i weren't that sad because of you today. i think that i just overreacted yesterday and i won't give up on you that easy. watch me fighting. i'll show you my heart and you'll notice me sooner or later. i won't think too negative, i still have some hope.
I'd like to say If I'd have stayed I wouldn't be here now But truthfully Inquiring Will only sink me down Pass memories That mock and tease Ulysses' siren song The jagged rocks Seductive talks Carry my soul along
I listen to you sleep, when i type this down. Little groans from you are music to me; like James Dean and Audrey Hepburn.
It felt like forever and I crave you every day, i craved you more when you were sad, because i just wanted to hug you and let you know that i'm impulsive but will never leave you. I dream of us married and having kids one day.. See, i've grown attached to you. You're a cancer filled with love, and other girls took you for granted, i feel.
But they've later died with a cold heart because they couldn't control the temperature.
Your beauty is loud, but you were silent. let me touch you and help you roar, because i'm a lion
When im anxious I want to drink I want to cut my wrists Release these stressful thoughts In the form of Whiskey and blood
I took some Ativan Ive been prescribed longer than a normal person should Because its a benzo And that ***** addicting And I know that Because I have a nursing degree
But still I think about mixing The benzo And the whiskey With some blood When im anxious
Because when im anxious Rational thought Is a thing in the past Gasping for air Feels like choking on glass I am now physically sick But my doctor insists "Its just stress"
When Im anxious I think about killing myself But wouldnt that be typical? Follow in his footsteps. I can hear the chatter now "She was never going to make it" "Why would she do that to herself?"
Is this real? Or my paranoia? Because when im anxious It all feels the same
I think I would die in vain If I take my life When im anxious
Depression and anxiety has bren a constant struggle for me. Im at a point in my life where i dont know which was is up snd which way is fown. Poetry has helped me alot. Even if it doesnt make sense. Even if the poems arent good. I let my mind speak, and thats something.