Back into the car
I watch you walk away
A few minutes pass
My niece is crying.

I think inside I am too,
I already miss you.

10 more days until my hand will meet yours

I was going to write something sweet and poetic for you, but I lost my thoughts when I saw your green circle turn transparent. I love you, husband. I'll see you soon enough...

Just a few more hours...
and I'll be with you.

I see you over there
Across the field from me
Why're you so far away,
Is this really just a dream?

The distance between us is closing
My heart is beginning to race
then I hear my alarm
and now I wear a sad face.

Another day passes
only this time,
with rain.
Just a few more days
and my eyes will meet yours...
*again.

I'm wondering what will happen.

I'll follow you
from one place
to the next,
because you make me happy
And you're the one I want to be with.

You're still my golden jellyfish
You always have been and
You always will be.

The sky has turned dark
Another day has passed,
though it hasn't been the best.
I'm happy right now knowing
I'll see you in my dreams while I rest.

Russia has a new weapon,
Talking to you is the closest I'll ever be to heaven.
Eleven minus seventeen is six, in case you didn't know
I'm aware I'm making no sense but I don't care so...

Hot tea, singing MC
to myself, as I day dream
17 more days,
16 more nights

until I will feel him, hugging me tight.

I wish that we could talk longer,
but I know you need your sleep.
I know you think you're boring
but I think your words are deep.

I love reading your stories
and often anticipate the next,
I fear mine aren't as entertaining
but you listen, nevertheless.

I think of you a lot
especially after our good nights,
My devilishly handsome husband,
you're the best part of my life.

I thought of you today,
But that's nothing new
I thought about you yesterday
And the day before that too.

This morning I woke up
Wishing I could kiss you
My cheeks felt warm
Logan, I love you.

Laying on my floor
I look over at my monitor
at the title of the song playing
I hear your keyboard taps
and you tell me what's happening
I'm smiling as I remember things
that we did together
my heart longs for you.
This distance is frustrating at times
but for you I'll always do the time.

I get ****** into expectations
I'm 25 but can't tell you what faith is.
I shut down when I think about saying no,
I guess I still care about what my family knows.

I'm 25 but 12 inside,
I don't know myself and tend to hide.
I have taxes, bills, a dog; my own life
But I'm still the girl who escapes online

I hate to hear their judgements; their insights
I try to connect through words
But say the wrong things,
and get lectured through sighs.

I don't know what I'm doing wrong,
I've tried and tried to find the cause,
I'm so frustrated, but go in circles
I keep looking for our bond.

What I really want is to disappear
Shut my eyes to the relief of tears.
To wake up as strums in the air,
To be a part of my own song.

We started with keyboard taps and echoed laughter.
We opened doors full of nothing but matter.
I am so happy to be able to say,
I met this engaging boy.
Who stole my heart and filled me with joy.
He's never stung me,
or tore me apart,
but one thing he has done,
is find the way into my heart.

I stayed up so late just to re-read
the things we talked about,
And laughed throughout
Each funny line you'd write.

To see your name in a blur
on my phone's screen,
It's not so bad to me.

to be able to pretend
you were laying right next to me,
I stayed up so late.

I'm awake once again,
In the middle of the night
I can't get back to sleep
I don't feel too alright,

I'm shaking and tired
I wish you were here
My head is spinning
Is this out of fear?

I'll hold your hand
And won't let go
I want you to know
How I love you so

You make me smile
And I always blush
I just can't help it
You stir my thoughts up.

My face hurts from smiling
I just can't stop.
The things you say to me
Make my heart throb.

I can't tell if I'm nervous,
or happy or both
But I do know one thing,
Our love will continue to grow.

I walk into my room and kick the heater over to stop it from blowing hot air in my room. It's boiling in here. I kick off my pants and lay on my bed. *Why is life so hard?

The waves are crashing in
I think I've failed to mention
With you there's no tension
but I'm sorry I'm always,
craving your attention.
When I'm talking with you,
I'm in another dimension.

My hands miss yours, I think that's why they're so cold.

I love you from the bottom of the ocean,
all the way up to Saturn and past it.

