There is no light without darkness. No cloudy skies without rain. Over and above this dreadful end; Our tears will be wiped away, Our aching hearts will be settled down once more.
We will sit and observe them come and go; Only to settle speechless and motionless-- Wishing for them to stay a little bit longer. Our hearts become full of the greatest sorrow, The sorrow of losing a loved one forever; However, it is not the end!
For their sake, remain strong and smile! Find comfort and joy in your life With all your fondest thoughts and memories of them Shall dwell within your heart, nevertheless. Parting is miserable, But life goes on without alerts.
What did I do wrong To deserve this vast emptiness Where life should be Where joy and wonder and adventure Should’ve reigned
While instead every day, Blurring into one, Is ruled by disappointment, And self-pity, And self hatred
When all I ever wanted When all I ever asked for Was one reason Only one To make my life worth living To bring a light in the darkness To make sense of a senseless world To bring an end to all my doubts and heartaches Only one Love
even now i am haunted by you still i see you everywhere, i hear you every time the waves crash into the shore and feel you each time the wind caresses my skin. our songs play and my day comes to hault i'm back to those summer nights, wrapped inside your arms honey and clementines bleeding from our lips.
in those moments i realise how deeply you are buried into my being, as if my bones are made from magnets searching just for you.
rip my chest the way you would an ugly sight of flowers. take everything away. i have no need for this much aching. i have no need for this much consuming anguish — this much self-violence barely restrained by my ribs. rip my chest and leave me empty of breaths and prayers for saints who don't know my name. leave me clean, and numb, and brand new — without memory and without any trace of all agony i ever kept between the lines of my poems. this isn't one — this isn't one anymore.
rip my chest and take everything away. rip my chest, i beg you, and take away all of my violence. take away all of my pain. take away all that i ever was, now just hurting — now, just lying around in waste.
they are never coming back let them go it’s time this road does not lead to happiness deep breaths i know it hurts but we are strong and we can open our hearts to forgiveness don’t disappear i see you your still here trying to hide but that cannot keep you safe, dear one nothing of this world can keep heartbreak from knocking on your door.
I have taught myself to believe that everything happens for a reason... how else am I supposed to cope with the endless, torturous hurt that barrels through my body day after day, wearing down my bones the way trains begin to wear down their tracks; the piercing shriek of the wheels spinning against the push of the brakes mimicking the cry of my legs struggling to hold up the nineteen year's worth of trauma and heartache and exhaustion threatening to come tumbling down onto the tracks while my heart is forced to stare helplessly on, an innocent bystander to the impending tragedy that will forever scar her for life as she is forced to watch me lose mine?
fear is a tiny seed planted in my lower belly. my thoughts fuel the seed to sprout with gentle ease. its roots are finally free, wrapping around my feet, never letting me flee. it grows into a nimble tree whose branches strangle me. the tree wears prickly leaves that sting my aching body until my eyes succumb to sleep.
I revised one of my poems, and I really like how it turned out! I think I'll revise more of my poems and create a revision collection.