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Jul 2018 · 526
Dreamer
melanie Jul 2018
I fall from grace
upon jagged lands
and demand to be
the center of attention

Yet an overwhelming need for self evaluation
causes me to close my eyes,
shut doors I've just opened,
and breathe in the stale air of loneliness

I really am better in your dreams
Jul 2018 · 433
Verdict
melanie Jul 2018
Flickering on and off like a kerosene lit lamp,
I waver in the dark,
awaiting the verdict I've already given myself.

Sinner. Saint.
The pendulum swings back and forth,
toying with my frayed emotions,
Ripping away the little remaining sanity I have.

No matter the outcome,
I am destined to run from both sides of the coin
As I have found my solace nowhere and, yet, everywhere
Jul 2018 · 581
Stagnant
melanie Jul 2018
Fragmented,
I stand split between here and there
watching the world as it spins around me.

I once made decisions solely based on you:
On your needs
and wants
and dreams.

Now I no longer move in any direction.
Not because my voice can't echo off tall ceilings,
But because I truly don't care if you can hear me anymore.

Sometimes the stagnant quiet is louder than anything I ever could have said
Jul 2018 · 265
Reflection
melanie Jul 2018
I stopped recognizing my own face in mirrors
and started seeing the burn of fire
that comes with being hurt one too many times

Maybe I like the fire too much
Maybe I like the heat

But I truly don't like you anymore
Jul 2018 · 586
Irresistible
melanie Jul 2018
There's a chaos to her beauty
that falls like fire from the sky
and burns her unassuming victims.

It turns the unaware
into lovers of mayhem.

She is irresistible.
Jul 2018 · 333
Home
melanie Jul 2018
My heart flies toward the earth
Not the sky

I need a tangible surface to cling to

I run through the fields
I sit in the dirt
I call this place home

Yet I am surrounded by strangers
Jul 2018 · 305
Rose tinted glasses
melanie Jul 2018
A cloying heat chokes me where I stand
and I am reminded of those carefree summer nights that were filled with honeysuckle breezes and lightening bug paths.

My mind rages with the past and the present,
Forced to meld the two into my reality.

The sun seems harsher now
that I've lost my rose tinted glasses.
Jun 2018 · 351
Crave
melanie Jun 2018
Addicted,
I burn from within.

There is a ferocious need to be
touched and loved.
It is as if nails have been raked across my soul
making it sing and scream
in words only you can hear.
Yet there is no salvation to be seen.

You only hear me when it is convenient for you
and the heaviness of being a burden is becoming too much for me to carry
Jun 2018 · 825
Forsaken
melanie Jun 2018
I am an afterthought
A second hand emotion
A distant memory that is just out of reach and leaves you vacant

I am the second lover who can never live up to the the first
A lukewarm cup of coffee that you'll drink but never enjoy

I am chipped in the major places of my heart
But you keep coming back to see if you can fix me

Yet neither of us enjoy my anguish
May 2018 · 257
Here
melanie May 2018
in my quiet retreat
I hear your distant steps,
a steady heartbeat that seeks
mine out in the dark.

you can find me
where the fields kiss the sky
and trees are evergreen,
I won't go anywhere
Apr 2018 · 777
Grace
melanie Apr 2018
Fire wrapped in grace,
I walk thru this shallow life.
I find myself seeking love
in reckless places.

Haunted I see my own fears
in the daylight.
Brick & mortar
cannot contain my soul,
Just hold me in my sleep.

The taste of ash is never too far.
Apr 2018 · 330
Be
melanie Apr 2018
Be
Victim & Survivor,
Woman or Man,
We work to overcome
the things that shame us.
Together we must grow
& no longer hide in the shadows.
Rise up,
Be proud,
Love yourself
Always
Apr 2018 · 728
Love One Another
melanie Apr 2018
Astounded, I decide to take pause
& hold my tongue
Letting the rage simmer down
to a mere temped heat
Mother & daughter, father & son
Wife & husband...
Colour should not be limited in these descriptions
yet, once again the world has seen fit
to slap a stamp of approval
or disapproval on love
Let us be..
Let us love..
Let us live..
Mar 2018 · 355
Scarred
melanie Mar 2018
You have forever marked me.
Leaving me ugly & wounded
Leaving me less than whole
Leaving me alone & cold.

I am scarred with a constant reminder
That you once loved me.

I hope that you don't return.
Mar 2018 · 714
Hard
melanie Mar 2018
a hardness falls around my heart

as tears stream down my face
in quiet rivers

love doesn't live here anymore
Mar 2018 · 274
With you
melanie Mar 2018
my heart bleeds black
as darkness falls from the sky
onto your lovely face

be safe in your journey
as my heart is with you
& be safe from the brooding storm

weathered is the day
& aching are our bones
but be resolved in your decisions
as I am with you in spirit
Mar 2018 · 694
Divided
melanie Mar 2018
Divided we stand
when together we should be.
Our purpose should be the same:
To protect, to love, to care for our children.
But darkness & evil have infiltrated our hearts,
Stupidity & ignorance have led us askew, &
Judgment & fear have made us all hate each other.

So no one wants to listen to the teenage girl
who understands true fear.
No one wants to hear the young man
who sees why the world is burning.
Instead it's a liberal-conservative war.
It's a we are older and know better war.
It's a "these are my rights..." war.

And still,  no one listens.

Yet no one is listening.
No is addressing the fear.
And the hate grows larger.
Mixing itself in with the fear,
Causing monsters that we have
only dreamed of in nightmares.

