It is so easy to think
that you’re never going
to find someone like him-
until you find someone better.
It is so easy to think things
will never be like before
Until they are.
It is too easy to think
we’ll never get that fairy-tale love-
that happily ever after just like
they have in the movies-
until one one day we find it.
But you’re not at the end
of your story yet-
just remember that the
happily ever after is always
at the end.

Fortunate are these
hands that get to trace your skin
from your head to toe

12:59 PM
23/10/22

Nothing blooms in nature
all year long,
so why should you
expect yourself
to do so?

I see every galaxy
shining through your eyes
and every star
burning in
your smile.

Why do you expect
life to give back what life
has taken away?

6:29 PM
12/7/21

I want to get lost
in another country and
forget who I am

2:06 AM
23/6/22

Every time
I tell myself
not to love you,
it feels like the entire universe
is fighting back against me.

Tbilisi held up more
than just our broken heart.
They held our hopes and dreams,
at least until we were apart.

I try and I try
to write the perfect haiku-
as perfect as you

11:25 PM
19/6/19

I’m shipwrecked,
left in the dark - stranded
in a never-ending sea of despair.
I was sailing for nowhere,
doomed from the start.
No need for an anchor
when I have no destination
or no home to call my own.

December is just
a month-
so why all the
gloom?

I once knew a man
who could read minds and with this,
the pain never ceased

7:24 AM
3/8/21

This mountain
is not mine but I
feel the need to climb it.
It mirrors my aching soul
but I'm afraid to reach the peak-
a world of magic,
a world I have been
longing for.

I am calm and swell
but also a storm that
will never burn out

8:07 PM
1/10/20

A dismal duet-
more like a sad solo
of two hearts
breaking in harmony.
Their tone is flat and
the lyrics don't rhyme.
The melody has gone
astray and the
music dies.

Dear Diary;
It's the last day
of the year and I
think I will burst into tears
for having held them in
all year.

It's two thirty-three-
sleep is not my enemy
or so I had thought

she was a teacher
with a heart the size
of a mountain.
I set my sights for its peak-
as many others have
only to find myself
gasping for air.

I do try
not to be a bitter person;
bitter about the life I live,
the life I want to live,
and a life that slipped away.
I do my best not to write bitterly,
And it's true, I sometimes do.
I do my best not to be so bitter,
though I can and often am.
I wonder if it's in my DNA
or because of a life so grey
But **** it,
I do my best.

Dear diary;
I thought I had
no more hope left to lose
...until I found
a little more hope
left to lose.

Can the aura of
this dream linger with me for
a little longer?

11:25 AM
7/10/19

Oh London, you were
a dream and a nightmare all
wrapped up into one

7:37 AM
19/2/20

Soon you will be in my arms,
and I plan to wrap them
around you like a Christmas present.
I want to spend the oceans I crossed
to reach you to swim in your eyes
and get lost in your smile
as warm as a Vietnamese day.
Indeed, tomorrow will be
a beautiful day.

I look for peace
in so many people
and in so many places
where, deep down, I know
peace can never be found,
and yet the things we have a
glimmer of hope of finding it,
we run away from.
Such is the irony
of this turbulent life.

Isn't it ironic
how it is out of fear
for losing someone that stops us
from attaining them.

You drive me crazy,
but not in the romantic way.
You turn my brain upside down;
you leave me clueless and hopeless-
your image branded into my mind
and I can't seem to drive you out
of my dreams.

I am forever
jealous of the nights not spent
by your side, my dear

7:44 PM
14/7/20

This Christmas you broke
my heart - not quite the present
I was expecting

1:40 PM
29/12/19

It is as easy
to feel love and warmth as it
is to feel heartbreak

5:59 PM
23/6/22

I didn’t plan on dying at your feet tonight,
but here I am bleeding out
without a breath to spare.
Was I ever anything more than this to you,
a badly worded promise
failing its own intentions?
am i worth an answer?

You and I,
Hand in hand-
we are one.
There is no distance,
no time, no fear,
that keeps us apart.  
We love without consequence
and we are free-
oh, how free we are.

She is as bright
as a shooting star-
her trail brings beauty
upon this world.
Although I try to her,
she will never be within my reach.
But just to be in the presence
of such beauty is more
than I could ask for.

Sometimes stars explode
and leave behind the most
beautiful nebulae in the universe-
but that is one in a billion.
Somehow you create a nebula
with every touch,
and every word.
So what does that make you?

You were an angel
turned to demon
and then to stranger.
You have blessed me
and cursed me ever since
you walked away.

If the sunflowers knew
what I carry in my soul,
perhaps they would wither
to the winds of winter that accompanies me.
Indeed, my sun is burning out
and it weeps for those
nostalgic flames that summer
once held dear.

I do not belong
to a person nor a place
nor to anything

6:16 PM
7/11/20

I know a girl
on the other side of the world
she's my flesh and blood
my heart and soul
but I'm stuck with the blues
the baby blues now

The dreams won't answer-
the night is getting colder
as the shadows dance

2:33 AM
7/7/19

Sometimes I think I’m
not capable of feeling
the thing you call love

7:13 PM
16/10/19

trapped between Heaven and Hell,
the world has failed her
one too many times.
Fall after fall,
she's cracked
but not yet shattered.
There's no ending in sight-
she looks in the mirror
and sees someone else.

I can make poems
out of all this heartbreak we
cause to each other

7:25 PM
22/8/22

She went to the park
and made the birds, sun and trees
jealous all at once

7:24 PM
29/6/19

Some people enter
your life like a dream but then
leave like a nightmare

6:50 PM
8/10/22

When it comes to war,
truth is the first casualty-
all else will fall next

8:33 PM
13/1/21

You’re in a weird place right now;
you feel like you don’t know which way is up
and which way is down,
and you know everyone
says to just follow your heart,
but you don’t know where it is.
Maybe you left it in another country,
or underneath your bed.
Maybe it’s in the summer air.
Or in a love you haven’t touched.
Maybe it's in a song you heard,
Or a book you haven’t read.
You’ll find it again,
you will,
just please,
don’t stop looking.

There are some nights
where I would rather
fight anything other
than my own
thoughts.

I want to know
if that Moroccan cat
is doing better than I am.
I really hope so.
I hope he has found a home,
and a love like no other.
I hope that cat
is happy now.

The sunflowers remind me of you.
Indeed, I crave the warmth of your body
and your vibrant soul that would
brighten each and every day.
Your light lifts shadows
from this bleak soul
and plants sunflowers
in this heart.

They say time heals all,
but I don't think that's true.
Broken hearts never completely mend,
they just learn to adapt
once the pieces
get lost
forever.

Can love travel across seas?
Can it float over the ocean
or drift upon the waves?
Would love reach me
upon shores of loneliness?
I'm drowning in solitude
and you are too far
to extend your hand.