You saw me crying
as I was sinking
you pulled me in
and wrapped me up

I was surrounded
with your love
when you found me
and I still am, even now.

We said goodnight
Only an hour ago
My heart feels tight,
Where does the time go?

It'll only be a while longer
Before we'll be together
I know there's bruises
And scars on us too...

But I know we'll make it through.

You make my heart melt
Just by laughing with me
I can only imagine how I'll feel
While you're hugging me.

I want to hold your hand.

When the caffiene fades
So does my smile
But that'll never change
At least not for a while.

I used to long for your arms around me
now all I long for is paper to place poetry
that I've written about you and nothings
that I wish would become somethings.
But that's somehow too much to ask for
I suppose it's more than I can really afford,
a longing for you.

KPop and horror films,
You're just the silliest girl.
I don't want you to go,
We've been through a lot,
I know.
I'm not going anywhere though.
You don't need to worry about that,
So.. don't.

I had a dream that turned into a nightmare,
We were laying on top of a jellyfish bell
We were small and in the center
Our hands were holding each other
Then I looked over and you were gone
My hand was empty and the ocean turned dark
The last thing I remember,
was being stung and waking up in tears.

In a dream I was walking, all alone.
A flower; I saw-

                             off in the distance..

it was all alone, like me.

I try to hold back the tears,
as my phone shines in my face
I cover my eyes with my palms
to try to hide any trace of what slipped away.
I’m so tired of being alone.

There's so many different paths I want to run down,
Different places I yearn to see.
I'd like to live somewhere beautiful
Where I can simply be

I fight with myself over the fantasies I keep,
Sometimes I'm sure I'll live somewhere far,
I could have a chicken or two,
My dog could enjoy a huge yard.

Other times I know deep down,
I need convenience and I'd surely fail
Without being somewhere crowded,
Delivery is a privilege.

I don't want the middle between these two places,
Because suburbia was depressing,
Living only two inches away from a bustling family,
I didn't like the times I lived with mine there.

I'd need space undoubtedly.
Then the absurdity starts showing,
I think to myself.. I'll find an abandoned city
Maybe a desserted town like the ones tiktok shows me.

I could pretend I'm in my own story
And the empty streets would be my own
I could wander these houses and see what was left behind...
I think it sounds silly but, it always comes to mind.

If I could live in the house of my dreams
It would be somewhere unimaginable
Underneath the deepest seas.
I'd have glass walls, and a ceiling made of stars

I'd wake up to see jellyfish blooms
And sit in awe, nothing to do
I could swim to the surface somehow
And watch meteors fall

I think what I truly desire
Is somewhere comfortable
Where I can imagine these wishes
Without being bothered by time, or people who don't really care

Or maybe I belong on another planet,
Because I feel alien everywhere.

Alone*
is what I really am
not really wanted
I'll just stop existing
anyways- *I'm exhausted
tired of being used
always forgotten..
*so I guess this is goodbye..

Sometimes it's okay to be by yourself,
**without anyone else.

I am afraid to be alone with myself.
Because I don't want to know myself.

I don't want to see myself,
The way other people do.
People are always leaving,
And if I realise why they do,
Will I leave too?

I don't want to know.

She lives in her room
In front of a screen
Always talking to you
She screams talk to me

You hate leaving her alone
But people call for you to
answer the phone
If only you could be beside her

Always, you want to stay near
Because you're well aware that
behind the screen she fears
you'll be taken away

Further than distance can convey
Little does she know you live the same way.

I will always be here.
So don't hide your tears,
Share with me your fears.
For you, I'm all ears.
Ignore all of their sneers.
They're the ones who need repairs.
I will always be here.. For you.

I don't want to be left in the past.
I thought these sad times had passed,
But obviously they have not.
I'm still being left behind; forgot.

Soon enough he'll be gone.
I'll be once again at a loss.
It'll just be me, like usual.
Am I really that unapproachable?

I once wrote about one sad Jellyfish,
that disappeared trying to find her place,
looking back now I wonder how
she swam so far away,
when she was always safe.