So now, no one sleeps at night.
Afraid of all the monsters
that have been created by hate & fear
Because no one would listen or love.
Mar 2018 · 261
Amok
melanie Mar 2018
Between blurred shots of tequila
During bright sunny afternoons,
That's when you see the truth of it:

The devil rises to the surface,
The bitter falls on the floor,
& the whimsical run amok.

& I stand, tipped sideways,
Watching my world burn.
Mar 2018 · 471
Peace
melanie Mar 2018
Where the silence falls, glass shatters & the truth spills out
like water

I find that I can't stand the quiet of stillness
It brings back the haunted memories
That I have been running from for years

So while I am scared of silence,
Of groaning doors & floors,
My mind screams hate filled words
That break me...

I yearn for peace
Mar 2018 · 323
Anew
melanie Mar 2018
I watched the smoke rise in the distance
& knew
That what we had once built together
was now gone forever.
Leaving mere ash & rubble in place of the facade of harmony.

I couldn't help but smile.
All my lies
All my heartache
Gone with the the gentle breeze of morning.

Today I start anew.
Mar 2018 · 306
Ghost
melanie Mar 2018
Time lingers on like an unseen ghost
that keeps raising my hackles
to keep me on my toes

I rub my arms for warmth on 100 degree days
I forget my coat in snowstorms
I have no sense of direction
Yet I know something has changed

Time has broken the unspoken
Do you miss me....
Feb 2018 · 435
Lovesick
melanie Feb 2018
staggering, I fall
into a broken routine
that causes my heart to pitter patter
a story that has been told before

my cheeks burn red
as all my secrets are told without
my mouth spilling a single word

the quietness drowns me
as I further into you
& I look for an escape

love has a bitter taste on my tongue
Jan 2018 · 328
Unnecessary
melanie Jan 2018
Silence shrieks down hollow halls
And I long to hide behind the curtains.
There is no warmth to be found.
There is no joy to be heard reverberating back.
I glance over my shoulder in hope that I have made a wrong turn & you will be behind me;
There to rescue me.
There to hold my hand.
You aren't.
You never were.
I was always holding my own hand
& saving my own skin.
I wonder know who it was
That was really needed here.
Dec 2017 · 357
Chase
melanie Dec 2017
a simple minded nightmare
chases me thru the night
& into tomorrow.

only asking to be heard,
to be understood,
to be taken at my word,
I was betrayed
Dec 2017 · 378
Lost
melanie Dec 2017
tired of being lonely
when surrounded by so many,
the dark sky whispers a loving secret

one that wraps me tight
& holds me down,
choking me where I've fallen.

you ask me if I'm okay,
I tell you I'm fine in whispered breath,
as I imagine a world that never exists.
Dec 2017 · 396
Devilish
melanie Dec 2017
a chilling light seeps in
as my restful night
turns gnarled teeth on me.
and in my questioning state,
I dare not leave stones unturned.

I pick, I poke, I tear
under the surface of the sun,
until I not only know the answers,
but hate myself for them.

selling my soul to the devil
may be my only chance of survival.
Nov 2017 · 564
Adversary
melanie Nov 2017
I begged to be enough,
to be more than you could want.
yet, I find that in my darkness,
whispers pull & doubt clouds my mind.

silence has become
my only adversary
Nov 2017 · 364
Broken
melanie Nov 2017
a broken lover's promise
turns from an act of randomness
into one of normality
as days begin to fade along the edges

bleed me dry in the quiet moments
& take my love for granted...

I'll leave my mark when I'm gone
Nov 2017 · 473
Cut
melanie Nov 2017
Cut
I'm constantly
walking into blades
like I'm walking
through fields of flowers

exposed
those knives fit easily
in my glass heart
Nov 2017 · 445
Falling Short, once again
melanie Nov 2017
I sought the stars
with wild, hopeful dreams
to only come up short
& break the cheshire moon

My childlike heart
now beats with  a cynical clink
& the sky is barren
where light once shown

jilted, tilted, scorned
reckless laughter flows from my lips
Nov 2017 · 334
Goodbye my Dear
melanie Nov 2017
hollow & cold,
I find the vapid touch
of a longtime lover
to be my only friend

death has come knocking
twice today
& I've tried to answer both times

you will be forever missed
Loss is always difficult. Maybe talking about it will help someone.
Nov 2017 · 255
Distance
melanie Nov 2017
wither, blither, blister, peel
you can't tell me how it feels

to want you
to need you
to almost reach you

just to have that star
snatched from my sky
just to have that glimmer
dashed from my eye

it's a long way from heaven
Nov 2017 · 462
Dream
melanie Nov 2017
Trace your finger down my spine,
copy my bones,
memorize their brittle notches,
remember the breath under them swells for you.

I loved you in my dreams,
but my life has other plans.
Nov 2017 · 459
Push Me Again, baby
melanie Nov 2017
pushed to the edge
I met the swords blade
with a devilish grin

I am not afraid
Oct 2017 · 282
Denial
melanie Oct 2017
walking in such blind denial
while living in glorious beauty

I yearn to push back the curtain
to expose the deadly truth
Oct 2017 · 353
Unravel
melanie Oct 2017
reach out
your flame kissed words
to intertwine with mine

sunset moments find the darkness
as love unravels one strand at a time
Oct 2017 · 234
Lost
melanie Oct 2017
dissonance roams within my body
breaking apart my soul
leaving me hollow
leaving me cold

a storm breaks
Oct 2017 · 414
Echo
melanie Oct 2017
those echoed words
have fallen on hushed crowds
as your eyes find my face

out of turn & out of place
what should never be
has found its home
radiating in me
Oct 2017 · 323
Lost in the Light
melanie Oct 2017
Up with the rising sun
my soul burns
in this never-ending hell

I seek answers
in the silence
I search for solace
in the forlorn beauty

A sickness rises within

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