is best.

Questions: how can failure be experienced in a way that encourages persistence?

11:50 - 10/06/17
State of mind: joy.

Thoughts: from thinking - about the free spirit, the joyful weightlessness and emptiness, the space inbetween, holding all matter together.

Questions: none.

27/12/15