To the late night train
You hop on and off of
Making frequent stops
Working overnight for your enjoyment
Over worked and used
Is no longer in service
We had to realign ourselves
You go out late
at night, and i stay here,
picking up the pieces
of the mess you left behind.
(i am the mess you left behind
and i spend the night
picking up the broken
pieces of myself.)
© KMH 2019
Is putting a knife to my throat
One mistaken word
I hold the danger to be assaulted
As a result the blade slits me open
Can be withdrawing the knife
When people digest
That I am a human
And they respect me
I get asked inappropriate questions as a trans person. People forget to be respectful when you come out. Other times people intend to make you feel uncomfortable. And lastly, some result to violence as a way of disapproval. I try to battle ignorance with peace every time I can. Yet I’m still challenged with the opposite energy.
Pad and pen,
here are Casey’s thoughts again...
Driving down the highway, Jason is strapped in because Casey’s in denial again. She doesn’t want to lose her little one.
Wake up Casey, you’re dreaming. He’s gone.
You drove under the influence.
What’s wrong with you?
This is what you get. He’s never coming back.
Driving silent like a mime with its mouth sewn shut.
You’re just like a mime, living in a black and white world.
You’re gray matter Case.
You’re a nut-case.
Where’d you put your straight jacket?
You hit your brakes to assure Jason will be safe.
Convinced that at every intersection there’s a conspiracy against you,
sure to get hit.
But Casey, it’s too late. This is what you get.
He’s never coming back.
Why’d you have to reach for more?
Lock her up.
Strap her in.
Casey's off the deep end... again.
A cold wind dashes through me like a dart
Calling out a name, a name I dare not speak
Piercing through my skin and into my heart
I ask myself what does it beskeak
Its been a while since I written anything
One day it won't feel like a trainwreck
Suddenly every weight will be lifted off
I need this. What can I accomplish now?
You needed my time, I'm saying
Everything's fine; I mean everything happens but may not happen for our own benefit.
Think about "now" not "when"
if i don't know me,
how can anyone else?
if i don't love me,
how can anyone else?
i spend so much time on others,
i've forgotten to listen
and to love myself.
I will love you, I will cherish you
I want you to know how I feel, from the depths of my heart
I will always love and care for you
Your smile always lights up the world & there has never been a more beautiful smile
Your laugh fills my heart with joy & those around you
Your eyes always have a way of catching my attention & I see your pain behind those beautiful golden brown eyes.
He hurt you, maybe not in a drastic way but I can see it
I hear it in your voice when we drove on those roads late that night
A heart of gold & genuine kindness, you my dear deserve the world
My heart trails off to the thought of us together but my mind tells me it’s not time
Maybe it will never be our time..
Your adventurous heart & wildest dreams
You don’t know it but I’ll always remind you of how beautiful you are
I have dreams & you share yours with me
Looking out into the world and staring at the stars , truly I want to share it all with you
Never before have I felt that two souls were entwined
Now the question is & only time will tell, will two souls be joined
For the moment we share now, I’m yours & I will always love you
As I’m lying on bed tonight,
Staring blankly at the ceiling,
My thoughts reach you.
I go to the page where we last talk,
It didn’t end well,
I want to do it again.
But I know I won’t be able to bring myself to you again.
I figure you’re happy now.
I figure you have someone by your side.
I figure you don’t speak of me anymore.
Yeah, I already figured that much.
I hope she loves you as much as I do or even more.
I hope she makes you smile at the end of your tiring day.
I hope she is kind to you.
I hope your mom likes her.
Because she doesn’t like me </3
Treat her well,
Listen to her,
Tell her how much she means to you,
Don’t let her go.
I love you, and I shall pray the best for you.
I guess once you really love someone, you cannot un-love them no matter how hard you tried. I really can’t forget him.
i miss the way you said my name,
the way you held me in your arms,
i miss how i would run my hands though your hair and put you to sleep.
i hate the way we said goodbye,
how you didn’t even care.
all our love spilled on the ground like it was nothing, joined by the tears i cried